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Human / vampire (Candy x Priya)

Note: written for day 3 of Dykecember. time is relative anyways (also I'm experimenting with a new way to format my fics, don't mind me) Words: 795 Candy's P. O. V.

What is a vampire? In popular legend, a vampire is a creature, often fanged, that preys upon humans, generally by consuming their blood.

‘Okay, I didn’t get any smarter, thank you Britannica’ I murmured to myself, looking up from my laptop’s screen to take a glance at my girlfriend’s face. 

When Priya had called me up to say that she had become a vampire somehow, I first ended the call, rolling my eyes at her bad sense of humor. Then she called me back, almost hysterical. 

I quickly realized it wasn’t a joke. 

We spent the previous hour at Rosa’s place, trying to calm Priya down, and surfing the web for any useful info. Unfortunately, everything we had found was about ‘adult’ vampires. Not a word about someone freshly turned into one. 

“Did you find anything?” 

Priya tried her best to mask her voice, but it was clear that she was very afraid. 

“Uh no, not yet. The best I found was an article detailing vampire diet. Apparently, you don’t necessarily need blood. Anything red is good for you.” 

She didn’t reply, just laid down on the couch, covering her face with her palm. I closed my laptop to walk over to her. 

Rosa left a little earlier to drop off Thia at Alexy’s, and Leigh was gone the whole week to visit Lysander. Priya and I had some time for ourselves. 

“Hey” I sat down next to her. “We’re going to figure it out, okay? I’m sure you’re not the only one with this problem. Worst case scenario, we will consult Stephenie Meyer.” 

“Urgh, I don’t really appreciate your jokes.” Priya turned over to her other side, with her back to me, but didn’t pull away when I started caressing her side. 

“It’s not the end of the world anyways. If the legends are true, you will be exceptionally fast and powerful, you will live for much longer than otherwise, you will be immune to pretty much any disease. I wouldn’t necessarily say it’s a bad deal.” 

“Haha. You forgot about not being able to stand in the sun or eat garlic. Not to mention the crosses.” 

“That’s not a problem, we don’t live in Italy.” 

I spoke without thinking, but I reached my goal: Priya laughed – for the first time during the evening. 

“Thank you. Your support means a lot to me. Really.” 

She turned towards me a little to look in my eyes while speaking, but then quickly diverted her gaze. Her expression turned sour, almost regretful. If she had been sad or angry, I would have understood that, but this...? 

“What’s wrong?” 

“What isn’t?” She chuckled, not answering my question. 

“No, but... really.” 

She sat up, but still avoiding looking at me. 

“It’s just... if I stay this way, and the myths are true, I’m supposed to drink blood, aren’t I?” 

Her fingers found their way to the hem of my shirt and started playing with it. 

"Well, yes...” 

“Well... I don’t know how to phrase it, but I started feeling this strange pull towards you. Of course, I always found you ravishing, but it seems that whatever change is going on inside me, it also affects how I look at you...” 

While talking, Priya shifted her position on the couch to lean in my direction. Her fingers stopped fidgeting with the fabric of my shirt and instead rested on my sides. I felt my cheeks burn. We have been together for more than four years now – we had kissed, seen each other without clothes and made love multiple times. And yet, in this moment, I felt that we had never been so vulnerable in front of each other ever before. 

She got closer, lowering her head, making its way to my neck. If I had really wanted to, I would have been able to stop her, to move away – but I didn’t. I tilted my head to give her better access and braced myself for what was coming. 

I hadn’t noticed that Priya’s teeth got sharp already, but now they pierced through my skin with relative ease. I clenched my jaw, not to give away the pain I felt – if this is what it takes for Priya to feel better, so be it. 

While she was feeding on me, pictures flooded my mind. Her arrival at Sweet Amoris High School; her kiss with Iris that awakened previously unknown feelings, but mostly jealousy in me; our reunion in university, and the rebirth of our friendship that slowly changed into something deeper. 

I loved her, and I knew she loved me too, more than anything. When she finally lifted her head from my neck, wiping her mouth, I knew that now we were tied together more tightly than I ever thought possible.

Dykecember challenge

Bodyguard (Kim x Leo)

yes, this is absolutely not the second day of December.... I have commitment issues, I'm sorry 😭 this definitely isn't my best work, but I wanted to let it out anyways, as I didn't have a really good idea in particular for this prompt

Dykecember day 2: bodyguard

Words: 696

When Crowstorm blew up overnight, all members were happy with their newfound success. 

Initially. 

However, they soon realized that fame is not without consequences: they had to change their daily routines, pay special attention to what they do in public, and deal with fans who were not familiar with the meaning of the word ‘privacy’. 

Castiel first considered it hilarious, then annoying. Then, he received (at his home!) a letter with a little vial for him to send back ‘a lock of his hair and a drop of his tear’ – the ingredients for some kind of love spell. This was the point when they decided that people will overstep their boundaries more and more often, so they need to protect themselves. 

Leo was the one to experience this kind of ‘love’ physically. She wanted to run some errands, when a group of teenagers suddenly appeared around her. They asked for selfies with her, and one boy wanted to put his arm on her waist, but ‘accidentally’ lowered it. 

Leo hired a bodyguard that afternoon.

---

"Sooo, this is it." 

Leo gestured around in her apartment, not really knowing what to add. The young woman standing in front of her (who insisted on simply being called ‘Kim’) started walking around, inspecting the doors, the windows, even the view of the street and neighbouring houses. 

“You’re taking this very seriously, I can see. Did you have to protect someone really important in the past?” 

“Oh, sure.” Kim stopped her examination to turn around, facing Leo. “I’ve worked for ministers, CEOs, and people whose title I can’t even tell you. Don’t worry, I will do my best to protect you. No one will die again under my watch.” 

“...again??” 

Leo was about to ask more, but she caught Kim’s smile while she turned back again. The rocker couldn’t help but laugh – despite Kim’s initial silence, she was starting to like her newfound bodyguard. 

“Well, that’s the least I expect. I can’t pay you if I’m dead. And hey, maybe you will even find me funny. Might motivate you to keep me alive.” 

“Oh, you need to work harder than that to make me laugh.” 

--- 

It turned out, she didn’t need to work harder. Whenever it was just the two of them, in a private setting (which happened more and more often as time went on), they behaved like ages old friends. Leo was an endless source of adventurous and fascinating stories, while Kim kept Leo grounded and motivated in more ways than one. 

One day, Kim decided to check out the Instagram page of Leo. This is not something that she hasn’t done before, but she still liked to scroll there from time to time. Leo’s page (as all other members’ as well, of course) was filled with posts about their upcoming album. They worked on it for a really long time, and it was supposed to be released in two months. 

Among the sneak peaks of the album’s cover and (muted) recordings from their studio sessions, a different post caught Kim’s eye: Leo and an unknown woman kissing. 

Kim sat up straight. How did she not notice this before? 

It was posted not long after they first announced the album. It was probably part of the campaign for it, but Kim couldn’t help but feel a little sting in her chest. 

Was she jealous? 

---

When she met Leo, a couple days later, Kim had already made up her mind. What she said on her first day was clearly a joke, but developing feelings for the one she’s supposed to protect could cause serious problems for them. 

When Leo opened her door, Kim didn’t hesitate. 

“This is the last time you see me as your bodyguard. I want to end my contract.” 

Leo didn’t answer at first. She was shocked. 

“Is everything alright?” 

“I-” Kim sighed, then shook her head. “I want to protect you, but I’ve realised that I have feelings for you that aren’t right. I will always be here for you if you need me, but I don’t think I should be your bodyguard anymore.” 

With that, she turned around, not giving Leo the chance to reply. 

Dykecember challenge

First kiss (Candy x Amber)

I really wanted to join in for idolcandy's Dykecember challenge, and even though we're already at the half of the month, it's better late than never! if someone wants to requests a pair for a specific day, my askbox is open ^^

Dykecember day 1: first kiss

Words: 1474

Candy's P. O. V.

My phone buzzed with a new notification.

why didn't you pick up? are you in class?

Ever since Nath left, Amber and I looked after his flat, especially Blanche. She has always been an independent lady, but her master's sudden and long disappearance didn't affect her well. It didn't affect any of us well. Even when she wasn't around, I hung out often in his apartment. I liked the quiet that I couldn't experience in the dorms, and I buried myself in my studies.

I tried to divert my thoughts. I didn't tell Rosa or Alexy what was up, but I'm sure they picked up after some time, as I continuously rejected going out clubbing or shopping with them. Rosa told me that I could talk to her anytime, but knowing her opinion about Nath, I rather kept to myself.

