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Coffee Shop

Summary; As a university student in London you were just trying to get to know the city, the beautiful places etc. and a certain gentleman caught your eye.

Warnings; None.

Words; 345

A/N; Thank you for liking the story, sorry for any tyops. Enjoy! This chapter is shorter because I want to go day by day to witness the relationship blossom, it is a slow burn. 

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Chapter Two

Day Two

After taking few classes at the university you were done for today, you didn’t want to go home yet, it was lonely there. You decided to go to that coffee shop again. Deep down you hoped to see that blue eyed stranger. And you sat on the same spot, you looked at the place that man sat yesterday, unfortunately the seat was empty. What did you expect? This isn’t a romantic comedy.

When the same waitress came to take your order you looked at her name tag, Jessie, she had the expression of seeing a regular customer, you felt welcomed. Since you were a sucker for hot chocolate  you ordered it again. This time you brought your laptop because one of your profs gave an assignmnet and you wanted to finish it today.

After finishing the first page -which took you 45 minutes because you wanted it to be perfect- you felt like taking a break, when you lifted your gaze off of your laptop you saw him sitting at the same spot with his Mac and cake, but this time he had his dog. - you remembered the sign of ‘’animal friendly’’-

It was the perfect opportunity to finish the drawing and also draw his cute dog. His dog was well behaved, never barked or growled at anyone. He looked so cute and fluffy you wanted to pet him but had no courage to do so, it made your heart break in agony. 

The blue eyed man decided to take a break as well, he pushed his Mac aside and pet his dog, drank his coffee or tea, you couldn’t see it from your spot. You were praying inside to finish the drawing without him realizing but the fate had other plans. Just like yesterday your eyes met, this time you were not that shy, you looked directly into his deep ocean eyes.. maybe for two seconds. His eyes were so intense you lowered your gaze to your notebook. If you looked at him longer you would have cought him smiling gently to you. 

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Coffee Shop

Summary; As a university student in London you were just trying to get to know the city, the beautiful places etc. and a certain gentleman caught your eye. 

Warnings; None.

Words; 622

A/N; Hey guys! Here I am with another fanfic, I missed writing. I hope you are all fine and thriving! This is just the beginning of the series so I will be writing longer chapters don’t worry. Sorry for any typos, Enjoy.

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Chapter One

Day One

It was a cold and rainy Landon day as usual, you sometimes wondered why you choose to stay in this city. Instead of going to your regular coffee shop you decided to just walk into a random one, it was cold and your regular one was far away. As soon as you walked in, the smell of fresh coffee hit your nostrils, you loved it, plus it was warm inside and not too crowded. You sat near the big window which was facing the street, you watched the busy street. You took off your jacket and gloves, soon a waitress with a warm smile came to the table. She looked and talked friendly, ‘’Can I get hot chocolate please?’’ whenever  people heard your American accent they would stop for a second, even though it had only been a month since you moved here, you got used to the reaction. After the cute waitress left, you opened your books and notebook, yes you were in London because of the university. You studied in America and then -thanks to your professor who put you on a student exchange programm- you came to London. 

You liked studying or reading in a coffee shop, because you get to observe people and draw them, yes you could draw but you never thought you were talented. The curse of our society is that when we’re good at someting  we become blind to our talent. Even though it had only been a week since your school life started, you wanted to study because these professors here are demanding. You loved your field, which is literature, but it could be hard sometimes. On top of that, you applied for Art History course as well to torture yourself more. 

The lofi music at the coffee helped you to study hard, you thought maybe you can visit this place again.

When you decided that it was time to take a break you closed the books and looked around, took a sip of your now cold drink and you saw a man sitting few tables away from you. He was writing something on his Macbook laptop, so furiously focused, you could only see his dirty blonde, gingerish hair and his blue eyes. You noticed he has Airpods, he looked so focused on the screen of his laptop that it made you question whether you are that into your field or not.

You started to draw him, it was easy because most of his face was covered by his laptop, he lost his focus for a second when the cake he ordered came and in that split second his blue eyes met yours. Your first reaction was to look on the page of the notebook, your free hand went to your hair to play. You really didn’t want to make him uncomfortable, sometimes when someone notices that you are drawing them, they get angry and ask you to stop, so you didn’t want him to come to your table and make a scene. Minutes passed by quickly and no one came to your table, you thanked the Gods and Goddesses above. 

You had a quick bathroom break, when you came back he was still there so you still had time to finish the drawing. 

As you inhaled the scent of freshly brewed coffee you closed your eyes, when you opened them again you saw the blue eyed man staring at you. You decided to focus on your books and study guide, trying to ignore the blush creeping up to your cheeks. Was it weird that you wanted to talk to him? Anyways, you had to study, so you shrugged the thought away and turned the page of your Shakespeare’s guide book.

Chapter 2

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Fire on Ice

Summary; Tom Hiddleston is a vicious mob boss who is looking for his father’s killer, his reputation is depending on it and he won’t give up until he finds that man, and you my sweet little Y/N is the weirdest and the best thing that happened to him all his life.

Genre; Romance, mob, gang, slow-burn.

Warnings; Smut. Guns, blood. 

Words; 4,818K

A/N; Hi guys! Thank you for coming along on this journey, sadly this is the final chapter. Sorry for any typos, I love you and your comments. See you on another fic. (gif isn’t mine)

Final Chapter

Tom breathed the cold London air in deeply,  he was standing in his balcony with a mug of earl grey tea, as soon as he learned you were in London he got a ticket and came back to his home. London gave him a certain type of calmness and stability, it felt safe and secure. Tracking your current address was tricky but his friend Benedict finally found it. You didn’t make any sense on the phone, months ago you said you never met your dad because he died before you were born and now years later turns out your dad was alive and well. He was confused and sad. He needed answers and he wanted you so he called that phone number, hoping you would pick up. It was dangerous thing to do but he had no choice, he had to hear your voice and come up with a plan to see you.

It was early in the morning when you got a call, you jumped from your bed and ran to the study table at the corner of your room and picked up the phone. There was silence, Tom was waiting for you to speak, to be sure that it’s you. ‘’Hello?’’ you asked daring to hope, ‘’Thank God!’’ a relieved sound came from the other side, it was Tom. ‘’Tom? Hey what-‘’ he cut you off apologetically. ‘’Darling it’s so good to hear your voice. Where is your cell phone?’’ his first question made sense because he kept calling and texting but no answers came.

‘’My father took it, he said he wanted to keep me safe from..’’ you stopped, not knowing what to say. ‘’From what?’’ he asked curiously, ‘’From you. Tom, I know that you won’t hurt me but there are things you should know. Things I cannot tell you over the phone. Can we meet?’’ your eyes were fixed on the door, waiting for someone to barge in but it was too early in the morning and the house was too silent. ‘’I was going to ask you the same thing. Do you have a pen and paper near you?’’ and he gave you the address. You made up your mind, you had to tell him everything. ‘’See you soon love. I missed you.’’ He said with his thick British accent that made you melt. ‘’I’ve missed you too.’’

After getting dressed you went downstairs, there were few men in black suits and people cleaning etc. this environment was so strange to you that you felt out of your element, you just wanted peace and the universe misread you. As you walked to the kitchen you put on a fake smile, ‘’Where is my father?’’ you asked a man who had a chef’s clothing, he looked focused on the breakfast he was about to serve to you and your father. ‘’Morning Miss Y/L/N, your father is at the dining room. I will be bringing your breakfast shortly, you may join him.’’

The mansion was a huge place with a lot of doors and it was easy to get lost, you found the dining room and walked in. ‘’Morning!’’ you tried to sound happy, your father was reading something on his phone, he raised his head and looked at you with a questioning manner. ‘’Morning dear. I hope you slept well.’’ He locked his phone and put it  in his pocket, ‘’It was way more comfortable than my own bed.’’ It was true, ‘’I was hoping we could go out and travel, I have always wanted to see the city.’’ You said pouring yourself coffee, pretending like you don’t have a secret plan was hard because you hate lying to someone but you had to. The chef of the house brought omelet, warm bread, orange juice, various types of jams and you could feel your stomach rumbling. ‘’I can’t today dear, I have an important meeting. If you really want to go out I will find you someone.’’ You didn’t understand, ‘’What do you mean?’’

‘’I’m not letting you go out alone, I have enemies everywhere.’’ He pulled out his phone and called someone, later a woman walked in, she was a tall woman with a stern look on her face. You couldn’t read her emotions but she looked like someone who would do anything to get the job done, ‘’Meet Martha. She will drive you to any place you want and she is your bodyguard.’’ If you were to protest right now your father will probably notice that something is wrong so you tried to look calm. ‘’Makes sense.’’

Your father was puzzled, ‘’I thought you would say no.’’

‘’I get it, you are an important ‘’business’’ man and I’m sure you’ve made a lot of enemies. I want to be safe.’’ You shortly explained and shrugged your shoulders like you didn’t care. Your father smiled ear to ear, ‘’I knew you could see the story from my point of view dear. Thank you for understanding. You can leave Martha, my daughter will find you later.’’ He settled on to his seat again, ‘’Let’s finish our breakfast.’’

You tried to read his face as he was talking about how he started his business -aka being a gang leader and then working his way up- he seemed excited to tell you about his life, well at the end of the day every old person loves talking about their past but he seemed like he enjoyed your company and that felt like a dagger to your heart. He was an old man with white hair and slim body but years made him look tired yet he also looked strong, maybe it’s because of his power. He looked sophisticated, if you were to see him on the street passing him by you would have thought that he was a nice elegant man. You didn’t want to dwell on these thoughts so you ate your breakfast, ‘’When can I have my phone back?’’ you asked.

‘’Soon.’’

You wanted to scream but just shrugged your shoulders, you had to keep it cool. After breakfast you excused yourself to go get ready, you were going to meet your man so you wanted to doll up. It was a rainy day so you wore all black. A black long sleeved sweater, a leather jacket and black skirt over your knees, fish net tights, black boots. Before you left someone brought you a nice bag, saying that your father sent this bag for you. It was Prada, when you opened it there was a purse and a lot of money in it, was he being kind or trying to manipulate you?

Martha and you left the house, you were at the back seat of the car, looking cute and watching the trees outside, the mansion wasn’t close to the city so you get to see the nature before the buildings and streets. Martha wasn’t a talkative person but you get the few words out of her, she has been working for your father for like 7 years, talk about a loyal slave. She said nothing but good things about your father which confused you, ‘’You do realize you’re working for a criminal right?’’ you couldn’t help but ask, her pale face didn’t show any emotions, ‘’This world isn’t just black and white Miss, we all try to survive and your father pays us equally.’’

Rest of the road went silent, you were making a plan to leave Martha behind and just run maybe? No. You bet Martha is good at running and chasing people. You decided to improvise.

She drove to a nice place where it was crowded with people pubs, bars and restaurants. You spotted a Starbucks, ‘’Martha, can you get me a starbucks coffee please?’’ she parked the car somewhere, ‘’Be right back.’’

That was easy. You watched her walk fast to the building, you could see that there a lot of people inside so this should buy you some time. You left the car, you looked calm but your heart beat was fast, you could feel the adrenalin fill you up, you approached to an old woman, ‘’Hello, sorry to bother you. Where can I find a taxi?’’ she was a kind woman with short height and cute smile. ‘’No problem honey,’’ and she told you where you could get a cab. You thanked her and power walked. Until you climbed inside to the cab you felt Martha’s imaginary hand on your shoulder, following you. You breathed out deeply which caught the driver’s attention, ‘’Rough day?’’ he asked. ‘’You have no idea.’’ And you gave the address to the driver. You wondered how long would it take Martha to realize you are gone? You hoped your father will be kind to her.

Tom was patiently waiting at his house, he tried to busy himself with work or reading a book but he couldn’t. What if you can’t come? What was he suppose to do then? He sighed heavily, he was in his kitchen getting a glass of water when he saw a cab pulling up to his garden, he saw you climbing out and he dropped the glass, the sound of its shattering made him realize that you were here. He ran to the door and opened it wide, you were there standing and looking directly at him. For some reason you couldn’t move,  he was there at the entrance of his house but you couldn’t run to him,  something held you back. Burden of untold truth perhaps?

Tom didn’t mind the rain and the next thing you knew was his lips crashing onto yours passionately. Your hands went to his hair, pulling him towards you as if there was space, he pressed your body to his. The cold or the wind didn’t matter, all that mattered was both of you being together after so long. You pulled back to breathe, he closed his eyes and breathed your scent, his forehead on yours. ‘’Tom we have to talk.’’ You said unwillingly, ‘’No, not right now.’’ He kissed you again and said ‘’That can wait. First, I have to have you in my bed.’’ And he carried you inside bridal style which mad you laugh. You started to took off your clothes on the way to his room and once you got there both of you were naked, before you could look around he pulled you to his comfortable bed.

You kissed his achingly vulnerable lips, his body was warm and welcoming, you missed him so much you kept touching his body and so did he. You climbed on top of him, sitting on his lap, legs wide open on his sides. He leaned on his bed frame, watching you like a man who was bewitched and couldn’t take his eyes off of you. He missed how your body felt on him, your hands were entwined and you slowly took him in. Both of you moaned in sync. ‘’Don’t move darling.’’ Tom said out of breathe, ‘’Because if you move right now I‘ll come.’’ You chuckled like a child, ‘’I’ve missed you too.’’ After you adjust to his size and he calmed down a little you started to move in rhythm. He felt amazing and the sound of wet skin flopping  filled the room, Tom’s usually pale cheeks were bright red, his tin lips were parted and looking into your eyes, your soul to be exact. You didn’t just feel naked, you felt like your entire being was exposed to his ocean eyes and you had nowhere to hide and you submit completely. Giving yourself to him before the storm of truth comes and destroys everything you built together.

His hands squeezed your ass cheeks harshly, you yelled as he gave you few spanks. It hurt but in a good way, he held you in his arms and you held his shoulders, finger nails leaving deep red marks on his back and shoulders, you knew damn well he will remember this day later. ‘’Darling,’’ Tom said looking up to meet your lustful eyes, ‘’I’m coming.’’ He managed to say before he came into his condom, he flipped you over and now he was on top of you and riding his orgasm and it made you trigger, you came.

After that hot sex you both stayed in bed, not addressing anything just panting and calming down. He left you to bring a glass of water to you, smiling like an idiot. You smiled back, he sat and held your hand, playing with your fingers. Both of you didn’t want to talk about last days events but you had to, ‘’So,’’ he began, ‘’your dad is alive.’’ Tom made research after you told him on the phone, he learned that your dad was a mob boss just like him. ‘’Yes, shocking right?! He brought me to London. He doesn’t want us to see each other.’’

Tom was looking at your fingers, didn’t have the courage to look you in the eyes at the moment. ‘’Years ago I started to work for my dad. At first he sent to small business, like collecting money from the store owners we protect against other mobs, being a bodyguard to my dad’s friends. After a year I’ve proved myself and he kept me close so that I can learn the business.’’ You sat silent and kept listening. ‘’One night, he went to do business with a friend and never came back. He was killed by his friend, something in me tells me that your father is connected to that night.’’ He swallowed the lump, ‘’Look me in the eyes and tell me that I’m wrong. Tell me that your father is innocent.’’ And he looked up to meet your gaze, you opened your mouth to say something but stopped and that was enough for him to understand. ‘’I knew it!’’ he stood up fast, ‘’Of course I had to fall in love with the woman whose father killed my father.’’ His voice was harsh and it felt like a slap to your face, he was pacing in the room, your eyes went to his menacing frame and the exit. You couldn’t leave naked, you had to calm him but you also understood him. He was seeking revenge for years and now he was on a crow road, any small choice could lead to destruction. He seemed making a plan while pacing in the room, you stood up and wore his shirt, approached to him gently, ‘’Tom?’’ you held his shoulder and he stopped, the emotions harvesting deep down in his eyes scared you, ‘’I’m so sorry.’’ You said as if you planned his father’s execution, you felt guilty even though you shouldn’t feel that way, this wasn’t your fight. He took a step back, eyes watering, he got dressed and left. Neither of you dared to speak, you had no idea what he is capable of.

Instead of leaving you decided to stay at his house, he had to face you somehow and instead of running away from him –like he did to you at the moment- you were brave enough to stay and wait for him to come back, it was his home after all he had to come back.

It was late night and you had no appetite, you only drank water and stayed up, soon staying up was too hard and you fell asleep on his couch.

Tom was with his friend Benedict, he told everything to him because he had no idea what to do. Ben was a good friend and after talking for hours Tom decided to leave, when he came back he saw you which shocked him because he expected you to leave. He came close to see your face, he hated himself for putting you in a position like this because you looked stressed in your sleep, why can’t have a normal life? A beautiful home, loving wife perhaps… throughout the months he daydreamed about this delusion but he had to face the facts and be a man.

When you noticed someone sitting next to you it woke you up immediately. He was here, watching you sleep, ‘’His.’’ You said silently. ‘’Sorry I woke you up.’’ Was there a distance in his tone?

‘’I was waiting for you, sorry I’ve fallen asleep.’’ Even in a situation like this one you apologized. He took off his wet jacket and threw it on the wooden floor, the TV was on and its light illuminated the living room. Tom looked tired which made you reach to hold his face in your warm palms, he didn’t push you away , just sat there. ‘’You’re shivering and wet, you should change your clothes. I don’t want you to get cold.’’ You said as if you two were a normal couple and nothing scandalous have happened. ‘’Will you-‘’ he started but stopped, searching something in your eyes, ‘’will you stand by my side when I have my revenge?’’ you breathed out, your mouth tightened. ‘’I can’t promise anything Tom.’’ And with that you both sat there on the couch till the first pale fingers of day light came into the living room. None of you slept, when Tom noticed that it was morning he let go of you, ‘’Go,’’ he said, ‘’be with your father but tell him,’’ he turned to face you and you could see that he made his decision, there was no turning back, ‘’he is a dead man walking.’’

With an aching heart you left his house. When you came back to your father’s house he was furious, you were gone for a day. ‘’Where have you been?!’’ but when he saw your face he ordered his servants to leave you two alone. ‘’You went to see him? I must have known. How did he know we’re here?’’ you sat on the couch, dark circles under your eyes. ‘’He knows,’’ You managed to say, ‘’and he has a message for you,’’ your father laughed with a belittling tone, ‘’What is it may I ask?’’

‘’you are a dead man walking.’’

Within the day your father armed his workers and you could see that there were bodyguards in the front and back yards. You weren’t used to this so it scared you, you wondered what would’ve happened if you promised to be on Tom’s side, what was his plan? Can you put out the fire of revenge in his heart?

You had no emotional attachment to your father but after all he was your biological father and it made things complicated for all of you. ‘’Did he tell you anything about his plan?’’ your father asked you as you were having dinner, well, he was having dinner you didn’t want to eat anything. ‘’No.’’ your voice came out weak, you were mentally exhausted, ‘’Why don’t you go upstairs and sleep. You seem tired.’’ Your father noticed that you didn’t want to eat and you wished to be left alone. Before sleep took you into its arms you were thinking about Tom, you have fallen in love with him and it hurt you deeply.

The next few days were calm and silent, your father was busy all the time and it gave you the opportunity to go out –of course not alone- and see new places. Martha –the woman you’ve made a fool of few days ago- was actually kind to you but never let you walk alone, you didn’t complain, in fact you didn’t want to wander on the streets of London alone. She was a nice person and a good company to you. As you were coming back home you were watching the country side, so many trees.. you loved nature. Martha coughed to gain your attention, ‘’Madam, we should be home quickly.’’ She kept looking at the back, two cars were following you, ‘’Do you think-‘’

‘’Yes, Madam They seem suspicious. I have to drive fast.’’ She warned you and you put your seatbelt on, just in case. Those two cars cornered your car, you couldn’t see anyone because their windows were jet black. You pulled out your new phone to call your dad and tell him what’s going on but before you could do that Martha crashed the car, you hit your head and blacked out.

When you wake up you were in a different setting, there were yellow lights which made your eyes uncomfortable at first, it was cold and damp and you were tied to a chair, your head hurt badly. The place you were in right now must be an empty warehouse. ‘’Hello?’’ your throat was dry, ‘’Anyone there?’’ your knees were bleeding, you had bruises on your body.

‘’I’ve told you to kidnap her not to make them rash the car and hurt her. You are fired! Better yet-‘’ and a gunshot was heard, you screamed in fear. The gunshot came behind your back, you couldn’t see anyone and soon footsteps approached to you quickly. ‘’Are you alright? Are you hurt?’’ it was Tom. He knelt beside you, touched your face and you whined in pain, ‘’Tom? What is going on?’’

‘’I’m sorry Y/N, nothing personal. Thank God you’re fine.’’ He looked relieved which made you angry, ‘’Fine?! Are you fucking kidding me?!’’ you could see he was shocked to hear you scream at his face but he deserved it. ‘’Why the fuck am I here?!’’

He stood up, ‘’You are a bait. I asked you to be on my side, you refused Y/N. You left me with no choice. I have to finish my purpose and live happily with you. I’m doing this for us.’’ He looked serious and you knew Tom, if he had something in his mind he would do it, regardless of any bad outcome. ‘’Tom, this isn’t the way. Look at yourself, you look like you haven’t slept in days. You need to think rationally, let me go please.’’ You were crying at this point, ‘’Revenge won’t bring your father back.’’ Seeing you like this hurt him deeply, you could see his tears, you two must be alone otherwise he wouldn’t show his vulnerable side. He cupped your cheeks, ‘’Look at me darling, my love please look at me, I can’t rest until I have bring honor and victory to my family.’’ He didn’t expect you to understand because you didn’t grow up in a world of cunning manipulations, blood and murder. He kissed your temple, ‘’Let me handle this and we will be free.’’ And left you quickly, soon someone brought you food and water. You asked many questions but received no answers and alter you gave up asking.

‘’WHERE IS MY DAUGHTE?’’ the sound of your father’s voice woke you up, you felt adrenalin fill you up, you watched him being escorted into the warehouse with two men, when he saw you he was relieved, you felt a hand on your shoulder and looked up to see Tom. He had a victorious smug smile on his lips which didn’t meet his eyes. ‘’Finally we meet, traitor.’’

In your head everything happened too quickly, your father and Tom shared sarcastic comments back and forth, you heard your name few times, your father telling Tom his part of the story, why he had to kill his best friend. Turns out Tom’s father was planning on killing their enemy’s entire family, including women and children and your father had to put an end to this madness. Of course Tom didn’t believe him, the tension got higher and higher and soon guns were pulled. After that it was all blurry, it was too loud at first and then silence came. You saw Tom on the floor and your dad coming to cut the robes on your wrists and ankles, ‘’It’s okay dear, it’s alright. I’ve got you.’’ After you were free you ran to Tom who was bleeding on the floor, ‘’Call an ambulance!’’ you screamed to your dad, tears coming unbidden, he got shot through his chest and his shirt was dark scarlet, he was shaking violently, ‘’Tom, stay with me.’’ You kissed his forehead, held his hand, ‘’I don’t-‘’ he tried to say, ‘’Shhh , don’t speak.’’ You saw your father hesitate, his phone in his hand. ‘’Call the ambulance dad! What are you waiting for?!’’ you ripped a piece of cloth from your shirt and pressed it onto his chest to stop the bleeding, ‘’Don’t you die on me Hiddleston.’’ You tried to smile, ‘’Listen to me,’’ Tom said, his pupils were blown wide, ‘’I love you Y/N.’’ he said holding your hand tightly and before you could say anything his grip got loosened and he closed his eyes.

