Starlight Isn't Shining - Blog Posts

I feel a connection with music lyrics like nihil-san and bake no hana, should I be worried?

I..... I.... I don't know.

I love this image

I have to pass the entire day studying because I have a test and my family pressure me a lot for it.(I will disappoint them again...)

I'll stay offline the entire day, I'm sure that I'll have a breakdown from studying a lot.... They don't understand my difficulty and it makes them pressure me more...

I'll check Tumblr if I have any break.

That's it.

You can't understand what the future holds

This ugly bloom born anew will let its body run cold!

So punish for living, I finally give up...

I'll take my last breath 'cause I've had enough.

Hey there bud! Let’s take a few deep breaths, alright? I know feeling like you’re feeling alone right now and that hurts- but I really do promise you’re not alone!

As I’ve traveled from blog to blog I’ve noticed a trend that everyone wants to be friends and interact, but everyone is too scared.

And don’t you say that no one would care if you left or that you should just disappear. That’s not true and I hope to help you learn that. I’m sorry we haven’t been the best about interacting, but that will change. I promise.

- silly anon~

Thank you.

I'm sorry for the piece of my panic crisis-

I'm not actually very well but I have so much difficulty to say it, and it makes me feel so lonely...

I'll open myself a bit, you don't need to read it if you want.

I'm a very anxious person and I have a lot of panic crisis often, but this time I ended up posting a vent on my blog, I regret, if it depends on me, I always will say "I'm fine ^^" but... It hurts.

I have something like a very strong inferiority complex and it makes me think "nobody cares" "you're so annoying" and worse things.

Some years ago, I had some virtual friends, I won't say what happened because it gives me some triggers but I passed for one of the biggest traumas of my life and I don't have more contact with them. I want so much have the experience to meet people online again because internet is better than real life, I can chat with a people or other mainly by my rp blog but I feel that something isn't right...

I'm sorry for the big text, I still... Feel that nobody cares. I hope I can change my mind someday.

IwanttointeractmorebutnobodylikesmemydestinyislonelinessIjustramblehereandnobodygiveashitforwhatImsayingwhynobodywantstobemyfriendIshoulddisappearnobodywillcareIshoulddisappearwhatsmissingwithmeisthatbecauseIhavenocharismaImtryingmybestbutnobodycaresIshoulddisappear

Wow, a week passed and no one cared about the huge text announcing vamp!Rui's hiatus, no one will miss me or him if I delete my Tumblr.

I hate school please get me out of there I'll mmj in front of a truck

It's funny how adding a emoji can make the phrase lighter, like "I have depression 😂".

And people like to make the reverse too, like "I'm so happy 😭"

If I delete my Tumblr I'm sure that nobody will miss me 😂

Did I hear someone wanted to ramble? :3? I, will anon, will listen to you tap about whatever you’d like!!! Go crazy!!! :3!!!

- silly anon~

Hi silly anon!

Sorry for taking some time to answer I'm not very fine.

I love the fact that everyone around me is very silly and I have literally 0 charisma (It should be the reason for why a have literally 1 friend and I think they hate me secretly)

You can ask me about anything, but if you want you can just ignore me, I'm a burden for everyone after all ^^

disappear

Sometimes I think seriously about deleting my Tumblr

Okay I should try to sleep now... Bye to nobody because nobody cares if I'm not sleeping correctly!

I was going to say good night here but I just remembered that nobody cares 😂

Lol panic :P

I wonder what would happen if I mmj off a high place

Lol I had a very strong breakdown today :P

LOL I'm a terrible friend