So who was left? Amber and Kim were the only two people who still kept in touch with Nath, but Kim was busy managing the gym. She also didn't know about Nath's ehm... business, and with Amber we didn't even feel it fair to tell her about it.

That left just the two of us, Amber and me. I still couldn't quite comprehend the change she went through. Those piercings eyes that I always found cold and condescending in high school, now they lit up when she saw me, always cheerfully greeting. The delicate fingers that carried out so many pranks on me, now I had the opportunity to watch them drum mindlessly on the tabletop while we're having lunch together. One hand would be enough to keep count of the times she behaved kind towards me, and yet now I found myself spending more and more time with her...

It feels wrong to even think about it, considering that she's my ex-boyfriend's sister, but there's something enchanting about her. When I'm with her, I cannot stop thinking about her plush lips and what it would feel like to have them on mine. When she's away, I'm nervous, waiting for the time we meet again.

How does hate turn to love?

Is it even love? I see who I want to see. I'm imagining a personality for her that maybe she doesn't even have. She has her own life, her own passions, her own problems. Hell, the only thing tying us together - Nath - didn't even use to have a good relationship with her until only recently. If she's not the cruel teenager who made my days sour, then I have no idea who she is beyond her worry and love for Nath.

I used to think we share that, but I'm ashamed to see that my heart is beating for someone else now.

My phone buzzed again.

hello?? anyone there?

The student in the row in front of me turned around to shush me. I guess he had had enough of my phone making noise...

This helped pull me out of my daydreams. Although I did spend much of my free time with studying now, I still couldn't keep track of Mr. Lebard's class. If there was a course for reading lullabies to adults, he could be the perfect professor for it...!

I muted my phone, then finally checked out the new messages. Amber has previously asked me if I was free to help her out sometime, as she's moving in to Nath's apartment. God knows when he's going to use it again, meanwhile Amber's model career isn't going as well as she hoped. To save some money, she decided to give out her flat for rent, and live in Nath's place for some time.

I offered to help her move her stuff, but due to our different timetables it wasn't easy to find an afternoon that suited both of us. I sent her a quick reply:

yes, I'm in class, but it ends in 5. I'll call you after

---

"I already found a tenant. She's moving in on Saturday, so I must leave tomorrow the latest."

"Wow, that was quick. Well, I don’t have any classes left today, so it's totally up to you. If you think you have too much stuff, we can ask someone else for help too. I'm sure Kim would be happy to join in, or maybe Castiel...."

What an idiot! I already forgot how big of a crush she had on him. It was partly the reason she was so hard on me. She misinterpreted my friendship with him as something more, and jealousy is never a good advisor.

Either the static of the phone helped hide the tone of her voice, or she was over him by now, as she replied completely unfazed.

"The two of us should be enough, I don't have that many belongings. See you tomorrow afternoon."

"That's perfect for me, alright. I'll meet you at your place. "

---

She was right, even with just the two of us we finished sooner than I expected. We talked while moving the boxes, to help pass the time. Only lighthearted topics came up, but it wasn’t the kind of small talk that makes even silence comfortable compared to it. I offered to leave once we were done with the actual relocation, to let her unpack alone, but Amber insisted I stay. She put on some music, and fished out a bottle of champagne from one of the cabinets.

"I bought this for Nath on our last birthday, although I know he’s not much of a drinker. It would be a shame if this got spoilt, am I right?"

I laughed a little while shrugging. "Well, I don’t think Nath would be mad…"

Amber unscrewed the bottle, and shook her head.

"You know what, I don’t want to talk about him. He made his own choices, whatever we think about them. I worry for him, and I know you do too, but he’s not a child." She handed me a glass, and took a sip from her own. "I’m sure two young ladies such as us can find a thousand better topics to discuss."

I couldn’t help but laugh, not missing to notice her wink in the meantime. I didn’t know what to add, so I took my glass, thankful for the "alibi" for not speaking.

"Soo… what are you going to do once you graduate? There’s not much time left until the end of your studies if I recall correctly."

"I never actually got this far when I was making plans for my future."

It was Amber’s turn to laugh, though she was more cynical than me.

"I get that, I didn’t plan this ahead either. When I started, I received two photoshoot offers for each one I did. I thought I was one of the few people who are lucky enough to skyrocket their career right from the beginning. Guess I was wrong."

Little by little, I had already finished my glass by then, and I felt a small confidence boost. I sat next to Amber, hugging her shoulders with my arm.

"I’m not speaking from experience of course, but I’m sure it’s normal to have ups and downs. The things we see in movies are romanticized, it’s never easy in real life."

I was so caught up in trying to comfort her that I didn’t even notice when she refilled both of our glasses.

"Yeah, I can second that. It’s never easy in real life…"

Maybe I was imagining things, but I had the impression that she was avoiding my gaze as she spoke.

I tried to recall all occasions we were together like this. Those late night phone talks, those seemingly meaningless strolls in the park, those "study dates" that always ended up being gossip afternoons. I never noticed until now, but sometimes she would mention her feelings of loneliness and being lost. I always thought she was the kind of social, confident, strong woman that they write motivational articles about in the newspaper. But I realised that it wasn’t only me who started spending more and more time with her; I also took up a bigger part of her life now than I did before. And while I wasn’t sure how she felt about this, I certainly knew how I did.

Mostly thanks to the liquid courage that the now three glasses of champagne gave me, I leaned in, half hopeful, half scared of her reaction. Amber didn’t pull away, and after a few seconds even put down her glass to place her hand on my thigh. Our kiss deepened, and I felt a sense of calm wash over me: whatever confusion I was going through in my life with my studies ending, my unknown future incoming, but also the consequences of Nath’s past threatening to reach Amber and me as well, now I knew I wasn’t alone with it.

Dykecember challenge

Wild West AU (bandit!Castiel & sheriff!Nath)

@naiinaii thank you for enduring my rants about this stupid, stupid hc

Castiel is an orphan, the banker's wife finds him and decides to take him in. he is brought up along the banker's own son, Nathaniel. the two boys are roughly the same age, maybe Nathaniel being a bit older. they grow up together, and while it was never a secret before them that they are not blood brothers, they treated each other as such

when they got older (15~17), Castiel started getting into smaller troubles here and there; not paying the baker, breaking the carriage that was trusted to him, doing all kinds of inappropriate things with the well-mannered little ladies in town

rumour said that he got into bad company one night, and now he joined them. lighting the mayor's house on fire, causing chaos at the carnival, occasionally theft

this caused a divide between Castiel and his adoptive family; while Nathaniel wanted to redeem him, his parents (especially his father) didn't even want to hear his opinion. when he felt like Castiel stepped over a line, he kicked him out without a second thought. Castiel laughed in his face "like I need your help anymore"

for years, the two boys have not met. Castiel continued the journey he started as a young man, while Nathaniel became a town marshal to clean the stain on his family's name. every single day, he'd see his old brother's face on the 'wanted' signs, wondering what went wrong

Castiel didn't stay in one place; he roamed the wild west, along a group of bandits, becoming notorious criminals. he promised himself never to return to the old town he grew up in. he caused a lot of troubles there, sometimes even people he loved (even if he denied it). he will keep himself out of their lives, that's the least he can do

he sees that he must break his promise though when a new line is built near his hometown. trains aren't the easiest to rob, but in case of success, the loot usually makes up for it. he can't betray his associates, but he also fears from returning

they have done it thousands of times. they assign the roles, take their places, and wait for their part to come. Castiel himself got the role of bait; with a smaller part of the takings, he's supposed to flee south, attracting the attention from his companions as they take the majority of the loot. there was one thing he wasn't prepared for though: with the old sheriff stepping down, Nathaniel was elected as the new one

Nathaniel expected Castiel and co. to be interested in the freshly built railway, and he knew what was the right thing to do, he only wasn't sure if he could follow through. hell, he wasn't even sure if he wanted to

picture this: Castiel and Nathaniel, standing a few steps apart from each other, eyes fixated on the other one quite homoerotic if you ask me, but let's move on

"who will I arrest today? friend or foe?" "no one. I know your tricks, you can't catch me" THE FEELINGS

everyone is free to interpret what happens later on, but I'd like to think Nathaniel lets Castiel go (maybe ask him to never return, with aching heart, but knowing this is probably for the best u_u)

Valentine's Day event 2022 - continuation (NSFW)

the story is set in the love interests' pov, and neither their gender, not their identity is mentioned; so you can imagine anyone you want there (if you want to, you can even imagine Candy is with one of the older routes / Eric / anyone else, who has a mouth. lol)

it was long ago since I've last written smut, so I know it's not really good, but whatever

(also, for the sake of simplicity, let's forget about Nath's handcuffs)

Words: 710

A kiss on her mouth, then one on her cheek, her neck, going lower and lower until I've reached her chest. I was the one who brought up the idea of this 'sweet' lovemaking, but I still couldn't wrap my mind around her actually accepting it. Candy arched her back, allowing me to lick the chocolate more freely, as I cupped her breasts through her lingerie, caressing them with my thumbs. With my help, she had already got rid of the majority of her clothes, but I insisted on keeping her underwear on.

