Self Harn - Blog Posts

Our favorite colors were always the same; blue. But I recently grew very fond of purple. That doesn't mean I like blue any less, I just like purple more now.

Things Change #4 // I'm.not.living.im.surviving on ig

They say we 'are not alone' but that isn't always a good thing. It makes everyone see us as 'just another depressed kid' or 'just another emo teen'. People think that it's 'just what teenagers do.' But if we were like the others, we wouldn't feel this broken.

I guess it doesn't matter though since this is all 'just a phase' anyway

If I were to stop talking.. would anyone even notice?

I Doubt It. // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig

The sad part is... I saw this coming. I saw it coming but that didn't stop me from continuing to love you.

I still continue to love you... // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig

I used to feel at home whenever I talked to you. But now it’s more like when you check into a motel; familiar, yet cold and neglected.

Things Change #3 // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig

I don't know how to do this whole "life" thing.

Everyone is always better than me at everything..

You already knew that though // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig

I have a bad feeling that my good mood is going to be destroyed when I go back to school tomorrow...

When school vacations end so do my normal thoughts // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig

I don't even matter...

I don’t think you will ever fall as deeply into this depression as me. Want to know why?.. Because every time you’re sad, I know exactly what to say… All the things that you didn’t.

You never helped me, but I’ll help you because no one deserves to feel this way // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig

When you came, my nightmares turned to dreams. But when you left, my daydreams became my nightmares.

I want my dreams back

Whenever Things Seem To Be Getting Better

Me: Wow, I'm actually happy.

My Brain: ha! No you aren't

Me: What do you mean?

My Brain: Here are memories of all the things that you fucked up. Oh! Don't forget about the people that used to be a big part of your life but aren't anymore!

Me: ........oh yeah........

Maybe you wonder why. But mostly.. You try not to think about it.

Short film "ReMoved" by Nathanael Matanick

It seemed like it was always night time and nightmares and never morning.

Short film "ReMoved" by Nathanael Matanick

Sometimes someone hurts you so bad... It stops hurting at all.

Short film "ReMoved" by Nathanael Matanick

I hate watching people go down the same road as I did...

Does that make me a hypocrite?

I'm not okay but you are so it's okay.

You will always be more important than me anyways

They say suicide is never an option, but they never give you a better one.

Unknown

Everything seems so hopeless...

Looking For a Way Out

You don’t deserve to be in this mess.

I’m only going to hurt you. I hurt everyone.

You used to love me as more than a friend, but I guess things change..

Things Change #2 {via idoubtanyonecares}

And when you’re finally happy, you’re scared. Because every time you feel happy, something bad happens and ruins it.

When will things ACTUALLY get better? {via idoubtanyonecares}

You say your fine because if you tell the truth then you have to figure out a way to explain why you're not.

Im Fine {via idoubtanyonecares}