Curate, connect, and discover
I fled all of the way across the sea
But there is never an escape for me
I live in paradise, no grades, no stress
Yet here I am again, always regress
When all the monsters are inside your head
An angsty teen still anxious in her bed
But I am 20, not 13, and still
I’m still trapped and depressed, please God, when will
My mental anguish end, is there no hope
Or joy for me I can sustain? Just cope
And love the Lord and lose my mind
Searching in vain for that which I can’t find
Sick to my stomach, missing all I had
Though knowing this is better, I feel bad,
No, dreadful, selfish, worthless, stupid, fake
Embarrassed, paralyzed by each mistake
I couldn’t ask for more, it’s not enough
There’s no place on this earth that’s up to snuff
I am a traveler, stranger in this land
Not Italy, but earth itself, I stand
In fear of God, oh Jesus come, your hand
Be in my life, and may this life be grand
A stupid ending to a stupid poem
My old self-loathing just wants to go home