"Don't be so impatient, we will throw that away as well soon enough" I winked at her when she asked me about it. She only replied with a blush, finally lowering down onto the mattress, giving over to me.

When I was done with covering up the chocolate from between her breasts, one of my hands left its place and roamed her body lower, until it arrived on her thigh. I went back to her neck, slightly sinking my teeth into her soft skin while my hand slowly but surely found her panties. Not removing it yet, my fingers started pressing against her clit, successfully earning a short huff from her.

"My love, are you eager for the continuation? Tell me, what do you want..."

Candy must have found it hard to answer properly, as my fingers finally drew the fancy lace away, and I pushed two inside her. After all these years, I already knew how to find that one spot, how to rub over that one sensitive bud, how to make her knees tremble and take away her breath for a quick moment. I pressed a kiss on the hickey my lips had left behind on her neck, observing my creation as I urged her to answer.

"So? What is it?"

I let her get regain control of her breathing, but when I saw her open her mouth to answer, I added a third finger, deepening my position inside her.

"Mm- your mouth.." she finally pressed out.

"Your wish is my command."

As suddenly as my fingers entered her, they disappeared now, only to grab her underwear and take them off. With a final wink, I lowered my head, leaving a trail of kisses along the way. Reaching for the small pot of melted chocolate beside the bed, I poured some of it on Candy's inner thigh, then started licking it up, going back to caressing her breast and neck with my hands. I started at her knees, making my way higher. When I reached her clit, I heard her let out a soft moan and my heart skipped a beat, pulling me out of my current state for a minute, reminding me about how precious she is to me. My tongue entering her, I listened to the melody of her voice, eventually getting stronger as I lapped her out. My hands resting on her hip, and hers entangled in my hair, I didn't stop even for a minute, focused on my goal of making her reach her climax. I still had some ideas lingering in my mind, other things we could play with in the bed, but I decided to put them away for another time.

Given how little time we could spend with each other lately, especially like this, it wasn't long before her moans changed depth, instead of pure pleasure indicating that she was nearing the top now. The hold on my hair tightened, thighs pressing harder around me, not letting me leave my position from between her legs. The moment arrived, pleasure washing over her, her juice flowing out, mixing with the little remainder of chocolate in my mouth. Not breaking eye contact, I cleaned her up as much as I could, Candy slightly trembling below me.

When the aftershock finally passed, she untangled her hands from my hair and instead started caressing my face. I pressed a kiss on her stomach, climbing the bed so that I was lying next to her.

"Is that what you wanted, hm?"

Candy didn't reply right away, just smiled.

"I thought about something slightly different.... maybe I could show you?"

With a laugh, she hovered over me, "this night is going to be long".

This wasn't the first time (Candy x Amber)

someone asked for our fave non-canon lesbians in @marycecilyy's askbox and I realised that oh boy, do I actually love women. so I decided to try and break my writer's block with this lil fluffy something. thank you @louis-ratking for always being so kind and supportive <3

Words: 975

TW: there are a few mentions of Amber's ED. they aren't in the focus of the story, but be cautious if this theme can upset you

Candy's P. O. V.

"Are you even paying attention to me?!"

Amber was lying on her stomach next to me, a laptop before us on the ground. This wasn't the first time I invited her over to my dorm room to spend time with her. My excuses were always the same: for Nathaniel and Castiel, I'd say that I'm keeping her close so that I can see if she eats enough; for Amber herself, I never went into details. I'd just ask her if she's interested in watching a movie, going skating or doing anything together, and to my greatest luck, she always just said 'yes' without any questions.

I snapped back into reality and tried to focus on what was happening in front of me. Amber went into a detailed theory about how the protagonist is going to come back and save the day yet again... I loved watching her when she was like this. Her face slightly blushed from the enthusiasm, she relied on her palm while gesturing with the other one, paying respect to her Italian origins. But now she was staring at me, her brows furrowed with anger when she realised I wasn't listening to her.

"Don't worry, I'm definitely paying attention." I decided to play it cocky. Maybe she'd play along.

"Oh." As I was expecting, she caught up, dropping her voice to a whisper. "And do you like what you see?" She put her other hand down now, but... on the other side of my neck, towering over me effectively.

This wasn't the first time I invited her over to my dorm room to spend time with her. This wasn't the first time we ended up like this. We were a lot more than friends, and I think others were starting to realise it as well. But in my room, it was only the two of us, and I was curious about the continuation.

Her lips started their slow descend towards mine. I was already a bit impatient, but I knew that it would simply make the game longer, so I waited. Just when she became dangerously close, when I could feel her soft breath over my lips, when I could see the little light brown spots in her eyes that were glued to mine... she stopped.

"What...?"

Amber straightened up as fast as lightning, the sound of her heartwarming chuckle, sweet as honey, ringing in my ears. I let out a groan, while trying to cover my flustered face with the aid of my hair.

"You have to do something special to deserve a kiss from me" she winked at me when I was finally able to look up from my lap.

"Such as?" My palm found its way to her thigh. To my much surprise, she didn't snatch it away immediately. She stopped laughing, but the playfulness didn't disappear from her eyes.

"Gosh, you're so out of my league" I sighed dramatically, noticing how she didn't answer me.

"And you're so out of your mind". She rolled her eyes. "What even makes you think that?"

"Because it's simply the truth." I had a hard time hiding my smile. "You're breathtakingly beautiful, painfully young and so, so not singola."

"You say that I'm young like you're not a 20-something university student." She tried to look hurt, but I noticed that she slightly blushed when I called her beautiful. "Also, please stop bringing up my 'boyfriend'. You know it's not a real relationship."

"If you want me to shut up, you have to make me."

"Screw you."

"I'm okay with that, too."

There was a short pause here. I was looking at her, hoping she would take up the challenge. And for the second time today, she reacted the way I wanted.

Before I could even register what was happening, her lips were finally on mine, lighting my whole body on fire. We didn't go any further for now, only our faces glued together, my hands enveloping her cold ones.

"Where did your thirst for adventure disappear so suddenly?" she asked when we pulled away, resting our foreheads against each other's.

I wanted to say 'I thirst for something completely different' but that was a bit too bold even for me. I rather pulled her face close again, lying down on the floor, taking her with me.

I don't know how much time we spent there like that; tongues intertwined, arms holding the other one so close no one could tell where one body ends and the other starts, legs brushing against each other. My fingers found their way under her top, caressing her stomach. Suddenly I could only think about how she denies food from that stomach, how her ribs are so easily palpable under the thin layer of her skin. My heart squished with worry and love for her, and she must have sensed the change in my mood, because she pulled away once again.

"What's the matter, amore?" I couldn't help but smile. Weaving random words from her native language into our conversations was a silly little game of ours, but she didn't play it with anyone else besides me, so I felt unique.

"You know how much I love you, right?"

"Mhmm."

"I wish I knew how to win you over."

"You don't need that knowledge anyway, you have already done that, in case you haven't noticed."

We both laughed at this, still lying on the floor.

"Would you go out with me?" The hope in my voice was too perceptible, but I didn't care. She can know how desperate I am.

"You have to do something special to deserve that" she replied without missing a beat, but it didn't seem like even she believed herself.

"I'll keep not listening to your rants, then." I pressed a short kiss on her cheek, letting her stubbornness defeat me for now.

day 1 - moving out (Candy x unspecified LI)

Words: 443

TW: the story happens after Candy's husband (I didn't specify who) passes away. there aren't any mentions about how he died; but still read with caution if this subject can upset you

Candy's P. O. V.

"Ma'am, are we free to go, is everything set now?"

I didn't pay attention to the question, still standing in the doorway, sweeping the empty room with my eyes. It was hard to take in the view: my brain filled in the void with the rugs, furnitures, pictures, newspaper on the table, the TV....

"....ma'am?"

I turned towards the young man in front of me; he was working for a professional decluttering company, the very one I called to help me get rid of some of my belongings. My heart ached to let go of certain things, but I couldn't possibly take everything with me to my new flat. The only real love in my life left my side, and I couldn't bear to live alone in the same house that was once filled with his laughter and voice.

