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Aoyama x Aizawa Playlist

Was not going to make this bc cringe but than I remembered that I am free. Added little bits about what I think about the songs in context of them at the bottom so if you just wanna see the songs don't click see more^^

1. Everyone Adores You (at least I do) by Matt Maltese

2. Recently, by Liana Flores

3. A Big Brown Dog Named Bagel by Nep

4. Fool by Frankie

5. We'll Never Have Sex by Leith Ross

6. La Vie En Rose by Daniela Andrade

7. Baby C'est Vous by Sylvia Vartan

8. If You Want To by Beabadoobee

9. Magnolia by Laufey

10. I Wish You Love by Laufy

11. Right Side Of My Neck by Faye Webster

12. Kingston by Faye Webster

13. Bewitched by Laufey

14. Ur So Pretty by Wasia Project

15. (You) On My Arm by Leith Ross

1. This song is the most them of all of them. Aoyama is scared of the future after his reveal, Aizawa feels the same but puts on a brave face for him. Him helping Aoyama stop putting on a mask and just be himself and showing him that even when he isn't doing well he still loves him. Just Aizawa showing his full adoration of Aoyama. TToTT

2. Aoyama being super depressed and less energy and less hyper that people notice after coming back to school after the war and him being calm about their relationship. Aizawa helping him with people in other classes gossiping about him.

3. The processing of their relationship. It mostly being physical during the start but slowly becoming more than that. Them both becoming more and more secure in their relationship and being so sure of their future together...

4. Aizawa realizing his feelings about Aoyama and feeling stupid/bad about feeling this way but he can't help but imagine domestic stuff with Aoyama. Just waiting for Aoyama to make a move or do literally anything to hint if he likes him bc he doesn't want to be predatory.

5. Aizawa and Aoyama being gentle with one another... That is all.

6. I mean, it's a love song and uses some French of course it's here. Aoyama fully trusting Aizawa and being head over heels for him. Just entirely seeing in pink because of Aizawa.

7. Aoyama being fucking so head over heels for Aizawa he can't stop dreaming about him... Aoyama plays this song on repeat while daydreaming about Aizawa, source? He told me!!

8. Aizawa having bad insomnia and Aizawa ending up asking Aoyama to sleep with him that night so he can sleep and being super like "this ok??? U sur???" About it bc he doesn't wanna pressure Aoyama to do anything.... gentl.... TT-TT

9. Aizawa being fucking head over heels this time instead of Aoyama but thinking Aoyama likes someone else bc Aoyama is being more apparent about having a crush awhile after the war but never specifying who it is......

10. Them both thinking they can't be together and both resigning to never being together bc they know it's wrong and not knowing the other likes them back and just resigning to wish the other happiness and love....

11. Aoyama and Aizawa after war,,, them both pinning and remembering their kisses but still not having the time to really confirm that the other wants to be together or if it was just a impulsive choice.

12. Aoyama dreaming about Aizawa p2. Just wanting to know everything about Aizawa and feeling like he's straight up dreaming around him and jus.... grgrggrggr they love eachother. Aoyama being a bit frightened of being with Aizawa bc he doesn't wanna mess it up but Aizawa reassures him and helps himmmm.

13. Aoyama not understanding much about love because this is the first time he's had a relationship/crush... Just being bewildered by how insane he feels because of his crush.

14. Aoyama's feelings between when Aizawa talked to him and doing the troy mission and being so scared that Aizawa will leave him due to his traitor status and still standing on shaky ground with their relationship...

15. Aizawa wanting to watch Aoyama do domestic shit and want to buy him gifts... and just wanting to do everything together and just being super attached to the hip outside of work....

I feel like not enough of the primarchs really have memorable mothers

Like I can only really think of, Guilliman's mom, Leman's Wolf Mom, and kinda Putrabo's sister(not a mom but still very prominent/memorable woman related to a primarch)

Like I get it, give them Daddy issues before they meet Emps, and then they get to have real daddy issues, but still.

I feel that's such a missed opportunity

Like give Angron a warrior mom who survived years in the pit because she had to be strong, but something in Angron unlocks a violent maternal instinct she thought she would never feel. It's not the usual "motherly instincts" but more like a lioness'

Or give Logar a priestess/holy mother nun, someone to foster his love for the religion, encourage his blind worship and devotion. And thinking him a gift from the gods.

Like, I'm not saying replace every dad with a mom, but I feel like an even distribution would give more narrative creativity!

That's also how I ultimately feel about making some Primarchs into Fem Primarchs. I feel they should have had, let's say, half the cannon primarchs be their fem variants. I feel that for some, it would have fit their storylines better.

Like ngl, Morty is my favourite, but hot take...

I feel his story would hit so much better if he was fem.

Cause one thing I picked up on is not a lot of 30k/40k fans like mortarion, or they just find him boring. (Im saying most people i have encountered and also pretty much every 40k youtuber I've seen), but i feel if he was Mortica, something might click.

It would hit different cause now u have a girl being used and abused by her toxic father, and then her vengeance is stolen from her by a man she doesn't even know. She is constantly trying to become more resilient, turning her resentment into bile.

It changes the meta-context and the readers perspective. Sure, 40k is so far in the future that gender and sex don't matter, but us as outside observers would then think and discuss Mortarion/Morticia's position with the very raw reality of how a majority of women/fem people are victimised irl.

And when they overcome it, they're hurt, they're changed and far less willing to be corjal with people. They have every right to be mad, to be hurt, but society sees them as jaded, as "a cold hearted bitch" and "just broken"

And it's this meta text being super imposed from real life experiences and knowledge that makes Morty more relatable.

Especially to a fem audience. She would then feel like the definition of female rage; quiet, intense, lured hate, all hidden behind a mask. Despite most knowing what she has gone through, they still feel uncomfortable being around her. Thinking she could be nicer, she should be sweeter and bounce back like she was designed to do.

But she can't. She's been tortured, her only vengeance taken from her. All by men, all by psykers. She loathes them all. She's traumatised and has built emotional walls so tight, not even Putrabo(who I also feel would be fem) could crack them.