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Summary: the reader attempts to commit suicide.
Word count: 2965.
Pairing(s): Peter Parker and F!Reader, Steve and Tony (ex-couple).
Warning(s): slight description of finding someone after they tried to commit suicide, mentions of suicide, depression, anxiety, loneliness. This is a heavy read. Please, do not read if triggered. Also, cursing.
Author’s Note: Hello, to everyone reading this! I am aware that this is Mental Health Awareness Week (I read it somewhere, don’t know if it’s true), so I thought I’d post this. I wrote this in a very low point in my life, since I myself struggle with depression, but I beg you: do not read if you feel you’ll be triggered. All of you out there: take you meds, take care of yourselves. Your life matters. To quote JVN: you’re a Kelly Clarkson song. You’ve got this. Now, to the imagine!
Based off of Hold On by Chord Overstreet.
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Wade: Oh god,I’m in too deep.
Peter: What?
Wade: N-Nothing! Let’s go,uh, slingshot stuff at squirrels, yeah! Or um, whatever it is normal children do! I was totally listening!
I would love to hear more opinions on this, but Deadpool Wolverine did come off as homophobic to me.
To clarify, it seems like Ryan Reynolds is an ally and I don't think any of it was malicious but there were some concerning trends.
For one, Deadpool has never, even in the comics, had a romantic relationship with a man. Only recently has he dated a nonbinary character, which is a good step, but he had been pan for a while with his attraction to men merely being a joke.
The other thing that bothered me was the amount of "woke mob" jokes, it got to the point where it was excessive and made me question the director/script writer's politics.
Thirdly, while this movie is being called a gay masterpiece by some (eye roll), the only gay rep were punchlines. The scene where Deadpool goes on and on about sexual positions with the TVA specifically seemed like the joke was emasculating men who bottom. Let's remember that this is written by straight men, not queer people in on a joke.
God I love Spideypool so much when Peter is also driven just a bit crazy
He's been a superhero since 15 and there is something broken within him that cannot be fixed, you can't go through hurt and heal like that and come out the other side unscathed. Maybe physically but never mentally. It just adds so much rich depth to his character, someone who goes out and almost dies time and time again for a city that hates him and people who will never meet him again. God it's so good, everyone talks about how Deadpool is the crazy one with his thought boxes and the pain of his body and the murder, but Peter *has* to be at least a little bit over the edge as well to keep doing what he does night after night. He only knows Spiderman, it's his entire teenage and adult life, he never had a chance to develop normally and whatever's left is an odd facsimile of genuine normalcy Do You Get It
my FAV trio yeees
also logan carrying peter HEEHEHE
quick spideypoolverine.
I felt the need to post this here, I wrote this in 2022 and posted it on Ao3, but I orphaned it because one of my friends found my account and I was like fuck this shit I'm out. But I wanted to reclaim it, so here it is on Tumbler for more of the world to see.
Collars
Wade Wilson/Peter Parker/Matt Murdock
Dom/Neutral/Sub au
Description: Matt is very tired today, but his boyfriends have a surprise for him.
Words: 1,929
Matt was in the office quietly working (barely staying awake) when he got a call from Wade. The phone hadn’t even said Wade’s name twice before he answered.
“Heeeyyyyy sweetheart, love of my life, cutest person I’ve ever seen,” in the background Matt could here a quiet hey, but the voice held no malice. “Don’t get offended peteypie, anyway my beautiful, adorable, pretty, fabulous, smart, incredible boyfriend. Honestly I could keep going if you like?”
“Please don’t Wade.” Matt said covering his face with the hand not holding the phone. “What did you want?” He asked softly, the exhaustion of the day setting back in. “Whaaaaaat can’t a guy just call his super duper amazing boyfriend.” Wade said in his over the top dramatic voice. Not to be confused with his everyday dramatic voice. “No he can’t unless said guy is 2 seconds away from walking through this door to come and scoop me up and take me home so I can sleep for the rest of the year and have cuddles.” Matt said, resting his head on his desk.
“Beautiful? What’s wrong? It’s only 2pm and you sound like you want to jump off a 20 story building and not in a daredevil kind of way.” Peters sweet voice came from the phone this time. “Sorry. Just… stupid clients, stupid job, stupid life just want to go home be with you both, want sleep, want cuddles…” Matt started to ramble about all the things he wanted at that moment. Peter and Wade both listened lovingly, knowing this was a big improvement, (even if it was mostly his sleep deprived mind speaking) since it was so hard to get Matt to tell them what he needed or wanted.
“Sorry I rambled. Anyway what did you want?” Matt said.
“Don’t be sorry, we love hearing your voice.” Peter said, and even though he couldn’t see Matt, he could tell that he was blushing. “We ACTUALLY wanted you to come home, because we have a present for you.” Wade chimed in with a sing song voice. This immediately perked Matt’s interest, not feeling quite as tired anymore.