 The hospital was loud but you heard nothing, there was a buzzing sound in your ears, you were covered in blood, his blood, and waiting for the doctor to come and give you the good news. Your father was sitting next to you, Martha brought you water but you didn’t hear her, your eyes were locked on the door of the surgery room. Her jaw clenched hard when the doctor came out, the doctor talked to your father and he turned to you, ‘’He is alive,’’ He announced and you let out a deep sigh, ‘’but they have to keep him here for few days. Let’s go home and rest Y/N. You can come back tomorrow.’’

‘’No.’’ you refused and your father didn’t say anything he saw how you suffered and left you alone, later the nurse let you in. Tom was in the hospital bed, a big bandage covering his chest, he was in deep sleep, the nurse told you that if he was brought a minute later to the hospital.. you shook that thought away. None of it mattered, all that mattered was both of you were alive. You sat on the chair next to him and held his hand, soon you fell asleep.

In the morning Tom woke up before you, and when he saw you by his side, sleeping and covered in his blood he closed his eyes and opened them again. It was real, the last night’s events were real. He pushed a strand of hair behind your ear and touched your cheek lovingly, he didn’t want to wake you up. He found a pen and a paper and wrote you a letter, later he stood up, before left the room he turned to look at you one last time, you looked like an angel, his angle. If he stayed there for another 5 seconds he would have lost all his courage to leave. He signed his release papers and his sisters came to take him away.

When you woke up panic took over, Tom wasn’t in his bed, you checked the toilet and the hall but he was nowhere to be found. A nurse told you that he left early in the morning, when you came back to the room you saw a piece of paper, it was a letter from Tom;

My love,

I’m so sorry that I’ve involved you into this, into my dark world. You deserve nothing but kindness and pure love, things I cannot give to you, I love you in my own way which is toxic and obsessive. I don’t deserve you, I’m nothing but a twisted man who is blinded by revenge, cruelty and malice. I have to leave you because your father is right, I am a dangerous man who kidnapped his precious lover as bait and used her against her father. However, do know that you will have my heart in your hands for the rest of my life, for I am bound to you in this life and beyond.

Yours truly

Tom

 The next month went in agony, you tried to find him, even contacted his long term friend Benedict but he told you he doesn’t know here his friend is. After two months of search you gave up, you asked your father to be alone and he brought you back to New York, to your old apartment and your old job. When your friends asked where were you, you smiled sadly and told them that you were on a vacation. You accepted your faith, Tom was gone and he didn’t want to be with you, it hurt you so much that you lost joy in life. For you everything was grey, there was no room for colors, especially blue.

As you were working behind the bar one night you were too caught up with work that you didn’t notice a tall gentleman sitting and waving at you, ‘’Miss?’’ he called with his British accent, when you look up you met those ocean eyes, ‘’May I have a large beer and fries.’’ You dropped the glass you were cleaning, it was Tom. Your body felt like it was fire on ice, he had a tired smile on his face and he looked happy to see you. 

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Fire on Ice

Summary; Tom Hiddleston is a vicious mob boss who is looking for his father’s killer, his reputation is depending on it and he won’t give up until he finds that man, and you my sweet little Y/N is the weirdest and the best thing that happened to him all his life.

Genre; Romance, mob, gangs, slow-burn,

Pairings; Tom Hiddleston x F!Reader

Words; 2.327K

Warnings; None.

A/N; Sorry for any typos and I’m sorry for the delay but I was on a vacation and I got my first Covid shot, my arm hurts uwu. Enjoy, I hope you guys like it. Text me if I forgot to tag you luv. 

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Chapter Nine

All the air left your lungs, he was your dad who was suppose to be dead. ‘’Dad?’’ you asked not believing. He opened his arms with a sad smile, it was welcoming but you weren’t able to walk towards him, something kept you at your place. His arms fell to his sides, ‘’I suppose you’re right.’’ He said silently, ‘’Why am I here?’’ you managed to ask, head high. ‘’You should rest first, we can talk tomorrow.’’

‘’I demand answers!’’ your voice was icy cold yet a rage was lying underneath. ‘’Help her to her room.’’ Your father said to a man who was standing at the corner of the large room, he walked towards you, he was tall and looked scary, you were tired, all the adrenalin left your body and you were shaking, ‘’We will talk tomorrow.’’ He reassured you with a tight smile, before you decided to follow this man you gave your father a look, wished he knew what you felt and then you left.  

As soon as you were left alone in your new room you locked the door and found your phone, Tom left you missed calls and text messages. You didn’t know what to do, your heart told you to call him and ask him to pick you up but on the other hand you found your dad, alive and wanting to explain everything to you. You had to wait at least for tomorrow, you had to learn everything before you could make a decision about Tom. Leaving him at the parking lot was a cold thing to do, you sat on the queen sized bed holding your phone and it started ringing, it was Tom. You declined the call –wishing you didn’t have to- and turned off your phone. He had to wait and so did you.

The Next Morning

It was early when a woman knocked on your door, she was working here in the house –you guessed- ‘’Breakfast is ready ma’am. Your father expects you to eat with him.’’ You kindly smiled and left the queen sized bed, turned on your phone and sighed deeply, Tom didn’t stop calling you and texting you all night. You left your phone under your pillow.

Your room had a bathroom, everything was shiny and perfect, you couldn’t help but be in awe, at least your dad was rich but you wondered where the money comes from, everything was perfect… too perfect. After taking a quick shower and finding nice clothes you went out, your father was at the back yard of this huge house, reading a newspaper and drinking his coffee, when he saw you walk in he put down the paper and smiled, ‘’Morning honey.’’

‘’And just like that we’re suppose to be cool?’’ you gazed upon the table with four chairs, you didn’t know if he ate like this every day because the table looked like a 5 star hotel’s buffet. ‘’Please, sit.’’ Your father ignored your sarcastic remark, you were hungry and you thought that the food probably not poisoned so you sat, far away from him. ‘’Prove me that you are my dad.’’ You still had doubts, he took a sip from his coffee and pulled out some pictures of him and your mother and the pictures of you when you were a baby. He told you the love story of your mother and him and when it came to him disappearing he stopped, ‘’Oh no, I’m loving the drama dad, keep going.’’ If looks could kill his head would be blown up right now.

‘’I had to leave you two because… if we’re going to talk about this you should know that I had to leave because of your boyfriend’s father. Out of all people in this city you had to be with him Y/N! He is dangerous and should be eliminated.’’ You could see the anger rising in his eyes, ‘’I cannot believe you sent your men or whatever to follow me!’’ you raised your voice, ‘’What do you want from me and my boyfriend?!’’

‘’Y/N, I,’’ he was struggling to express himself, you thought that maybe all his life he never had to express his actions to anyone, not even your mother. ‘’I had to kill his father.’’

You felt like a bucket of ice cold water was poured to your body, your mouth a gap, eyes focused on him.  He averted his gaze, ‘’I killed my best friend. There isn’t a day goes by without me thinking about that cursed moment. Ad now, his son wants revenge, as he should. I’m afraid that he might do something to you when he learns that I killed his father. He doesn’t know it yet.’’

This man just came into your life –rather you were dragged into his- and dropped a bomb at your feet, on top of that you were dating a man whose father was murdered by your biological father. It was too much to handle, ‘’You demanded answers and you received them. Do you really think he came into your life because of fate? You are my daughter you must be clever. He must have learned our connection and came after you.’’

Your body felt numb, there was a buzzing sound in your head, ‘’H- how?’’ you managed to whisper, ‘’He does illegal business like me and he has his men who can find him anything he wants. Now, finish your breakfast, we’re leaving this country.’’ A bomb after another bomb, you had to play smart and get out of here to learn the truth but how? You had no idea of what Tom is capable of when he learns the truth, what if he takes you as a hostage? What if he kills you to send a message to your father? Blood for blood right? Even though these seemed unlikely there must be at least 5% chance that he might go mad and do something harmful, something that cannot be undone. ‘’Where?’’

‘’I’m thinking Europe. What do you say? If you want to visit a country then we can go there.’’ He was talking as if this was a mundane conversation that you two have every day. ‘’I can’t drop everything and flee. I still don’t trust you, I have my job and my friends-‘’ he cut you off with a stern voice, ‘’You work at a bar and your only friend is your roommate. I should have taken you in years ago, no daughter of mine should live in conditions like that.’’ His slender neck was tense, cutting a bacon with a swift motion of his long fingers, he looked like he despised your life. ‘’It’s my life, I get to choose how to live it.’’ It seemed as if he couldn’t hear you, ‘’Your bags are packed last night.’’

The woman who came into your room earlier also came to the back yard with your phone, ‘’That’s my phone!’’

She gave it to your father, ‘’What are you doing?!’’

Your father looked at the screen, ‘’Poor lad,’’ he probably saw the messages and missed calls, ‘’we will be leaving shortly. Finish your breakfast.’’

Your father stood up to leave you alone,

‘’London!’’ you blurted out, he stopped and turned to face you, ‘’I have always wanted to visit London.’’ If he could make plans so could you.

‘’Perfect.’’ He said with a wide smile, ‘’We’re going to London.’’ Not knowing your true intentions.

Tom Hiddleston was a mess, he couldn’t sleep all night and now he was on the floor of his office, his face in his hands. At first he saw you as a job, something to accomplish to find the truth so he thought it would be easy but now that you are gone and he can’t even hear your sweet voice… The maddening silence was enough. He bolted to his feet, when he saw his reflection on the shiny table he cursed at himself, he thought you were just being close friends and now that he realized he is in love with you he promised to find you. He never liked defeat and giving up so his next mission was to call his friend Benedict and tell him what happened, Benedict was good at finding things, including people.

When you arrived at London you were greeted by a grey atmosphere and wind, it was a cold day. You remembered your conversations with Tom, he always talked about London, his home land, as if it’s a paradise but without him this place felt like a cold dungeon. You could only watch what was happening, your father has a private plane, you were served food and drinks in the plane, later you landed and a group of his workers came to pick you up. From what you heard your father bought a house. No I’m sorry mansion for both of you. His illegal job made him a ruthless rich man and the way he treated people was as if they’re just here to serve him, like their entire existence depends on it.

Your father still had your phone so you were trying to remember Tom’s phone number. You never thought remembering few numbers could be this hard and it felt like your life depending on it because honestly your father was a dangerous man and Tom showed you nothing but kindness over the months you were with him. You trusted Tom more than you trusted your biological father and it says a lot.

The mansion your father bought had 6 bedrooms and 8 bathrooms, indoor swimming pool, spa and entertainments room. This was bigger than Tom’s penthouse, bigger than any house you have ever seen. The outside walls were pure white, it had a huge garden with chairs and a barbecue place. You were so tired from the journey that you only observed the house but made no comment, you were in awe,

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=errT-_IvDVg (this is the house)

your bedroom was upstairs, a man brought your bags to your room and left, and then silence. You never thought silence can be so deafening, the windows opened to a balcony, you could see the vast forest’s green. You couldn’t help but fall in love with this place –even though you were here by force- after experiencing the toxic city life in New York this could be healthy for you. You took a shower and laid on your queen sized bed with smooth sheets and pillow, the house was silent and you drifted to sleep, your last thought was Tom and you saw him in your dream.

In the dream he was in a dark room, looking defeated and when you saw him you ran to him. He opened his arms wide, in the dream you felt like you are actually giving him a tight hug. Your happiness didn’t last long because Tom pulled out a knife and stabbed you in the back, you woke up in sweat and your brain was alert, you remembered his phone number and wrote it on a paper. It was 3 at night and you couldn’t go back to sleep, your fingers holding the paper tightly, you left your bed.

It was cold but you walked to your balcony to see the stars, silent yet beautiful night. All the lights were out so you figured everyone in the house, servants and your father were sleeping. Could this be a chance to give your boyfriend Tom a phone call? There was a white table on the corner of the room with notebooks, pens and a telephone. You walked inside and stood still on the center of the room. You tried to listen if there was any sound coming from downstairs but there was none. Your heart beating fast in your rib cage, what if what your father said was true? What if Tom just used you to get to him? There was only one way to find out.

You walked to the table, picked up the receiver. After dialing the numbers and waiting for him to pick up felt like a life time. The phone rang for 3 times and he answered.

‘’Hello?’’

As soon as you heard his deep voice your entire body went numb, you had to hold the edge of the table so that you won’t fall.

‘’Tom?’’ you asked, just wanted to be sure because it felt like a dream. You heard him move when he heard your voice.

‘’Y/N? Is that you? Where are you?!’’ the panic in his voice gave you hope.

‘’Tom, I’m so sorry for leaving you at that parking lot. I should’ve told you, please forgive me.’’ Your voice was shaking.

‘’Are you okay? Did someone do something to you?! Tell me and I’ll kill them all.’’ He was concerned for your safety, another hope.

‘’No, I’m fine. I don’t have much time but I’m in London.’’ You weren’t sure if you should tell him but you couldn’t stop yourself. ‘’My father whom I thought passed away years ago actually is alive and he brought me here. Listen,’’ you stopped for a second, thinking. And then you thought enough is enough, ‘’there are things I can’t say on the phone but please find me.’’ You started to hear footsteps coming to your room, ‘’What are you talking about. Where in London?’’ Tom was furious and he wanted you to give him the exact directions, ‘’I have to go, I love you.’’ And you hang up the phone, jumped to your bed.

Tom found himself saying I love you back to the his phone, you couldn’t hear him but he knew you already know. Now that he learned you were  in London he had no business staying in this pile of shit they call New York. He was coming to get you without knowing that the truth he has been seeking for years will make him question his actions, and his entire goal to finish his assignment.

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Fire on Ice

Summary; Tom Hiddleston is a vicious mob boss who is looking for his father’s killer, his reputation is depending on it and he won’t give up until he finds that man, and you my sweet little Y/N is the weirdest and the best thing that happened to him all his life.

Genre; Romance, mob, gangs, slow-burn,

Pairings; Tom Hiddleston x F!Reader

Words; 1.807K

Warnings; Slight  kidnapping. 

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Chapter Eight

You agreed to go on this event with Tom, but the things Jack said still lingered in your mind. Tom took the liberty to find you a dress and high heels, you loved the outfit. It was a green velvet dress, 

everything came in a box with a note and your roommate Sam almost lost his mind, when you read the cute poem on the paper you almost cried. Tom said he’ll be picking you at 8 pm and Sam helped you get ready.

Tom was leaning against the car door when you came out of your building, and you looked stunning. He bolted to his feet, opened your door with a huge grin, ‘’You look ravishing my love.’’ He had a black and white 3 piece suit with a green handkerchief on his jacket pocket, as you climbed into the car you could smell his manly cologne. Fresh and yummy you thought, after tonight you made a decision to ask Tom few questions, and tell him about Jack.

Tom drove to a fancy hotel’s ballroom, on the way there he was afraid to crash the car because he couldn’t stop looking at you. You looked otherworldly, like Greek Goddess trapped in this planet. ‘’I hope you wore the lingerie I sent you.’’ Oh yes, this motherfucker didn’t just send you the dress and shoes only, he also sent you a lingerie set. You felt yourself go red, ‘’I guess you have to find out.’’ He loved your sassy little mouth.

It was the biggest ballroom you have ever seen, well, you do not have an experience in that field but it looked beautiful. On the ceiling there was a huge renaissance style painting made of glass, yellow chandeliers and the paintings and sculptures of the artists filled the room. An old couple approached to you and Tom, his hand went to the small of your back, ‘’Thank you for coming Tom.’’ The old bald man with a grey beard said smiling, his wife was smiling too, she looked beautiful in her red dress, ‘’I should thank you for inviting me and my girlfriend Y/N, we love art exhibitions. Don’t we darling?’’ was he showing you off to this couple?

‘’Yes, thank you.’’ You managed to say, ‘’Enjoy the night.’’ The old woman said and left you alone, Tom was smiling and walking you to look at the art pieces, ‘’Are you planning to buy?’’ you asked as you guys walking, ‘’If I really like one of them, allow me to get us drinks.’’ He excused himself and left you for a moment, you were standing in front of a golden coloured statue of a naked woman. She had no head and legs however she looked beautiful with her womanly figure. You looked at the name of the artist and read what was written there, it was explaining the meaning of the statue. You were so caught up in the moment that you didn’t realize someone standing next to you, ‘’Good evening Miss Y/L/N.’’ you were surprised to hear someone utter your last name, who could that be? Before you could turn she stopped you, ‘’Don’t look at me, I don’t want to attract any attention. My name is Zenobia, if you want to learn what kind of a boyfriend you have..’’ she stopped talking, held your elbow with her thin fingers, ‘’you should meet me before you leave with him. Excuse yourself saying that you have to use the toilet. I will find you there.’’

You could feel your blood run cold, that woman’s voice came out concerned and scared, was Jack telling the truth? Were you in great danger? You remembered the time when you saw Tom’s gun collection, he always kept his business in secret and changed the subject when you asked about it. Before you could say something the mysterious woman disappeared, Tom came with two glasses of champagne, ‘’Lord, this sculpture is amazing.’’ You took the glass and watched Tom observe the golden piece of art, his blue eyes examined it deeply, one hand in his pocket and the other holding his glass, you couldn’t help but wonder if he could hurt you? Or try anything funny? You cursed at yourself for not taking any self defence classes. ‘’Is something wrong darling?’’ he asked you concerned, ‘’No,’’ you knew you looked weird but smiled, damn you deserved an Oscar when you kissed him passionately, ‘’Thank you for bringing me here. I love it.’’ Tom’s cheeks got pink, ‘’My pleasure.’’ He kissed you and you felt his harsh grip on your arm, your body was alarmed but you had to calm yourself, play your part and go to the bathroom when the time comes.

‘’Gosh, I love this.’’ You said to yourself when you saw an impressionist style painting, it looked like Monet himself painted it, the painting was about pathway of a garden and it looked like heaven, colourful flowers were on both sides and there was a wooden door, half open. You noticed Tom looking at you, ‘’I just love impressionism. It looks like one of Claude Monet’s works.’’ You shortly explained, he pulled you closer to him and kissed your temple, when people were gathering to dance on the dance floor his ocean eyes lit up. He you’re your hand in his and kissed the back of it, ‘’May I please have this dance?’’ when you looked at his eyes you felt this warmness spreading in your chest, you couldn’t say no. He gracefully lifted your hand in his and walked you to the floor, you could feel strangers watching you, all eyes were on you because let’s be honest, you were a beautiful couple.

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‘’Follow my steps.’’ He whispered in your ear, he could feel your nervousness when you squeezed his hand hard.

As you started to dance your skirts swirling around your slender hip, he knew how to dance and he was a great teacher. You noticed that this was the first time you dance, you felt sad.

He perfectly guided you on the dance floor, he was pleased when he heard applause when you guys were done dancing, he kissed your hand again. If only he knew you had a battle  in your mind…

Later when he told you that you will be leaving in few minutes you froze, you said you wanted to go to the toilet and he wanted to escort you, he sometimes sounded like a gentleman from 1800s. You said you will be fine and quickly left the ballroom.

The hallway to the bathroom was empty, the sound of your high heeled shoes echoed on the white walls, you were nervous but this ache of curiosity ate you up ever since you saw Jack. You quickly opened the door and closed it behind you. The inside was empty too, you thought maybe that lady was just fucking with you, after pacing for a good few seconds you decided to wash your face to cool down and a tall black woman walked inside. She had a golden coloured dress and gold pieces of jewelry on her neck and hands, she looked serious. ‘’Hello Y/N.’’ and you realized that there was no going back at this point.

‘’Who are you? What do you want?’’ you didn’t mean to yell but days of  stress finally broke you down. She held her hands up defensively, ‘’No need to yell.’’ She exclaimed, ‘’Y/N, I’m a friend of your dad’s,’’ you never met your dad and your mother hardly mentioned him. You had no attachment or emotions towards him, ‘’He died before I was born.’’ You shortly said, she questioned you with her eyes, looked at you deeply, ‘’Long story short, I was paid to look after you and make sure you’re safe. You are really challenging me young lady. Fooling around with a mob boss, follow me. I have to take you to him.’’

Mob boss? Who is a mob boss? You were so confused, she held your hand tightly and pulled you outside, ‘’Who are you talking about?!’’ she decided to choose the stairs, ‘’Your boyfriend of course. The name is Zenobia by the way, I rule this city.’’

You had no idea what was going on but soon you found yourself in luxurious house, Zenobia was a strange woman, even though you asked a lot of questions she shut you up and promised that you’ll get all the answers once you arrived. Now that you arrived all that you found was an old man who had grayish white hair and the saddest smile. He was tall and had a white shirt and black pants, he finished his drink and stood up when he saw you. The inside too big, and had a lot of furniture and a fire place, the wall to wall windows showed a dark backyard.

‘’Why am I here?’’ you managed to ask, masking all your worries, ‘’You look so like your mother, it’s astonishing.’’ He said, not answering your question, ‘’I asked you a question.’’ You bit back. ‘’That’s the spirit.’’ He seemed amused and proud for some reason, ‘’You should be nicer to me, I’m your dad after all.’’

 Tom was at the parking lot but waiting for minutes was enough so he walked back to the building, he saw that most of the people left the exhibition. He checked the bathrooms, and the ballroom but you were nowhere to be seen, he asked the security but they had no knowledge. His hands were shaking at this point, where could you be? He assumed the worst, and the worst was that you left him alone. He walked back to his car in fury and called you many times, texted you but there was no reply. He kicked the wheel of his car, he got inside and shut the door. His plan was to go to your house and ask the reason why you left him there but he received a text message from an unknown number,

‘’She is safe with us. Leave her be.’’

He immediately called the number and someone picked up, ‘’Listen here you wench if you hurt her I swear to God-‘’ he heard a woman laughing, the sound was similar, like that time when he got a call from the boss of the Queens clan. ‘’Hurt hurt?! Child, you’re the potential danger here. She is with family and that’s all you need to know. Leave her alone.’’ And the call ended. He knew he had to leave you one day but he didn’t expected to be this soon, what was he suppose to do now just leave you with them? No, decided. No, he was going to find you and kiss you, hold you in his arms because screw the game he was falling for you.  

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Fire on Ice

Summary; Tom Hiddleston is a vicious mob boss who is looking for his father’s killer, his reputation is depending on it and he won’t give up until he finds that man, and you my sweet little Y/N is the weirdest and the best thing that happened to him all his life.

Genre; Romance, smut is here, mob, gangs, slow-burn,

Pairings; Tom Hiddleston x F!Reader

Words; 2.163K

Warnings; Female oral receiving, kitchen sex, no protection. 

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Chapter Seven

After that strange phone call Tom had a hunch, he bet it was the she boss of the clan Queens. What did she mean by meeting him soon? He never liked ambiguity. He sat on the chair, his glass was empty, it was late and you were sleeping. He never wanted to take a bigger step like that in your relationship but he couldn’t stop himself, he took his head into his cold palms, ‘’What have I done?’’

You woke up to the sound of your phone’s alarm, it was 8am and you were a hot mess. Last night’s events made you sour, you huffed and puffed and finally turned off the alarm. Tom left a note for you because he had to leave for work. You smiled at the little heart shape on the piece of paper. You took a quick shower wore a big shirt that you found in his closet and made yourself a breakfast. Since you were bored you decided to look around and admire the rooms. What really shocked you was that you saw  guns in his study room, you were just looking around and found a secret switch, you thought it was for the lights but the small library started to move away and you saw a gun collection on the wall.  You had to take a step back, ‘’What the fuck?’’ you never liked guns. When you heard the front door opening you hit the switch and watch the library closing.

