Im Still Not Convinced He Wasnt Trying To Kill Till Before He Died Himself - Blog Posts

pluckedchicken

1 year ago

"if we hug a little tighter, / our hears will be a little closer"

Ivan (left) and Till (right) stand in pouring rain. Ivan holds the back of Till's head as he kisses him. Ivan's eyes are closed while Till stares at him.

"saying something dangerous, / like I love you,"

"I love you in the same way, there's a chapel in a hospital / One foot in your bedroom and one foot out the door"

Ivan (right) kneels down beside Till (left). Ivan rests his right hand against the wall. He has a somber expression. Till leans against the arm of a purple couch.

"I love you and I always will and I am sorry. What a useless word."

"And you, you were the one I treated the worst / Only because you loved me the most / We haven't spoken in a long time / I think about it sometimes / I don't know who I was back then"

"We love with claws and teeth and the blood is just proof of how much. It's feral."

"Break my arms around the one I love / And be forgiven by the time my lover comes / Break my arms around my love"

Ivan (left) wraps both of his hands around Till's (right) throat. Till tilts his head upwards. His eyes are closed.

"I'll have to learn to be somebody else / It's been you and me since before I was me / Without you, I don't yet know quite how to live"

"I would've loved you if we had more time."

"I am my mother's child, I'll love you till my breathing stops / I'll love you till you call the cops on me"

Young Ivan (left) and young Till (right) sit side by side. Ivan looks towards the right, staring at Till while Till looks downwards.

"I knew what love was supposed to be: obsession with undertones of nausea."

"love is a cannibalistic feast. // But the rest is death, and death alone."

Till stares straight ahead (at Ivan) with wide eyes and one hand wrapped around his throat. It's raining around him.

"You haven't kissed anyone for a while now. / To you, everything tastes like blood."

Ivan stares straight ahead (at Till). Blood drips down his chin from his mouth. He smiles softly. It's raining around him.

"I think here is where I will leave you. It has come to seem there is no perfect ending. / Indeed, there are infinite endings. / Or perhaps, once one begins, / there are only endings."

BUT WHO COULD LOVE ME? I AM OUT OF MY MIND // IVAN & TILL

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