“What’s the present?” Matt mumbled mainly to himself, forgetting for a second that his partners could still hear him. “You’ll just have ta come home and find out!!!” Wade chirped excitedly. “But we both fully understand that if your to tired we can just give it to you after a nap.” Peter added quickly. “‘m not to tired.” Matt reassured them both. “Well then you better hurry home sweetie pie.” Wade said happily. “ALSO… I baked cookies.” Wade paused for dramatic affect. “Ok, ok, I’ll be home soon. Love you both.” Matt said, and just before hanging up he could hear them both say I love you’s back, making Matt smile.
Matt sluggishly put everything away, grabbed his cane and walked out his office door. “Foggy?” Matt said, half expecting him not to answer with how quiet his voice was and with the sound of the obnoxiously loud printer printing in the corner. “Yeah Matty.” Foggy answered, as he came into the reception room and walked over to the printer. “I’m going home now Foggy, because Peter and Wade want me back home for a ‘present’ and ummm you know…” Matt didn’t finish the sentence always a bit embarrassed to admit it. “That you consider them as your dom’s even though they haven’t put a collar on you yet.” Foggy finished, Matt only nodded sheepishly.
“Go on, get out of here then. We don’t have anymore clients until tomorrow afternoon and I was thinking of closing soon anyway.” Foggy said collecting the papers that had just finished printing and practically shoved Matt out the door. “And don’t think about coming in until ten tomorrow, if you come any earlier I will not let you in.” Foggy stated. “Fine, fine. By Fogs.” Matt said. “By Matt.” Foggy replied.
The thing was that Foggy was in on the whole thing that Wade and Peter were about to do, because the 2 of them came in one day when Matt was out to ask for his blessing. Sure they didn’t have to tell Foggy anything, but they found it necessary to tell him, because of how close the two are. And definitely not because Peter and Wade were slightly scared of a protective Foggy. No not at all.
Matt slowly walked into the apartment, slightly nervous, a little exited, but mainly happy to be home. As soon as he chucked his keys and folded up cane on the bench, Matt felt a pair of arms wrap around him and was being picked up bridal style. “Welcome home beautiful.” A familiar voice spoke. It took Matt a bit to process it all because of how tired he was, but when he realised that he was in Peter’s arms Matt immediately melted and made himself a bit more comfortable. Matt mumbled a hello, and he could feel the smile on Peter’s face as he walked them to the couch. “Hello my devil baby!!!” Wade greeted from his position in one of the arm chairs. Matt greeted him back while Peter placed him on the couch.
“Ok my devil baby,” Wade said, while clapping his hands together, “Do you want your surprise now or after a cat nap?”
“So it’s a surprise now?” Matt questioned, groggily sitting up.
“Well it’s more of like a question or an offer umm maybe a proposal.” Peter chimed in slightly rambling, earning a raised eyebrow from Matt giving him a bit of a confused puppy look. “Well, what is it?” Most of his tiredness has left his body now replace by curiousness. Peter and Wade shared a look, before Wade picked up a smallish bag from beside the chair he was sitting in. Wade got up from the arm chair and walked the short distance to where Matt was and placed the bag in his hands. Wade kissed Matt’s temple and quietly said, “I hope you accept.” Before going back to his seat. Matt was genuinely confused at this point, Wade was being quiet and gentle, and usually the only times he is both of those things at the same time is during aftercare, or if Peter or Matt got a very serious injury.
Matt cautiously opened the bag and carefully picked up the item. It took Matt a second to figure out what it was, but as soon as his fingers ran over the clip, his jaw dropped in shock. Peter and Wade looked at him hopefully as Matt realised that what he was holding was in fact a collar. Before saying anything Matt inspected it some more, he ran his hand along the sturdy yet soft fabric, his hand went over some very familiar bumps and did a double take. Braille. Matt immediately started to smile making the other two light up. There were two words written in braille one on either side of the collar on the left was ‘Wade’s’ and on the right was ‘Peter’s’.
“Yes.” Was the only word that came out of his mouth before Matt was getting squashed by Wade in a very awkwardly angled but lovingly crushing hug. “See my baby boy!! I knew our devil baby would say yessssss!!!” Wade said excitedly, nuzzling his nose into the nook of Matt’s neck. “Wade… can’t… breathe…” Matt said patting Wade’s arm, said mercenary scrambled off of him immediately. “Look what you did Wade, your going to kill him before he can even put the collar on.” Peter said shaking his head moving to sit on the other side of Matt.
“Would you like me to describe it to you.” Peter said softly, wrapping his arms around Matt and holding his hands. Wade placed his head in Matt’s lap as he nodded and leaned back into Peter.
“Well you already know it has braille on it because we really wanted for it to be yours.” Peter began in that soft voice that could always make Matt melt. “You can thank me for that because it was my idea, I also know a guy who know a guy who knows a guy that runs an amazing collar shop where you can get stuff like braille imprinted on the collar because most collar shops don’t do that.” Wade butted in. “Yes thank you Wade.”