I hoped that the organiser would impute me not hearing him to my old age, and nodded. "Yes, everything is on the truck, you can go. Thank you for your help."

He curtly said goodbye, then left, taking his favourite armchair, his desk, his-

The thought of raining on a day like this being cliché flashed through my mind, when I realised that it was my own tear that wetted my face. I thought that I had got over it by now; isn't grief supposed to last for only a few months? That's what all of my friends told me, at least. That it will be better, that I will eventually forget about him, that life will overgrow the pain...

When will it dull?

I walked back to my own car. There was nothing else I could do, the whole house is empty besides few things that the owners-to-be liked and bought. My accidental prediction became true after all; when it was already dark - so dark that the world outside my car's light seemed non-existent - I noticed some drops on the wind-shield. One, two, five, and many, many more. They imitated my tears that started falling once again, and I had to pull over to calm down. There were two images in my mind, never disappearing: one showed the house the way it once was, full of life when the grandchildren visited, being a safe heaven for them; and one showed its present state, the walls ripped from the family photos covering them, the wooden floor naked without the carpets warming them, the dark rooms with all the light taken away from there.

An image of life, and an image of death. A painful reminder of the past, and the truthfully cold present.

And I couldn't decide which one hurt more to see.

"The grief does not go away. It doesn’t go away, life just grows around lit. First, there is nothing but loss. All the time. It breaks up body and soul sharply, without mercy. You have to go crazy, you have to perish in pain. We feel like there's no more. With such an absence, such a large void, it is no longer possible to live. Then life goes on. Time goes on stubbornly. Suddenly the moment will come — it will only become clear later — when it no longer hurts without stopping. Breathing spaces start to take place in the flow of torment that was thought unstoppable. Minutes when you can pay attention to something else. Little islands. Then there will be more and more of these. Suddenly we find that the morning, the boundary between dream and wakefulness is no longer broken by the icy realization that they are no more. Then, sometimes we can smile when we think, "Hm, I remember how funny it was when....!" Memories no longer bring pain, but gratitude that they were here. Over time, there will be new joy, there will be new momentum. There will be plans and new desires. There will be peace and forgiveness, but grief will not diminish, it will not decrease. Life grows around it."

30 day angst writing challenge

11, 13 and 14 ^^

well uh, this ask has been sitting in my askbox for many months now and I didn't receive another ask saying who should I write about, so I took poetic freedom and chose Armin as my subject >:] I'm terribly sorry for disappearing again, hopefully this will be to your liking! it turned out a bit short, but I'm kinda proud of myself as I've been very inactive lately lmao

11. bathing / showering

Armin probably likes to shower "femininely" - the water must be as hot as possible, 3/4 of the time is just spent staring at the wall and thinking about life, and it's a special occasion if he finishes faster than half an hour

it's also not rare that he brings his phone with him and blasts some music (maybe he even sings along, but you do not want to hear that)

he absolutely adores showering with Candy, though I'd imagine that they aren't able to do it much, as their sleep patterns most likely differ (hence they shower at different times as well)

when they do manage to shower together, it very rarely turns into khm.... something else. they tried it out once or twice, but they found it more awkward and funny than sexy

Armin really enjoys cleaning Candy, and it's even better when the favour is returned. if they are bathing, I can even imagine them to try out different kinds of bath salts and bath bombs

13. soft spot / weakness

he would never tell anyone, but he's very, very ticklish. and not just in the "mainstream" parts, even in strange places, like his knees, the back of his neck or his ankles

also, not a "physical" weakness, but chocolate. this man loves his stomach very much, and he'd probably trade his kidneys for some sweets or junk food

on a more serious note, he tries to play things cool most of the time, but he does tend to be overprotective of his loved ones, let that be Alexy, Candy or anyone else close enough to him

14. pregnancy / birth

Hi! Could you do a headcanon with Nevra and (if you want) Lance in which Erika is having pregnancy problems and they are really worried about everything going on well but at the end she is in good health and the child is healthy too? Thanks in advance and feel free to ignore and I hope school gets better!! ❤️✨

ah, thank you for your request, it was really interesting! I tried not to go into details , since I don't know much about pregnancy anyway (though I could have managed that one) + I have no idea how pregnancy looks like in a fantasy world?? with a half-aengel, half-vampire / dragon kid??? so yeah, I hope you will like it nevertheless <3

Lance

Lance is this strange mix of crazy and calm. he's as level-headed as he can be, but if Guardian is not around to see him, he takes a moment to break down a little

he knows a few things about pregnancy, but he's not a medic of course so he's knowledge isn't that great, and who knows if the child being half-dragon, half-aengel complicates things?

hence, besides listening to Guardian, he spends a lot of time in the library, making research, trying and failing not to freak out every time he finds a case that ended with someone's death

generally speaking, he loves Guardian but knows she can take are of herself. during the pregnancy though? Lance becomes much more protective

he tries not to overdo it though; he really listens to Guardian and whenever she tells him she's okay, he takes back

the one thing that he can't completely believe is that "everything will turn out fine", even though that's the truth. he's optimistic, but he doesn't want to get his hopes up too much, in case he ends up alone again

he wouldn't miss being at the childbirth for the world; he's there, gently holding Guardian's hand and whispering sweet nothings to her. when it's over, he just stares a little - "wait, this was it?" - not really believing it ended well

as soon as he sees that yes, both Guardian and their child is completely fine, he breaks out in a smile so wide his jaw hurts, but he doesn't care. he's the happiest man in the world in that moment, and he will make sure to give his child's life the best he can get

Nevra

one word: overreacting. he's really focused on making Guardian feel as comfortable as possible

"the kid needs a calm atmosphere!!!!" / "okay, then, maybe calm down?"

if her "problematic period" takes a long time, he might start ignoring his tasks as a chief, which doesn't exactly make Huang Hua pleased, though she lets him be

Nevra doesn't want anyone else to meddle in their life; if he hears someone bring up the subject, he gets really angry - "mind your own business!" - then storms away

the only people he's not too proud to confide in are Karenn and Chrome obviously, and, interestingly, Huang Chu. she tries to be of help, which comes in handy at times

I can also imagine Nevra to blame himself to some degree, he apologises to Guardian many times, who just sits there like "??????"

when the childbirth begins, Nevra starts pacing around nervously. he doesn't trust himself enough to stay in one room with Guardian, so he asks Chrome to stay inside and reassure her if needed

when Chrome comes out of the room with a huge grin on his face, Nevra immediately feels like the weight of the world has been taken off his shoulders. some time later, when the bliss starts to ease, he tells Guardian that he actually feels a little embarrassed now, looking back

If you don't mind writing a text at the end, after the marriage proposal, what do they do? Even at night if you prefer? My English is too bad... Sorry

no need to apologise for your English, it's just fine! on the other hand, I'm sorry for making you wait so much ˇ-ˇ as a compensation, I swear I'll be your personal slave in the afterlife (also, sorry if this is not what you had in mind)

Castiel:

before heading home from the café, Castiel sits still in the car for a minute. "sorry, I just need a little time. I still can't believe you said 'yes'. ....I love you so much...". Candy finds it a little funny, but she doesn't want to ruin the moment, so she just chuckles to herself at the sight of him being so adorable

the night is spent in each other's arms only, having sex wouldn't exactly match the emotional feeling of the evening

they start planning immediately. Castiel's tour is too close to cancel it, but far enough for them to have a wedding before it! Castiel acts like he's neutral about it, but he's actually very excited and he does his best while planning as well

the proposal gets to tabloids pretty soon, much to the "Castielove" T-shirt wearers' disappointment. some CS fans ask Leo and Gabin (?) about their opinion and things like that, and they are just... confused? since they have absolutely no business with it

though they always highlight it that as much as they are happy for the pair, they would like if the fans gave Candy and Castiel some privacy :)

I formerly thought that Castiel would prefer a civil ceremony, but after seeing his traditional proposal I can easily imagine a religious one as well. either way, it will be a relatively small ceremony, with mostly just friends and family as guests

the honeymoon will be quite awhile after the wedding, again, because of his tour

Hyun:

out of all LIs, Hyun will be the most "vocal" one about their proposal (if Candy is okay with that, of course)

the next day, Iseul is already over, interrogating Candy about her ring, her dress and literally anything

Hyun tries to kind of cut his family out though. he loves them and they play an important role in his life, but he wants his marriage with Candy to be about only the two of them

all those things that you can see it the movies - venue picking, shopping for dresses, tasting cakes, planning decorations.... they don't miss every single one of them

it's actually a kind of race between the two of them. as fun and exciting wedding planning is, it can get overwhelming after some time, but not for them! if stuffing the 1000th cake down her throat means beating Hyun, then that's exactly what Candy will do. no one can stop the children inside of them

