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scared and alone (5/12)

Info: A week since the event, Y/n faces a new day and heads to where the boys are training for the day. Silva talks to her about telling the boys as she watches them train while she still struggles with feeling happier. Tensions occur within the three friends as Stella and Beatrix start to get in-between their friendship leading to a slip up on y/ns end.

Relationship: Sky x Riven x Reader (Platonic)

Warnings: Loss of parents, mentions of death, harmful acts

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Y/n groaned and slowly sat up, moving her hair over her shoulder as she looked out the window. The bright light shone through as she swung her legs over the bed to sit on the side of it. Looking to her bedside table she took a small glass vile, the conversation she had with the teachers clear in her mind.

*Flashback*

Y/n's eyes slowly opened and she blinked rapidly at the bright light. Hearing noises around her she turned to see Riven and Sky in the greenhouse. Her smile quickly left as she seen them leaving saying "Beatrix/Stella needs me."

Looking around the room she seen Silva with a look of disappointment and Dowling and Harvey with the backs turned towards her. She coughed as she tried to speak causing the teachers to turn towards her. Harvey came towards her with a glass and helped her drink the water before moving towards his office.

"How are you feeling?" Dowling asked, smiling gently at the young fairy. "Like I've been hit by a mental barrier." Y/n groaned causing the fairy and specialist to chuckle at her. "That will leave eventually, don't worry." Dowling smiled gently. "I can't keep loosing control, I could seriously hurt someone." Y/n stated, sitting up more and looking at both teachers. "Which is why I have came up with an angent which should help you with controlling your magic. It is only an aid, which means that you also have to work on it yourself." Harvey stated, walking towards the group with a small box containing small vials. "How does it work?" Y/n asked, looking at the vials n confusion. "It will slightly decrease your feelings and magic binding. Meaning that it will decrease your loss of control with negative emotions. When it starts becoming easy for you we will then decrease the strength." "We are here for anything you should need." Dowling stated with a nod of her head. "Should I take one now?" "no, every morning, preferably same time." Harvey stated. "Okay, can I go now?" "I'll walk you back." Silva stated, seeing Harvey nod.

Y/n stood up and waited a second to gain stability before moving towards the door. Silva watched carefully as she picked up her bag and headed out the door. The two walked in silence as they walked the halls. Reaching the door to her suite, Silva turned and faced her before she could open the door.

"I'm sorry for the way Riven and Sky have been towards you. I am especially disappointed in the way Sky acted when you needed him most." He stated causing y/n to sigh. "It's okay, it's just the way it is now. They have their own lives away from me, they don't need to spend every minute with me." She stated, smiling slightly. "I don't think I remember the last time I've seen them with you. Last year I used to catch you in their rooms after hours, now, I don't see you even attempting to go to their room." Silva stated, giving her a concerned look. "They are busy with their girl friends or whatever it is their calling them, that's okay. I'm not going to stop them having other relationships." "Y/n.........." "Really Silva, it's fine." She stated interrupting him, " I better go, it's getting late. Goodnight headmaster Silva." She stated as the door opened. "Goodnight Y/n, I'm glad that you are okay." Silva stated, nodding at the girls who were looking from inside the room before leaving, hearing the girls fuss over y/n.

*Flashback end*

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"What's that?" Y/n snapped her head to the door to see Terra standing there, looking at the vial in her hand. "Oh it's to help me with my umm, magic." Y/n replied reluctantly, looking at the vial before downing it in one go.

"Oh, does little y/n not have her magic under control. Aww." Stella mocked, causing y/n to roll her eyes as she came into view. "Shut up Stella. Your not doing much better from what I remember." Terra stated, looking at Stella. "Stay out of it Terra." Stella stated before looking at y/n with a smirk, "Y/n here lost control and almost injured a teacher, I don't see that as control. I mean how are you even meant to protect others if you can't protect yourself."

Y/n stormed to the door and slammed the door in Terra and Stellas face. Locking the door she turned to see a picture of her and her parents, smiling as they posed in front of an igloo they made last Christmas. Tears built up in y/ns eyes as she slid down the door. Pulling on her hair, she ignored the knocks on the door as she tried to control her breathing.

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Fixing her hair, y/n took a deep breath before opening her bedroom door. No one was there so she didn't have to worry about Stella annoying her. Grabbing her keys and phone she left the dorm and headed towards the training area.

Looking around as she passed training mats she seen Riven and Sky training together. Smiling slightly she watched as Silva went to them. She raised her eyebrows as Riven managed to floor Sky before walking towards a bench to sit down.

"You shouldn't be here." "I think it's a bit late to be telling me that when I've been coming here since last year. "Y/n stated sarcastically as Silva came to her. "How are you?" She asked in concern. "As good as I can be." Silva smiled gently, sitting beside her on the bench. "They will find it Silva, some of the best specialists are out there." y/n tried to comfort her friends father figure. Silva nodded and looked at the two boys. "Have you told them yet?" "No I haven't had the time." She looked down at her hands. "They can help you Y/n. You know you need the support of friends." Silva stated, looking y/n in the eyes. "They wouldn't understand." The young fairy stated as she watched Riven and Sky sitting on the bench with Stella. "They would if you talk to them. They will help you y/n. Your just causing yourself harm." "I get your trying to help me Silva but please, leave it. They have their own lives anyway." Y/n stated before the boys came up to her.