“What else?” Matt asked sweetly. “Well the fabric is all red and the red is dark enough that it will go with your suit.” Peter said as he guided Matt’s hand across the material. “Yes yes yes yes. We also quadruple checked that the material wouldn’t suffocate or make you itchy in anyway shape or form.” Wade stated sounding very proud of that fact. Matt just couldn’t believe this, they went to so much trouble just for him, but it also made him think that they wanted something in return.
It must have shown on his face since seconds later Wade’s sitting up turning towards Matt and cupping his face gently. “Hey cupcake what’s wrong? Is this to much to soon? We can take a step back if it’s not what you want right now, we aren’t gonna judge if that’s the case.” Wade worriedly spoke. Out of him and Peter, Wade was definitely the most worried about this. “No it’s not that it’s just, you don’t want anything out of this from me?”
“What!? No. Matt we are doing this because we love you. We would never force you to do something you weren’t comfortable with.” Peter soothed him. Peter and Wade both new that this was coming from the trauma Electra caused, she did quite a few numbers on him. She is the reason Matt has collar scars on his neck the reason he needs constant reassurance in a relationship the reason he is terrified of asking anything from his lover/s.
The entire time Peter spoke Matt listened to his heartbeat and it only told him that Peter was telling the truth. Matt snuggled back down and asked Peter to continue. Peter and Wade shared another look but they both dropped the matter for the time being. Peter moved Matt’s left hand to the left clip. “This clip is black with two katanas on it in an x for Wade.” Peter then moved Matt’s right hand to the right clip. “And then the right clip is blue with a spider on it for me. And that’s it.”
Matt felt like crying, he was so happy. He also hadn’t failed to notice that Peter had subtly set his hands in a way that he could put the collar on. He carefully raised his hands making Peter let go, and gently clipped the collar around his neck. It felt nice, really soft, he felt reassured. Matt had a feeling he would get into a habit of running his fingers over the braille. But he didn’t get much more time to think before Wade started to pepper him with kisses making Matt giggle.
“Ok you two, remember Wade, Matt badly needs to go to sleep.” Wade and Matt both looked sad that Matt had to go to sleep, but since being reminded, Matt felt like he could quite literally pass out. Wade picked Matt up and took him to their bed. Matt sighed as soon as he was placed on the bed and snuggled close to Wade. Peter soon joined them pulling the blankets over them and then wrapping his arms around Matt’s waist. Matt was almost asleep when he realised something.
“What about the cookies??”
https://archiveofourown.org/works/40523433
A link to the ao3 work
Chapter 9 of my spideypool fic grief and guillotines is out!
If you’re new to the fic, here’s what you can expect!
Childish banter, begrudging friends to lovers, idiots to lovers, heavy angst/hurt comfort, a deep dive into grief, death, and the effects it has on our relationships, and gay people!
Feel free to give it a shot!
Grief and Guillotines chapter 8 is out!!
Just saw Deadpool, and nothing he did surprised me! I know that man better than I know myself god damn it!
While I've been busy with artfight, I've still been writing Grief and Guillotines, and you can expect a regular upload on Monday! Heres a blurb from the upcoming chapter!
When Aunt May dies, it’s the final nail in the coffin of Peter’s decaying mental health. Then comes Deadpool, clothed in leather, smelling of gun smoke, and a voice like honey that whispers everything’s gonna be okay. Will Peter be able to resist the very man he’s supposed to hate?
Chapter one of my slow burn spideypool fic!
The man he’s holding by the shirt slumps to the ground as his grip unfolds. His knuckles ache, but his heart still itches for another fight.
Sensing his intentions, Wade clears his throat. “Not here for a fight! Though I’d totally love to see you kick my ass, several times, with your hand-“
“Shut up.”
“Yep! Lips are sealed.” He mimes the motion of zipping up his mouth, then shudders as if the very thought would drive him mad.
“What do you want with me?”
He takes to the streets, clothed in darkness and itching for a fight, and Peter finds it. Again, and again, and again. He’s quiet this time, his voice too hoarse from tears to speak, too enraged to do anything other than scream. So the only sounds that fill the warehouses are the dull pangs of fists and blood splatters. Knuckles hitting flesh, and screams echoing off of stained walls.
One day, when the nights calm, Peter will be disgusted by the monster who stalked the streets, for once his knuckles red from another man’s ichor. Today, he feels righteous.
OR
When Spider-Man loses it all, will a deal with Deadpool save them both?
Everyone bow your heads and thank Marvel for providing us with this meal
I so badly want a fanfic of deadpool and spider-cat
(I can't find the original, so of anyone can credit this, I'll reblog with the credits)
This has probably been done before, so I'm sorry if it has. I wouldn't intentionally copy someone 😭
We moved on WAY too fvking quickly from this…
Enjoy this photo of Hugh Jackman "helping" remove Ryan Reynolds' deadpool mask. You're welcome.
I ship Spideypool but I just came back from cinema after seeing Deadpool & Wolverine and damn, I get Deadpool x Wolverine tag.
I really do.
the way Logan is so confused as to what’s going on 😭 he’s just so scrunkly
cropped it so no spoilers