Tom was dealing with a work situation, something came up with the gun trade, ‘’Fucking Yankees!’’ you breathed out when he finally came back home. Before he could see you in his study room you rushed to the kitchen, pretending like you’re eating your breakfast, ‘’Morning love. Didn’t want to wake you up before I left. You seemed..’’ he had a naught grin on his lips, ‘’tired shall I say?’’ he laughed. You smiled,- shyly, you were too scared to ask him about the guns. Were you in danger? You didn’t know what to do. ‘’You want to eat?’’ you asked not looking into his eyes, ‘’No, I ate earlier. Thank you.’’ He drank a tall glass of water, ‘’What’s wrong?’’ Damn it. He knew how to deduce, ‘’Just,’’ in order to buy some time for your answer you put the dished in the washer, ‘’I really hate working at that bar, stressing me out.’’ He came to give you a big hug. He was much taller than you so he backed you up against the kitchen island, you could feel his body radiating warmth. ‘’I know.’’ He said knowingly, ‘’If, if you want I can help you look for jobs. You don’t have to work there.’’ His tone was so welcoming and kind, as he wrapped you in his arms you forgot the guns and the anxiety you were in. He seemed like a normal guy who was working hard for himself. You exhaled deeply, ‘’Thank you but I can’t quit right now. I’m saving some money.’’ You shortly explained, looked up to meet his blue gaze, ‘’If money is the issue than you shouldn2t worry about-‘’ you placed your fingers to shut him up, ‘’Tom, this is my life and I get to choose what to do. My burdens are mine to bear.’’ And you kissed his welcoming lips. You melt into his mouth and became one, single soul. He lifted you up and now you were sitting on the cold surface of the kitchen island, you only had his shirt and nothing else and when his hand slipped under the big shirt and felt your naked skin he moaned. He was having fun exploring your mouth, his one hand was on your neck the other was on your waist. After this heated make out session he pulled away, and kissed your neck, proud to see the bruises he left last night. He pulled the shirt up and threw it somewhere on the kitchen floor. Now you were just sitting there with your hair let loose, naked body which he adored and worshiped last night, his fingers came to trace the dark bruises on your thighs, ‘’I’m sorry I hope I didn’t hurt you darling.’’ He kissed them one by one, ‘’No Tom. You didn’t hurt me.’’ You loved seeing those bruises and hand prints, ‘’Stay like this.’’ He said and pulled away from your body, you pouted your lips, immediately needing his warmth, he pulled a stool to sit between your wide open legs, you didn’t understand at first, ‘’I think I will have some dessert.’’ He pushed your legs wider and thanks to the morning light entering the kitchen he get to see you fully exposed, you felt your face burning.

Your wet cunt was on display for him and only him, and he knew that you would only be like this with him.

He first kissed the inside of your thighs, looking up at you for consent and you simply nodded.

Later used both of his hands to open you up and you moaned, covering your mouth with your hand, Tom reached to pull your hand away. ‘’I will hear you scream my name like a prayer darling.’’ You were shocked at his boldness.

He focused on your wet core, you could feel his hot breath fanning your aching cut, he gave small kisses here and there, later started to give open mouth kisses and biting the lips, you were a moaning mess, no man ever treated you like this. He inserted a finger while sucking your clit, pumping the finger and out, he had no other business meetings so he was free today and until you had to leave for work his plan was to fuck you. Today Tom made a decision, he decided to give in to his temptations because he loved spending time with you and he wanted to get to know you better. He even found himself imagining a future with you, in London. Deep in his heart he felt that you had no bond with his father’s death so he decided to never reveal his true intentions and go with the flow.

Your hands went to his golden locks, pulling his mouth towards your wet core, the wet obscene sounds your cunt made filled the room, you could hear Tom’s moaning and sending vibration to your cunt. You had no time to be ashamed right now, all you felt was pure pleasure he was giving you and you knew it by heart that he was enjoying it, he was enjoying being buried between your thighs. This man was a pussy pleaser and his partner’s needs always come first than his.

He added another finger and started scissoring your walls inside, you screamed his name over and over again like he predicted, his mouth lapping and fingers working to send you over the edge and he managed to make you squirt right on his kitchen island, you tried to push him away screaming but he didn’t let go, he didn’t care if his white dress shirt was covered in your juice –it was a lot by the way-  and he also didn’t care that you made a huge mess, he helped you calm down with his mouth and fingers. You were spent, after you came down from your high you didn’t know what to say you were just shocked that it happened. He get you to squirt.

‘’Tom I-‘’ you wanted to apologies for making a mess but he stopped you with a kiss, you could taste yourself in his mouth and when he pulled away you could see how pleased he was. ‘’That was the most beautiful fucking thing I’ve ever seen in my entire life.’’ He wasn’t lying and you didn’t doubt him. You wanted to please him too and you reached for his belt, he helped you take it off but before you could reach to pump his cock he flipped you over, now your chest was on the cold kitchen island, he pulled you towards himself a little for a better position and he pushed his hard cock inside you with a single movement. You were still sensitive and your vision got blurry. ‘’F- fuuuuuuuck’’ he whispered, ‘’So tight.’’

He pulled out  completely and pushed back in again, holding you firmly, ‘’You like that? Listen, do you hear the sound your wet pussy makes?’’ his accent was the first thing you were attracted when you met him days ago at your bar and again, his accent could make you come if he tried hard. He was faster than last time, what you didn’t know was that he kept imagining last night while he was at work. He was already hard when he walked in to his hose and seeing you in his shirt made things to him. Sounds of both of your whimpers and curses filled the kitchen, you were holding the edges of the marble kitchen island, knuckles turning pale. ‘’Fuck’ I’m coming.’’ He said holding your throat rather harshly, you didn’t complain. ‘’Cum in me please, Tom ah-‘’ after few sloppy movements he came in your tight, used hole. Feeling his seed in you made you cum again.

The aftercare was amazing. He flipped you back, kissed you lazily and told you to not move, when he came back he had a wet piece of white cloth to clean your cunt and legs, he helped you wear his shirt and carried you back to bed. Since our shift was late at night and Tom’s business meetings were late you guys napped together. He wrapped you in his pale arms and you happily closed your eyes, you fell asleep hearing his calming heartbeat.

Your work was normal, same old same old, however you were wondering where Jack was. It had been days and you didn’t see him anywhere, you hoped that he was healthy and well.

Rest of your night was hectic because there was a stupid match on the TV and the inside was crowded, tips were insane though, when your shift ended you got your things and left the bar, the street was dark and silent. As you were walking and minding your own business someone, a man pulled you by your arm to a dark alley, he covered your hand so that you can’t scream for help. When he pushed you to a wall you could see that it was Jack. ‘’Y/N, don’t scream. I’m here to help.’’ He pulled his hand away, took a step back, you were o shocked that your body froze. ‘’W- WHAT THE FUCK JACK?!’’ you screamed at his face, ‘’I know, I’m sorry but I had to make sure that no one can see us. I don’t have much time. I’m leaving the city and never coming back. You must know that-‘’ he swallowed hard, ‘’you are in great danger.’’ He made no sense, ‘’What do you mean by that? And where are you going?’’

‘’I can’t say too much but, that guy you’re with, he isn’t a good person. Watch your back.’’ Before you could say anything or response –you were still frozen- he disappeared into the night, you had to rest there and calm yourself for few minutes, you had no idea of what was going on but you remembered Tom’s gun collection, and the things Jack said… your phone was ringing and with shaking hands you pulled it out of your bag, Tom was calling. You declined the call and started to walk to the bus station. You had to go home and relax before you can speak to him. How did Jack know that you’re with Tom? What kind of a danger he was talking about?

When you got to home you took a long shower, wore your pjs and laid on your not so comfortable bed, Tom gave you another call, you had to pick it up because he knew you were working late and you didn’t want him to worry and call the police or something.

‘’Hey Tom.’’ Your voice came out cold and tired,

‘’Hello love. Are you home yet?’’ he asked, you could hear some background voice like TV,

‘’Yes, yes I- uh- I’m tired. Can we talk later?’’

‘’Yes sure but before we hang up I have to tell you, there is an event I have to go and I don’t want to go there alone. Would you like to accompany me?’’ he quickly asked, he wanted to ask you this in person but he couldn’t wait.

‘’What kind of an event?’’

‘’It’s a fundraising for unemployed artists, they get to show their paintings and sculptures to the rich society and at the end of the night we can buy or leave a donation. We can talk about the details tomorrow but please consider it. I would hate to go there alone.’’

‘’I will consider it, good night Tom.’’

‘’Night love. Sleep well.’’

Chapter 8

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Fire on Ice

Summary; Tom Hiddleston is a vicious mob boss who is looking for his father’s killer, his reputation is depending on it and he won’t give up until he finds that man, and you my sweet little Y/N is the weirdest and the best thing that happened to him all his life.

Genre; Romance, smut is here, mob, gangs, slow-burn,

Pairings; Tom Hiddleston x F!Reader

Words; 2.835K

Warnings; Oral sex, vaginal sex, wrap it before you tap it! SMUT! fingering. 

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Chapter Six

Tom out did himself with this, he found people inside to do it. Before he came to America, New York he heard that there is an old black woman who gives jazz concerts at her house on every Saturday, it was for free but donations were accepted and since the concert takes place at her house the audience numbers were limited but he got in. He always admired Harlem and its culture of jazz and he wanted to share it with his girlfriend. As you two were climbing the stairs to this woman’s apartment he was explaining the concert, ‘’ Every Sunday for more than a decade, rain or shine, with no vacations, a jazz concert has taken place in the parlor of Marjorie Eliot's home on what she calls the northern tip of Harlem. Her weekly free concerts in the living room of her apartment are legendary in Harlem and an institution for jazz lovers citywide.’’ The concert takes place between 3:30 PM and 6PM, he was so giddy and child like that you couldn’t help but smile. You loved jazz music but no one took you to a jazz concert before so you didn’t know what to wear and ended up wearing a yellow sundress and comfortable shoes, Tom also looked comfortable with his blue shirt and jeans. His hair was pushed back, he had black sunglasses, –he took them of when you guys entered the building- ‘’You said there were no tickets to pay?’’ climbing the stairs was tiring because there wasn’t any elevator in the building, ‘’Yes, it’s for free but donations are highly appreciated. I’m planning on writing a check.’’ He shortly explained guiding you to the brown door, his large hand was on the small of your back. Oh the things you wanted his hands to do to you.. ever since that passionate kiss your mind was in the gutter.

It was a small flat with colorful furniture, only 20 people were inside, it felt like you entered a friend’s house who promised to give you a show, so warm and welcoming. You smiled at everyone you met and talked, before the concert began a young man offered you drinks and you didn’t say no. Tom surprised you actually, you never thought that he would take you somewhere like this place, driving hours away from his penthouse etc. You noticed that he was silent usually and observing his environment which was a good thing but when he wasn’t looking at you or his focus was somewhere else, you saw a grim shadow in his ocean eyes, something wanted to come out but Tom was pushing it far behind. He still didn’t give a proper explanation about the phone call and the thing he said but for today you didn’t want to ruin the mood, he did something nice for you.

When the lady of the house came to give the concert you and Tom sat on the light green couch, you’re back was on his chest so you couldn’t see his face but his hand was playing with your soft hair, you were both relaxed on the comfortable couch.

This woman’s voice was divine, it made you experience your soul on a new level, it brought you to places… holy. Tom was enjoying himself too, ‘’Do you like it?’’ he whispered, ‘’I loved it.’’ You said and turned to give him a kiss, his lips met yours like a missing part of the puzzle, you could smell the ice cream you guys ate before coming here, you had to pull away before things got heated, you were in public. Tom kept playing with your hair, if you were not too caught up in the moment and that woman’s divine voice, you would have noticed Tom kissing your head or smelling your sweet shampoo.

After the marvelous show Tom didn’t forget to write a check, you were waiting for him outside of the building, it was 6:45 PM and the sun was setting slowly, printing the walls of the streets with the red and orange colors and you allowed yourself to breathe deeply, your eyes were shut and you sent a message to the universe, ‘’Thank you for today.’’ Lately you felt lucky, it wasn’t just because of Tom, you had a bestie who always backed you up, you got good tips from your job and you were saving money, things were looking up for you.. or were they?

Tom came with a smile on his lips, he put his glasses on, ‘’Tom, Thank you so much! It was an amazing concert.’’ You started to walk hand in hand, his car was a bit far away from the building, ‘’I hope I made things up for you love. Yes, the concert was perfectly splendid.’’ You were swaying your hands together as you were walking, you felt safe and loved. His presence filled you with joy. ‘’Wait.’’ He said, he pulled his hand away and looked at you, since there was a height difference you had to look up to meet his black sunglasses, he held your shoulders and pushed you to a near wall, you thought he was going to kiss you but he told you to stay put and he backed away few steps, knelt on one knee and took a picture of you, you could feel the setting sun’s warmth on your cheeks, ‘’You look divine under the sun my love.’’ He said and showed you the picture, he was right, you looked happy. ‘’T- thank you.’’

Tom was losing his reason that’s for sure, he wanted to slap his face hard. ‘’What am I doing?’’

While he was driving you were on the passenger seat looking cute and trying to decide on a song, what bothered Tom was that the same car kept following him for hours, it was a black Toyota RAV4, a regular car. First time he saw the car he didn’t think much of it but as you guys were leaving Harlem the same car was behind you. In his line of work Tom knew that this wasn’t a good sign so without letting you know anything he called one of his workers, a fine man named George.

‘’Hello George, are you close to my house?’’ before he called George he suggested that you could listen music on your air-pods, he told you that he had to make a business call and you would get bored, you did what he told you. When he was sure that you weren’t listening to him he told George that he was being followed. He gave the license plate, it was unfortunate that he couldn’t see the driver because of the setting sun. ‘’I will get back to you in a second Sir. In the mean while please choose crowded roads.’’

You noticed that something was off, Tom looked displeased and on edge, ‘’What’s wrong?’’ you asked innocently, in these moments he just felt this urge to hold you and never let go, he cleared his throat, ‘’Work problems as usual. Nothing to worry about.’’ He kept checking the mirrors of the car and you noticed it. ‘’What kind of a work problem?’’ you asked.

‘’Should we get dinner and go to my place?’’ Tom suggested so that you would stop asking, he grew tired of lying to you, ‘’I have work tomorrow and its getting late.’’ Your voice came out sad, ‘’I can drop you off to work love. We can watch a movie and relax, together.’’ He sounded tempting, you said yes because he was an interesting man to be around and you definitely wanted to see his penthouse again.

Until you reached to his house Tom was too.. how should I put it? Scared? Annoyed? You didn’t know if it was because of you or his work problems, I mean if he didn’t want you right now he would suggest that you should go home. It started to rain outside and you guys were on the living room of the first floor watching Addams Family and eating pizza. You loved the Addams family because they were a perfect family, since you didn’t get to have that you consoled yourself with movies like this. ‘’I love this scene.’’ You said, at the beginning of the movie Gomez Addams says ‘’Look at her, I would die for her, I would kill for her. Either way what bliss.’’

‘’So you like their relationship?’’ Tom asked raising an eyebrow, ‘’Yes, don’t laugh at me but I’ve always wanted a relationship like theirs. Passion and their respect for each other.. the idea of giving yourself to someone completely. Sorry-‘’ you blushed deep red, ‘’No, keep going. Please.’’ Tom encouraged you to speak, ‘’I want a soul mate, someone to share the rest of my life with and be buried side by side.’’ You spoke eyes fixed on the big TV. Tom gently touched your chin to make you look into those soft ocean eyes, without saying anything he leaned in for a kiss, just like in a romantic movie you heard a thunder and the rain got worse, hitting the tall windows. As the kiss got heated you slithered towards him and sat on his lap, his large hands went to rest on your thighs, he was unsure of what to do, he needed consent before moving forward and when he looked into your Y/E/C eyes all the promises he made to himself about you jumped out of a window, ‘’Do you want this my love?’’ he asked. ‘’Yes, Tom, God, yes!’’

You kissed him deeply, tasting each other intimately, he started to massage your ass cheeks and thighs, your body had a mind of its own and was dry-humping Tom’s crotch, you could feel yourself getting wet and his semi-hard cock. He attacked your chin and neck, biting kissing. ‘’Bed? Or here?’’ he asked between kisses. ‘’Take me to your bed.’’ It was your first time with Tom and remembered his huge mirror on the ceiling of his bedroom. He bolted to his feet and you were still on his lap, he climbed the stairs with a speed you’ve never seen before, it made you laugh.  He gently laid you on the bed and took off his shirt, his pale chest excited you, he helped you get rid of your sundress, thankfully you had dark red matching underwear. His blue eyes got wide when he saw you in your sexy panties, ‘’You look so beautiful darling.’’ He climbed on top of you, as you were kissing his thin lips your hands moved to his black belt and you managed to take it off, he pushed his pants down with his boxer, his cock was free and aching. Pre-cum made the pink tips look shiny, you wanted to taste him first, ‘’Can I-‘’ you never asked something like this before, he was standing at the edge of the bed looking at your body and his hand lazily jerking himself off, ‘’Can what darling? Use your words.’’ His attitude became more dominant and it sent shivers down your spine. ‘’I want to taste you.’’ You knelt on his bed, came to the edge of it, ‘’As you wish.’’

You first kissed the tip of his cock, teasing him with light kisses, little licks here and there, his chest was moving up and down rapidly, when you took him in your mouth the animalistic growl he gave you made you moan and you pulled out, later took him in fully, he was big and juicy. His hand came to your hair, harshly pulled and started move your head for you, before this he was imagining to fuck your pretty sassy mouth and finally he got what he wanted. Your vision was getting blurry, he never hurt you but he wasn’t gentle either. You didn’t forget to pay attention to his balls, Gods he was huge! You could feel the vein of his cock in your mouth, ‘’S-stop!’’ he said out of breath, you though you did something wrong, ‘’I want to feel you Y/N. Please, I- I can’t stand it.’’ He confessed, you get the feeling that just like you, he have been dreaming this moment to come. He knelt to give you a kiss and tasted himself in your mouth, his scent on your body almost made him cum, he growled to stop.

He removed your bra and panties and without losing a second started to suck your nipples and give you kisses, you knew that you would have bruises on your boobs the next day. His hand came to play with your wet cunt and clit, you whimpered under his magic touch, ‘’Fuck darling, you’re so wet for me. Do you want me to fill you to the brim? Do you want that?’’ while he was talking to you with his low husky voice he kept playing with your cunt, the wet sounds sent blood to your cheeks, you wanted him so bade it made you look stupid. ‘’Yes, please Tom.’’ He positioned himself between your delicious thighs and he teased your entrance with his cock, he didn’t care that he had no condom and you seemed fine with it, he slowly pushed himself into your sleek folds, making you shiver and scream a little because it had been a while since you had sex and Tom was huge. 

‘’Shh, it’s okay. I’m here.’’ He pushed a strand of hair out of your face to look into your eyes, ‘’Look at me Y/N. Watch me as I fill you up.’’

It was the sexiest scene you saw your entire life, he was slow at first, breaking you open, when he was fully in your legs were shaking with lust, he kissed you to calm you down and pulled out completely, and then pushed back in, by now you got used to it, ‘’Move harder Tom.’’ You said but he looked uncertain, ‘’Please.’’ You added.

He liked the way you begged, it was a dangerous thing because he started to like every small thing you do. His heart was pounding, cheeks red, a thin layer of sweat covering you both and the wet sounds filled the big room. You looked up to the ceiling mirror and the way his back muscles moved made your cunt shrink, Tom moaned into your ear when you did that.

He was so beautiful that it brought tears to your eyes, you were mesmerized by the way he moves on top of you, so rough yet not hurting, you could feel he was close because his movements were sloppy now, ‘’C – can I cum in you?’’ he asked because he wasn’t sure.

‘’Yes, Tom please. Please just fill me with your seed.’’ Tom couldn’t believe his ears to hearing you say stuff like that. It was enough for him to send him over the edge, he spilled his seed into your used cunt like there was no tomorrow. Tom didn’t pull out, he laid on top of you, you could feel his seed in you, hot and wet. Both of you were panting hard, you could feel his frantic heartbeat, Tom knew that you didn’t get to cum so he pulled out and used his fingers. You were about to say that it was okay, you could do it later but he shushed you by pressing his lips and his long fingers were in you. Soon you came undone, hot wave of ecstasy washing your body, he didn’t stop fingering you though, ‘’That’s it, keep it going love. I know you can.’’ With his fingers and his mouth on yours you came again.

When you fell asleep in his arms Tom was wide awake, thinking of what you guys did, was it a mistake? Should he break up with you and find your connection to his dad’s killer in different ways? He watched you sleep, you were an angle and he couldn’t bring himself to think that you had a part in his bloody business. He slowly left the bed and went downstairs to his office, his George called him to inform that the owner of that car who followed him today was a member of the Queens clan. Later he got a phone call, he wasn’t going to answer it because it was an unknown number but he thought that it could be work related.

‘’Hello?’’

‘’Hello Tom. Welcome to my city.’’ A rich tone of a woman’s voice came from the other side of the phone, ‘’I’m sorry, who is this?’’ Tom had a scotch in one hand, watching the city through the big window, it was dark and rainy, just like his home.

‘’We will meet soon, don’t worry about that. What you should worry about is that,’’ she stopped for a second maybe she wanted to choose her words carefully, ‘’If she gets hurt I’m paid to kill you, and I won’t hesitate.’’ Before Tom could reply she hung up the phone.

Chapter 7

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Fire on Ice

Summary; Tom Hiddleston is a vicious mob boss who is looking for his father’s killer, his reputation is depending on it and he won’t give up until he finds that man, and you my sweet little Y/N is the weirdest and the best thing that happened to him all his life.

Genre; Romance, smut in the future, mob, gangs, slow-burn,

Pairings; Tom Hiddleston x F!Reader

Words; 1.668K

Warnings; First Kiss OMG! 

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Chapter Five

‘’So have you guys did it?’’ Benedict asked Tom, they were having a face time call, Tom rolled his eyes, thankfully Benedict couldn’t see the pink dust on his cheeks right now. It had been 20 days since he met you and whenever you guys got together he had this ache in his heart and his pants. He was sad to use you like this but also you looking at him with those innocent eyes turned him on. He promised himself that he won’t go that far in this relationship, as soon as he learned your role in his father’s murder he would let you go but he pushed that thought away for now. ‘’What do you mean Ben?’’ he asked like he didn’t understand Ben’s intention, ‘’Oh my God, you still haven’t shagged her? Really! Least you can do is to have fun mate.’’ Ben said laughing. Tom shrugged his broad shoulders, it was a Friday night, he had a long day of meetings and trying to find the boss of the clan Queens. He had no luck.

‘’How was your day?’’ Tom asked to change the subject and they talked for 2 hours before Benedict said goodbye, he warned his friend again, that’s what friends are for right?

‘’Tom, looking at your face tells me that you feel guilty so leave her alone. Find another ways to solve your problem. Good night my friend.’’

He was in knee deep in this situation, he stood up to get another glass of scotch and then another and another. Next thing he knew he was getting his phone to call you in the middle of the night.

You were trying to sleep when Tom called you. ‘’Hello Tom?’’ you sounded annoyed because it was 3 at night. You had a long shift and all day he was too busy to call you, that’s what you guessed. ‘’Hello love.’’ He sounded strange, ‘’I’m sorry I, I busy, busy with work-‘’ he was trying to apologies and you realized that he was drunk. ‘’Have you been drinking?’’