Nathaniel:

when Candy and Nath arrive home and they are finally in private, Nathaniel breaks down a little about how grateful he is for finding Candy and changing his life

it's an emotional sequel to an already emotional evening, Nath soon catches himself - "I'm sorry, I'm just really glad, but I'll stop now hahah". Candy reassures him and tells him it's okay to be anxious about the past and the future, but he has nothing to be afraid of with her by his side <3

if we say that the "no cheating, but telling our partner about it" is the canon version, I think all LIs would get over it, some sooner, some later. with Nathaniel though, I think he wouldn't want to pass up the chance to rub the proposal in Eric's face the last time

Candy either just rolls her eyes and lets him do so, or doesn't let him act so childish. either way, this is the last time they hear or speak about Eric, he's not invited to their wedding of course

the lack of Amber in LL isn't canon! she's there! she's one of the first people to hear about the proposal, and she will help them out any way she can

Priya:

they stay there for a little time, wrapped in each other's arms, overwhelmed with emotions, when one of them realises it's time to go home

they don't hold themselves back at night, they surely spend multiple hours awake if ya catch my drift

planning a wedding with Priya is exciting. they don't want a 100% Indian style wedding of course, but there are a few things that Priya would like to include, and mixing the two different cultures is a certainly interesting task

the absolute biggest hardship is buying the dresses. Candy's secret fear is that they both buy the same one, so she sends Rosa with Priya every time she's looking for dresses

also, this could have happened with the male LIs as well, but I just think it would be very funny if Candy pulled out a ring box from her pocket after the proposal. even if this didn't happen, she's soon buy a ring for Priya, so they can both proudly wear one

Rayan:

for some reason, I think they wouldn't go straight home but rather roam the city at night, reflecting back on how much their relationship has evolved

"oh, I remember clearly when you walked into the auditorium... and that's where we shared our first kiss!"

they don't even notice time passing, and they stay out so late that Rayan gets practically no sleep before work

truth to be told, he wouldn't have gone anyway, he planned on spending his day at home with Candy

while I think every LI is excited about the wedding and they care about Candy's ideas, I'm fairly sure that Rayan's the one who's the most enthusiastic out of them when it comes to planning

at one point, Candy asks him if he's sure about it, considering that he was already married once and that didn't go well, but Rayan firmly believes that their relationship is different and he wants to live with her, and he isn't afraid to say this

"Forcing myself to remember felt like voluntarily rubbing salt in my wounds, especially after all that effort I had put into forgetting everything. And... I had to admit to myself, I missed her a little, behind the hurt I felt. That was a universal truth that didn't bother to go away, always lingering in the back of my mind. I couldn't imagine myself looking past her betrayal, but I knew for sure that living with her absence made it all worse."

second chapter of my fanfic online! I'll keep calling it "my fanfic" because I realised the title I chose sounds dumb. not much happens, mainly just Nath thinking about Candy calling him up, but I swear things are going to start now aahhahha

I know almost a month passed and I'll try to deliver sooner next time, just... y'know, life likes to get in my way

"I clearly remember that fateful night, years ago. What I did was unforgivable, I wasn't even surprised Nath broke up with me then and there. We only met a few of times after that, when I took my belongings from our former flat, but that's all. Avoiding each other was hard, since we still lived in the same city and Eric was still his colleague, so we decided to move to England and start a new life. Together."

the first chapter of my new fanfic is online! you can read it here

dedicated to @marycecilyy and @momiyi-chan mostly because they are the most awesome friends I could wish for, but also because they they didn't get tired from me texting them at the most random moments to ask for a little help 🤭

Chaos in the skateboard park (Iris, Kim, Armin, Castiel)

title and theme inspired by @centralsaints. we chatted a bit yesterday about how some HSL characters would go skateboarding in our imagination, and I came up with this. I included some things Max personally said, I wrote them in bold

the base for this whole headcanon is the sadly not canon fact that Iris, Kim, Armin and Castiel sometimes go skateboarding together at ungodly hours

Iris:

Iris first got a skateboard from her brother. Thomas saw skateboards in TV and in parks a lot so he asked his parents for one, but he was too young at that time to actually learn how to use it, so Iris got it in the end

the first thing she did was repaint the whole skateboard by herself

she has way to much fun with tricks. she failed many times in the beginning, but her countless bruises didn't stop her. she got better and better with time though

sometime around high school starting, she gets a longboard for herself, she's basically a pro with it

Kim:

Kim buys a skateboard when she starts hanging out with Iris more, somewhere towards 6th grade maybe. the temptation is great when she watches Iris do those tricks, so she decides to use some of her money that she put aside for when she moves away

she finds a relatively cheaper skateboard on Amazon and decides to get that, she doesn't really understand what's the fuss around those really expensive ones

skateboarding is a bit hard for her though... not being able to use her legs separately is a pain for her, so she switches to rolles skates after some time

Armin:

no one knows where Armin got his skateboard from. he just kinda appeared with it one day at the skateboard park, walked up to Iris, and joined her

he saw many videos on YouTube about various tricks, and he actually manages to learn them! magic

this magic suddenly disappears when someone looks at him though. not once could he do a trick with audience, he always tripped

Armin uses his skateboard therapeutically. he suffers from insomnia, so jumping on his skateboard in dawn usually helps. he doesn't focus on his problems because he has to concentrate on not falling

Castiel:

Cas only started skateboarding because Armin once went "wait, let me show you something" and pulled Castiel with him to the park

he enjoys the company and the vibes more, he's usually the first one to stop and rather sit down

he doesn't leave them there though. he stays to watch them, maybe have a cigarette in the meantime

sometimes he brings along Lysander, who's too stunned to give it a try, but he thinks that all those tricks are fabulous!

collective:

Iris and Kim often go to school together as well. Armin joins them when he can, but he doesn't want to abandon his brother, so it's mostly when Alexy goes with Rosa or when he's sick

Castiel likes skateboarding in the afternoon / night more. sometimes he forgets about time, and stays until ungodly hours with the others, blasting music, having fun

the people who live near the skateboard park loathe them with all their heart, but what can they do

Iris and Armin always try to teach the others new tricks. weirdly enough, Armin is better at explaining things, while Iris shows the tricks

Kim is welcomed to join them even after she switches to roller skates. Armin help her learn tricks with that as well

Kim's used skateboard ends up in Iris' hands, who decides repaint this as well, though the painting process is done together. (in reality, they sit around Iris who paints it, but whatever)

Day of Forgiveness (OC x Lance)

a one-shot for @marytheredqueen with her Guardian. thank you for requesting me, and I'm sorry I took so long to bring it T-T

Words: 496

Mary's P. O. V.

The forest was quiet, the trees muting the noise of live from the HQ. I could only hear the sound of my footseps and quick breathing as I ran.

I had to take a little time off, concentrating on myself and organising my thoughts. I didn't expect to see Lance so soon after waking up, and the fact that Huang Hua hid him from me made my blood boil with anger.

I couldn't let my short temper get the worst of me, so I went to the forest to do what I could do the best: compete. The rush of adrenaline that racing against wild animals gave me always helped clear my head, and it also lifted my spirits whenever I felt down.

A Minaloo was running next to me, though the shock of me keeping up with it slowed it down a bit. I chuckled while bringing myself to a stop.

"You didn't think I could be faster than you, huh?"

"Well, it was certainly surprising, but it's not like I haven't heard of your power of mimicking animals before."

The Minaloo ran away, while I turned around quickly, facing...

"Long time no see" Lance nodded, with a kind of apologetic smile. "I saw you leave the HQ. You do know that you shouldn't be out here alone, right?"

I sealed my lips together. I still hadn't decided what to make of this situation, and I didn't want to act on impulse, regretting it later.

I shrugged.

"Yes, I know. I wanted to clear my heads a little. What about you? Are you mad because of someone as well?"

"Are you mad because of me?" He asked without hesitating. I looked deep into his icy blue eyes.

I couldn't read people like Huang Hua did, I couldn't see the regret and sorrow that he allegedly felt. I couldn't see his anger and hatred either on the other hand, even though I was used to those.

Maybe he did regret what he had done.

"I don't know..." I said finally, turning away from him and going back to the HQ.

The following days ran away fast, my main occupation being observing Lance. His behaviour changed a lot, I don't think I could have recognised if not for his appearance in the first place. I also spent a lot of time training with Jamon, who helped me see things differently. I always knew the importance of second chances, but he made me realise that everyone deserves it equally.