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Boys POV:

"What do you think that's about?" Sky asked Riven as he got back onto the bench he had just been pushed off. "I dunno, but I'm worried about her." Riven stated as the two watched their friend and teacher talking across from them. "We haven't seen much of her this year." Sky stated. "Yeah well you've been the princess herself and I've been with Beatrix. Not that it's a good enough excuse." Riven stated, muttering at the end. "She wanted to tell us something at the start of the year, but she never did. I think something happened over Summer break that she hasn't told us." Sky observed, his eyes not leaving y/n. "If it was really important I'm sure she would of said it by now." Riven pointed a finger to y/n while looking at Sky. "Yeah maybe." Sky muttered. "Come on, let's go to her. I dunno about you but I find it concerning that she's talking to Silva." Riven stated, hitting Sky gently on the chest before getting up and walking towards his trainer and friend.

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Usual POV:

"Hey." Y/n spoke, looking up at the blonde and brunette as they stopped in front of her. "I'll leave you guys to it. Think about what I said." Silva said before speaking to y/n at the end. "Riven, Sky." he nodded his head at the two. "Silva." he nodded back before Silva left. "Bye." Yn smiled weakly before Sky and Riven sat beside her.

"Everything okay?" Riven asked, looking at y/n with concern. "Yeah, everything is fine. How are you two?" She asked, looking side to side at the two of them. "Good, yeah, we're good. What was that with Silva?" Sky asked, pointing at the direction his father figure left. "Just talking while waiting for you two is all. Nothing serious." She half lied, looking at Sky as she shook her head. "Are you sure? Because you know we are here for you?" Sky stated.

Y/n looked at Silva who stood in the distance watching two first years fighting. Feeling her gaze he turned in her direction and he nodded in encouragement. Taking a breath she went to speak.

"Actually.............." "Sky, there you are. I need your help." Stella stated, walking to the view of the three. "Stella can it wait? I'm kinda busy." Sky stated, pointing at y/n who looked down. "It's kinda important." Stella stated, glaring slightly at y/n causing her to look down at her lap. "Right okay. I'll, uhh, talk to you later yeah?" Sky asked, looking at y/n who nodded, "Right, bye." He said awkwardly before leaving with Stella.

"I better go too.................." Let me guess, Beatrix needs you." Y/n snapped, looking at Riven who had a shocked face. "Uhh, yeah, are you okay?" riven asked, shocked at her outburst. "Yeah I'm fine. Sorry I don't know what happened there, Stress I'm guessing. That's fine. Have fun." Y/n fake smiled before Riven left, looking back at her before he was out of sight.

Silva watched as Sky walked away from Y/n with Stella and shortly after Riven. Y/n stood up and looked at Silva and shrugged her shoulders causing Silva to sigh and shake his head in disappointment. She smiled weakly before leaving back to the school building, Silva watching her with caution.

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"Hey guys." Y/n sighed as she sat at a lunch table with Bloom and Musa. "Hey." bloom sighed, before returning to her conversation with Musa. "It's just strange not seeing Aisha get something right." She stated. "Agreed. Not sure why that makes you obnoxiously guilty though." Musa said with a smirk. "I know you have to feel everyone's emotions but you don't have to broadcast them." "Aisha's probably just tired." Y/n stated, taking a bite out of her sandwich. "Yeah. My parents think Alfa's in Switzerland so they skype me at 9am Switzerland time every mornig." "It's 2am our time. Yes, we can all hear you." Musa interrupted Bloom with a slight smile. "Am I being loud? I'm trying to be quiet." "Like an old lady unwrapping sweets in the cinema." Musa teased her. "I personally can't hear you. Which is lucky for you because I can be a nightmare if woken up." Y/n stated in a monotone voice causing Bloom to look at her before turning to Musa who was looking in the distance. "Hey, where'd you go?" Y/n asked, snapping Musa out of her trance. "Is it my turn to broadcast your emotions." Bloom teased. "They're developing, plus there's complications." Musa stated causing y/n to laugh lightly as Terra came down to their table.

Y/n zoned out of the conversation as she watched Riven with Beatrix. The two walked through the hall before she lost sight of them. Sighing, she jumped out of her trance when Bloom and Terra left, realizing that Musa had also left. Getting up, she grabbed her tray and put the rubbish in the bin and walked out, passing Stella and Sky on her way.

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Y/n lay on her bed and stared at the ceiling, feeling numb. Thinking of her life and the burned ones, a tear drifted down her cheek. Quickly she wiped the tears away before looking up to the sound of Terra shouting out. Checking her appearance in her phone she quickly got out and headed into the bathroom to see Aisha and Bloom helping Terra with makeup. She looked behind her to see Musa behind her.

