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You’re a Queen When No One is Watching-

Why is it, in the late darkness of night,

When beasts roam my bedroom floor and monsters reach out from beneath my bed,

When everyone sleeps, but for the wild imagination lurking behind my eyes,

When I’m at my loneliest and most vulnerable,

My most wild, euphoric, depressed, inspired and wisest self,

That I am at my most beautiful?

When I decide I will no longer attempt to succumb to sleep’s blissful embrace,

When I enter a room with Alice’s looking glass,

And see the circles beneath my eyes, the gentle curve of my lips, and sharp lines of my once full face,

Why do I look like a goddess of war, the judge of your soul beyond death, the unstoppable, raging force of a true queen...

Why does the real me choose to show herself when there is no one there to see the rawness of being a real human being...

When no one is there to love the part of you that you love yourself.

The you you hide,

To save that last little bit of light from the darkness of others...

I don’t know if I’m mentally sick.

I just know that I’m really done with my emotional bullshit.

Another thing I hate:

When you fuck up and people try to tell you didn’t.

Because I very obviously fucked up.

Like BIG TIME fucked up.

In front of 30+ people.

And they still have the audacity to tell you “you didn’t do bad” or “no one could tell”.

I just want someone to look me in the eye and say “yea, you fucked up. That was absolute shit. But you’re gonna kill it next time. So when you’re done crying, let’s go get waffle cones.”

I just really need some honest, passive aggressive support.

I hate when no one is around to appreciate that I not only look like a goddess, I feel like one too.

I really hate sitting alone, amongst the hordes of gremlins and zombies, schreeching as the greatest of monsters duel it out before us. I hate trying to blend in and pretend I’m one of them, when I really just want to hide under my covers like the kid I am.

I hate school pep rallys.

months ago, while mindlessly scrolling through twitter, i came across an analysis of this particular panel from chapter 434 (i can’t remember who wrote the thread, i’m so sorry </3), and i really want to talk about it too.

(EDIT: original author of the thread is @goingbuggy!!! go check out their metas, they're amazing)

the thread was focusing on the way the speech bubble covers shanks's scar completely, and how it can be seen as a sign of vulnerability. oda is using shanks’s own words to hide his suffering, letting his physical scars be representative of his emotional ones, even though the event he’s talking about is completely unrelated to the way he got his scar.

in fact, we know shanks is not ashamed of the scar, since just a couple of pages after this one he mentions it directly as a way to start the conversation about blackbeard:

he doesn’t have a problem with the marking itself, it’s just used as a narrative device, a tool to highlight (in an extradiegetic way) his emotional wounds and the pain he always tries so hard to hide, in an effort to keep his usual composure.

the original author of the thread compared the panel from chapter 434 to another, way older one, from the very first chapter:

this takes place right after shanks loses his left arm to save luffy’s life. it’s obviously a very emotionally charged moment, which means the best thing to do would be showing a close-up of shanks’s reaction to everything that’s unfolding in front of him at that moment (luffy’s cries, or even his own reaction to his sacrifice). oda, however, chooses not to do that; instead, he hides half of shanks’s face, just like he did in chapter 434. the way the moment is portrayed tells the reader shanks is willing to hide his pain in an even deeper way than what he’s showing by smiling at luffy right after getting his arm chopped off.

it’s a great way to explain an important characteristic without stating it right away. it's a focal point of shanks's character: it's his way of showing luffy he cares about him and would much rather hide his suffering than pass it onto him, but it's also oda's way of conveying that shanks is much more vulnerable than what he allows himself to show.

having said that, the reason oda chose to bring back this framing in chapter 434 appears obvious: shanks misses buggy.

it’s plain to see, especially if we look at the whole page.

shanks tries so hard to act collected when talking about buggy, but it’s obvious that he’s hurting. his wording makes it clear he’s trying to detach from him (“that’s the end of it” + “rumors have it”); he acts like buggy doesn’t exist in his thoughts anymore, when it’s obvious he still does. he feels remorse, he regrets letting buggy go. he’s scared he might have been in the wrong. he knows he hurt buggy, but he desperately wishes he didn’t.

all of this weighs on him in a way he isn’t used to, so he locks these feelings up, thinking of them only in relation to something that happened in the past, and as so, stays in the past. he smiles while talking about him and buggy, but it’s a remorseful smile. he cuts the conversation short even though he vividly remembers what happened between them, and as he does so, his words hide the scar. he desperately tries to patch things up in his mind by exclusively clinging onto the good memories they share, but the remorse always creeps up on him. he always smiles when talking about buggy, even when he’s talking directly to him. but his smile always ends up looking sour.

this is exactly why i hate it when people say shanks doesn’t care about buggy. oda wouldn’t have given these panels so much depth if he didn’t want to show just how much shanks actually cares. even just the fact the panel we are focusing on directly mirrors a panel from the first chapter, one so important and impactful, should tell you everything you need to know.

buggy will always be shanks’s weakness. caring so much about someone when you’re a pirate of that caliber is difficult in itself, even more so when that someone is so far away from you now.

