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i remember when i was with my child psychiatrist (when i was 17) she asked me to fill the blanks to some sentences. like “i feel ____ about socializing.” “my parents are ____.” things like that. another sentence was “my biggest fear is _______” and guess what i wrote? “not shifting realities” staying in the same reality was my biggest fear and it came true, i guess?i’m now 21 years old. i feel like a failure.
after watching this video i realized how much i cared about shifting and how much i wanted to escape. i didn’t wanna shift realities, i needed it. i felt like i needed it. i thought it wasn’t possible for me to live here in this reality but apparently it is.
in this law of assumption video she says to not fight your doubts or your old story and just accept the possibility.
i am now accepting the possibility of never shifting, never entering the void, never seeing my comfort characters, never living my dream life or finding love.
wow that hurt a bit and i wanna cry lol.
i can live without it. i don’t need shifting. i might never shift and i might be a failure and that’s okay. i’ll be okay. so what if i don’t shift? that’s fine. i’m a failure? i’m never gonna be a master-shifter? okay, you’re right. i agree with you. i accept the possibility. i might never ever shift. i’ll be okay with that.