"Well, this is weird." "Get dressed. We have to go. We're gonna go to the party. We're gonna show everybody that we're cool and and fun and..........." "Hot?" Musa asked, interrupting Terras rant. "I'm okay here, parties aren't my thing." Y/n stated, going to leave the bathroom. "Y/n please. You have to." Terra begged, looking at the older fairy. "Terra I really don't think I should......" Y/n stated only to be dragged to the seat by Bloom to get makeup done.

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Y/n walked through the crowd in discomfort as Terra dragged her to a table. Sitting on a chair she looked around, ignoring the conversation Sam and Terra were having. She gasped and jumped as she felt an arm wrap around her shoulder.

"Y/n, you came." Riven said excitedly causing y/n to roll her eyes. "Seriously Riven, drinking already." She stated, unamused. "Lighten up y/n. Have a drink. Relax." "I don't drink Riven, you know I don't." Y/n stated causing Riven to sigh disappointedly. "Well come meet my friends. You'll like them, I promise." He stated, getting her out of her chair and walking to the far end of the wing, not moving his arm from her shoulders.

Y/n looked around in discomfort as the crowds seemed to be closer to her. She didn't want to be here, a party was the last thing she needed. She pushed her thoughts away when Riven sat down and pulled her onto his lap.

"Guys meet y/n. Y/n meet Beatrix and Dane. They're both first years but are like me." "Druggies and alcohol drinkers despite their age." Y/n stated a little harshly. "Always sarcastic." Riven joked to the two, squeezing y/n into a little hug. "Hi, it's nice to meet you." Beatrix stated with a fake smile which y/n could see through. "Likewise." Y/n muttered. "I'm going to get another drink. Get to know each other." Riven stated, moving y/n to the side before leaving. "I'll get one too." Dane stated before leaving the two girls alone.

"So how long have ou known Riven?" Beatrix asked with a fake smile. "Since last year." Y/n stated, scratching the back of her head before looking away. "He's better without you." Beatrix stated bluntly. "Excuse me?" Y/n asked in confusion. "I don't know much but I do know that your pretty messed up in the head. Look at you, is anyone really safe around you. I mean you lost control in class and luckily a teacher was there, what happens if you hurt Riven, or Sky."

Y/n looked down and blinked rapidly to avoid the tears falling down. She looked in the direction of Riven to see him laughing and joking with Dane at the bar. She turned to leave the booth when a hand grabbed her shoulder.

"Sky and I are playing Beer pong. Come on, Aishas waiting and Sky is getting Riven." Bloom stated, holding her arm gently.

Y/n looked back to Beatrix and seen her smiling, giving a fake wave. Y/n looked ahead in confusion before putting on a smile as she and Bloom reached the table. Riven and Sky were waiting as well as Aisha.

Y/n opted to stand back and just watch the four play as she wasn't in the mood to be drinking. Watching the four plaing her thoughts swirled around her head on what Beatrix had said. Could she hurt her friends? She almost hurt Dowling, Silva and Harvey, so it was a possibility.

"I'm not feeling great. I'm going to go." Y/n stated suddenly causing Riven and Sky to look at her in confusion. "Do you want one of us to go with you?" Sky asked. "No, it's okay. You enjoy the party I just have to go." Y/n stated, already moving away from the group.

Sky and Riven watched her go with concern on her face before gasping as a cold liquid splashed all over them.

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Y/n lay in bed with darkness surrounding her. Sighing she switched on the light and lay on her side. Staring ahead of her she freezes as she sees a picture of her parents smiling in front of her. In a rush of anger she grabbed it and slammed it face down. Realizing what she had done she picked it up only to see the glass smashed in pieces. Seeing the picture ruined she just let the tears she had been holding back all day fall down.

!!!!!!!!!!Trigger Warning!!!!!!!!

Through her tears she seen a shard of glass on her counter table. Wiping away the tears she picked up the piece of glass and looked at it. Taking a deep breath she looked ahead at the wall.

As if on autopilot she rolled up her sleeves and pressed the glass onto her wrist. Not even realizing what she was doing she just cu her arm 5 times. 1 for allowing her parents to die, 1 for allowing herself to loose control of her magic, another for feeling so weak and 2 just to feel something other then numbness. She gasped as she seen the damage she had done to her arm.

"No, no no no no." She muttered repeatedly, realizing what she had done.

Standing up she opened her bedside locker drawer and shoved the shard of glass into it. Wrapping her arm around her wrist she looked around, listening for a sound. Hearing none she quickly got up and rushed into the shared bathroom.

Removing her hand from her wrist she looked at the blood that coated her hand and dripped from her wrist. She closed her eyes as memories of her parents lying dead on the ground surrounded by blood came to mind.

Blinking the thoughts away she turned on the tap and washed the blood away. Not feeling anything she wiped the cuts dry before wrapping some gauze she found around it.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Trigger ending!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Leaving the bathroom y/n rushed into her bed. Turning off the light she stared blankly ahead of her, realizing what she had done. Putting a hand over her mouth she allowed the tears to fall once more, crying herself to sleep.