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I just want to say, "I'm alive!" After a three-day temperature marathon with one of the twins. I'll admit, the 40s on the thermometer were a bit scary.

I seemed to get lost in the days and nights, alternating between medicines and other things to do.

As they say, what is "trouble" for one is "good" for the other, and the second twin enjoyed mum's separate attention on our rare walks. And the eldest son was given almost unlimited access to the internet in his spare time. Not ideal motherhood 🩷

Today I left the house alone for the first time, for an hour. Answered all my messages, bought a coffee at the coffee shop nearby.

Yes, I tried to read at nights, but Dostoyevsky has always been difficult for me.

I tried to write a chapter, and I'm getting better at it, but it was not without struggling.

Anyway, with humour, juggling medicines, I'm at this point now and waiting to see who gets sick next 🥲

after crying is the best part, the knocked out, eyes swollen, dreariness, tired eyes, istg are like a reward for going through it, when i go to sleep afterwards, i always knock tf out and wake up with the best night sleep i’ll have in a while. and sure i look so high currently but it’ll be gone by the time i wake up and ill be brand spankin new again, just had to reset all of my emotions 🤭

Thinking about Fritz's hands, what else is new--

One hand massaging one of his breasts, mouth on the other, hand trailing down his happy trail. Do you see the vision--

Sometimes I think about this screenshot and the immediate thought that comes to mind is "I need to make a divine wreck of that man NOW"

Sometimes I look at Fritz and I get the feeling that he'd be the type to cum from having you grinding down against him in his lap and making out with him. And every time I think about it, that want grows stronger.

Sometimes I look at Fritz and I get the feeling that he'd be the type to cum from having you grinding down against him in his lap and making out with him. And every time I think about it, that want grows stronger.

Sending this off-anon because at first I accidentally hit the unfollow button in the midst of trying to send this, EMBARRASSED AS HELL

ANYWAY. I don't have anything super concrete to pitch with this, but I've been thinking about Medic's boots lately and I feel like in one regard or another you fired a beam at me. Genuinely thought about grinding down against them and I've been stuck in such a deep flustered fog for the past 40 minutes.

he knows what he's doing. the whore :D

There's no way I could mention this in the post about them on my main, but genuinely the way these are ALSO the men who made me realize I have a hierophilia kink.

Cannot stop thinking about this one, actually.

I open this program for the first time in two months, and this is the first thing I end up experimenting with.

I open this program for the first time in two months, and this is the first thing I end up experimenting with.

Very small underrated moment in Emesis Blue (at least to me) is Fritz taking off his gloves with his teeth when we see him come back for the first time. Genuinely that always flusters me so bad and I don't even know how to pin why.

I almost feel like this is tame for an ask to send here, but every horny thought I have linked to this is currently unable to be formed eloquently. But it must be said that I Need Him.

it makes me fixate on his teeth and generally invokes the visual of him sinking his teeth into...something else makes me so unhinged

SO real for that post about bare chest pieces. All Medic chests are winners in my book, I want to say that first and foremost, BUT. Burly Beast #1 in my heart forever, both in a horny way and in a general way.

Literally lay your head against that chest. There's a comfort to it, to the feeling of him, to the sound of his heartbeat. It's warm, sturdy but not too firm. You can feel the rumble of his hum as a hand comes to rest along your back, gently nestling you closer to him.

burly beast my beloved

Does they have any idea how often I think about the idea of just. him trailing his hands within you, inside you in another literal sense? The pads of his fingers giving a heightened sense of sensitive shock in a manner akin to hands grazing the inner thighs?

The intimacy not only in the trust alone, but in the marvel of how he holds your heart in his hands. His lips press to yours as he cradles your heart almost reverently, something that pleads for you to be closer even as you find yourself in a proximity you hadn't thought possible.

He surrounds you truly and wholly now, and god are you craving to sink into it.

There's a comment I think about all the time about vivisection/surgery being an act of body worship from Medic, and genuinely I feel like that clicked something into place I didn't even realize I had the pieces for before.

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There's a comment I think about all the time about vivisection/surgery being an act of body worship from Medic, and genuinely I feel like that clicked something into place I didn't even realize I had the pieces for before.

There's a comment I think about all the time about vivisection/surgery being an act of body worship from Medic, and genuinely I feel like that clicked something into place I didn't even realize I had the pieces for before.

I need his fingers in my mouth

I'll be very frank, this whole thing was sparked by me rediscovering this John art that already invokes the sense of 😳 on its own, but then I thought about Fritz in this pose and good LORD I need to bite something.

There's no way I could mention this in the post about them on my main, but genuinely the way these are ALSO the men who made me realize I have a hierophilia kink.

