Nathan Wesninski - Blog Posts

Being as both Neil's parents are dead, and obviously not in heaven, I wonder what they think when they look up at him. Like oh my god our son is gay he's gotta boyfriend. But no, he's got the worst one. Because who in their right mind would fall for Andrew??

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But I dunno. Maybe they're proud of him. Really, really confused, but proud.

I think that if say neil had a good relationship with both his parents still in a elio josten existing universe that maybe elio would get along with nathan however neil would never have a good relationship with that man even if I theories and come up with stupid scenarios where he did just to have that man be a murder grandpa so like this would be in a nathaniel world instead of a neil one

feel free to ignore its 3 am where I am this is just the demon that has possessed me talking

ALRIGHT PEOPLE WE ON BALITMORE THE PHONE CALL WITH LOLA LIKE BTICH FUCK OFF LEAVE HIM ALONE, JACKSON AKD ROMERO (I think that's how it spelt idc anyway I hate that guy) just being in security guard getups like "yeah this will work defo", Neil looking at his foxes is just my heart is shattering I can't do this rn, him debting between speaking German to Andrew but then knowing that the fuckeds would react violently

"thank you" he finally said, he couldn’t say he meant thanks for all of it. the keys, the trust,the honesty and the kisses. hopefully Andrew would figure it out eventually "you were amazing." like him not being able to fully say what he meant, it fucking sucks like my heart is fucking wreacked. the riot part also fucking sucks.

neil being dragged away by the bitches I hate those three they can all die, fuck my heart the way it just drops lola asking him questions and him figuring out that it was Nathan's circle with the birthday surprise, lola explaining what she's gonna do to him like why, LEAVE HIM ALONE (like ik that neil gets out but like still it hurts) him being tortured also fucking hurts, lola just asking her brother for the dashboard lighter, and then being burned him calling ber sick is just like neil I love you but like bro you gonna get tortured maybe don't try and rail them up (I try to think I'd do what neil does but I probably wouldn't)

the part where lola keeps wanting to know where mary is and nwil just repeating "she's dead" and then lola just asking about his teammates and then him not wanting to tell her shit is just so brave of him.

"he traced the outline of a key into his bloody burnt palm with a shaky finger closed his eyes and wished neil josten goodbye" the way he switches to nathaniel because nathaniel belonged to his father, Neil belongs to the foxes and abram belonged to Mary and now belongs to Andrew is just like such dramatic irony that it hurts, nathaniel just going to wash his hands so they don't get infected is just such a moment like he was on his death bed or basement or floor.

I'm sorry but Nathan just coming down without wearing shows LIKE SIR YOUR BASEMENT IS PROBABLY INFECTED WITH SO MUCH BACTERIA WHY GO DOWN BAREFOOT JUST WHY. Patrick walking down behind the man like dud why let the seriel killed wear no shows or socks just why. can I say Nathan's accent is so funny like ik we meet him when he's going to kill nathaniel but like it's a funny accent.

okay so yall know how in like shows,books,movies just a lot of media's there's characters that do a bunch of fucked up stuff, and like a lot of people will get like complaints/criticism/hate ig for either writing stuff for said characters cosplaying said characters and stuff and like I'll be honest here I'm a hotd fan I'm a aegon fan like do I support the shit he has done NO I don't support it, (unless were on about after his sons death with the war and all then yeah sure I do to an extent, the same way i support team black) I find his character interesting, heck I find Nathan from aftg interesting.

are there fandoms that make different versions of characters yes there are, I'm pretty sure there's a fannon version of aegon that didn't sa anyone and I'm pretty sure people who do hotd fanfic with ocs and pair them with characters use that version heck I have aegon fanfic in the works however the character is diffrent to fit the plot of what I'm writing with said oc character I have (I just outed myself for this oh well)

but like don't send hate to actors who portray the characters because it isn't there doing there just doing their jobs

i always thought that too because Nathan wasn't doing anything that would have him to have to give up nathaniel as a way to get out of debt and like we know due to the ec and canon that Kevin, riko, and neil had all seen someone cut up in one of the towers at edger Allen so it's not far fetched to think that neil would have still been trained by his father in the towers and got all the other training via being perfect court because why would kendo even allow riko to break neil in the same ways he broke Kevin and jean it doesn't make sense if neil is to take after his father

okay my personal thought and assumption has always been that Neil would have had a totally different Nest experience than Kevin or Jean did. I had always assumed that he wasn’t getting sold off to the Moriyamas to repay a debt but that he was getting placed in an environment to be groomed into Nathan 2.0, for when Ichirou took over. Like the violence of the nest to train him and isolation from his parents so he had only loyalty to the Moriyamas. So that eventually when Kengo died and Ichirou took over there was a replacement for Nathan ready and (hopefully) willing to go

neil was ready to die. he had accepted that he wasn’t going to live past 19, that he would be killed, that he wouldn’t do anything else with his life. and he was mourning the loss of exy and his teammates and friendship, but he didn’t bother mourning the loss of a domestic life because it never even occured to him that that could be a possibility. that dream died the night he ran away. he didn’t mourn the loss of lazy sleep-filled mornings or cat cuddles or holding hands or having his own place, because to him, that was always too far-fetched. he didn’t mourn for the small joys of domestic life, because he’d never had them in the first place

okay when you read about neil’s scars, did you picture the burn mark to be from like a fire poker iron that his dad hit him with or an actual... iron?? bc i’ve always pictured a fire poker. it just seems so wild that nathan would casually have a hot clothing iron ready to burn his kid

OOKAAY NEIL IN A HAT IS HERE! It’s already cold outside so please take care about yourself  ♥  

Nathaniel Wesninski everyone