The mission-less days were soon over, with a smaller group of us getting prepared for our road to the mountains. I haven't talked with Lance since we met in the forest, but I knew I couldn't avoid him any longer. I sighed as I saw Koori and Mathieu bicker as they usually did, then shifting my gaze towards Lance himself.

This is going to be a long journey, that’s for sure, but at least we’ll have chance to talk.

Je ne sais pas comment faire... C'est ici pour faire une requête d'écriture ? Si oui... D'après la liste, je dirais 11 et 15 avec Nathaniel d'amour sucrée... ( je suis gênée, je ne veux pas déranger et surtout me tromper >~<')

thank you again for requesting me! as you asked for NSFW, I'll put it under the break. (for clarification, I contacted them in pm and they asked for NSFW there)

j'espère que tu l'aimeras ^^

11. bathing / showering

given how both Nath's and Candy's job takes up a lot of time, they have to cherish even the simple, everyday things like showering

I imagine that they used to bathe together, but they immersed so much in the feeling of just relaxing, that they ended up spending their whole night there

it's not just relaxing what they did while bathing though... Nath usually offered washing Candy's body and hair, his hands caressing her skin with delicate movements, wandering over her chest or between her legs sometimes

this often led to Candy howering above Nathaniel, her legs on the sides, lowering and pushing herself up rythmically

switching to showering didn't stop them from having a little fun every now and then, though in a different position of course

Nath likes to pick up Candy in his arms (it's definitely easier if Candy is short), holding her against the wall while he's thrusting in and out

they tried doing it from behind once or twice as well, but it's a bit risky, given how Candy's hands can slip on the wet wall

15. touching

if Candy doesn't like being touched much, then she should be fast to tell Nath, because he likes to have his hands everywhere

it isn't always in an erotic manner, sometimes it's just lightly brushing his hand along her body, enjoying the feeling under his palm

during sex he's extra touchy though: playing with her tits or folds, sometimes slapping her ass lightly, grasping her throat, anything. if / when Candy tells her she doesn't enjoy these, he immediately stops and apologises of course, he's only into kinky stuff if his partner is as well

if Candy likes these, and even returns them... that can make Nathaniel go absolutely crazy. the warmth of her hands on his arms, abs, or taking initiative with pleasuring him, they all send him to Seventh Heaven

Eldarya Valentine's Day 2021 continuation - Leiftan

beware: only read at your own risk, it sucks you can't blame me

Words: 350

Guardian's P. O. V.

"It truly is an amazing sight" I nodded hearing Leiftan's words, though my eyes were still on the flying companions. As they finished their dance, I turned my head back to Leiftan, only to catch him staring at me. His face became red immediately, looking to the sideways a little.

"I totally agree with you" he said when he finally met my eyes again.

I rolled my eyes.

"Wow, that was pretty cliché…" It was actually sweet of him, but he doesn't have to know that.

Leiftan let out a chuckle, then wrapped me tighter in his arms, pressing his lips against my forehead.

"What do you say we go back to HQ? We stayed up all night, I'm sure you're tired by now."

"I don't know… seeing the sun up in the sky, makes me imagine I just woke up. I'm energetic, to be honest. Also, don't forget we slept for seven years." I lightly elbowed Leiftan, though it was quite the challenge, given how we were still embracing each other. He pretended to be hurt, letting me go in the process.

I stepped towards the edge of the cliff, looking down below us. I could see the waves splash against the rocks.

"You won't jump or something, right?" I heard Leiftan's voice behind me.

"Don't worry, I won't give you that much paperwork. I was just looking at the side of the cliff anyway, I noticed some caves I haven't seen before. What do you think we could find there? "

"Most likely nothing, since the companions flew out from there" he pointed out.

A smile lit up on my face.

"It sounds like the perfect spot for a break then!"

"I thought you weren't tired" Leiftan teased me. "I'd prefer lying under that tree though. I know it's not as adventurous as climbing rocks, but I hope it will do. "

The sun started its journey through the sky as we settled down in the grass, my head on Leiftan's chest. Despite feeling full of energy, it felt good to relax a little in each other's arms.

No height, no depth, no fear can shake me. Held firm, your hands will never fail me.

Eldarya Valentine's Day 2021 continuation - Lance

I still don't know if anyone's interested, but I'm feeling inspired, bear with me

Words: 320

Guardian's P. O. V.

"Don't you think we should head back? The storm is getting heavier…"

I wasn't sure Lance even heard my words as the thunder and the knocking of the raindrops were much louder, but he did stop under a relatively large tree, with a thoughtful expression on his face. We weren't able to advance much, the the cave we left behind with the companions was still closer than the HQ.

"You're right, let's go back." Lance was ready to turn around, but I stayed there, crossing my arms.

He raised an eyebrow curiously.

"Come on. Do you want to get even more soaked?"

"Even more? I don't think that's possible." I tried to hide my smile, still not moving from my place.

"What's up? Is everything okay? You were the one you advised going back in the first place…"

"I'm just not sure I heard you well." I said, trying to appear as innocent as possible.

Lance thought for a moment, then rolled his eyes.

" You're right, is that it?" I couldn't contain my laugh anymore, leaning a bit forward in the process.

"I can be right, you know." I had a huge grin on my face, and luckily Lance was more cheerful than angry as well.

"Who said you can't be?" He took a step towards me. "I know you're smart," a kiss on my hand "beautiful," on my cheek "powerful" on my forehead "and just all in all amazing" and lastly on my lips.

"I'm sure you said all these to make me love you" I said skeptically, though the blush appearing on my face surely gave me away.

"Maybe" Lance winked at me. "But if I did so, then only for myself. Things were boring without you…"

We stood like that for a little bit, completely forgetting about the rain. A louder lightning wake us to our senses, urging us to make our way back to the cave.

You make me feel invincible, earthquake powerful, Just like a tidal wave, you make me brave.

Eldarya Valentine’s Day 2021 continuation - Nevra

I wanted to do something for Otome Haven's VD event, and I came up with this. I might write the other 3 as well because I have ideas, but I don’t know if anyone’s interested

Words: 240

Guardian's P. O. V.

I was sitting on the sandy beach with a strand of my hair between my hands, squeezing the water out of it. I didn’t think I’d go for a swim in the sea today, but that little Boltue had different plans. It was right though; the weather was quite sunny and warm despite spring just starting, the water was calm and I had just the perfect company...

I looked at Nevra, who was still playing with the companions. His wet hair covered most of his face, but I could see his childlike smile nevertheless as he splashed the water with his hands. He turned to me as if he has sensed my stare, and invited me back in the water. I was reluctant, but he didn't accept “no” as an answer.

“This day is yours as well, you worked hard” he threw me a wink that finally convinced me. I got up and made my way back to him, the waves getting higher and higher on my legs.

“I was just about to get dry, you know that, right?” I smacked his shoulder playfully. When my hand reached him, he took it and pulled me closer, planting a kiss on my lips while embracing me.

“And I really love you and enjoy time spending with you, you know that, right?”

We couldn’t spend our whole day there, but we did have a lot of fun, leaning on each other from weariness and laughter on our way home.

In angry oceans you’ve never broken, Through every wave of the storm you are my anchor

Ah, i adore the form of hcs on ur blog. Can we gave 7 and 14 with Lysander? I am still not over him and if they will let me live on his farm I will. Anyway have a good day <3

big mood, anon, big mood 😔 I’m not over my lost LI either. Lysander is actually the one who I always found the most distant, so sorry if these hadcanons suck bahagdsj

7. awkward moment

Lysander can easily lose sense of anything else when he's playing music. Candy likes to watch him meanwhile, but it's a bit embarassing when he notices

he just generally doesn't like if he's being watched. he's used to other people's attention, but Candy is different

I can also imagine them trying new things in bed, but those are actually more funny than awkward when it doesn't work out

14. pregnancy / birth

no matter if the child was planned or not, Lysander's reaction to the news is the same: he's very happy, but also a bit scared

he sometimes asks Rosa and Leigh for tips, what to do and not do during the pregnancy

he really likes to put his head or hand on Candy's belly and feel his child kick. he sometimes even sings to it, Candy's heart always melts when he does

Lys can forget that Candy isn't completely fragile, being too overprotective of her. no running or moving large stuff on his watch!

he’s beside Candy during the birth, calming her down with whispered sweet nothings and small kisses on her hand

Heyyy can you do 7&12 w Lance pleasee🤍

thank you for your asks! I hope you don't mind that I merged these two

4. first date

I think they both feel a bit awkward in the beginning of the date, though the mood lifts as soon as they start enjoying themselves

as much cliché as it sounds, having a nice dinner isn't actually bad for a first date. the place itself is far away from HQ, down at the beach, where it's just the two of them

the time runs so quickly, the night falls while they are still there. the water is tempting, Lance soon notices the look Guardian throws at the ever returning waves. Guardian doesn't refuse when he proposes to go in the water

the night turns out to be amazing, they spend the rest of it together as well

7. awkward moment

in the beginning of their relationship, Lance feels awkward most of the time they are out together. Guardian tries to reassure him, but some people still look at them - well, him - in a suspicious way and that makes him uncomfortable

also, mentioning Valkyon's name. I don't think I have to elaborate this one more :(

apart from these, he can get pretty flustered in the beginning after he and Guardian start living together. he's used to doing simple things like eating, bathing or just simply relaxing alone, Guardian's presence is unusual in the beginning

12. first time

Hello! If it's alright, could I please request Ezarel for headcanons 13, 14, 16, and 19?