‘’Just a little,’’ his accent and innocent tone of his voice made you giggle. ‘’What are you drinking?’’ you sit straight on your bed, ‘’S-some scotch, I’m sorry, so sorry sorry s- ‘’ you made him stop. ‘’It’s okay Tom. You can make it up to me by taking me out tomorrow.’’ You suggested, he sighed, ‘’I love your voice,’’ Tom confessed, ‘’your hair, it smells soooo goooood.’’ You had some doubts about him, it had only been 20 days but he never even tried to kiss you. In these 20 days you could only see him for 6 times because he was always busy, however he never tried to kiss you and you started to take that personally. Right now he sounded sure of himself and you felt the spark again, ‘’I love your hair too,’’ you said can’t help but imagining his face, ‘’It’s golden and gives you a warm look.’’

‘’What? So you like my face too?’’ for some reason he sounded shocked, ‘’It’s late Tom. Go to bed.’’ You said yawning, ‘’If, uh, if we’d met in another life,’’ he stopped for a second, you could hear him walking the stairs to his bedroom, ‘’I think things could have been different.’’ You felt a cold breeze hit your body, what was he trying to say? Did you do something wrong? ‘’Tom, are you alright?’’ you didn’t hear anything but his snoring. You hanged up the phone in confusion and since you were already awake you stood up to get some water, all night you sat in the living room and watched your street.

Next morning as soon as Tom woke up he sent you a morning text, even though you were wide awake you didn’t text him back. The sentence he formed last night still ringed in your ears, you didn’t expect him to sense your anxiety. When it was lunch time he called you but you didn’t answer the phone, first of all you were outside grocery shopping which meant you were busy and second you didn’t want to talk about what’s in your mind over the phone. You thought you deserve an ice cream and on your way home you got chocolate chip cookie ice cream and walked to your flat. The door wasn’t locked so you thought Sam was home but what you saw surprised you.

Tom fucking Hiddleston was greeting you in your house, he was in your living room, sitting, legs crossed and waiting for you in silence. ‘’Tom?’’ you asked in disbelief. He didn’t look happy. ‘’Your roommate let me in and left. He seems nice.’’ Tom’s voice came out harsher than he thought, all day he tried to talk to you, he wanted to hear your voice but you kept ignoring him. You put the bags in the kitchen and came back, ‘’Why didn’t you text me back or called me?’’ he asked demanding an answer, you were standing, there was a distance between you two. You crossed your arm, ‘’Do you remember last night?’’ you replied with a question. ‘’Yes, I called you and we talked and then I fell asleep. You are ignoring me, why is that?’’ his golden eye brows knitted, his tin lips were tight,  a flat line. ‘’You said something last night Tom, do you remember?’’

He sighed heavily, ‘’No, I don’t remember much.’’ He tried to go back to last night but all he remembered was talking to Ben and then talking to you a little. ‘’Have I offended you?’’

You didn’t want to beat around the bush no longer, ‘’ You said that if we met in another life things could have been different. What does that mean? If you don’t want to be with me why don’t you say it to my face? I couldn’t sleep last night because of you!’’ This was the first time you raised your voice at him, he seemed surprised. 

He stood up to walk towards you and hold your hands 

but you took a step back, you were close to the dirty white wall behind you, ‘’What did you mean Tom? Go on, speak.’’

‘’Do not doubt my affections towards you my love. They’re true and valid. I like you Y/N.’’ his ocean blue eyes were soft and he literally had the look of a puppy.

‘’I doubt you Tom! Because,’’ you stopped for a second, choosing your words carefully but his minty fresh scent and few buttons of his shirt was open, his visible chest made you stutter and you hated yourself. You wanted this man to do unspeakable, border line illegal things to you but of course you couldn’t give in, instead you choose a different approach. ‘’Why don’t you kiss me?’’ you asked, too bad your voice came out broken and offended, ‘’Why don’t you hold me like lovers do?’’ you swallowed your cry.

If you knew what goes through Tom’s mind right now you would scream and never look back. Tom felt his entire soul breaking into little pieces and crushing to the floor, he hated himself for saying something like that, he hated the fact that he was using you to fix his problem and he hated his entire existence. He didn’t deserve a woman like you, you deserved to be worshipped and showered with unconditional love, you didn’t deserve to be dragged into his dark world which only consisted of blood and betrayal. Benedict was right, he should never let this happen in the first place, he knew you were having an inner battle of fighting your tears, you looked so innocent and loving that he couldn’t do this to you anymore. He prepared a small break up speech in his mind exhaled a deep breath but he found himself leaning in and kissing your soft lips.

You were startled at first, didn’t expected him to take the first step but soon you gave in. He pressed you against the wall, at first the kiss was like a touch of a shy maiden but when you moaned into his mouth he couldn’t keep himself straight and he poured every emotion into the kiss. He was angry, sad and happy all at once, angry because he couldn’t control himself, sad because underneath this fake façade you were oblivious of his true intentions, and finally he was happy because after days of wanting to taste your pretty mouth now he got you cornered and he got you all to himself. His one hand cupped your cheek, wet kissing sounds filled the living room, you were desperate for his touch and you let him touch your face, hair.

When you guys heard the entrance door open Tom pulled away, both of you were out of breath, cheeks red, lips puffy and eyes blown wide. You rested your hands at the back, touching the cold wall to calm yourself, Tom was lost in your beautiful colored eyes, you were a piece of art, or so he thought.

‘’Damn girl I had it today-‘’ Sam walked into the room with his colorful clothes and bags, ‘’Oh, I’m sorry I didn’t know-‘’

Tom smiled kindly, ‘’It’s okay Sam,’’ you could still see his heaving chest and it made you smirk. ‘’I have to rush home but can we talk later?’’ Tom suggested looking at you again, ‘’Sure.’’

You walked him to the door, before he disappeared he stole another passionate kiss from you, ‘’See you tomorrow?’’ he asked daring to hope. ‘’See you tomorrow.’’ You replied with a grin.

On his way home he had this stupid grin written on his face, he pushed his dark thoughts at the back of his skull, right now all he cared about was you and the way you kissed him back. Tom never felt like this before in his entire life, why? He couldn’t give an answer. When he got back to his penthouse he decided to cook for himself and plan a date for tomorrow.

Chapter 6

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Fire on Ice

Summary; Tom Hiddleston is a vicious mob boss who is looking for his father’s killer, his reputation is depending on it and he won’t give up until he finds that man, and you my sweet little Y/N is the weirdest and the best thing that happened to him all his life.

Genres; Romance, smut in the future, mob, gangs, slow-burn,

Pairings; Tom Hiddleston x F!Reader

Words; 2.073K

Warnings; +18, male masturbation, dirty thoughts. 

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Chapter Four

You waited for him but he didn’t come early and your body was begging you to sleep so you climbed the wooden stairs, you didn’t want to use the elevator –yes he had a elevator in his house- like he said there were multiple bedrooms, at the end of the long hall there were 2 bedrooms which looked children’s bedroom so you skipped that section and turned your left. One of the doors was open you walked in, it was his bedroom. You hit the yellow lights, the bed was white, had black curtains on the tall windows, there was a wall to wall closet, you noticed the big mirror on the ceiling and felt your cheeks go warm with dirty thoughts, you could smell his perfume, everything look neat and tidy. You had a wicked idea, you took off your clothes, put them on the single couch next to the tall window, opened his closet to find an over-sized shirt. You saw a white one and wore it, the shirt covered your ass, it was like a dress. You went to his bathroom to wash your face and go to bed and the bathroom was iconic. Floors and walls were white marble which had grey tones in it, there was a shower and a bathtub. You decided to take a quick shower because you smelled like booze and smokes. He didn’t have much products in the shower, just a shampoo and body wash and his bath sponge. His body wash smelled like pine trees and mint, you felt fresh, you wrapped yourself with the big white towel, the rest of the house looked like a hotel but his room smelled like him, after drying your body you wore that shirt again and climbed the bed, it was big. You were hesitant because what if he comes and sees you in his bed just now and gets angry? After all you didn’t know each other for a long time, you felt your eyes get heavy and fell asleep, you couldn’t hear  the ring tone of your text messages, you were too tired.

It was 3.30 at night when Tom came back, he noticed there was no sound in the house, maybe you left? Why did he feel sad when he thought of that possibility, he climbed the stairs and saw the kitchen and dining room empty, he climbed to his 3rd floor and saw his bedroom door wide open. The yellow light coming from the hall was enough so he walked in and saw you sleeping in his bed. He silently took of his jacket and shoes, he sat on the edge of the bed and looked at your sleeping frame. Your chest was moving up and down in harmony, your hair looked damp and he could smell his scent on you, he took a deep breath to calm himself, he felt his boxer got tight.

‘’Who are you?’’ he found himself whisper to the air, he stood up to take a shower, he was being silent in order to not wake you up because you looked tired earlier and it look like you needed a long sleep. When he was in the shower he thought if Benedict was right, he was Tom’s best friend and they knew everything about each other, his eyes were closed, forehead resting on the cold shower wall, warm water running down his body and an image came to his mind, it was an image of you taking a shower here hours ago. He couldn’t help but imagine you naked and washing your body, humming a tune. His bath sponge was wet before he walked in the shower so you must have used it, he imaged your hands using it to rub your boobs, coming down to your belly and between your legs, his hand went to his semi hard cock, this mental image got dirtier as the seconds went. He imagined you resting your back on the glass of the shower and using the sponge to pleasure yourself, soaking in his scent. Moaning his name like a prayer, Tom was touching himself, pre cum dripping from his pink tip, he tried to keep his whimpers and moans quiet. The thought of getting caught by you turned him on even more, he imagined you listening to him jerking off and whispering your name and you walking into the shower, getting on your knees for him and taking his length in your sassy mouth. Eyes on him and only him, that image pushed him out of the edge and he came in his big hand, hard. He had to rest on the wall, as he came down from his high he cleaned everything and left the shower, that white towel you used before was hanging on his waist. He caught a glimpse of his flushed face in the foggy mirror, he was ashamed of what he just did.

 The Next Morning

You could feel the morning sun on your face, to be honest you haven’t slept this good in a while. You stretched you arms and legs in bed and rubbed your eyes. You saw Tom’s clothes from last night on the couch next to yours, you looked in bed but he wasn’t here, ‘’Where did he sleep?’’ you questioned. You left the bed and washed your face, took your phone to see any updates and you saw Jack’s text. You though he was going to ask you out again but it looked like a serious text.

‘’We have to talk. Meet me at your bar tonight. It’s important.’’

You never got a text from Jack like this before so you decided to call him, you were afraid something bad happened to him. He didn’t pick up the phone. You left your phone and walked outside, the house was silent except the sounds coming from the kitchen downstairs.

Tom was there fixing breakfast for you, ‘’Morning!’’ you said with a low tone, he turned to face you, he only had grey pants, his chest was bare. ‘’Oh no, I was going to surprise you.’’ He protested throwing his hands in the air, ‘’Sorry.’’ As soon as he saw your face he remembered last night and his cheeks got pink, thank God you looked clueless. He came to kiss your forehead, it became a thing of his which made you smile. ‘’I made you proper English breakfast darling.’’ You looked to see, there were 2 plates filled with bacon, eggs, cooked beans, roasted tomatoes, cooked mushrooms and let’s not forget the blood sausages. ‘’Where did you find blood sausages?!’’ they looked disgusting but you didn’t want to say anything, this man let you sleep in his house last night and made you breakfast the next morning, you felt spoiled. ‘’There is a butcher I found. You should try it.’’ You helped him placing everything on the dining table, it was early in the morning so the view of the city was foggy, you took a sip from the orange juice and moaned, it was delicious, ‘’I made it myself.’ Tom said, he looked proud, ‘’Damn Hiddleston. You are a catch.’’ He rolled his eyes, the breakfast was delicious and you liked the blood sausages, ‘’Can I hire you to cook for me like every day?’’ you asked mouth full, he chuckled, ‘’I’m too pricy love.’’ You thought of ways to pay him but quickly pulled yourself together. It wasn’t just you who was thinking stuff like that, his mind was in the gutter too, you had a strange chemistry with Tom, unfortunately neither of you took a step at the moment, maybe both of you thought that it was too early, he looked like a traditional man so maybe he wanted to get to know you better before he sealed the deal. You didn’t know why you were hesitating though, ‘’Everything was delicious Tom, thank you.’’ You insisted that you wash the dishes and he went to his room to change, he told you that he had a meeting. While you were in the kitchen he found your phone and decided to do a little research. He saw the text Jack sent you, he remembered Jack, he had the tattoo which belongs to the Queens gang. He had an idea, he texted Jack like it was you texting, ‘’Hey Jack, can you meet me early today? I will send you the address, don’t be late. 😉’’ Tom wanted to throw up, he never liked this guy but in order to learn who you are and why the gang is protecting you he had to do it. He sent Jack an address and deleted all the texts. It was a risky thing to do. Tom left the phone where he found it and got dressed, before he left he checked it again and saw that Jack already read the text but didn’t text back, his plan was working fine.

Later Tom drove you to your flat, he looked tense but you didn’t want to comment on it, it was probably related to his work.

 Tom sent Jack an address of an abandoned house on the outskirts of the city, he knew Jack would come because he wanted to bone Y/N, the thought of it made him shiver in disgust. He was outside of the abandoned house, actually it was a beautiful place. The house had two floors and a big terrace, a big yard which was covered with wild plants, the color of the house dark red, windows were broken, it had a unique beauty to it, one day he would love to have a house like that to raise his children with- he stopped his train of thoughts when he saw Jack parking his bike. He looked puzzled, Tom stood up from the wooden stairs and came down, ‘’Hello Jack. I’m Tom Hiddleston, you probably don’t remember me but I do. I have some questions for you.’’ There was a distance between them, Jack pulled out a cigar, ‘’I’ve heard the name. News travel faster than you think Mr. Hiddleston.’’ He had a cocky look and Tom wanted to punch him, ‘’Want one?’’ Jack showed the cigars, ‘’Yes, thank you.’’

Tom wanted to gain his trust, Jack lit his cigar and together they sat on the wooden stairs of the terrace entrance, ‘’What do you want?’’ Jack asked, his tattooed fingers playing with the smoke, ‘’Information, my friend. I can pay you in return.’’ Tom was a man of his word, ‘’If my clan finds out I’m her with you they’ll hang me for treason.’’ Tom knew how the clans, gangs worked, he ignored Jack’s comment. ‘’Why is the clan protecting her?’’ he asked without saying a name, he was testing the waters, ‘’You mean Y/N?’’ Tom simply nodded and took a long drag from his cigar, ‘’No one knows but the boss. All I know is me and some of the clan members have to be around her work place and apartment man, I’m new here. They told me to gain her trust and she is hard one to crack.’’ Tom appreciated the honesty, Jack was much younger than Tom and he was new in the clan like he said, he still had a chance to fix his life and live with his own rules. ‘’Listen kid,’’ he thought better of what to say, ‘’I’m not here to hurt a woman, I give you my word. Where can I find your boss?’’ Jack’s brown eyes were fixed at a place at distance, his long hair was pushed back, he had a certain sadness to those brown eyes, like he witnessed something horrible and it left a scar to carry for the rest of his life.

‘’She will find you when she wants.’’ He stood up to leave, ‘’Wait,’’ Tom touched his arm to make him stop, he pulled out a check worth 30 thousand dollars, ‘’you seem like a nice kid, leave this town before it’s too late. I’m afraid one day your clan and I.. we will be enemies and I wouldn’t like to kill a young, bright man like you.’’ It was a lie, deep down he wanted Jack to be gone from Y/N’s life.

‘’Thank you man. I won’t forget this.’’ Jack took the check, and left. Tom finished smoking and threw the bud of the cigar on the ground, pressed it with the heel of his shoe. Now Jack was out of the way he had to find this she boss of the clan Queens. 

Chapter 5

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Fire on Ice

Summary; Tom Hiddleston is a vicious mob boss who is looking for his father’s killer, his reputation is depending on it and he won’t give up until he finds that man, and you my sweet little Y/N is the weirdest and the best thing that happened to him all his life.

Genre; Romance, smut in the future, mob, gangs, slow-burn,

Pairings; Tom Hiddleston x F!Reader

Words; 2.291K

Warnings; Catcalling. Tom saving the day.

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Chapter Three

After your first date with a gentleman named Tom Hiddleston you came home to see your bestie waiting for you, you told him everything and he literally got jealous. This was the first time in your life you felt like this, like a high schooler, like a fool but you didn’t complain. Now it was easy for you to wake up early in the morning and see Tom’s morning texts, or receiving flowers he keeps sending you, now every corner in your has had a colorful flower, you felt like this was a dream, too good to be true and you had this strange gut feeling. You shook your head and kept working, it was 9pm and the bar was louder than usual, there was a stupid match on TV, you didn’t care because the tips were insane tonight. Whenever there was a match you would wear a nice short skirt to show your legs and a tight blouse, using your body for extra tips never bothered you because essentially men were dumb. You had red lips and red long nails, you saved enough to get your nails done and tonight you looked like a femme fatal character, wearing make-up and heels, getting your nails done always gave you some kind of power which you couldn’t explain but you loved it.

‘’Can we get another round?!’’ a man asked and you kindly smiled, ‘’Of course.’’ You went back to get 5 beers, you felt your phone vibrate and without your boss realizing you looked at your phone, Tom was calling. You declined the call and sent him a quick text,

‘’Can’t talk. I’m working.’’

After sometime you got deaf to the catcalling and you got blind to those hungry looks men give you, you just did your job as usual, ‘’Hey mama, why don’t you come over here.’’ You rolled your eyes, ‘’Anything you would like to order?’’ you looked at the young man, his green eyes roamed on your body, you didn’t care. ‘’My boy here,’’ he pointed to his left, his friend was sitting there, ‘’he wants to know if you’re single.’’

‘’Do you want to order anything?’’ you asked like you didn’t hear his question, ‘’I guess you didn’t hear me sweet cheeks, are you single?!’’ he looked like he has a short temper, you gazed around to see your boss because he usually dealt with things like this but he was nowhere to be seen, your palms were getting sweaty, you hated them and their audacity. ‘’What does that have to do with-‘’ you heard your name being called from behind you and you saw two baby blue eyes approaching to the table. You noticed a silent rage building on those ocean eyes, ‘’Hello love.’’ He said when he stood right in front of you and kissed your cheek, his thin lips made your skin tingle, his hand was on your waist, holding you tightly. ‘’Heyy,’’ you looked startled because after texting him that you were working you didn’t accept him to show up at the bar. ‘’Is there a problem here?’’ he looked at the two men who made you uncomfortable, Tom’s tall and menacing frame made them stutter, ‘’Didn’t think so.’’ And he guided you away from that table. ‘’Are you alright?’’ he held your shoulders gently and ran his hands up and down, ‘’Yeah, I’m fine. What are you doing here?’’  

‘’I wanted to see you, it’s been a while.’’ Tom said looking into your eyes, you didn’t want to give in to those ocean eyes, ‘’It’s only been 5 days Tom. Actually I wanted to talk to you about something. Can you wait till my shift ends? It will take an hour, I’m not closing tonight.’’ Tom looked tense, ‘’Have I done something wrong?’’ he asked himself in his mind, he never forgot to text you good morning and good night messages, every day he sent you a new type of flowers, he called you when he could but he was a busy man and he had to manage his business from far away, he had to make phone calls etc.

‘’No problem. I’ll wait here.’’ He pointed a table with a single chair, ‘’Let me get you a beer.’’ You said and vanished quickly.

An hour felt like an eternity to Tom, he kept on thinking what he did wrong, he remembered mentioning his ‘’brilliant’’ idea to Benedict and he could still hear the way Ben laughed on the phone for minutes. ‘’You can’t do it Tom, you are not built for a fake relationship.’’ His friend said frankly, ‘’It’s for a purpose you idiot. Imagine it like a work thing.’’ Tom protested, ‘’So you’re gonna shower your work ‘’thing’’ with love and affection and fuck her and at the same time learn her connection with your dad’s killer? Stop this, text her why you can’t be with her and be done with it. Mark my words, you will regret this decision.’’

He rolled his eyes and finished his tall glass beer, he saw you coming towards him with your bag and jacket hanging on your arm, you looked stunningly beautiful and he cursed under his breath, why did you have to be this beautiful and charming and smart.

‘’The bar is still crowded, if you want we can talk in my car.’’ He suggested, ‘’Here is fine.’’ You simply replied and pulled a chair to sit right across him, it was a tight place and your knees were touching, the fabric of his pants were silk, it felt smooth, ‘’I hope this isn’t a break up Y/N.’’ Tom said with a hint of hurt in his voice, and you hated yourself for making him wait, you didn’t want to break things off. ‘’No! God no, I just wanted to tell you that you can stop sending me flowers every day. You don’t have to buy me things every single day Tom, It makes me feel weird.’’ You explained quickly, poor man waited for you for an hour and expected a break up speech, you could feel your heart shatter.

He brought his hand to his chest, exhaled the breath he was holding, ‘’Woman, you scared me.’’ You threw your head back and laughed, ‘’Shantay you stay Tom but watch your steps.’’ You said jokingly and he held your hand on the table, ‘’I shall.’’

He asked you if you were hungry and you realized that didn’t eat anything today, you had to run some errands outside and came to work, -maybe falling in love made you forget eating, you pushed that thought away, it was too early to say that- he suggested that you could go to his place and order something, you were hesitant because it was getting late but you also wanted to see the place he calls home. He saw your hesitation in you Y/E/C eyes and gave you a reassuring smile, ‘’Don’t worry I won’t bite.’’ It made you laugh.

The car ride to his house was comfortably silent, you were so tired and hungry that you just laid the side of your weary head on the cold window of his Jaguar and watched the road. He was driving to the part of the city where you’ve never been, it was nice to see the people and lights.

You didn’t know that this motherfucker lived in a penthouse, he said he rented it because he intended to go back to his home land. It was a 78 floor penthouse, he only had 3 floors.

When he saw the curious look in your eyes he wanted to give you a house tour and you gladly accepted it. The first floor had gas fire place, it was black and white, French doors were opening to a big terrace and you could see the city lights and buildings, it was like living in the clouds. The living room area had a big white L shaped couch, a big plant –kinda looks like a tree- standing at the corner, there was a steel cased barn doors which opened to the secondary seating area. As you were holding your high heels in hand and walking with big eyes, taking each and every object in he ordered some food. He showed you his office area, brown couch with black and brown pillows, a brown desk which looked neat and shiny, there were some papers which were flipped over, books shelves in each side, the view from his office was amazing, if you had this office you would only drink coffee and look outside. You noticed that the primary colors were black, white and brown in this house, maybe he didn’t like colorful things much. The hallway led you to grand dining area and stairs to the second floor and you climbed the stairs, Tom was behind you.

The second floor had the kitchen and informal dining area, the kitchen had natural black and white stoned counter tops, everything was clean like a 5 star hotel, nothing looked touched, this wasn’t a home just fancy place for him to hang out and then leave when the time comes. ‘’The bedrooms are upstairs.’’ He said but you didn’t want to overstep a boundary so you decided to settle on the informal dining area,  white L shaped couch, black and white pillows, a white marble table with 3 chairs. There was a TV close by but from where you’re sitting you could get a nice view of the city. Tom took of his jacket and put it on one of the chairs, he rolled up his sleeves, ‘’I’ve ordered Panda Express. I hope you like it.’’ You took off your jacket too, ‘’I can eat anything. I’m starving, today was so busy that I forgot to eat. Can you believe that?’’ you were venting about your life and noticed Tom’s utter shock in his pale face, ‘’What do you mean you forgot to eat?’’ he asked concerned, ‘’I do that sometimes, life you know, it’s busy.’’ You shrugged your shoulders, ‘’From now on,’’ he sat next to you on the couch, it was so soft and comfortable you could fall asleep on it in a second, ‘’I’ll make you remember to eat.’’ He was doing exercises and long runs every day so staying healthy was important to him and he wanted Y/N to be healthy too, she looked tired and he didn’t want anything bad to happen to her. He pushed a hair behind her ear when the door rang.