Summer fun!!

i hope im not disturbing anyone with notifications

Wasn't able to finish the poster in time for the Undertale Yellow anniversary. So have some art and a sneak peak instead :3

SLIGHT SPOILERS FOR THE NEXT COMIC STRIP

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I just wanted to make sure if you didn’t want spoilers you could like scroll away or something, sorry gang I’m an instagram girlie

I JUST WANTED TO ASSURE YOU GUYS I AM WORKING ON IT o7

So here is a frame of our favourite lil fellas; CLAY AND BRANCCHHHHH!

I censored the dialogue after I took the screenshot so sorry if you notice if it looks weird hehe

Also sorry I say sorry so much HEHEH it’s hot wired into me

THE TECHNICALLY PART TWO OF THE COMIC THING HAS ARRIVED MY FRIENDS!!!!!

Sorry if it sucks I spent quite a bit on this but I don’t know if I got their characters down BUT you can let me know!

link to part one? possibly? (idk if that worked LMAO) NEXT PART!!

vvv CAPTIONS BELOW vvv

Past JD: mmmmm Clay: ARE YOU OKAY- WHO ARE YOU??- WHAT WAS THAT Branch: WHERE DID YOU COME FROM Floyd: wha.. I.. how?? Past JD [internally]: mmm what happened- WHAT [behind JD are the words; voice?, VOICES, voice = living thing??, voice = troll, TROLL??, TROLL = ALIVE???] Past JD: TROLLS?? P. Rhonda: COO!? Past JD: HAHAHAHAHA!! AAHAHA HAA haa AAGH

Past JD: I DONT LIKE THIS [behind JD are the words; please, stop, wake up, come on Dory, I don't like this dream and get up (some used more than once)] P. Rhonda: mrrr Branch: FLOYD- (the word flick is next to JD's ear as he flicks his ear) Past JD [internally]: ... Floyd..? Floyd: Hey.. sorry for overwhelming you, [you must be so confused] I promise were real very real... you need a hand? Branch [blurred text]: FLOYD we don't know if this troll has RABIES or something like that... Clay [blurred text]: Or a weapon- Branch [blurred text]: OR A WEAPON Past JD [internally]: WHAT... Flash back Floyd: HEY JOHNNY, want to go to the market with me and Spruce? underneath that image is just the name Floyd over and over again Past JD: WAAH Branch: eugh..

Past JD: FLOYD :( Floyd: oh hello- how do they know my name? Branch: Oh My Troll Branch: WHA- Past JD: sniff sniff Floyd: hey... pal, it's going to be uh- it'll be ok Clay: how did you even get here? why did they react so greatly to FLOYD? this troll looks familiar but I can't put my finger on it.. what was that THING that spit them out? Branch: Bruh Rhonda: RUMBLE (well she made the sound she didnt say it but you get the point hopefully) John Dory: WHATS UP SQUAD John Dory: YOUR BIG "BRO"THER HAS ARRIVED- ... Past JD: sniff "turn" next to Floyds head (to show that he turned his head to the sound) Clay: oh! hi Branch: I dont trust like that (if you know what im referencing LETS GO \o/) John Dory: Huh.. END tbc? (to be continued?)

JOHN DORY AU CHAT

OK OK OK so i have some ideas on what to do with the comic/au thing so get ready for your socks to be blown off and put right back on! If anyone has any ideas on what i should call this au please help me HEHEHE i only have the name "a blast from the past" but thats really long man.. ANYWAYS the next part of the au thing will PROBABLY just be a comic instead of a video so, stay tuned ;]

cool guy signing off B)

*eats your art and scurries away*

MAN DOWN!! I REPEAT MAN DOWNN!!

GRGRGRGGR

So im trying to think of things to doodle so feel free to tell me what to draw! Sorry if im not great at tumblr (tumbling? like im in a dryer???), I didn't use it often before the whole trolls thing EJHEHEHEH IM STILL LEARNING THE ROPES HERE!! I will get better soon i promise DX>

Just in a silly goofy mood HEHHEHEHE

This is based off that one Brozone poster where Bruce is biting is lip WAYYYY to hard and John Dory is doing the Josh Hutcherson pose ;Dc

I did get a tad lazy so no writing but hey! I THINK IT TURNED OUT PRETTY GOOD

I made a troll oc… he’s a putt putt troll <3

A cutie pie if I say so

Slimccle

The sheriff :O

WOOOOOOOOO