I'm so sorry, I know more about even Lance than Ezarel, so these are most likely pretty weak. also, "domestic life" is a bit more like "being a father", I hope you don't mind

13. soft spot / weakness

"the quickest way to a man's heart is through his stomach" this is 100% Ezarel. there are times when bribing him with sweets doesn't work, but it's not often

his other, not that obvious weakness is Guardian. he likes to act like he doesn't care about her that much, not being openly jealous or affectionate with her, but deep inside he'd do anything for her

14. pregnancy / birth

given how he's a member of the Absynthe Guard, I think Ezarel is the least clueless when it comes to pregnancy. this is also helpful because he knows what to do in certain situations

when Guardian breaks the news to him, he'd still start to research a bit more on the theme. can her mixed lineage change something in her pregnancy? and the even more mixing with Ezarel being an elf? he makes sure to find answers to questions like these

he can be a bit grumpy when Guardian wakes him up very late to bring her something, but he's generally really helpful

16. favourite types of kissing

Ezarel likes to keep it simple with kisses. mainly on the lips or cheeks, sometimes Guardian's stomach when they are alone and he's feeling playful I'm sorry but this is all, I'm dumb

19. domestic life

despite his cheerful appearance, Ezarel can feel down sometimes. he prefers to dive into his work at these occasions, so it's usually Guardian who asks him to sit down and talk through things

when he's feeling better, expect lots of jokes and pranks though. after his child is born, I can picture him getting up to mischief with them as well, sometimes even "mommy" accompanies them

he's really protective of his family. his child can do literally nothing wrong. Guardian explains to Ezarel after some time that this approach isn't healthy so he takes back a bit, but he will remain being more permissive than Guardian

hi! sorry, i have not seen the list of characters you write, so,,, can i request 15 (NOT nsfw), 1 and 2 with Leif, please? 🌺

of course! in the fandoms I'm part of I'll gladly write about anyone, my only "problem" is that I don't know every character well, so sometimes I fear what I write is very far from the canon version of that character

also, I wrote some rules about requesting, I'll post it as well soon and you will see my current fandoms there

1. cuddling

Leiftan tries to avoid Guardian after waking up as much as possible, but that doesn't mean he forgot her touch, the feeling of embracing each other

so even though he's "supposed" to be avoiding her, he sometimes finds himself wanting to hug her. Guardian herself wouldn't mind it (she isn't the one who wants to avoid the other one anyway...), so they start spending some time together in the gardens, laying on the ground, just cuddling, no words needed

it's actually really helpful in rebuilding their relationship. spending so much time together but not really doing anything helps Leiftan come to terms with his past

after they get together properly, they will often relax while just cuddling

2. kissing

I imagine Leiftan to enjoy giving small pecks on Guardian's neck, behind her ears, corner of her lips, etc. they are not proper kisses, but they are sweet enough to show his affection

he also likes trailing kisses along her stomach, though this is rather difficult if Guardian is ticklish 🤭

I think he's into kissing Guardian's hand as well, but he drops this habit after they get together, as it's mostly usual while courting

15. touching

Leiftan didn't lose completely his courtesy, he doesn't touch Guardian much in public besides hugging or holding hands, even with these he's very shy in the beginning

he does like to surprise Guardian with covering her eyes from behind. sometimes she returns it, the feeling of her small and warm hands over his eyes always makes him chuckle

also, just. Leiftan's hand is bigger than Guardian's. please, I want this

in private he's more courageous, but still not very touchy (he can get dirty, but he keeps that side of him to when she sleeps with him). sometimes Guardian just lays on Leiftan, with her back against his chest. he either hugs her from behind or play with her hair, both are relaxing and at the same time affectionate

Heyy! Can I ask for a headcon bout Castiel x Candy pregnancy/ kids/ domestic life? 🌚🖤

sure! I wrote "domestic life" as with kids, but if you want a general domestic life headcanon, feel free to send a new request ^^

14. pregnancy / birth

as we have already seen, Castiel looks forward to having child(ren). either if it's an accidental pergnancy or a planned one, he'll be happy when he hears the good news

he would prefer to have the child later though, so he can sort out the mess in his job and have more time for Candy and their future child

he can't possibly accompany Candy to every doctor's appointment and such of course, but he tries his best to help as much as he can when he's available

he doesn't mind going to buy weird food at even weirder hours (except the "waking up soon" part...), at least he can have a walk without anyone walking up to him

even though he's famous and all that, he won't flood his social media accounts with the news of his child. there also won't be a gender reveal party (both of them think that these are ridiculous), though they will surely have a smaller celebration among friends and family

19. domestic life / being a father

similarly to pregnancy, Castiel won't share every minute of his kid's childhood on the net

not immediately after the birth of course, but I think Castiel would get a puppy for the child to grow up together with

he'll probably put touring on a hiatus in the very beginning, so he doesn't abandon Candy completely. his work is important to him, so he will go back after some time, but he will make sure to spend time with his child even then

I can't really decide the gender of Castiel's kid. he'd most likely be more comfortable with a son (teaching him how to play the guitar, playing basketball with him, etc), while it would be really fun to see him with a daughter (that episode with Thia shows this well)

he'll most likely tell the worst dad jokes, often tell stories that start with "when I was your age..." and just generally be a chill and fun father, but that doesn't mean he won't ever be strict (though it's mostly Candy's job, poor girl has plus one child to deal with sometimes)

Cuddling; bathing / showering; first time (Candy x Rayan)

first part of this request here, and now comes the second!

1. cuddling

Rayan likes cuddling, mostly after having sex or before falling asleep

given how he's much bigger than Candy, he's the big spoon usually, but he secretly loves if he can be the little spoon

hugging Candy from sideways, laying next to each other with her head on his chest is also a common position, though Rayan isn't a big fan of it as his arm becomes numb soon

11. bathing / showering

the bathroom is Rayan's thinking place, he literally spends half of his life there, just staring at the wall

bathing together? he's not againts it, but he's definitely surprised when Candy proposes it

they don't shower together every day, because Rayan needs his "thinking place", but he ends up growing fond of it when they do. he wouldn't give up the chance to wash Candy's body, he's sure to be thorough

12. first time

(I have no idea how their first time looked like in UL, this is my imagined scenario for it)

those lingering glances and secret kisses are not enough, the two of them need each other and they agree on meeting up at Rayan's place somewhere towards the half / end of the school year

Rayan is older so he's more experienced in this matter, he knows his way around Candy's body, though he doesn't dominate her fully, they are more "equal"

they spend the rest of the night in each others' arms, but Rayan regrets it in the morning, and he tries to be away from Candy for some time

don't get me wrong, it's not that he didn't enjoy it, but he know well what it could mean for both of them if someone realised they are together

when university is over and they are openly together, they are more courageous in the bed, now not being afraid of getting caught

Hello!!! Can I ask 1, 9 and 18 for Lance? Thank you! :)

thank you for your asks! ^^

1. cuddling

9. crying

"what? Guardian cries? oh no...." Lance does everything he can to avoid Guardian crying, mostly because he doesn't really know what to do then

that doesn't mean he doesn't want to help though! he sits beside her, listening to her problem and he does his best to solve it

there are things he can't do of course, he gives the best advices to Guardian in these occasions

18. what turns him on

Lance really likes if Guardian touches him. it's enough for him if she runs her hand along his arms or down his abs, and his breathing soon quickens, waiting for the continuation

he doesn't mind giving attention either. his favourite is when he can tease Guardian with his fingers, her moans set him on fire, making it harder for him to resist the temptation

