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Day 4

okay, time for Amaris’ backstory.

This is told from Amaris’ pov and is only p1 of many

TW: Implied COCSA, Suic!dal thoughts/actions, SH

Someday, we will all die. This is something I learned young, but something I didn’t fully see (and comprehend) until age 11. You see, no matter how much I complain or criticize my parents parenting, I still loved them and most of my experiences with them were pretty good, though they definitely traumatized me a few times, and it hurt when the cops showed up on my doorstep to tell me they had died. It was in a car crash. And of course my dad was the one driving, he was always a terrible driver. 

Little did I know that them dying would set off a chain reaction of terrible events. 

I had to live with various different family friends or simply friends, my real family lived on the other side of the country and they didn’t want to pull me out of school and disrupt my life even more.

There were two homes that stuck the longest. Taylor’s home. And Charle’s home. 

Saying the name now gives me a sense of equal rage as to fear. 

When you are 11 long lasting relationships are not a real thing. But 11 year olds are more aware and dare I say mature than we give them credit for. I understood a lot by 11. Love, hate, the universes unjust ways, war, famine, poverty, discrimination, the list goes on. But even I knew that me and Charles were not forever. But thought otherwise. He wanted otherwise.

It started small. Getting annoyed when I stayed at Taylor’s place and not his. Pinching me when I said something he didn’t like. Pushing the boundaries of when and where he could touch me. It’s what was love to me at the time. After all, we were 11.

Then I grew larger. Yelling at me when I did something that he considered wrong. Isolating me from my friends. Ignoring any boundaries when he… touched me. I am openly Ace and he didn’t care. I don’t think he ever cared.

One day I get a text from one of my friends. “Hey, I don’t know how to say this and I hate to be the one to break the news to you, but Charles has been cheating on you”

At first I’m confused. How does one go about cheating when we’re 11. We are in 6th grade. “Wtf. Proof? Explain” I text back, my thoughts racing. 

“I saw him texting, well, sexting someone after school yesterday” she texts back. Sending a photo of Charles texting a number labeled “Lou”

Lou is one of both me and Charles friends. Though not in the inner friend circle, he is somewhat close to Charles. As close as you can get to him at least. He’s a very closed off person.

I start to panic. As one does. I look back on anytime Charles has done something suspicious. I find some semblance of things but my memory is bad and I have *bad* brain fog. But when I’m looking back on my relationship with him. it was straight up abuse. 

I can make up excuses for Charles’s actions. His parents are divorced. From the little information I’ve gotten from him it was not a healthy relationship to say the least. And he probably was hypersexual from some sort of other experience in his past. Maybe he needed the control he felt he didn’t have at the time. 

I almost feel bad for him.

Then someone or something touches me wrong and I go into a full blown panic attack and I have less excuses, because that’s what they really are, for his actions.

I call my friend Lily, I tell her everything. She offers to come pick me up and I say yes immediately.

Time to confront Charles. Possibly one of the hardest things I’ve done.

He’s In the living room, on his phone. 

I calm myself down and rehearse what I’ll say to him. Then I walk out.

My life would change forever.

p2+ coming soon I just need to write it

peace and love <3

Day 1.

This is Ammar, they are cosplaying one of the characters in the show they created (the shows name is ÆngEL impLORE, the chats is L). Enjoy