My Interpretation - Blog Posts

unrelated to everything forever but at the end of like him by tyler the creator his mother admits to keeping his father out of his life which has obviously caused a lot of distress in tylers life and the song cuts off directly whenever his mother says "just, you know, forgive me" because the entire song was about the lack of healthy parental figures in his life and in the secind verse tyler tells himself that he would never judge his mother for her actions in keeping his father away because technically everything turned out fine but the fact the moment shes finished dropping a bombshell on her son she demands forgiveness (not asks for because if she were asking we wouldve said "please" and wouldnt have said "im sorry i was young" with no comma or pause indicating more of an accusatory apology than a genuine one)

Full body drawing of what I think will treaty looks like :)), he’s so pathetic wet rat coded I love him <3 (Fr tho bro can never catch a break in the books 💀)

The awesome badass Beastar and Legoshi

I wanted to do a more "realistic" take on Gosha and Legoshi while keeping identifiable aspects. Like Gosha has green undertones ( instead of neon green that I do not understand), and Legoshi is on the cooler, lighter side. They both have similar eye shapes as well as the yellow in the pupil, which are suggested in canon that they have the same eyes.

I took some liberties on how the 1/4 komodo dragon would show in Legoshi, specifically his long neck and generally shorter fur. I think komodo dragons and gray wolves in universe would be very similar in size and komodos are slightly bigger than wolves but they end up shorter because they have shorter legs. Legoshi is the size of a komodo as well as a long neck, but the taller wolf legs.This ends up with Legoshi being quite large compared to both species (not to mention his dad is also a large wolf). Despite his shorter fur, he's still cuts it shorter than typical wolves, keeping his head and tail longer.

I could not get Gosha's colors right to save my life. I got somewhere where I could tolerate it but if I were to draw him again, he'd probably look different 😅 but I'm very happy with his shapes. He actually looks like a komodo dragon! That's all I could ask for honesty.

how about a spritz of queer religious trauma induced lyrical analysis for your day ?!?!??!

you down? GREAT read on 🌼

*NOTE - this is not the interpretation anybody probably intended from this song, this is just my own personal joy found in it*

here are some lyrics from the song hallelujah, specifically the jeff buckley cover (not that it matters but.. it does):

I am a queer woman who was raised in the church and now has an ambiguous relationship with religion as a whole. And man, these LYRICS!! They fill my soul.

"Baby, I've been here before / I've seen this room and I've walked this floor"

I see this partially as a call to younger queer people, as an "it gets better, ive been there". But I also see this as a message towards those who are currently religious. I was deeply pious at one point in my life (before a lot of thinking and feeling went down). I know how.. everything works. I was you. I understand your church more than you know. Don't exclude me or cast my feelings to the side because I am not involved in it anymore.

"You know, I used to live alone before I knew you"

My journey through religion (and out of it) was a very, very introspective and intense one. Walking out on that felt like living alone. Learning independence and identity was a grueling, but beautiful thing (and heck, I still am).

"And I've seen your flag on the marble arch, and love is not a victory march.

I've been to a few pride parades and love them- this is not a dig at pride for me. It's a recognition that everything is... so much deeper than pride. Pride is what happens when you are alone at night and telling yourself that you are, truly, okay for being queer. Pride is what happens when you hold your partners hand in public despite being scared. Pride is wearing what you want because it makes you feel good. It's little. Not explosive. (Most of the time).

It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah.

Pride is to be found in exhales of air, sweat, blood, and tears. It is filled with hardship- with the screams of protests that have gone on longer than we've been alive. The most human hallelujah is not a sweet one. It's the sigh of relief when you come out to somebody and they dont.. leave your life forever. It's the trauma that comes from years, and years, and years of hiding and fear and hatred. And the realization that you have survived and you stand here still today to continue fighting. THAT is hallelujah. And some may never understand. But you do.

Evelyn Clawthorne doodle