I also imagine Lance to be into choking and bondage, though neither are harsh. he doesn't want to degrade Guardian, only to dominate her

Hello! Can I ask for 5 and 12 with Nevra? Also, I saw jealous headcanon for Lance, can I ask for one with Nev too?! Especially if he's jealous about Leiftan! 😊

sure! again, I don't mind original prompts (especially if it's an interesting one like this... 👀)

5. first kiss

(I'll write it as their first time in New Era, as there was a canon one in Origins)

Nevra likes to give small kisses on Guardian's cheeks or her neck, but he knows these don't really "count", they are affectionate but not passionate

their first kiss after Guardian wakes up isn't passionate either though; they are talking, their past arguments are long forgotten but he's too shy for some reason. Guardian isn't afraid however, pressing her lips quickly on his, flashing a smile at him afterwards

Nevra is too stunned to properly process what happened at first. when all things fall into place, he grabbes her head, maybe a little too harshly but not too much, and connect their lips again. the kiss this time is longer, with tongue and a bit of lip biting as well

12. first time

(the same as with first kiss)

it doesn't take very long for Guardian and Nevra to have sex together, but definitely after they are a pair. Nevra had his fair amount of one night stands, he wouldn't want that kind of relationship with Guardian

when Guardian starts to undress, she notices how Nevra's breathing quickens and his face reddens, so she slows down her moves, teasing him as she takes off her clothes

both are experienced, though Nevra more, he's the dominant one during their first time. he likes to please and torture Guardian at the same time, with lots of foreplay and touching

when they are done, Nevra wants to make sure she didn't regret anything, but she reassures him. the two spend the rest of the night in each others' arms

being jealous

Nevra being jealous... he’s totally unpredictable at those times. he’s mad at everything and everyone. may the gods bless whoever made a move on Guardian, because Nevra will come for him

it’s even worse if that person is Leiftan. “does he think just because they slept together for 7 years, he’s entitled to have her?” Nevra is sure to have a discussion with Leiftan. at some point, Leiftan quietly says “you know, she’s not yours either, she’s her own person...” which just makes Nevra 100% angrier, but in the end no one dies and Nevra achieves his goal

he’s not angry towards Guardian herself, how could he? but he’s still nervous when it’s just the two of them. asserting his dominance over her helps though, seeing that she is his

Nevra is less and less likely to get mad jealous as the time goes on, he slowly but surely grows confident in their relationship and trusts Guardian to defend herself when it’s needed

Hi, draconess-tania! I know very well that you're the boss, and at the same time, you're not required to accept my two requests, if you want to pick one of two, no problem! Why I did two requests? Let me tell you that... my brain doesn't work very well when it's about MCL/Eldarya ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ There I go: 1) 1, 11 and 12 with Rayan / 2) 1, 11 and 12 with Lance. Good Saturday! O/

I don’t know why, but your ask had this very funny and calming feeling, I love you 🥺❤️ also, don’t worry you will get both! I start with Lance, and you will get Rayan later (sowwy). I have already done 2 of these, I’ll link them

1. cuddling

Lance doesn’t like being all touchy in public, but that doesn’t mean he minds it in private as well

he likes hugging generally, the warmth of another person is an unusual but comforting feeling. he sometimes feels like this is something to be ashamed of, so it used to be Guardian who initiated the hugs and cuddles

after he finds out she actually enjoys these (in the arms of their beloved is a safe heaven for both of them), he’s more “brave” about these, but still in private or when not many people are around

it’s not that he doesn’t want to show off, he just doesn’t want Guardian to get into uncomfortable situations because someone sees the two of them. she reassures Lance that she doesn’t care what others think, but he still prefers to play it safe

also, hugs and cuddles are only an option when his armour is off. Guardian probably told him once that cuddling him in that feels like she’s hugging a rock

11. bathing / showering

12. first time

Kissing; favourite types of kissing (Guardian x Nevra)

“2 and 16 with Nev“ for my great friend Sin ❤️ sending you lots of love and strength. I wrote them together since they are so similar, I hope you don’t mind

2. kissing + 16. favourite types of kissing

Nevra is a sucker for both giving and receiving small kisses. he really likes to discover Guardian’s body with his mouth, though it’s a dangerous game as it can quickly turn into something else

however, he doesn’t mind getting the same attention from Guardian. it’s just so cute when she grabs his head and presses her lips against his cheek, it’s almost like she’s giving kisses to a little child

Nevra likes kisses on the lips of course, especially tongued ones. he couldn’t deny he’s a vampire even if he wanted to: sometimes he slightly bites on Guardian’s lips or tongue, though it’s never too strong so it doesn’t hurt her

small pecks on the lips are quite often with the two of them, with a soft smile and some loving words when they are busy but accidentally cross paths. if Guardian doesn’t realise Nevra is near, he would cover her eyes from behind, then press a kiss on her cheek, though she might ask him to stay a bit

Being a father; being jealous; his reaction to Guardian sacrificing herself (Guardian x Lance)

Lance headcanon requests for anonymous. these were mostly original headcanon prompts, except for pregnancy which I have already done. as usual, I’ll put the link of it here

also, yes, I do take original ideas as requests (you can see in my description if I accept requests or not), but when I share a certain prompt list, I prefer if you choose something from there. there’s no problem if you still send an original one of course

14. pregnancy / birth

being a father

(I have written a bit about this as well, here)

Lance would be that kind of parent who is mostly strict, but still totally reasonable. he won’t break down his child’s dreams and hopes, but there will be certain things that he won’t let them do

the kid’s  life certainly won’t be boring though. Lance will teach them how to fight at a relatively young age, with Guardian on the sidelines, checking that everything’s okay

if his child got into a smaller trouble (eg. stealing some food from the pantry, messing up the books in the library). then it would be a bit hard for Lance to take it seriously, resisting laughing out is a challenge

in more serious cases he steps in of course, explaining to the kid why the things they did were bad, and taking responsibility for it

being jealous

jealous Lance is not a funny kind of Lance!

he’s raging inside. he’s confident in his relationship with Guardian, but the pure fact that someone thinks Guardian could be theirs...

he doesn’t hide the fact that he’s jealous, though he knows it’s not Guardian’s fault, he doesn’t blame her at all. that other one however... they better prepare for hell

his reaction to Guardian wanting to sacrifice herself again

(I haven’t actually played the end of The Origins. I’m up-to-date from spoilers, but I don’t know how the dialouges and scenes really look like, so sorry if what I write is not accurate)

he would be totally shocked. why would she want to sacrifice herself for these people? why would she rick her life again for a world that’s not really hers?

Lance would make everything he could in order to stop her from doing it

he would be absolutely devastated if he didn’t succeed, he’d leave the Guard. he wouldn’t be able to live in that damned city after what happened, he hadn’t made important friendships anyway

if it’s all after having kids, then he’d take them with him of course, teaching them about their legacy from their mother, but not intentionally raising them againts the Guard. he wouldn’t want them to have the same life as him

Cuddling; training; touching (Guardian x Nevra)

request for for @adasha-galatine again, “1,6, 9 and 15 with Nevra and Guardian”. I already did 9, I’ll leave the link to it ^^

1. cuddling

Nevra isn’t too cuddly in the beginning, he wouldn’t want other people to start asking questions about them (it must be a rare sight to see him with the same girl more times)

he actually drops this habit after some time, pulling Guardian closer for a quick hug in public without any shame or embarassment

and of course, when it’s just the two of them, he likes to hug her even more frequently. his hands sometimes wander a little lower, grabbing her butt, slightly pressing againts her thighs, but Guardian doesn’t mind it at all

6. training

when Guardian asks if he’s up to some training together, he laughs first (“hah, how hard could it be?”) but his smile freezes on his face when he sees that she didn’t forget everything durring those seven years

they like to train together after that, the sound of swords clashing will be a usual noise in the city. their fighting styles are quite different, they can both learn from the other one

accidents can happen and they can hurt each other. it’s never serious, but Nevra sometimes likes to jokingly overreact, maybe even faking his death scene

I can imagine Guardian proposing to plan some kind of technique that she saw in many movies back on Earth. I don’t think Nevra would be into that though, but it would certainly be fun

9. crying

15. touching

with Nevra, touching is almost always in an erotic manner, this damned man can’t keep his hands to himself when he sees Guardian without clothes

his touch is usually gentle and light, lingering for some time then quickly wandering elsewhere, exploring Guardian’s skin fully

in public, he doesn’t touch her like that of course, besides some casual butt-grabbing, but that’s all. if Guardian wants to hold hands, he won’t be againts it, but he surely won’t be the one to propose it

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