It was entertaining to watch you eat because unlike other women you weren’t a shy eater, you didn’t care if you had a sauce on your cheeks and due to not eating all day you were like a wolf. Tom usually went on dates with women who are from his dangerous business or models so he watched all of them order water and salad so seeing you being free and not giving a shit made him smile, you were an interesting person. You were talking about the book you were reading and he watched your eyes lit up, listened to you talking passionately about something that you enjoy and he thought that Benedict might be right, it was hard to remember his actual role in this relationship because deep down he was being drawn to you every time you meet. ‘’The book sounds interesting, don’t tell me the ending, I want to read it.’’ He said, ‘’I can lend it to you if you want.’’ You blurted out and regretted it, this man was rich enough to rent a penthouse, why would he get a used book from you?

‘’That would be great Y/N. Thank you, you are so kind.’’ Tom smiled ear to ear, you were both done with eating and to relax he poured a glass of red wine, he got a call from one of his workers so had to leave the dining room.

You stood up and fixed your clothes, you were wondering whether he was waiting for sex or not, you weren’t sure if you were ready for it, after all you only had one date with him and now you’re in his house. You could feel your finger tips getting colder, it was a nervous thing of yours, Tom went downstairs to talk and when he came back his face looked disturbed and angry. The way he walked towards you made you shiver, he was tall, tall indeed.

‘’Y/N, God I’m so sorry. One of my workers called, something important came up, I, I-‘’

He looked really sorry, ‘’You have to leave I understand.’’ You checked your watch, it was 12.45 at night, ‘’Yes, I have to leave. I’m so sorry, I’ll make this up for you.’’ You bolted to your feet, since he had to leave there was no point of you staying in his house, it would be weird. ‘’What are you doing?’’ he asked knitting his golden eye brows, ‘’I should leave too. My roommate Sam, he is probably waiting for me.’’ You lied, he wore his jacket with a quick movement, came to stand in front of you, ‘’Please stay, I’m sure it’ll only take an hour or so, if you’re tired you can go upstairs pick a bedroom and rest. It’s late and I don’t want you to go out.’’

‘’But-‘’ you wanted to protest, he held your shoulders like he did before and his hands were warm, he gave you  his sweetest smile, ‘’Please, stay. I will be back.’’ Before he left he planted a quick kiss on your forehead and left in haste, you didn’t expect him to kiss your forehead, like a husband leaving for work… he took his keys and left.

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Fire on Ice

Summary; Tom Hiddleston is a vicious mob boss who is looking for his father’s killer, his reputation is depending on it and he won’t give up until he finds that man, and you my sweet little Y/N is the weirdest an best thing that happened to him all his life.

Genre; Romance, smut in the future, mob, gangs, slow-burn, 

Warnings; None.

Words; 2.448K

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A/n; Hi guys. Thank you for liking the story. It gets interesting I promise you. Sorry for any typos.  I will try to upload every 5 days. 

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Chapter Two

‘’This is me.’’ You said as Tom parked his car outside of your apartment, you could hear a man screaming and a baby crying. ‘’Thank you Tom. Good night.’’ You said and took your bag, ‘’Good night Y/N.’’ Tom didn’t like this neighborhood not one bit, it didn’t look safe at all and the screams he heard proved him right, his long fingers wrapped on steering wheel tightly, you walked out of his car and headed to your apartment building. You hoped to see him tomorrow but he looked like he didn’t live close to your bar, why would he travel all the way to come to the bar you work at? He looked like an important business man and he could go to expensive luxurious clubs. You sighed as you walked into the house, it was silent. Your roommate was either asleep or outside getting into trouble. You took off your sweaty clothes and decided to take a quick shower before bed. You had to share the shower and thanks to your obsession with cleaning and your roommate being gay  the shower was always spotless. Your mind went back to the moment when you met Tom few hours ago, he was tall, not too muscular but he had a fit body, you caught his baby blue eyes travelling to your chest once or twice and it excited you. Deep down you knew he will never be interested in you but… that but hanged in your mind.

Tom was at his penthouse when he got a phone call from his long time friend Benedict. They were friends for years and Benedict promised to help him find his dad’s killer. ‘’Please tell me you got good news.’’ Tom said, his voice came out a tired plea, he sat on his black puffy couch, had a scotch in one hand. ‘’Good news brother! I’ve found something.’’ He straightened his frame on the couch, ‘’The Queens clan was paid by him to protect someone. He paid 2 million in cash for 2 years protection. My resource says that the man promised when 2 years agreement is successful he’ll pay for more.’’

Tom remembered that bald man who said the killer of his father is protecting someone. ‘’Who does he want to protect? One of his accomplice?’’

‘’A woman. It gets interesting, I’ve found who she is and she doesn’t even work for any clan or gang. I’ll send you info on her.’’

‘’Thank you Ben. See you when I come back to London.’’ Tom opened his laptop, Benedict had already sent him a file via e-mail.

‘’Let’s see who you are.’’

When Tom clicked on the file, he had to stop for a moment and take it all in, ‘’Y/N Y/L/N…’’ he breathed, this was the woman he met tonight. Info on her was short, only her name, phone number, home address and where she works. ‘’Who are you Y/N?!’’ he had to make a smart plan to draw her in and get her to talk but how? He couldn’t just kidnap her and make her talk with torture, he promised his father that he would never harm a child or a woman. The gears in his brain were working, he finished his drink and placed the glass on the coffee table rather harshly, he was tired and he needed to rest before making any important decision.

The Next Morning, you woke up early as usual to do a  10 min morning yoga, even though your life was shitty you wanted to make time for yourself in the mornings, you could hear Sam crashing things in the kitchen, you loved him but he irritated you sometimes.. like a lot.

‘’Morning Sam.’’ You walked to the kitchen to make yourself a small breakfast, ‘’Morning girlie.’’ He looked hangover but that never stopped him from being nice and smiling to you, he was a great friend and you get to pay half the price of the bills and rent. As you put the milk in the bowl the door was knocked and Sam rushed to the door, ‘’If that’s your shitty ex I’m beating his ass!’’ you yelled from the kitchen which made Sam laugh, his ex started to come to your door to make up with him. Sam, came back with a shocked expression on his golden colored face, he was a handsome Spanish man.

‘’Girlll these are for you!’’ he showed you the bouquet of red roses, you looked puzzled, ‘’For me?’’ you asked in confusion. Sam snatched the black card and read out loud, ‘’Thank you for listening to me and making me laugh. I wish to hear from you, a coffee perhaps? Thomas William Hiddleston, here is my phone number.’’

When Sam finished reading you started to cough, you almost chocked on your cereal. ‘’Who is this gentleman and tell me if he has friends like him, ASAP.’’ You reached for the blood red roses to smell, you closed your eyes and inhaled the sweet scent deeply, you told Sam about what happened last night and to be honest he was more excited than you are, you were just shocked and it had been a while since you went on a date with someone. ‘’What should I do?’’ you asked Sam he cupped your cheeks and made you look at him, ‘’Take a leap of faith sis, he seems like a nice guy.’’ With that you felt this energy, it made you braver than usual and you took the card, dialed his number first but then decided to text him, maybe he was working and you didn’t want to interrupt him.

‘’Hello Tom, I’m Y/N. Thank you for sending me these lovely roses, I love them. Coffee sounds great.’’  You read it out loud for Sam to approve and then sent it, you put your phone on the white table.

Sam had to leave for work aka meeting his sugar daddy, when he told you that he had a sugar daddy you never judged him because this is a cruel world and we do what we have to in order to survive and you wished the best for Sam, he deserved shiny things in life just like everyone else. To take your mind off your current situation you did a little cleaning and reading, your shift was at night so you had time for yourself. You were caught up in your book when your phone made a sound, when you saw Tom’s number you dropped the book.

‘’Hi, thank you for texting me Y/N,  I do apologies, I was working and couldn’t return to your text immediately.  Hope you have time for coffee  and chat right now. I can come and pick you up.’’

You felt your heart racing, palms getting sweaty, like right now? You didn’t know what to write, he texted after a minute of pause.

‘’If that’s okay with you of course.’’

He really wanted to see you then, that’s what you deduced.

‘’Yes I have time. My shift starts late, send me the address and I’ll come.’’

You didn’t want him to be your personal chauffer and it was your first date. You jumped from your couch and ran to your bedroom, it was going to be a casual coffee date so you didn’t want to overdo the outfit. You opened your closet, threw your clothes to your bed, it was a warm day, you picked a baby blue sundress which had white flowers on it. It was 1.45 pm.

He sent you the address and you left your building.

Tom came up with a plan when he woke up today, he was going to date you and help you open up to him and get info. He never did something like this before, it was border line unethical and he hated himself for it but his priority was to find the man who killed his father and if he had to date you for it then he wouldn’t hesitate but why did he have a bitter taste in his mouth? He was working from home because his ‘’business’’ was in London, he ordered some roses for you he choose them himself. He wasn’t too optimistic but later you accepted his proposal and for a split second he forgot that he was doing this for a purpose, he felt this warm feeling on his chest, when he remembered… he breathed heavily. And now he was sitting on a chair at a cozy coffee shop waiting for you, he came early to find a nice spot for you to relax and feel safe. Waitress came to get his order but he declined and told the young woman that he was waiting for a friend, she smiled and lingered for few seconds and then left to get someone else’s order. He looked at his silver watch, as a business man he never liked waiting for things, including people. He realized he was moving his leg in anxiety so he stopped, he never felt nervous like this before, and he saw you opening the glass door and walking. You had a baby blue dress which wrapped your beautiful body perfectly and shoved all of the delicious curves, he shook his head to keep this professional but as you approached to him with a small smile tugged at your red lips he couldn’t help but smile back. He bolted to his feet so that he could help you with your chair, ‘’Hi, thank you Tom.’’ You sat and flipped your hair back casually and his pants got tight with the action. ‘’Hello Y/N,’’ he sat back to his place, ‘’thank you again for not rejecting me, I would be a broken hearted man if that happened.’’ It made you giggle, ‘’I pitied you.’’ You sarcastically clapped back and he liked it, he threw his head back and laughed. Tom could get the scent of your minty smell, the tips of your hair looked wet, he had an image of you taking a shower in his mind for a second, and he looked at the menu to get a grip. ‘’How was your day?’’ You asked curiously, ‘’Nothing out of the ordinary, I have to work from home because my work is back home. London.’’ You looked at the menu like him, ‘’Really? I have always wanted to pay a visit to London.’’ You blurted out like a child and felt your cheeks go red. He looked up to meet your gaze, his blue eyes studying your red cheeks and red lips, ‘’Maybe one day I can take you.’’ Tom couldn’t believe himself right now, he didn’t say it just to say it, he meant it.

‘’If we met under different circumstances Y/N… this could actually work.’’ He thought, mouth tightening.

‘’Ready for order?’’ the same girl came to your table, her brown eyes were on Tom and only Tom. ‘’Yes,’’ Tom looked at you, ignoring the girl, ‘’What would you like to have love?’’ you felt your knees go weak.. you cleared your throat, ‘’Coffee and carrot cake please.’’ Tom noticed that even though the waitress didn’t address you, you still had manners.

‘’A classy woman’’

‘’Same for me.’’ Tom said kindly smiling, the woman left them alone finally.

‘’When does your shift start?’’ he asked, his one hand playing with his lip, looking directly at you, this man loved eye contact. Your eyes went to his thin lips and his big hand, he had a shirt with the few buttons open and you could see the tips of his chest hair, the color of it was beige, he had black tight pants. His hair was curly and you wanted to run your fingers among the soft curls, ‘’At 9pm.’’ The flirty waitress brought your orders, placed them on the table slowly, ‘’If there is anything you want,’’ she looked at Tom with big eyes, ‘’I’m here.’’

You rolled your eyes, some people had no filter and manners. She could see it was your first date but she had to audacity to disregard your presence and flirt with your date. You didn’t say anything and focused on your date,  

‘’I wish I could come tonight but I have to take care of some business related files.’’

‘’What is your job exactly?’’ you asked directly, took a bite from your cake, he did the same to think. He had to be careful with his next words, ‘’I have a small company back home, I’m here on a business trip.’’ Later you talked about your lives, you briefly told him that you were a daughter of a single mother and never met your father, she raised you on her own and passed away when you were on college so you had to drop out and work, you wanted to go back one day. Tom told you that he got his business from his dad who passed away few years ago, he had siblings and you wondered what’s that like and he told you that it was hell, you laughed hard.

‘’Tom,’’ you said, you were sitting with him for 2 hours now, ‘’Hmm?’’ he finished his cake, ‘’Can I ask you something?’’ the tone of your voice alarmed him, ‘’Of course love.’’

‘’Why did you want to go on a date with me? Please do not misjudge me but obviously we lead very different lives and I just want to know your true intentions.’’ This sudden serious question was unexpected, if you knew his true intentions you would scream for help and run away. As the seconds went by you regarded him suspiciously, ‘’I’m sorry,’’ he cleared his throat, ‘’Last night, when we met.. I could feel a spark between us and I hope you feel the same way. You are wonderful Y/N,’’ your hands were on the small table and he reached for you, he held your hands in his large ones, Tom didn’t want to let himself go but you looked so innocent and loving all at once, he couldn’t think of you  helping a killer or having some type of connection with the man who killed his father. The air  between you got thick and he was right, you can feel the sparkle, the tension. His hands were comfortably warm, his blue eyes looked gentle. You gave a smile as warm as the sun rise, ‘’you came to my life at the right time, and I would like to date you.’’

You felt your heart and insides melt with his words, at that moment you couldn’t hear other people in the coffee shop, it was just you and him  existing together in harmony. ‘’I would like to date you too.’’

Chapter 3

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Fire on Ice

Summary; Tom Hiddleston is a vicious mob boss who is looking for his father’s killer, his reputation is depending on it and he won’t give up until he finds that man, and you my sweet little Y/N is the weirdest an best thing that happened to him all his life.

Warnings; Torture, knife, bleeding. 

Genres; Romace, smut in the future, slow burn fic. Little Angst my dudes.

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A/n; Hello guys! I wanted to write something related to Tom Hiddleston. Sorry for any typos.  Enjoy. Let me know what you think ;)

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Chapter One

         He was a lonely man, he had to be because of his dangerous profession, however that didn’t stop him from day dreaming about a non existing woman in his life, who takes care of his deep wounds, who gives a soft kiss on his cheek before he leaves for ‘’work’’… he sighed heavily. Men like him didn’t get to have a proper life and he knew that one day he could be killed, so what’s the point of having a partner and leaving them behind? He didn’t notice that he was clenching his sharp jaw, ‘’Sir, we’re here.’’ The voice of his driver brought him back to the reality which he lived in. The window on his side was rolled down and he could smell the trash and dust, he hated this city but he couldn’t leave yet, he had to find him first. His driver parked the car somewhere close to the abandoned warehouse in New York City, place was quiet and abandoned,  perfect place for his dirty work. It was late at night so silence filled the area. Tom visited this place before many times during the day light, he found nothing other than few junkies and homeless people. His driver opened his door and he stepped out, his driver was an American man with long beard and soft brown eyes, he was as tall as him. ‘’Stay here, keep the car ready.’’ There was another car, it belonged to his men. He walked directly to this old shed standing short and ancient, the windows had a thick layer of dust and some were broken, the walls had moss. One of his men opened the door for him, the smell of moss and moist filled his nostrils. He walked in and saw 2 of his men guarding a bald man sitting on a chair, he had bruises on his face and arms. He looked up to meet his  icy blue eyes. ‘’Thomas William Hiddleston,’’ he said shocked, ‘’I didn’t know you English pigs could live in a colony-‘’ Tom moved his head slightly and one of his men punched the guy on his stomach. The bald man coughed up blood, his bald head had a tattoo, sigil of the Queens clan. He wasn’t young nor old, his black shirt had mud on it, the knees of his blue pants were dirty ‘’Where is he?’’ Tom asked, he never liked chit chat in situations like this one, ‘’Who?’’ the bald man asked, ‘’Do not play with me, I’ve tracked him for years and his last seen place is New York. Rumors say that he came to your boss for help. Now tell me,’’ he knelt to look the man’s eyes, ‘’where is he?’’ the bald man spit on to Tom’s pale face, he closed his eyes to calm himself and he inhaled deeply, he pulled out a dark blue handkerchief to wipe his face. ‘’He came to your clan seeking help, lead me to him and I will reward you. Join me and leave this small clan of yours, if you join me no one can hurt you.’’ Tom guessed that this bald man was afraid of his boss. ‘’I would rather die. Thanks tho. Aren’t you late for a tea party?’’ he had a big tongue which Tom would love to rip out from his dirty mouth. He pulled out his knife and thus the torture began.

After an hour of listening to his loud screaming Tom stopped,

‘’Any ideas now?’’  

The man was panting and bleeding on the cold ground. ‘’Why are you lookin for this man –fuck-‘’ Tom considered the possibility that this man might not know any info, ‘’He killed my father years ago and vanished. You see,’’ he cleaned his sharp knife with the dark blue handkerchief, ‘’my family seeks vengeance. If I don’t bring this man to justice others might think that Hiddleston family is weak. I will not be bullied by my rivals.’’ He put the handkerchief back to his pocket like he didn’t just tortured a man couple minutes ago, ‘’Promise- promise to let me go and- and,’’ he was breathing heavily, ‘’tell you what I know.’’ Tom tried to hide his excitement and slowly knelt, he brought his ear close to the bleeding man. ‘’Last year- a man came and ask protection from my boss, to- to protect someone… not him…’’ he was holding his wound and he passed out. ‘’Great.’’ Tom sighed, ‘’Bring him back to his clan, make sure he is still alive. I wouldn’t prefer to get on the wrong foot with their boss.’’

‘’Yes Sir.’’

He left the shed quickly and stepped into the night, the stars were shiny above his head, ‘’Where to Sir?’’ his driver asked as usual, ‘’Go with them. I need a drink.’’

As he was driving to the crowded city he cursed under his breath, for years he was working with circumspect steps and he was back to zero. ‘’Who do you want to protect old man?’’

The bar was crowded, people were eating and drinking with their friends and loved ones, he cautiously walked and sat on a stool. The yellow lights made the place look homely.

You looked at your watch, ‘’2 more hours and then I’m home.’’ You hated your job but the bills won’t pay themselves so you had no other option. ‘’Y/N, attend the bar. Right Now!’’ your boss yelled at your face and went back. If you could you would kill him right here right now. You pushed the dark brown door and walked into the crowd. ‘’Miss?’’ a man raised his hand to give his order. He looked tired, he had dark circles under his ocean blue eyes, his expensive 3 piece suit made you question why is he here. This was a local bar after all, ‘’Ready to order?’’ you asked kindly and looked at him directly, for some reason you wished you could look somewhere else because he looked intimidating. ‘’Yes, can I have a large beer and fries. Thank you.’’ His accent filled your ears, you didn’t have to take notes so you put your small notebook and pen into the deep pocket of your green apron. You went back to get the fries, as you were serving him you could feel his icy gaze on you, it burnt your skin. ‘’He is just a man, what is wrong with you?’’

‘’Thank you.’’ He said with a kind manner, ‘’You’re bleeding.’’ You couldn’t help but notice the fresh blood stain on his white sleeve, he raised his wrist to see, ‘’It’s not mine-‘’ he wanted to punch himself on the face right now, ‘’I mean, I’m fine. Thank you again.’’

As a bartender your job wasn’t just bringing the juice, you talked to your regular customers and listen to their troubles, giving them advice, however this particular British gentleman wasn’t a talkative person. ‘’Hey Y/N!’’ one of the regular customers approached to you as you gave him his beer, ‘’Hey Jack.’’ He eyed you up and down, ‘’You got a new tattoo, that’s cool.’’  You said, he was standing next to the British guy, curiosity made him lift his gaze from his plate and he saw it. The sigil of the Queens gang, ‘’Yeah yeah, listen.. are you free tomorrow?’’ you had to roll your eyes, ‘’No.’’ he always asked you out and you always said no, the problem was that most men didn’t take no as an answer. ‘’I have extra shift tomorrow but you are welcomed to come here and drink and leave a tip.’’

Jack wasn’t smiling anymore, he left a 5 dollar tip ‘’See ya around.’’

Tom understood that this Jack guy’s intentions weren’t nice, he didn’t care it wasn’t his business but the tone of his voice irritated him profoundly. No one should talk to a woman like she is an object. He wondered what happened to romance but he found himself lost in his dark thoughts. ‘’Men am I right?’’

Tom blinked twice to pull his mind and attention out of his thoughts –which could be scary for most people in this bar- ‘’Yes. Can I get another?’’ he drank the last sip of his beer and you brought another.

When your laughter died you noticed that the last customer was Tom, other works left because you were closing tonight. Tom looked around and you saw a hint o saddness falling to his ocean deep eyes. ‘’I should close the place for tonight.’’ You said kindly smiling. People often told you that you were easy to talk to and Tom was an example of that, at first he looked like a grumpy middle aged man but talking for an hour and half got him to laugh and smile, you noticed how the edges of his eyes got when he smiled and the pink dust covering his high cheek bones, and at that moment you thought that he should be in a museum because he looked like a Greek God, he had ageless beauty and charisma and you have never seen someone like that before. Tom’s cheeks were burning and he wasn’t used to this new sensation, ‘’I can wait for you to close the place. If you want of course.’’ He offered but the tone of his voice was demanding and you couldn’t bring yourself to say no.

‘’I will be taking the last bus. Thank you for waiting.’’ You said wearing your coat as you both were walking, ‘’Are sure there is a bus at this hour? It’s pretty late.’’ You didn’t have a car because you were saving money to move to a new apartment, your neighborhood wasn’t a safe environment. A wind blew and messed with your hair and Tom found himself wanting to push your soft looking hair behind your ear and see your face but he pulled himself together quickly, too much beer he thought.

‘’Damn it,’’ you looked at your watch, ‘’I’ve missed it 5 minutes ago. Great.’’

‘’Y/N , I feel responsible so please let me give you a lift home. It’s the least I can do.’’ He might be dangerous man but he would never turn his back and leave her alone like this, you weren’t sure about this. He was a nice man… too nice.. you couldn’t call your roommate Sam to pick you up because he was probably sleeping right now and you felt getting sleepy, it was a long night.

‘’Thank you Tom, you are too kind.’’

Chapter 2

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Loki x Female Reader

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Warnings; None.

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When maids rushed into your room behind Frigga and showering you with dresses, clothes you didn’t know what to do or say, you just stood there and let them do whatever they want. You came to Asgard few days ago because as an Agent of Shield you mission was to go to Asgard, learn what kind of civilization they have, take notes and go back to Midgard, seemed as if an easy job because you were already friends with Thor, however his brother Loki was… how to put it.. cold, weird, strange and he kept looking at you like he hates you.

Frigga on the other hand was the sweetest woman alive, she was kind enough to bring clothes and dresses for you, ‘’My dear you seem quiet, I hope the food and clothes are to your satisfaction?’’ You realized how dumb you must look to these fine woman, you quickly got a hold of your thoughts and smiled, ‘’Thank you for everything my lady.’’ You bowed your head as a sign of respect and after all you were in her kingdom. Frigga smiled warmly, the reason why Frigga and her maids visited you was that there was a ball tonight, to honour you and Asgard relationship with Midgard, you watched the maids lay the beautiful and colorful dresses on your queen sized bed, white, orange, pink, blue dresses looked expensive and charming. ‘’Which one do you like sweet  girl?’’ Frigga asked, the reason why she was close to Y/N because Frigga missed her daughter Hela deeply, and she promised her husband that she would carry their secret to her grave but when she saw you she thought of her daughter, her first child. She used to make dresses for her, brush her hair… of course you didn’t know anything about Hela and you thought Frigga was just a kind and elegant queen.

