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Serial Designation J, what the heckkk??

(Spoilers for episode seven and eight of Murder Drones!!!!!!!!!)

Serial Designation J from Murder Drones is a pretty complicated character. If you want to understand why she teamed up with Cyn in episode eight, you need to use lots of brain power to read into certain lines. But anyway, this is my super-awesome explanation as to why J teamed up with Cyn!!

J's relationship with Tessa is apparently clear in episode five. You can easily see that the two are very close, and even are best friends. "There's humans coming, and I've only ever yakked to robots, J!" (Episode: Home) In episode five, there is also a scene that shows how much they care about one another: Tessa and J clinked their glasses, and Tessa who was reminded of the noise of chains locking her up, rubbed her own wrist and winced in pain. J looked at her with concern and sadness, so Tessa assured her that she was alright.

As we can see just from these two examples, J and Tessa definitely care for each other quite a bit. As we know, Cyn killed Tessa and wore her skin. It could easily be assumed that anything Cyn would do has a purpose and would benefit her in some way, but this just doesn't make sense, as it doesn't do her any favors. With this thought process, it's obvious to come to the conclusion that she didn't have a reason; she just wanted to because she's sadistic, and she particularly wanted to disturb J, specifically (yes, I know that sentence is redundant). Because J was so close to Tessa, and likely was forced to watch Tessa die at the hands of Cyn, she was very disconcerted by Cyn wearing Tessa's skin and even mimicking her voice, so it was easy for Cyn to manipulate her. "If I promise you anything, it tricked me, too." (Episode: The Absolute End)

If you were to ask yourself what you would do in J's situation, I'm sure that you would want to think logically. What do you do if somebody who you've never liked in the first place kills your best friend, wore their skin, mimicked their voice, and tried to act like them? On top of that, this person is super powerful and would be nearly impossible to defeat. Now, they are telling you that they won't hurt you if you do something for them. Anybody would take the deal at this point, so that's what J did. In an already distressed state, J realized that there was basically no way that Cyn would ever lose, so theoretically, it would be the safest option to do what she wants. "I promise, it's better on the winning team as a team." (Episode: The Absolute End)

After J had teamed up with Cyn, she also got V in on it, too. "You said we do our jobs, and that thing leaves us alone!" (Episode: The Absolute End) Both J and V kept the secret from N, and this is implied to be part of their deal with Cyn. This is particularly shown in episode eight after V tries to tell N about how the "Tessa" that they know is actually Cyn, and then Cyn says to her, "Do your job, and I leave you and N alone. Right, V?" (Episode: The Absolute End). Since we know that J and V both had made a deal with Cyn, we can infer that they had always known since the beginning, and have been being manipulated by Cyn in real time during the time of the show. Of course the way that V was manipulated by Cyn is heartbreaking as well (and I will make a post about her in the future 😉), the way that J was manipulated is horrifying. You may have seen memes online about J being William Afton from FNAF, because every time we think she dies she tends to come back eventually. But the truth is that it was very intentional of Cyn to make J basically immortal, because in that case J would never be capable of rebelling against her. If she rebelled, Cyn could torture her and or simply kill her and bring her back with all the memories. J couldn't take her own life because Cyn would bring her back. Because J thought that There was no way to beat Cyn, she figured that getting on her good side was the safest often. She just thought that there was literally no way that she could go against Cyn without being tortured forever.

"You know there's no escape, even in death!" (Episode: The Absolute End)

(This is just a theory of mine, but I find it likely that the reason that J would call Cyn "Boss" just like she called Tessa "Boss", is so she could try to familiarize Cyn and make her seem more like Tessa in order to make the situation feel better. But that's JUST A THEORY-- A GAAMMMMEE THEORY)

This is just a small analysis on how Himiko Toga’s emotions influence the usage of her quirk throughout the show:

(Major spoiler warning for My Hero Academia!!!)

Himiko Toga has always loved a lot, and because of her quirk, Transform, she would express her love by drinking blood. When she drank a dying sparrow’s blood and happily showed her parents, they pressured her into suppressing her quirk, and by extension, her love, “I fall in love too easily. With animals, with villains, heroes too, boys, girls, anything alive. Because they all have such lovely blood flowing through them.” (Episode: A Girl’s Ego).

Since she wasn’t going to drink blood to show her love anymore, she started envying others, instead. She envied their quirk, their smile, their relationships, and more, “Everyone told me I shouldn’t smile, and it made me so envious” (Episode: A Girl’s Ego). A prominent example of her envy is with Izuku Midoria. She is constantly asking for his blood, and saying that it’s because she utterly and truly loves him. While this is true, she is intentionally ignoring the reason why she loves him so much, that being how she would rather be him than be herself.

The one character that she loves purely at this point in the show is Twice. But when Twice gets killed by Hawks, she ends up switching from using her powers because of envy, to using her powers because of hatred. She does so by turning into Twice and making clones of herself in order to get revenge on Hawks, along with other heroes. “Die, heroes!” (Episode: A Girl’s Ego).

Himiko Toga has now gone through three stages. Love, envy, and hatred in that order exactly. In the episode A Girl’s Ego, Ochako Uraraka manages to get Toga from hatred back to her final and first stage, love. Ochako Uraraka is the one who ends up fighting Himiko Toga, but instead of harming her, she just tries to talk. This doesn’t work, however, because Himiko Toga is way too blinded by hatred to cooperate, “I’ll make you stop talking, Ochako Uraraka!” (Episode: A Girl’s Ego). Eventually, Uraraka manages to get Toga to go back to Envy, “You seem normal because you played by the rules! You have no idea what an easy life you had!” (Episode: A Girl’s Ego). Now that Toga had went back to the stage of envy, it was easier for Uraraka to get her back to the stage of love. “Ochako, am I cute?” “The cutest in the world” (Episode: A Girl’s Ego).

Himiko Toga never stopped loving. All she needed was understanding, and that was enough to clearly see how she drank blood out of malice. It was always pure love and affection. Now that she had someone who loved her for who she was, she decided to save Ochako’s life at the expense of her own. “Thank you, Ochako. You made me so happy. Genuinely, truly happy” (Episode: A Battle Without a Quirk). In this heartbreaking scene, Himiko is shown, alive, holding a sparrow that looks exactly like the one she had drank the blood from in her past. But this one looks up at her and flies away as Himiko smiles at it. Though it’s true that she had started and ended her life loving how she wanted to, the first sparrow was dead, symbolic of how back then, Toga only knew how to take. But now that she had met Uraraka, the sparrow was alive because she knew a way to love that now benefits everybody.

“If only I had understood then. If I’d had experienced this kind of love before, maybe I would have wanted to give people blood just as much as I wanted to drink their’s. And then maybe the world would have been an easier place for me to live in.”