There's no way I could mention this in the post about them on my main, but genuinely the way these are ALSO the men who made me realize I have a hierophilia kink.

Genuinely there’s also something about the thought of Fritz slipping into saying dirty talk in German in the midst of that worship that makes me just fall apart no matter what. Such sinful praise and heavenly filth as his thrusts grow more uneven.

I haven't been here in a minute, quickly amending that. Thinking about Fritz slipping into speaking German during moments of heavier emotional weight. I feel like we already see that in moments of stress in Emesis Blue, but I want to dig deeper into that for a second and just flat out look into the potential horny aspect of it.

There is a part of me that thinks about Fritz crooning praises and prayers of worship in German in some instances where he's close to his release, so caught in the overwhelming rush of pleasure that floods him, and PLEASE. PLEASE.

God i know medic and fritz slipping into german when close to release is such a common headcanon but it doesn't make it any less hotter

OKAY BUT 🤝

I don’t even know how to word it, but genuinely there’s just something very hot about it to me. NEED that man to kiss me and trail his hands across my skin and leave traces of it across my skin. Different but similar kind of marking adjacent to hickeys. To me.

(And this isn’t even getting into the bonus points of FRITZ covered in blood.)

fuckkkk him trailing his hands across my skin and painting my body with blood

I need Fritz in a collar so bad, you don't even KNOW

a collection of musings I haven't managed to format into drabbles but I've still been thinking about

ALSO. Me again. I sent the “I need to ride Fritz Ludwig” ask too but I failed to mention that what sparked that want in the first place was (quietly, I only really noticed this instance after my second rewatch) when we see him wake up at his desk; something about the lighting, the thought of, in another sort of scenario, either you riding him in his chair haloed by the moonlight, or you sitting on top of his desk while he kneels before you and takes you in his mouth.

The BIGGEST thing that sparked the realization was on my first rewatch when I got to the elevator scene. I both am and am not sorry, but genuinely there’s something to the thought of riding him in the elevator that always gets me, the dim flickering light shrouding you.

okay i havent thought of the elevator scene that way but honestly the way he was posing in it...

why did he have to look hot when in distress-

I need to ride Fritz Ludwig so bad.

Just. Something about the image of me haloed by whatever light there may be as I straddle him, how I can feel the way his cock pulses inside me as he looks up at me with a gaze of pure worship. That light almost seeming brighter, warmer, as he takes me into an impassioned kiss and his hands on my hips come to encourage me to bounce on his cock.

Oh the halo imagery got me acting unwise

Finally had the chance to listen to the BLU Team audio, and god the whole thing took me out but I can't stop thinking about Medic's segment.

Something about the small check-up he gives before progressing, how casual yet careful he is as he gives you another shot of the aphrodisiac. And, listen, him mentioning almost giving himself one before admitting he'd probably have skipped the turn order? That was hot, I'm sorry; something about how his patience only makes his desire for you so much stronger.

Literally something about his praise hits different and I can't pin it. Maybe it's the way it practically comes to leave him like a prayer towards the end. Maybe it's the awareness that he knows how flustered it makes you, that light teasing mixed with his complete sincerity, the small teasing edge gradually caving apart as his release gets closer.

His MOANS. HIS GODDAMN MOANS. HI FOR THE LOVE OF GOD HELLO-- The way he practically gasps out a moan when he enters you, how his desire is so overwhelming that he practically moans with every breath that leaves him. Something about how close he is to you too, how he seems to be so close to the crook of your neck and practically moaning in your ear.

How he TEASES. How you can almost feel the breathless grin in his voice as he talks about future evenings and possible experiments, and just how he knows it excites you because he feels you clench around him but wants to hear you say it.

GOD. HIS FUCKING WHIMPERS. How when he gets close to his release, his words leave him in breathless pauses and whimpers. How he almost seems to hold you closer to him as he whimpers in the crook of your neck, how each last thrust brings his pitch higher in the pleasure of it before he cums inside of you. That's fucking hot as hell and also maybe made me have to stifle a moan, what the FUCK.

And the way he says "good girl" to you over something as small as drinking water or not flinching over getting a shot. Sort of like he wants to praise you in anyway over anything because he cares and also know the praise would fluster you- OUGHGH

And the sounds he makes during it. His composure and mild teasing breaking with each thrust until at the end where he is just gasping and whimpering praises to you. The sounds he makes when he reaches climax and cums in you goddamn.

Also the proposal for heavy to join in a later encounter and talking about how to position you for it, almost as though he's deep in thought over it and is kind of rambling due to being lost in the fantasy. I really like heavy too so im definitely biased.

First off, if you found this, hi! This is a side account for my main blog where I primarily reblog and occasionally post suggestive leaning and NSFW content.

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