Soon your door was knocked three times, one of the maids went to open, you were on a comfy couch talking to Frigga, drinking wine and eating fruit when Prince Loki’s servant man came in. He had a big, wooden box, ‘’Greetings Queen Frigga and Lady Y/N, Prince Loki has a gift for you. He wishes you to wear this at tonight’s ball.’’ He put the box on the ground and opened it, one of the maids pulled out the long dress, the other maid brought you the small piece of paper, Prince Loki wrote a note for you. ‘’Save me a dance Lady Y/N.’’

(this is the dress)

Maids started to giggle, when you saw the dress you were lost for words, the dress was emerald green which was Prince Loki’s signature colour, it was long and wheh you put it on it made you feel like a princess. He didn’t forget to send a emerald stoned tiara as well, you weren’t sure why the coldest man on the universe would send you a gift, the maids did your hair and put the tiara on your head and for the first time in years you felt beautiful, this man had a unique fashion sense. ‘’Leave us.’’ Frigga said to her maids and they left quickly, she stood behind you, watching you on the mirror, ‘’I assume you don’t know what this means sweet child?’’ she squeezed your shoulders gently, ‘’I don’t my Queen.’’ Frigga had a smile on her lips, she looked like she knew a juicy secret. ‘’You will soon. See you at the ball.’’

(this is the tiara)

The ball room was huge and golden, the walls had paintings and candles, curtains were red and it reminded you the house Gryffindor, there was a group of musician on a stage, there were wooden tables, people of Asgard were drinking and eating already. You walked down the stairs slowly and felt a pair of cold eyes watching you, as you looked up you saw Loki, sitting next to Thor and watching you come down the stairs, he had a satisfied smile on his thin lips, he liked what he saw. He dressed like a true King in his black knee-high boots, his tunic a shimmering emerald whilst his black cloak fits tightly around his huge arms, it was a struggle not to be drawn to his radiant aura. You kindly smiled and moved to the seat which was for you. You, Thor and Loki were on the same table but there was a distance between you and them. Sif was next to you, as usual she had her armor and blade, ‘’You look like someone I don’t enjoy.’’ She said jokingly, ‘’I know, Prince Loki sent me this dress.’’ You admit rolling your eyes and you watched Sif almost choke on her beer, ‘’What? Is it bad?’’

Sif couldn’t believe her ears, ‘’Loki sent you that dress? Really?’’ she asked curiously, her voice was loud but you hoped not loud enough for Loki to hear, he looked interested in his food. ‘’Yes. Why do you ask?’’ Sif started laughing, ‘’You have no idea do you? Poor girl.’’ And Sif got her drink and left you alone. ‘’Why is everyone weird in this planet?’’

The musicians started to play waltz and you saw Loki leaving his seat, he came towards you and stopped in front of you, eyes never leaving your face, taking you in. He extended his pale hand, ‘’May I have this dance Lady Y/N?’’ the crown prince of Asgard just asked you to dance, you couldn’t say no and took his hand. He walked you to the center of the stage, he had that smirk on his lips and you started to dance, he was leading you. ‘’I wish I met you years ago.’’ He confessed, you could feel eyes watching you and Loki, ‘’You mean when you attacked New York. No thank you.’’ You clapped back. His grip on your small back was strong, ‘’Very well, you look ravishing in that dress.’’ And you felt heat go to your cheeks, you bet you looked like a tomato right now, ‘’I didn’t have time to shop.’’ You said trying to sound calm, ‘’What’s your excuse for the tiara I gave you then?’’ he spoke with confidence, his blue eyes studied your pretty face, ever since you came to Asgard Loki was trying to court you, however you were too blind to see. The first day you arrived he tried to keep an eye contact with you because that was the custom, when Asgardians liked someone they wouldn’t go up to them and talk, instead they just stare at them, keep an eye contact but you didn’t notice. After that he started to linger around you when you were talking to Thor or Frigga, he wouldn’t say anything but just be wherever you were. He was losing patience so finally he sent a dress for you, in Asgardian custom this was a proposal of a long term relationship, again you were just looking at him with wide beautiful eyes. ‘’You are quite the dancer Lady Y/N.’’ You weren’t skipping a beat and he noticed that, ‘’I’ve had training for missions. I love dancing.’’

Later that night the environment around you was too much so you decided to get some fresh air, there was a beautiful garden with sweet flowers and trees, you walked and sat at the edge of a water fountain, the full moon’s light reflected on the shiny golden coins inside of the fountain, you dipped your hand and felt the cold, you closed your eyes listened the night, it was peaceful and calm.

‘’Lady Y/N?’’ It was Loki’s voice, you didn’t hear his footsteps, sneaky bastard. ‘’May I join you?’’ you opened your eyes and looked at him, he looked tall, hands behind his back, his moon light made his golden helmet look like a statue, he looked pale and mysterious and you found yourself being drowned under his beauty and charm. ‘’Please.’’ You said as you pointed him to sit next to you, there was silence at first, a comfortable one, strands of black hair fell across his deep blue eyes and you tucked his hair into his helmet, his helmet felt cold to touch, Loki was aghast by your action because people were usually afraid of him and avoided him all the time. ‘’Thank you for the dress, and the tiara, they are pretty.’’

‘’You look like a princess.’’ It made you laugh, ‘’I’m just Y/N from New York. But thanks. Sif couldn’t believe me when I told her that you sent me the dress. Silly girl.’’

This time Loki laughed, ‘’It might be because when a Prince sends a dress to a woman it means that the Prince is trying to court the woman.’’ He looked into your eyes and that moment only you and Loki existed in this entire planet, ‘’Wha-‘’

‘’I have been trying to court you for days woman!’’ he looked tired, when you didn’t reply or said anything he leaned in and gave you a soft kiss.  

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Fire on Ice (Finished)

Summary; Tom Hiddleston is a vicious mob boss who is looking for his father’s killer, his reputation is depending on it and he won’t give up until he finds that man, and you my sweet little Y/N is the weirdest and the best thing that happened to him all his life.

Chapter 1  Chapter 2  Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6  Chapter 7

Chapter 8  Chapter 9    Final Chapter

Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance. 

Warnings: SMUT in the beginning. Benedict is here to save his babies lol :D Will Ben’s plan work? We will see ;)

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Chapter 11

    Y/N woke up to Tom’s morning kisses, her back was turned to him and he was cuddling her body. ‘’Morning sleepyhead.’’ Tom whispered and Y/N was glad to hear his husky morning voice.  ‘’When did you wake up?’’ she asked smiling, eyes closed. ‘’About 10min ago, I was watching you sleep.’’ Y/N giggled, ‘’Someone is a stalker.’’ She opened her eyes and turned to him. ‘’You look beautiful.’’ Tom admired her bed hair, red cheeks and her naked, soft body. She leaned into his thin lips, it was a long kiss which ended up Tom her, ‘’Do you want to play?’’ he asked laughing, ‘’A little morning exercise wouldn’t hurt no one.’’ he kissed her again, 

SMUT ALERT

playing with her boobs she left a sigh. He kissed her cheek, jaw line, and moved to her neck. He saw the tiny marks he left last night and smirked to himself, he bite them again and heard Y/N’s moan, she digged her hand in his long hair. He kept going down and stopped at her slightly getting wet pussy. He first started with kissing her thighs and inside her thighs, and then he teased her clit with his thumb, he was slowly making  circler motions and finally he gave it a slow but a long lick, he was a man who loved going down on a woman. His licks were slow, he could taste her and smell her. His large hands were keeping her legs apart, he stopped and pursed his lips and breathed gently to release cool air which made Y/N shake a little. Tom started to circle his tongue, tantalizing her. 

‘‘I can taste how wet you are.’‘ He kept licking her clit and fingering her, ‘‘I want you to cum for me.’‘ Y/N couldn’t hold back, after few minutes of Tom’s torture which was intense fingering and Tom’s mouth on her clit... she came, hard. Her legs were jelly and Tom had to held her down, she was a shaking mess and the bed was wet. Tom was in awe of how Y/N was free when she was sith him, she was flourishing. Tom kissed her after she came down from her high and Y/N could taste herself in his mouth. Tom’s stomach ended the silence and they laughed. ‘‘Let’s eat.’‘ Y/N suggested.

   Tom and Y/N fixed breakfast together, the smell of morning tea, bacon and eggs was heaven, she loved being a domestic person and it seemed that Tomenjoyed it too. And also Bobby seemed happy to be a part of their life. ‘’So, aren’t we going to talk about last night’s fight? I’m sorry if I upset you darling.’’ Y/N remembered it, she wanted to push him away to rpotect him from James Prendick but Tom was a stubborn man. ‘’It’s not about you Tom, something happened when you were away.’’ 

‘‘What happened? You know you can talk to me.’‘ Tom held her hands gently, ‘‘James found your house and he paid a visit,’‘ she finally said it, ‘‘and he wants me back. He said that if I don’t choose him he’ll hurt you. I got scared Tom, I don’t want you to get hurt because of me, I can never forgive myself if something like that happens.’‘  she started to cry. Tom held her face, made her look at him. ‘‘I won’t let that happen. Do you hear me?! We should think about our next step.’‘ Y/N wiped her tears away, ‘‘What is it?’‘ she could see that he was trying to help and it gave her hope. ‘‘We should go to the police.’‘ Y/N told him what happened when she went to the police station. ‘‘I have connections Y/N, I know people who can help us.’‘

Later, Tom made few calls and he arranged a meeting at his place, Y/N put some clothes on and they left her home. Tom noticed how scared she was, on the way she was keep checking her back, or her eyes were at every corner. She relaxed when they finally reached to Tom’s home, ‘’Who did you invite?’’ she asked. They were in the kitchen, Tom was making coffee and Y/N was drawing Bobby on a small paper. It was her thing, when she felt anxious she draw or paint things. ‘’My friend Benedict, he had a good lawyer and also my agent Luke Windsor but he said he won’t be able to make it because he was busy, the good news is he will try to find ways to help us.’’ It was the second time he said us. And it mad her smile, ‘’Why are you smiling?’’ Tom asked also smiling. Y/N kept looking at the paper, ‘’It’s nothing.’’ Tom gave her the mug, ‘’I love seeing you smile.’’ he said and it made her look at him. His hair, golden as the sun, was laid back, he looked tired but it was probably because of last night so she did not mind.

Tom’s friend Benedict Cumberbatch came in the evening, they ordered pizza together. He looked like a nice man and it was obvious that Tom and Benedict were best friends. ‘’So, this is the famous Y/N. Pleasure to meet you.’’ Y/N’s cheeks blushed, Tom was talking about her to Benedict. ‘’Pleasure is all mine Mr.-’’ Benedict scoffed at her, ‘’Please call me Ben or Benedict. How old am I? 98?’’ it made her laugh. After getting to know each other pizza came and they got comfortable. ‘’Tell me, what is the situation?’’ Ben finally asked, one leg thrown negligently over the arm of his chair. Y/N was hesitant at first, Tom’s eyes met hers, and he looked achingly vulnerable and loving all at once, his hand groped her hers. It made her feel safe, he gave her a nod to start, 

‘’The situation’s name is James Prendick.’’

Y/N told him everything, and every ugly detail which made him uncomfortable but it was the truth. Ben looked at her, and felt a strong stab of pity at first but later he understood that she was a strong, independent woman who went through hell. When she was done telling her story the room went silent, Ben needed a minute to take it all in, it was hard. ‘’You are such a unique and strong person, I can’t believe it. I’m so sorry Y/N, that man deserve to rot in prison.’’ He clappsed his hands together, ‘’Let’s find that sick bastard. I have a plan. You said that he was hard to find but what if we make him come to us, and we can call the police so that they can bust his ass. My lawyer is very good, he won’t be able to leave prison until he is 80 years old. How does that sound?’’ 

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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance.   Slow burn!

Warnings: SMUT IS HERE!!! No protection! We need holy water like ASAP!

While writing this smoke came out of my laptop and shut down... Lord send mercy I can’t afford a new laptop because I Iive in a 3rd world country!!! fuck im so mad right now I cried tears of anger! Anyways Tolkien works hard but I work harder, lol . Enjoy! Text me if I forgot to tag you!

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Chapter 10

Tom first went to his mother’s house to get Bobby. ‘’You look tired honey, come in.’’ Diana greeted him with a hug. ‘’Are you hungry, you also look thin?’’ Tom smiled at her worried eyes, ‘’I don’t want to eat.’’ he sat on the comfy couch in the living room ‘’Oh, no.’’ said Diana. ‘’What? Is something wrong?’’ he asked looking around and Bobby rushed to meet his dad. ‘’Hi buddy, missed me?’’ 

‘‘You don’t eat when you are sad.’‘ said Diana silently but her son heard her. She reached to push back his golden curls away, ‘‘Tell me. What makes you sad, is it... Y/N?’‘

Tom didn’t say anything, he just nodded. ‘’Mother, can you tell me what she said, you know when she brought Bobby here?’’ 

‘‘Well... she looked like she was in a hurry. She said that her landlady called and told her that she took care of everything. She said her apartment was safe again.’‘

Tom was confused, ‘’So they caught the guy?’’ he asked, ‘’What guy?’’ his mother didn’t know what happened exactly. ‘’She didn’t tell you?’’ They looked at each other in confusion. ‘’The thing is Y/N has an ex abusive fiance. He was the one who break in to her home. They must have caught the guy, it would be dangerous to go back otherwise.’’ Tom shortly explained what was going on. ‘’Oh, dear. She didn’t say anything about the guy or anything like that. Tom,’’ she held his hands ‘’please be careful.’’

‘‘Don’t worry mom.’‘ he smiled at her, ‘‘Now you sit there, I made dinner.’‘

When he finally went to his home he inhaled a breath, her scent was everywhere, he unpacked and took a long shower. ‘’What should we do, Bobby?’’ he was looking at hisphone’s screen, ‘’Should we call her?’’ Bobby wiggled his tail, ‘’Is that a yes?’’ he pet his dog. ‘’Actually... we can take a walk outside and happen to be in her neighborhood, and see what she is doing.’’ He took Bobby and left his home. Bobby seemed happy to be outside, after a while he called a cab and gave the address.

Her lights were on, ‘’It is agood sign.’’  he climbed the stairs quickly and was about to knock but he hesitated. ‘’What am I doing?’’ He stirred up his courage and finally knocked on the door. Y/N answered shortly. After days they were face to face, her hair was wet and smelled shampoo which Tom noticed. She had an over-sized hoddie and leggings. ‘’T- Tom?’’ He could see the way her Y/E/C eyes shined, ‘’Again, a good sign.’’   ‘’Hello Y/N!’’ he was smiling like crazy. Their silence was cut by Y/N’s landlady ‘’Take the man inside, he is gonna freeze!’’ the old lady chuckled ‘’Please, come in. Hi Bobby!’’ Bobby barked in return.

They were inside the living room, ‘’Would you like to drink something?’’ she asked, ‘’No, I’m afraid I’m jet legged, I arrived today.’’ he sat down, ‘’When?’’

‘‘Earlier.’‘ Y/N pet Bobby for a while, ‘‘He missed you apparently, I... I missed you.’‘ words just rolled out of his tongue, Y/N was on the ground playing with Bobby, she looked at him, ‘‘I missed you too, Tom.’‘

‘‘Why did you leave? I thought you were comfortable at my place.’‘ he couldn’t help himself. ‘‘My landlady was kind enough to fix the place.’‘ Y/N had to lie, she couldn’t drag him to her mess. Tom tried to look at her but she kept her eyes on Bobby, ‘‘Your landlady is old. I really don’t think she can fix the place. It was a mess.’‘ Y/N once again realized how smart he was. She was frozen, needed another quick lie but it was too late. ‘‘Tell me the truth Y/N, please.’‘ She was going to hate herself for what she was about to say; ‘‘Tom, I know we became friends in a short time and made out a little but you don’t own me. So, stop asking personal questions.’‘

She had to look into his eyes to make him believe, blue eyes that burned her like ice. ‘’I just wanted to help-’’ Y/N could hear the crack in his soft voice. ‘’I don’t need your help, so please stop.’’ He came down to sit with her on the ground, ‘’Y/N,’’ he reached out to touch her hand but she pulled away, her name sounded rich and heavy on his tongue. ‘’Why are you like this? What happened when I was gone?’’ She wanted to hold his hands and tell him what happened but it would put him in danger, James was an unpredictable man. ‘’Nothing happened,’’ she stood up, ‘’stop creating scenarios in your head Tom!’’ her voice was little higher than she intended to be. Tom also stood up, ‘’Don’t blame me for creating scenarios when you act shady!’’ he also didn’t intend to yell but here they were. ‘’I am not acting shady Tom!’’

‘‘Oh really? Then tell me the reason why your beautiful eyes don’t meet mine.’‘ He was right, she didn’t had the courage to look at him, she feared that if their eyes met more than five seconds he would understand what was going on. Now they were too close and it was hard for her to think, so she paced away from him, restless as a lioness. ‘‘Did I do something wrong to you?!’‘ He was a man who demanded answers. ‘‘No, I mean yes... you always ask questions and it makes me tired!’‘ Bobby made a sound of discomfort and left them alone, it made them realize how loud they were but it was too late to go back, they had the anger’s red flush on their cheeks. ‘‘Then tell me how to fix it Y/N?!’‘ Tom literally screamed, ‘‘WHY?! Why do you always want to fix things that are already broken?!’‘ Y/N screamed back, she was sure anyone who was passing by the street could hear them right now. ‘‘It’s because I love you!’‘

And then the thick silence followed.

They were out of breath, chests heaving up and down. ‘’Say something.’’ Tom’s tone was plaintive, ‘’Please say something.’’ he begged with open arms. ‘’Don’t.’’ Y/N said, ‘’I am nothing but trouble Tom, please don’t love me.’’ she chewed her lip sullenly, couldn’t bare the heaviness of his ocean eyes so she glanced away. ‘’Look me in the eye and say those words again,’’ Y/N looked at him, her mouth opened but no sound came. ‘’See, you can’t because you love me too. I have fallen in love with you Y/N! If you have me...’’ he got close to her ‘’I am yours, always and forever.’’ he held her shoulders and his hands traced her arms, he held her cold hands. ‘’I love you too, Tom.’’ Y/N finally said the magical words, it was hard for her to open herself to someone again but she did it. She took a step forward, and she kissed him slowly at first but soon they got carried away.

SMUT ALERT

His hands firmly planted on her hips, holding her against him, Y/N’s hands were under his fluffy sweater touching his warm, muscled chest and abs. They found themselves on the couch. Y/N was on his lap like the last time. His lips now attacking her neck, especially her pulse and he was sucking hard, it was going to leave a bruise but she didn’t mind that. She had a felling that Tom would be a possessive lover and she was right, but that didn’t disturb her, on the contrary she was turned on and strated to grind on him, his obvious arousal was hard against her special place. Her hands were lost in his golden curls, with every kiss and movement her ache grew steadily, it was driving her insane and she got rid of her hoddie. She had a black bra, with a swift hand work Tom unhooked the bra and let it fall to the floor. Tom laid Y/N on the couch and climbed on top of her, he started to kiss her starting from the lips, jaw, neck and her breasts. He held the pink, flushed tits between his finger tips and gave them a squeez. He took one into his hot mouth and sucked hard, licked it good and made an obscene sound of ‘’pop’’ when he was done, he did the same thing to the other one, Y/N’s soft moans were like whispers which sent waves of excitement to Tom’s hardening cock. He started to kiss her stomach and came to the waistband and looked at her, his eyes were searching for consent, ‘’Please.’’ Y/N whispered, ‘’Tell me baby, tell me what do you want.’’ his deep voice sent shivers to her spine. ‘’I want you Tom.’’ Y/N managed to say, ‘’I want your fingers, tongue in me, please..’’ his wicked smirk made her move her hips towards him. Tom pulled down her leggins and found black laced panties, his long fingers traced her wetness through the thin fabric. He hooked his fingers and pulled the panties down slowly, he wanted to savor every moment with her. Fingers traced her slick folds and his long middle finger slid inside of her, he was slow with his movements watching her intently. ‘’Please..’’ She begged. ‘’Do you want me to be faster love? Just say it, talk to me baby. Tell me how do you want to get fucked.’’ His dirty words were driving her mad, ‘’So tight, so wet, all for me.’’

‘’Fuck me faster, please.’’ she finally said through ragged breaths. He added another finger and started to pump into her faster, he knelt to lick her, kiss her there. ‘’Tom!’’ He smiled, he loved the way his name sounded on her honeyed tongue, his tumb was circiling her clit and she couldn’t take it anymore ‘’Come on my fingers baby girl.’’ and she came, her head flung back on the couch, her thighs trembling. Tom licked his fingers ‘’You taste divine.’’ They kissed and she tasted herself, ‘’Let’s go to my bed.’’ Tom picked her up bridal style which made her chuckle.

Y/N helped him get naked and when she saw how hard and big he was she sallowed hard, ‘’What’s wrong kitten?’’ asked Tom smirking, she gave his pulsing cock a few pumps, her thumb brushing over the tip, a harsh growl came from Tom and she took him into her mouth, and Tom left a deep moan. ‘’That’s it.’’ he said, ‘’Just like that baby.’’ his head fell back on the pillows, she was slow which made Tom grab her hair firmly their eyes were locked, it was intense.

‘‘Y/N, let me make love to you...’‘ he moaned, ‘‘please.’‘ she stopped. Tom with a quick move took her under him. His hands were everywhere, her breast, hips, neck. Her legs were around his waist, he held his hard cock and teased her entrance, ‘‘Tom please, please..’‘ he loved the way she begged, he entered her folds slowly, trying to control his animalistic instinct, he let a snarl out when he was fully in her, ‘‘Fuck, you are so tight kitten.’‘ Y/N was trying to get used to his size, he was big. Tom pulled out completely and pushed back in. Y/N’s one hand was at the nape of his neck, pulling his hair, the other left red nail marks on his back. He got faster, ‘‘Mine,’‘ he said ‘‘all mine.’‘ they were climbing the steps of pleasure together. ‘‘Yes,’‘ Y/N screamed ‘‘I am yours Tom!’‘ his movements became frantic, he looked her in the eye, she seemed to fall into the darkness of lust that lingered in his gaze. ‘‘Come again Y/N, come for me.’‘ Y/N was close and she came undone, and her walls got tighter to milk Tom, he was done. They were shaking, foreheads touching, ‘‘I love you.’‘ said Tom out of breath, ‘‘I love you.’‘ replied Y/N.

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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance. There will be smut in the future ;))  Slow burn!

Warnings: Y/N’s ex is a threat! 

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Chapter 9

‘‘I assume you were expecting someone else.’‘

Y/N was frozen like a iceberg. James Prendick was standing tall and his arrogant smile made her shiver. His hands were in his pockets, moving left to right in a show off mood, ‘’Aren’t you gonna invite me?’’ his mocking tone was intolerable.

‘‘What do you want?’‘ She found her voice, James look at her up and down. ‘‘You finally lost some weight, good for you.’‘ When they were together he always complained about her weight. ‘‘James, what do you want?!’‘ He pushed her away firmly to get inside.

‘‘Would you like to drink something?’‘ She was trying to be civil but her icy cold voice made James look at her ‘‘Have some decency Y/N,’‘ he sat down on the couch in the living room ‘‘I’m here to talk. Come, sit down.’‘ he was acting as if he owned the place, ‘‘James, I’m not playing games. I told the cops it was you who destroyed my house, they are looking for you.’‘ she held her phone tightly. ‘‘Do something to me and you will regret it.’‘

He started to laugh ‘’Y/N, if I wanted to do something to you...’’ he paused for a second, looking into her eyes ‘’You wouldn’t see it coming.’’ there he was, the true James Prendick. A creep who likes to manipulate and torture people, his tone made her uncomfortable.

He noticed the paintings, ‘’Are you still dealing with this crap?’’ he looked unimpressed. She felt herself getting angry, ‘’This is my art you asshole!’’ Y/N never thought she could get this defensive. ‘’Careful now, you might lose your hands one day.’’ She could feel the threat in her bones, ‘’For the last time, why are you here?’’ Bobby started to bark, James looked at him with blind hatred ‘’Lock the animal.’’ he said. She didn’t want him to hurt Bobby so she took him away and got back.

‘‘I am here because I want you back.’‘ James finally confessed, Y/N was taken aback, ‘‘W- what?’‘ he got up from the couch, she took a step back, ‘‘I missed you,’‘ he got close to ‘‘so much.’‘ she could feel his breath. ‘‘How did you find me?’‘ She wanted to change the subject and buy some time. 

‘‘Your friend Sam told me.’‘ She was shocked, ‘‘Sam?!’‘ James smiled sarcastically ‘‘Your best friend back home told me where you were hiding You should be careful when it comes to friends.’‘

‘‘Why did you break in to my flat and destroyed everything?’‘ she asked. ‘‘After seeing you with that man I got furious baby, even the thought of you being with someone else made me insane.’‘ he replied, this used to make her feel loved but now she was scared.

‘‘So what do you say? Would you take me back?’‘ A chill went through her, she needed courage to say what she was about to say.

‘‘No!’’

They were face to face, he was tall so she had to look up at him, his dark brown eyes were like the deep wells. He moved suddenly, his fingers held her jaw as hard as iron trap, she had to keep looking. ‘’If you knew me too well you would know that I do not take no as an answer.’’

His fingers were digging her flesh, ‘’If you are concerned for your little boyfriend you sould be. Because If you don’t make up your mind then I will be a problem to him. None of us want that.’’

He let go of her jaw, ‘’I give you few days to decide.’’ he kissed jer cheek and left, she jumoed with the sound of him closing the door.

‘‘Fuck! What do I do? What do I do? Tom? No, he would get worried.’‘ She strated to pace in the living room ‘‘Cops? Yes! Cops!’‘

She got dressed and took Bobby with herto the Police Station. Y/N found the officer who came to her house that night, ‘’Ms. Y/L/N, we are happy to see you. How can I help?’’ said the woman officer, she read her surname on her chest, Johnson. ‘’I hope everything is fine?’’

‘‘No, actually something happened.’‘ Offiver Johnson took her pen and notbook, ‘‘I’m listening.’‘

Y/N tolder her everyhting, ‘’Long story short he is back and wants to torment me.’’

‘‘We haven’t been able to locate his whereabouts Ms. Y/L/N.’‘ Officer confessed. ‘’Can I at least get a restraining order?’’ she asked, ‘’Here is the thing, in the UK, restraining orders can only be issued during sentencing- so to get a restraining order against someone, you have to first report them to the police and then take them to the court.’’ She expained.

‘‘So you have to find James to take him to the court.’‘ Y/N whispered to herself.

‘‘Yes, did he say anything about where he stays?’‘

‘‘No, he is rich so he can be wherever he wants.’‘

Officer Johnson gave her a paper to fill, ‘’Next time you see him contact us, I’m sorry Ms. Y/L/N but wee need to find him for the restraining order. Until then there is nothing we can do, please be safe.’’

Y/N walked back to Tom’s place empty handed, now he knew where she stayed so it was a matter of time before he came again. She had to leave, she had to because if she stayed James would come and destroy the place and Y/N couldn’t do that to Tom. She packed her things and took Bobby, she knew what she had to do.

She knocked on the door and Tom’s mother Diana answered, ‘’Oh hello darling, what a nice surprise! Come in.’’ Diana seemed happy to see her, ‘’Hi Diana. I can’t come I’m here to give this handsome to you.’’ she handed her the leash of Bobby, ‘’Why? What’s wrong?’’ lovely woman asked. ‘’Nothing, it’s just...’’ She needed a quick lie, ‘’My landlady called me, she took care of everything in my apartment so it is safe again.’’ Y/N gave her a fake smile and prayed for Diana to not understand.

‘‘Is that so? Tom said everything was destroyed, and he also said you were staying at his house.’‘ Her blue eyes were focused on her face, ‘‘Yeah I was. I really got to go, see you later.’‘ she left in hurry because Y/N didn’t want to lie more than needed. 

When she got back home she place her bags and sat down on her old couch, nothing was taken care of, her things were broken and they were everywhere. ‘’Let’s get to work.’’

She put every broken thing in trash bags and cleaned her house after three hours she was done completely. During this time Tom called her at least two times but she didn’t answer, she needed a solid lie to convince him and Tom was a samrt man, so it was going to be a challenge. While she was having an existential crisis her phone rang, it was Tom again, later he left a message.

Tom: I really don’t want to distrub you, my mom called and said you left homeso I was just checking. Call me when you can.

Y/N felt terrible so she decided to text him back.

Y/N: Hi Tom! Yeah, I came back to my place and gave Bobby to your mother. I have been busy so talk to you later.

She hit send and felt her heart ache, it made her really sad to treat him like that but she had to, for his safety.

Tom looked at his phone screen for several minutes, he came to his senses when the screen went pitch black. ‘’What’s going on?’’ he thought. When his mother called and told her what happened he was done with the inyerviews and packing his things. His plan was to surprise Y/N, but now he was not so sure, his mother told him that Y/N was in a hurry and didn’t talk much and left quickly. He checked his watch and it was time to leave so he took his bag and left the hotel room. He had to see her, talk to her face to face.

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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance. There will be smut in the future ;))  Slow burn!

Warnings: Unexpected visitor comes.

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Chapter 8

Y/N sood there for several minutes, the car was gone, the night was silent. She held the blanket on her shoulders thightly, ‘’Well, you are stuck with me.’’ she gave Bobby a quick petting on the head, Bobby started to bark. It was strange because no one was around. ‘’What’s wrong boy?’’ Bobby’s eyes were fixed on the bushes right across the house. She tried to see if someone was there, but it was dark, ‘’Probably a squirrel, or some animal.’’ she thought, ‘’Comeon boy, let’s get inside. Don’t want to freeze now do we?’’

She walked to Tom’s bedroom, would it be wise to sleep in his bed? She stood at the doorstep, uncertain of what to do, she chewed her lip. Bobby was also standing with her, ‘’Come Bobby.’’ she said and walked to Tom’s kingsize bed, helped Bobby to climb as well. Y/N got under the covers, listened the grim silence, ‘’Damn it now I miss him! When did you get so attached Y/N?’’ she was angry with herself. Y/N moved in the bed several times and finally closed her eyes.

One by one nightmares followed her, when she woke up it was 11.30 am. She had missed calls from Tom,  she only texted him that she was okay and having a breakfast.

She was finishing her breakfast when Tom facetimed her. ‘’Hi!’’ She tried not to sound too happy, ‘’Hello darling!’’ Tom noticed that she was wearing one of his shirts. ‘’May I say you look lovely in my shirts.’’ He teased, Y/n blushed and wanted to change the subject ‘’How was your flight?’’ and took a sip from her tea.

He was on his hotel bed, his long hair was messy and his voice was husky, obviously he woke up few minutes ago. 

‘‘It was normal. Wait... did you get any sleep?’‘ he noticed her tired eyes and dark circles under them. Her shoulders fell, ‘‘I slept well.’‘ but it was clearly a lie. ‘‘Y/N, don’t lie to me. I am an actor lying is my job.’‘ he tried to make her smile and it worked. ‘‘I had nightmares but it’s okay, Bobby was on my side like a true knight in shining armour.’‘ He gave a sad sigh, ‘‘I wish I was there to be your knight.’‘ She glanced away, cheeks are turning to pinkish red.

‘‘I wish you were here.’‘ She finally admitted, ‘‘Don’t worry, I will be back soon.’‘ but she could see the uncertainity in his eyes. They talked for a bit and said goodbye.

Y/N had to buy new painting equipmants so she went out and in the mean time talked to her landlady, and told her what happened. The old lady was shocked and advised her to stay away for a while, just in case.

She was at a shopping mall, hands filled with bags. Y/N decided to walk inside of a bookstore, she wasn’t going to buy anything but she always loved walking among the books, it kept her mind at ease.

She saw a book and decide to examine it, it was You by Caroline Kepnes. She wanted to read this book but she forgot to buy it every time ‘’Should I get it now?’’ Y/N was reading the first page when someone too familiar was caught on her peripheral vision, and she froze, dropped the book. Tall, dark brown hair, black eyes which looked like open wounds beneath his heavy brows as black as the pits of hell. Her hands were shaking, did he finally found her? If he did then what was his next step? She finally looked where she thought she saw him and there was a man. His back was now turned to her and he was gazing at the books, her body and mind became separate, she found herself getting close to the man. She couldn’t see his face because of his black hat and his coat’s collar was up.

‘‘J- James?’‘ She asked, her voice was raw and shaking, she felt her lips getting dry. The man turned to face her and she let out a relieved sigh. ‘‘Oh, I’m sorry Sir. I thought... you were someone else.’‘ The man smiled kindly ‘‘It’s okay. Have a nice day Miss.’‘

‘‘What is wrong with me?!’‘ she composed herself and left the store quickly.

On her way back she couldn’t shake the feeling of being followed or watched, she noticed how easily she forgot James when she was with Tom. When Y/N got back she locked the door and draw the curtains, poor Bobby only watched what she was doing. Her phone rang and she almost dropped her glass, the only sound in the house was her ring tone. She looked at the screen, it was Tom. ‘’Okay, calm down. Control yourself.’’ Y/N didn’t want Tom to realize what was going on. She tried hard to smile, ‘’Hello Tom!’’

‘‘Hi Y/N!’‘ He sounded happy to hear her voice. She took a huge sip from her water, ‘‘How are you?’‘

‘‘Not great, I had interviews all day.’‘ she could hear the soft sigh leaving his thin lips. ‘‘You must be tired.’‘ she sat down on the couch. ‘‘Yeah... How are you? Earlier today you said you’ll be getting some equipments.’‘

‘‘Yes, I did buy some. Can I paint in your living room? I promise I won’t make any mess.’‘ Tom smiled at her request, ‘‘Of course darling. How was your day?’‘ he asked enthusiastically.

She remembered what happened and became silent, ‘’Y/N? Are you there?’’

‘‘Yes.. I- ah, I’m here.’‘ she replied quickly but Tom caught her stressed voice. ‘‘What’s wrong? What happened?’‘ He was at his hotel room, rose from his couch, obviously worried. ‘‘Nothing.’‘

Tom rubbed his beard, ‘’Y/N, please tell me.’’ She hugged her knees against her chest, ‘’I was at a bookstore today, I was juts looking around I thought... I thought I saw James. I made the man turn his face, thankfully he wasn’t James.’’ A gloomy silence followed her sentence, ‘’How are you feeling now?’’

‘‘I’m just trying to relax, I know I shouldn’t be afraid, not anymore but... I couldn’t stop myself.’‘

Tom’s heart was aching at the moment, he wanted to just teleport himself and be on her side, caress her soft hair and whisper sweet nothings. ‘’I wish I was there.’’ he said sulleny, ‘’I am happy to hear your voice Tom.’’Y/N found herself smiling, ‘’Promise me to be safe.’’

‘‘I promise.’‘ she replied, her voice soft as a warm kiss.

Later she placed the equipmants on the living room and decide to draw things to keep herself calm, and hours later she got tired and slept on the couch.

She woke up to Bobby’s morning kisses, ‘’Good morning to you too.’’ she giggled and pet him. She really loved Bobby and it made her happy to see the feeling was mutual. Y/N gave him dog food and filled his water bowl and then she decided to prepare herself a breakfast.

Y/N was boiling water for tea and a knock was heard on the door,’’Could it be?’’ she thought, ‘’Is Tom back so soon?’’ she got excited like a little child and ran to open the door, what came later made her wished she looked through the pinhole before answering the door, because James Prendick, her ex fiance was standing infront of her and smiling like a mad man. 

‘’I assume you were expecting someone else.’’

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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance. There will be smut in the future ;))  Slow burn!

Warnings: Implied smut! ;))))

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Chapter 7

Was this a dream? She asked herself but when she reacted to the kiss she knew that it was the reality. His one hand was running through her hair ever so gently, and other hand cupped her face.  He could taste the salt of her tears on her soft lips. She was stunned at first but shortly after, found her hands on his torso running up and down, she could feel how tense he was. Their hearts were beating too fast, his hand left her cheek and landed on her waist, and guided her to sit on his lap, hands tracing the curves of her flaming hot body. He could smell his body lotion on her skin, and this got little Tom excited. 

Earlier today she never thought that they could have an intimate moment like this, but now she was on his lap, kissing and rubbing her clothed flower on him. His hands now on her butt cheeks gently squeezing, she felt him getting hard each time she was grinding on him. They were both out of breath so they stopped, panting crazy. Their foreheads were touching and breaths mingled. 

‘‘I’m sorry if I pushed you too far.’‘ Tom finally broke the silence, ‘‘No Tom. I enjoyed it but can we stop here? I’m really tired.’‘ After a night of break in and a message from her ex partner she was indeed tired. Y/N felt like she was disappointing him, ‘‘Darling, of course we can stop. I will never do things that might offend you in any way.’‘ he replied.

She was surprised because this wouldn’t be the reaction of her ex, he used to force her to do... things.

‘‘Thank you for understanding.’‘ 

‘‘No, I thank you for giving me this opportunity Y/N. I have waited oceans of time to do this.’‘

She chuckled, ‘’You think Dracula reference could get you laid?’’ asked jokingly.

‘‘Darling you are so smart, it blows my mind.’‘ He kissed her again, but this time it was a short thouch. ‘‘It’s pretty late. Would you like to sleep?’‘ he asked. ‘‘Yes. I’m exhausted.’‘ Tom felt how tired she was so he quickly got up from the couch, Y/N wrapped her exposed legs on his waist, ‘‘Would you like to sleep next to me.. on the same bed?’‘ he asked shyly, it was as if they didn’t had a kissing session minutes ago. Y/N laughed, ‘‘Do I have an option?’‘ she asked amused.

‘‘Yes and hell yes. Pick one.’‘ he replied laughing, he was climbing the stairs. ‘‘Hell yes then.’‘ her head was on his shoulder blade, she could smell his manly cologne, and her hand was on his chest she could feel his frantic heartbeat.

He softly landed her on her feet, ‘’Let’s just relax and sleep.’’ he kissed her hand in a gentlemanly manner. They got under the covers, ‘’Are you comfortable?’’ he asked because they had a really busy night and he learned about her past, Tom felt like he was forcing her and it was making him question himself.

She turned to him on the bed, ‘’Tom, if I didn’t want this believe me you would know. Right now all we need is a good night sleep even though it’s literally 4.’’ After a warm silence she heard him whisper, ‘’I want to hug you.’’ 

Y/N got close to him and felt his arms around her, together they were driven to the lands of the dreamer.

The smell of bacon and eggs woke her up. For a second she thought she was at her home and panicked, but when she looked around her surroundings she relaxed. Right side of the bed was empty, Y/N went to the bathroom before going down stairs.

    What she saw made her smile, Tom’s fit back was turned to her, he only had a grey track suit pants, and he was humming while fixing breakfast. Bobby was at his feet following his steps and when he sensed Y/N he run up to her really excited.

Tom turend to see her, ‘’Morning!’’ she managed to say and with a sudden flashback of them kissing brought light pink colour on her warm cheeks. ‘’Good morning sweetheart. Please, join me.’’ She sat next to him on the kitchen island. ‘’So, how are you feeling?’’  He asked while pouring the tea. ‘’I slept well, I feel a lot better actually.’’  She replied without looking at him. ‘’Can we talk about last night?’’ 

That was what she feared, ‘’If we must.’’ Y/N was waiting for Tom to say that it was a mistake but he held her hands and made her look at him. ‘’I would like to know what’s going on in your pretty mind but hear me out first. I’m glad we shared that kiss, because it made me realize how bad I want you in my life.’’ said Tom searching her Y/E/C eyes. ‘’Tom I-’’ She paused. Everything was happening too fast like a lightning and last time she jumped into a relationship she got hurt. Y/N promised herself that she would be cautious. ‘’It’s too fast for my liking.’’ She finally spoke, her voice was faint as a whipser. His bright smile faded, cocked his head to the side taking her in, his eyes seemed to see right through her. ‘’I know, you want to be careful. It seems the right thing to do.’’

She cubbed his cheek, ‘’Give me time. That’s all I ask of you. I have to confess no one ever kissed me like you did Tom. But I don’t want to rush things.’’ Y/N thought she finally had someone in her life that she could give honest, heart to heart answers. ‘’A flower cannot be forced to bloom before the time is right.’’ Tom replied, sadness came on him all at once, but he tried to hide it whit a smile. Y/N saw the way he looked at her, eyes yearning, hands on hers stroking slowly.

Tom’s phone rang from the living room and this gave time for both of them to collect themselves. Y/N continued with her tasty breakfast, she couldn’t help but stay quiet and listen.

‘‘What? When?’‘ She heard Tom say quite annoyed. ‘‘Does it have to be today?’‘ Y/N got curious, he came back and it was obvious that something was bothering him. ‘‘What’s wrong?’‘ Y/N asked. ‘‘My agent booked a night flight for me. I have interviews, and some work related events. Y/N, I won’t go if you ask me to stay.’‘ Even though it made her happy to hear that Tom was willing to stay with her she couldn’t do that to him. ‘‘Tom, it’s your job I think you should go. I will be fine.’‘ 

‘‘Are you sure?’‘ he asked not believing her. ‘‘I think I can take care of myself Tom.’‘ 

‘‘Promise me this, you will stay here. I don’t want you to go back, it’s  dangerous.’‘ She could see how worried he was, ‘‘Alright. I will stay here and also take care of Bobby. How long will it take?’‘ she asked but afraid of the answer. ‘‘Just a few days, I will try to be quick.’‘ His face fell. ‘’Let’s spend the day toether then.’’ She suggested to cheer him up and it worked.

  After having a pleasent breakfast they washed the dishes together which ended up Tom being mischievous. He got her over-sized shirt wet and Y/N did the same to him, they were like little puppies mesing with each other.

Tom packed his things for the flight, Y/N helped him as well. Later when it was afternoon Tom had an idea; ‘’Have you ever visited Coppa Club?’’

‘‘I’ve heard of it but never been there. Why?’‘  after her reply he immediately jumped from the couch, ‘‘My fair Lady, would you like to have a romantic time with me?’‘ Y/N was suprised to see a 38 year old man being a child when he got excited, she chuckled at hi eagerness. ‘‘Yes. I would love to, my Lord.’‘ 

Coppa Club, it was a bubble-shaped igloos on the riverbank with view over Tower Bridge, she heard that it was impossible to book place but Tom made a call and it was fixed. 

The entrance had yellow Christmas lights on left and right, a waiter helped them to settle and left. Insid eof igloo there was a couch and fluffy pillows and blankets to nuzzle if one got cold. There was button for service. The wooden table had candles and velvet tablecloth. ‘’Do you like it?’’ Tom asked, ‘’The view is amazing, also the place is cozy.  I love it.’’ It was like they created their own little world.

When they were serviced Y/N was watching Tom’s face and the way he talks about the things he love. She could see his passion for life in hiz azure eyes. She felt like she could loose herself in his voice and become one, but it was too early for that. Tom’s question made her aware of reality, ‘’Will you consider having me in your life when I’m away? Please give it a thought.’’

‘‘Why does he have to look this innocent?’‘

She took a sip from her hot chocolate, ‘’Yes, I will think about it.’’ Y/N could see his eyes shining, ‘’But don’t expect me to give you an answer.’’ she had to say, it broke her heart to see his face like that. He opened his mouth, thought better of what he was about to say, and simply noded instead.

‘‘Tom, please. You know I care about you. Like I said give me time.’‘ He touched her cheek, his tumb lightly tracing the line of a cheekbone. ‘‘Take your time. I will wait for you.’‘ He said with a smile as warm as the sunrise. They clinked their cups even though it wasn’t alcohol. ‘’To us.’’ Y/N said, ‘’To us.’’ Tom followed. They left the place hand in hand.

When they got back Bobby was too lazy to greet them. ‘’When do you have to leave?’’ she asked reluctantly, Y/N didn’t want to know she only wanted to stay like this forever.

‘‘Cab will be at my door at 12.’‘ he replied. Y/N tried to smile, she had a good heart Tom could see that and he treasured such a rare character trait, so he held her hands. They were standing in the living room, both of them wanted to say something but they were holding back. Tom didn’t want to go and leave her, Y/N wanted him to stay and loose herself in his warm, strong arms. He opened his mout to say something but stopped and took a breath. ‘‘Tom, don’t hold back.’‘ She encouraged him. ‘‘If I may be bold... could you give me a farewell kiss when I leave?’‘ She felt the warmth on her chest, ‘‘I guess I could do that.’‘ Y/N gave him a playful wink. 

They spent the rest of the day on the couch with blankets and a Disney movie on the tv. When the time came the movie was over. ‘’I should get my back.’’

    When The cab’s honk was heared he opened the door. Cold wind entered the house, she clung to her blanket on her shoulders. They walked to the porch, Bobby followed them. ‘’Here is the key to my house. I will call you whenever I’m free. I will grow restless and worried if you don’t answer.’’ She smiled and held his long hand ‘’Come here.’’ like she promised she kissed him.

Y/N’s arms went around his neck as his wrapped around her waist. He leaned into her letting her support some of his weight. His hold grew thight on her waist.

‘‘Farewell.’‘ She said finally. ‘‘Be safe Tom.’‘ He nudged his nose on hers, ‘‘I will miss you.’‘ he confessed. ‘‘I will miss you more.’‘ He gave Bobby a last petting and reluctantly walked and got inside of the car. Little did they know that someone was watching them.

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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance. There will be smut in the future ;))  Slow burn!

Warnings: Break in.  Y/N talks bout her abusive ex and violent things he did to her. Sad but something at the end will make you guys go crazy!! ;)

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Chapter 6

A week after the movie night she went to her therapist, Mrs. Smith was surprised when Y/N greeted her with a genuine smile.

‘‘You seem happy, what happened?’‘ Mrs. Smith asked, Y/N gave her the notebook and sat down. ‘‘Read it to find out.’‘ after five minutes of reading the therapist closed the notebook, and laid it on her table.

‘‘So you met someone?’‘ she asked, ‘‘Yes. And it is safe to say that we are... friends. Look, I have a friend, shocking right?’‘ Y/N laughed hysterically.

‘‘When I read the notebook your relationship whit him didn’t seem like a friendship Y/N.’‘  Mrs. Smith said while picking her pencil.

‘‘What do you mean?’‘ young girl asked but she already understood what Mrs. Smith was trying yo say, she was just trying to avoid or stall her.

‘‘Do you like him in a more than friends  way?’‘ That was the question that made Y/N afraid. The voices in her head kept asking that question whenever she was with Tom.

‘‘You wrote that you met his mother, this is a huge step for both of you.’‘ Mrs. Smith continued.

‘‘It wasn’t on purpose.’‘ Y/N replied shortly.

‘‘Y/N please, stop ignoring my question. What we do here is to guide you, and find answers to questions.’‘  she was taking notes while talking.

Y/N’s hands were on her lap, she was nervous and her therapist noticed.

‘‘I know that you swore you’ll never be in a relationship again. But we humans are social animals Y/N, we cannot hide from human connection,and intimacy and these things are a part of-’‘ Y/N had a sudden bravery,  ‘‘Yes, I like him.’‘ she finally said, feeling lighter with her confession.

Mrs. Smith smiled to see her progress, ‘’Good. We are getting somewhere. What do you like about him?’’ Just thinking about Tom made her blush, ‘’He is so thoughtful, I can see that he is trying to be more gentle when we are together. I haven’t told him about my... past  but he is smart.’’ 

‘‘Would you like to tell him some day?’‘

‘‘I want to but I don’t want to scare him off. We have a profound friendship, and I don’t want that to go away.’‘ she admitted sincerely.

‘‘What you feel is natural, and when the right moment comes I think you should tell him. Let’s come to my second important question, do you think he likes you? Because what I’ve read tells me that he is trying to be close to you, and like you said he is deliberately being gentle. So, what do you think?’‘

‘‘No.’‘ This time she didn’t wait or hesitate to answer. ‘‘You sound so sure. Why?’‘

She was trying to scratch the green paint off her fingers, ‘’Because he is being friendly close, friendly gentle. I am a friend to him and to be honest I doubt that he wants a problematic partner in his life.’’ she couldn’t look at Mrs. Smith in the eye. 

‘‘Y/N, you are not problematic. When I look at you I see a young, beautiful painter who is trying to survive like others.’‘ Y/N rolled her eyes, ‘‘Thank you but you haven’t seen how gorgeous he is. He should be with someone who is gorgeous like him, and that someone is not me.’‘ It hurt her to talk about her thoughts out loud but that’s what she felt.

After the session she had to throw herself outside to breath, and saw the colours of Christmas dancing harmoniously. Red, green, gold, white colours where everywhere, she had this sudden urge to finish her secret project.

Yes, she was secretly painting Tom. It was on a little canvas, well it wasn’t actually Tom, it was his misunderstood character Loki, and her plan was to give it to him when she was done and she was close to finishing.

She quickly went home to paint, and she got a text from Tom.

Tom: Hey Y/N! Can I call you? There is something that I want to ask you.

Her heart skipped a beat, did she do something wrong?

Y/N: Yes, I’m free. You can call.

She stared at the little canvas before her until her phone rang.

‘‘Hello darling.’‘ he sounded nervous.

‘‘Hi Tom.’‘ They talked about their day for few minutes and than Tom finally got to his point.

‘‘Y/N, tomorrow is Christmas, so do you have any plans?’‘ Y/N thought for a second, her plan was to call her parents, and eat alone on her couch, and she was planning to watch The Grinch.

‘‘No, I don’t have an actual plan. Why?’‘ 

‘‘Because, my mother insists that you should spend your Christmas with us. By us I meant mom, me, and my two sisters including their partners.’‘

Tom was on his couch, Bobby on his side, he was staring at the telly but his looks were empty. She didn’t answer at first, and that made him uneasy. Did he went too far?

‘‘I’m sorry, I know how you feel about crowded places. I shouldn’t have asked-’‘ he felt so embarrassed like a school boy.

‘‘I will come.’‘ she blurted out.

‘‘You will?’‘ He couldn’t help but sound desperat, he wanted to spend the Christmas with her so badly.

‘‘Yes. Don’t forget to send me the address.’‘ She felt like she couldn’t breath, what was she getting herself into?

‘‘I want to pick you up if that’s okey with you?’‘ he asked biting his lip, she could hear his uneven breathing.

‘‘That would be great. See you tomorrow.’‘ she had to hang up because she had an idea.

‘‘Yeah, bye.’‘

She planned to spend hours and finish the Loki painting, and give it to Tom when he comes to pick her up. She enthusiastically waggled her brushes and got to work.

Tom exhaled a dramatich sigh, he was so happy but nervous at the same time, and he felt like his heart was about to jump out of his rib cage. He placed the satin, black box on the table and smiled to himself.

She finished the painting at 5 in the morning, she gave it a last look before going to bed, Y/N was quite pleased with her work, and hoped that he would like it.

When she woke up she wrapped the present and went to her wardrobe.

 ‘’Why did you agree anyway?’’ the voices started again, ‘’Now you have to impress his family which is not an easy job.’’      Y/N brushed the thoughts away and picked her outfit. Black and dark red lace dress, black pumps, her dress had a nice V neckline.

She covered the sleep deprivation with a natural make up. She heard the knock on the door and it brought her to reality. ‘’You got this.’’ she whispered to herself and walked to the door.

Tom felt like he was lost for words, she was indeed beautiful,Y/N was shocked to see him with a nice black suit and dark red tie and a handkerchief. It was as if they agreed on the same colours.

‘‘May I come in?’‘ he cleared his throat and asked. ‘‘Yes, please come in.’‘ They walked to her living room. ‘‘You wait here, I’ll be getting my purse.’‘

Tom couldn’t help but stare at her leave. He sat on the couch. She got back with her purse, one hand behind her back. They both talked at the same time and then laughed, ‘’Ladies first.’’ Tom said. ‘’I have a present for you Tom.’’ her Y/E/C eyes were shining.

He gently opened his present, Y/N was on edge ‘’What if he doesn’t like it?’’

‘‘Y/N...’‘ he was staring at the splendid painting. She got close to him, ‘‘What do you think?’‘ their eyes met, ‘‘It’s an exquisite gift. I am lost for words. You are so thoughtful. Thank you, can’t wait to put this on my bedroom’s wall.’‘

Y/N smiled proudly, he gently put his present on the table and reached for his pocket. A black velvet box appeared, ‘’Would you mind turning your back?’’ he asked, they were so close and none of them realized that they were whispering, their breaths were dancing on each other’s faces. She turned her back, and heard him open the box.

He reached to lay the necklace on her neck, his arms brushed her shoulders. He noticed that she didn’t flinch, it was a good sign. She turned to him touching the necklace. It’s shape was heart diamond. ‘’Tom, I don’t know what to say. You shouldn’t have.’’ He was pleased to see the fascination on her Y/E/C eyes. ‘’Y/N, please. I want to do things for you. You are important to me.’’

He held her waist, ‘’Did you like it?’’ 

‘‘Yes, I really loved it’s shape.’‘ she blushed. ‘‘I have choosen it specifically.’‘ Yes he did choose it’s hape because he wanted her to sense how he feels but slowly. He didn’t want to scare her off.

‘‘Mr. Hiddleston, are you trying to give me your heart metaphorically?’‘ She joked but her smile faded away when she saw how serious he was. ‘‘Tom, is something wrong?’‘ She thought she said something bad. ‘‘You don’t know it, do you?’‘ he asked, getting closer to her, his hands were still on her soft waist his eyes begging for her to understand but all she saw was a wild ocean, uneasy with confusing thoughts.

‘‘Know what?’‘ She reached for to cup his cheek, he laid his head on her touch. If he or she reached a little more their lips would met but neither of them was sure to take this step. It was so easy for them to be lost in each other’s eyes.

Tom’s phone rang. She noticed how close they were so she took a step back, he answered his phone. ‘’It’s my mom, she asked what is taking us so long. Shall we leave?’’ he smiled like nothing happened. They left her house and got into his car.

Before entering Diana’s house she was so nervous but his family proved to her that there was nothing to be nervous about. They were all nice, funny people who welcomed her. Diana’s Christmas dinner was to die for and Y/N took few recepies. She helped her in the kitchen while others were in the living room.

‘‘So he finally decided to give you the necklace?’‘ Diana asked, Y/N was confused, ‘‘What do you mean by finally?’‘ Diana smiled at her, ‘‘He consulted me at first, asked me if it would be too much. I said nonsense buy the girl the necklace.’‘ They both giggled, ‘‘I just want you to know that you are really important to my boy, and to me as well. I’m glad I met you Y/N.’‘ her blue eyes were fixed on Y/N. ‘‘Thank you Diana. I am so glad I met you and your family.’‘

Throughout the night she became friends with every one which made Tom happy, the night went very well and they left quite late. During the car ride they talked about how much fun they had, Tom was pleased to hear that Y/N enjoyed herself.

When he parked close to her home he noticed something, he pointed at her apartment, ‘’I don’t remember you leaving the lights on. Do you?’’ he asked concerned. ‘’No, because I didn’t leave the lights on.’’ She felt the fire of panic in her. ‘’Let’s remain calm, I’ll go and look around. You stay here.’’ Said Tom, unbuckleing his safety belt but Y/N stopped him by touching his arm. ‘’I won’t let you go there alone.’’

‘‘But Y/N-’‘ she unbuckled, ‘‘Tom it’s my house. If something happened to it I would like to see.’‘ they left the car together. Her land lady was out of town for Christmas so Y/N mentally noted that she should call the old lady if it was a robbery.

Her door was wide open, lights were on, and everything was a mess. Chairs, tables were broken. Pillows were torn apart. She rushed to see her paintings and what she feared was before her eyes. Canvases were ripped, brushes broken. Tom followed her to see the devastating place.  She saw the little note on one of her paintings. It said; ‘’Found you.’’ 

She sinked to the ground, her legs were too tired to carry her and she screamed. Tom reached to hold her in his arms. She was shaking, crying heavily.

Tom noticed the note she was holding. ‘’Who could do something like this!?’’ she didn’t answer, ‘’I am going to call the police.’’

After a 20 minutes of crying she finally managed to stop, Tom put his jacket on her sunken shoulders and police arrived.  A police officer approached to Y/N and asked her some questions. Tom was also  being questioned.

‘‘We searched the whole flat, nothing is stolen so this must be a message.’‘ One of the officers pointed at the note. ‘‘Do you have enemies Ms. Y/L/N? Someone who wants to hurt you?’‘ 

Y/N’s eyes were fixed on the ground, Tom noticed how uncomfortable she was. ‘’Officer we are really tired, can Y/N come to the police station tomorrow?’’ he wanted them to leave. ‘’Mr. Hiddleston I know this is hard for both of you but we have to do our job.’’

‘‘I know who did this.’‘ Y/N spoke, her voice was shaking. ‘‘My ex fiance. He is the one who would do something like this.’‘

‘‘What’s his name?’‘ Officer asked while taking out his notebook. ‘‘James Prendick.’‘ She replied. Tom noticed how disturbed she was by only saying that person’s name. After at least 10 minutes of questioning officers left and the whole flat went silent.

‘‘Pack your things.’‘ Tom said, his tone was firm he didn’t want to sound angry or anything like that but the way she looked at him changed. ‘‘I am sorry Y/N, I just... I won’t let you stay here more than 5 seconds. If he was the one who did this that means he will try to harm you again.’‘ She could see how tired and concerned he was. 

‘‘I have nowhere to go.’‘ She replied coldy, he felt a heavy rock on his chest, she was indeed lonely and that needed to stop. ‘‘If it is okey with you, would you like to stay at my place? You saw my home it is enough for both of us.’‘ he suggested.

‘‘Tom, you are always too kind. I really don’t want to cause you any trouble.’‘ Their eyes met, just an hour ago she was laughing at his mother’s jokes and now he could see how broken she was. ‘’Y/N, you won’t cause any trouble. To be honest if you say no I’m planning on kidnapping you.’’He made her chuckle. ‘’Wait in the car, I will pack my things.’’

‘‘Home sweet home.’‘ said Tom looking at Bobby who greeted them at the door. She placed his jacket on the hanger, and walked inside. ‘‘Where should I put my things?’‘ She looked around like a lost puppy. ‘‘The guest room is upstairs... but there is another option.’‘ she could see the childish grin on his face. ‘‘Don’t even think about it Hiddleston!’‘ 

The guest room was better than her room, it had a king sized bed, two chairs, and a wardrobe but no shower only toilet. She felt like she needed a good shower and she called out from upstairs, ‘’Tom! Can I use your shower?’’ soon later she heared him from the living room ‘’Yes! No problem.’’

She walked into his bedroom, she could see the reflection of him everywhere, it was characteristic. Big bed with dark blue sheets, brown nightstands, a huge brown wardrobe. She walked into the bathroom, it was clean and shiny. She undressed and folded her clothes and laid on the bathtub which she filled with hot water. She laid her head on the cold tub, closed her eyes and tried hard to not cry but when the first sob left her shaking lips she let go. It’s been a while since she was scared like this.

‘‘Is he back?’‘ even thinking about the posibility made her shiver under the hot water, she was scratching her legs and her arms to stop the crying, and left nail marks. Tom took care of little things in the living room and climbed the stairs. He went to his room to check if it was presentable, and he heard her. He slowly approached to the bathroom door and listened, she was crying. He had this sudden urge to walk in and wrap his arms around her, and tell her that everything is going to be okey. He had to take a step back to stop himself from fulfilling his urge. He knocked on the door.

‘‘Yes?’‘ she was sniffing, ‘‘I was just checking if you were okey. I made tea, you can join me in the living room.’‘ he tried to sound joyful. ‘‘I’ll be out in a minute.’‘

She dried herself, celaned the tub and wore her over-sized shirt. The shirt was long enough to cover her bottom, and she was too tired to think if it was okey to walk around Tom like this. She went down stairs to find him with Bobby and sipping his tea. Even though she was bare foot he heard her light footsteps. 

‘‘Hi.’‘ He finally said after looking up and down on her form, he scooted over and gestured her to sit next to him. ‘‘I am sure you have a lot of questions.’‘ She said after petting Bobby for a while. ‘‘Yes.’‘ He replied. ‘‘But you are kind enough to stay silent.’‘ 

‘‘Y/N,’‘ he held her hands ‘‘You know a lot of things about me but when I think about you... I know just few things. I respect your choices but I wish I knew more, so that I could help you.’‘ he was honest, she could see it in his eyes. Y/N remembered what her therapist said, ‘‘When the right moment comes you should tell him.’‘ 

She slowly got up from her seat, turned off the lighst, and sat back. Tom was confused, it was really dark. ‘’I will tell you everything Tom.’’ She said. ‘’Why did you turn off the lights?’’ he asked, ‘’Because I don’t want you to see me cry when I tell you my tale.’’ 

She took a sip from her tea and started to talk; ‘’I was 18 and a Freshman in college, one day my roommate and her boyfriend told me that there was a party and we all went together. The house belonged to my ex abusive fiance who was a Senior and 22 years old. When it comes to Freshman and Senior relationship it generally isn’t the most innocent type.

Everyone loved James, he was an active person. When we started to see each other he was so nice, and my friends were jealous of me, because he always bought me things and took me to places. By the way he comes from a rich family, I wasn’t in it for the money, anyways I really liked him. First month in our relationship he slapped me because I wasn’t paying attention to him.’’

She had to take a breath, ‘’It was the first red flag, and I know I should’ve left him but I was a naive little girl who thought she could fix everyone. I stayed with him through college and we got engaged but he got worse.’’

She chuckled sadly to herself and continued, ‘’One time I didn’t agree with him on a minor subject and he kicked me out of the car, forced me to walk without my shoes and socks.’’  Y/N felt Tom reaching out and holding her hands, his gesture brought smile to her lips. 

‘‘The last straw was when he beat me with his belt, I couldn’t take it anymore and talked to my parents. They helped me leave him but it wasn’t enough so I left my town, changed my phone number. The last thing he said to me was ‘I will find you bitch.’ and now he found me.’‘

When she was done talking they sat in silence. Tom had to process, ‘’Well, you wanted to know, now you know.’’ she said, sadness dripping from her sweet tounge. Tom found her cheeks in the dark and whipped away the tears. ‘’You don’t have to feel sorry for me Tom.’’ He was gently brushing her wet cheeks, and he did something he thought he would never have the courage to do. ‘’Tom please, say something.’’ She begged, because Y/N didn’t want to lose him. Now their eyes got used to the darkness, Tom’s hands never left her cheeks and he kissed her.

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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance. There will be smut in the future ;))  Slow burn!

Warnings: Mama Hiddleston alert!!! She is so nice :)))

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Comments are welcomed ;)) Sorry for the delay I had to study because I have my exams next week :( Hope you guys like it :))

Chapter 5

Tom’s head rested on the cab’s window. He was watching the outside, snow was everywhere, and it made the streets calmer than usual and Christmas was close. 

‘‘She clearly wanted me to stay. God I’m so stupid.’‘ he thought to himself. 

He did want to stay, her little home was friendly and cozy and her company kept his mind at ease. It’s only been a few days but Tom felt like he finally found someone who he can spend good time with, someone to talk to, someone who can understand him. The only problem was that he could hurt her feelings with a single action without even realizing, because she was a sensetive girl who was recoviring from her past life, and it scared him. 

‘‘Who knows what horrible things she’s been through?!’‘

He realized that he could help her situation.

She was obviously suffering from lack of affection, she had no one to go to, so he decided he could be the one who she can go to, talk to.

The car stopped, ‘’Young man?’’ Tom was so deep in thought that the driver had to call out few times.

‘‘I’m so sorry sir. I was just-’‘ the old man cut his speech, ‘‘Thinking. I know. Lady problems I assume. Listen boy, if you do love her go for it and treat her nicely. I didn’t and my wife left me, now I hate myself for it.’‘ 

Was this love he was feeling?

‘‘I’m so sorry to hear that.’‘

When he got back home he took a long shower to feed his lust for her, it wasn’t just a simple teenage lust. He did want to gently hold her and tell her that she has someone now.

He felt sad because he had to leave her, all alone. He laid on his big bed, alone.

‘‘I should take Bobby from mom’s soon.’‘   Due to his work he had to leave his dog at his mom’s place sometimes.

Tom was a smart enough to know that having his dog back won’t be enough. He needed someone in his life, and that someone wasn’t ready to try it yet.

His phone buzzed, he smiled when he saw her text and photo.

Tom: I’m sorry darling. I won’t trouble you, I’ll get it as soon as I can. By the way don’t forget to read the book I gave you. =)

Tom never thought a simple text could bring him joy.

Y/N: Alright! Sleep well Tom.

Tom: Good night darling.

He definitely needed to see his mother and talk because his mind was about to explode.

Morning came with it’s glory. She felt well rested and spent hours on painting, as usual she forgot to have breakfast but she didn’t care. She had calls from her customers. She finished reading Great Gatsby and took some notes on her diary.

While reading she saw the sentences Tom underlined and it made her smile, there was a strange but warm sensation on her chest.

‘‘Let us learn to show our friendship for a man when he is alive and not after his death.’‘

‘‘You see I usually find myself among strangers because I drift here and there trying to forget the sad things that happened to me.’‘

‘‘Life starts all over again when it gets crisp in the fall.’‘

‘‘All I kept thinking about , over and over , was ‘You can’t live forever; you can’t live forever.’ ‘’

‘‘He looked at her the way all women want to be looked at by a man.’‘

She traced the last quotation with her fingertips, with a sudden decision she changed her clothes, and left her house. Her plan was to give him his watch and his book back, and see him as well. Earlier in the morning someone came to get his car, she saw it through the window so she thought that it would be a cute gesture to bring him his belongings.

‘‘That is a quite the story my dear.’‘ said Tom’s mother witha tea cup in her hand. Tom was petting his dog Bobby who laid on his lap and was wagging his tail in a friendly manner.

‘‘I really don’t know what to do mom.’‘ his face fell, she touched her son’s cheek, ‘‘It seemed to me that you made a very unique friend. It is sweet that you care about her well being but Tom you can’t fix everyone.’‘

‘‘I know but she has no one to help her.’‘ Diana’s blue eyes soften with motherly compassion, ‘‘You have no idea how I am so proud of you sweetheart.’‘

With the soft knock on the door she put the tea cup on the broen table, ‘’I’ll get it.’’ said Diana and got up from her chair.

‘‘Hello?’‘ the elderly woman asked curiously, but thanks to the description her son gave to her Diana quickly realized that the young girl before her was Y/N. She was surprised to see a little bit short girl, because her son’s last partner was tall, always had make-up on, and expensive clothes but this girl’s hair was let loose, she had a black coat and a mustard colour sweatshirt inside, which looked used but had characteristic vibe. She didn’t have high heels or a skirt. Diana was pleased to see a naturally beautiful girl, it was rare after all.

‘‘Hi, I- I’m Y/N Y/L/N.’‘ they shook hands, ‘‘I’m Tom’s mother Diana. Would you like to come in?’‘ she asked heartfelty. ‘‘I don’t want to impose, I just brought Tom’s watch, and his book. He left them in my place last night-’‘ and she blushed deep red, ‘‘I meant- I mean-’‘ she was playing with her fingers nervously. Diana touched her shoulder, ‘‘Darling it is cold outside, and we have tea. Please come in.’‘ Y/N couldn’t say no to this charming woman again so she reluctantly walked inside.

‘‘Mom who is it-’‘ Tom’s eyes lit up whe he saw her. ‘‘Oh, hi Y/N.’‘ he smiled, ‘‘You weren’t this pleased when I came here today.’‘ his mother said smiling. ‘‘Mother!’‘ Tom gave her a warning look but Diana didn’t care. ‘‘Hi Tom.’‘ Y/N said finally. ‘‘You settle in, I’ll bring you tea darling.’‘ said Diana and left them. 

There was silence between them, she settled on a comfortable chair, ‘’I’m sorry, I should’ve called before I-’’ she had no idea that today’s conversation was all about her.

‘‘I remember telling you that you are always welcome here. Thank you for bringing my watch and the book.’‘ She put the items on the table when she felt something furry touched her legs.

‘‘Who do we have here?’‘ she strated to give the dog belly rubs, ‘‘He likes you.’‘ said Tom. He never saw her smile like that before. ‘‘What’s his name?’‘   ‘‘Bobby.’‘  Diana entered with a cup of tea when they locked eyes. She cleared her throat, ‘’Your tea darling.’’  ‘’Thank you Mrs.-’’ Diana interrupted her, ‘’Oh please call me Diana. No need for formalities.’’ she chuckled. Tom rolled his eyes, ‘’My mother is always frank about her feelings.’’

After having a decent and long conversation Diana said that she had a business to attend and gave his son a wink before she left.

‘‘I should get going as well.’‘ said Y/N standing in the middle of the living room, uncertain of what to do.

Tom was infront of her, his hands in his pockets, ‘’If you are free today would you like to stay? We could discuss the book, and watch it’s movie version.’’ Y/N had to admit, he had the best puppy eyes and a reasonable excuse.

‘‘I’ve finished my paintings, I guess I’m free.’‘ she sat back, Y/N couldn’t see it but Tom made a fist bump.

Tom came inside with a huge, yellow bucket of popcorn and drinks. He played the movie, and sat close to her but little Bobby was between them.

During the movie Y/N didn’t realize that Tom put Bobby on the ground and got closer to her. Their hands lightly touched each other when they wanted to eat popcorn. ‘’Mr. Hiddleston you are quite handsy.’’ she giggled. With last nights image in his brain Tom being in the shower doing something which involved her... he couldn’t help but blush, she had no idea. ‘’What can I say, I have big hands.’’ 

‘‘It’s a good thing I think.’‘ she thought she said that silently but he heard her clearly. ‘‘Yes, I am good at grabbing things.’‘ they were at the stage of teasing, and he loved every second of it. It gave him hope.

They watched the movie, when it was finished Y/N took the book ‘’I loved the quotations you underlined.’’ she said, and again she traced the last quote.

‘‘Oh, which one is your favorite?’‘ he asked. 

‘‘He looked at her the way all women want to be looked at by a man.’‘ She didn’t even look at the book because somehow she memeorized it. 

Was she crazy or Tom’s pupils were getting bigger? He was looking at her like she was a delicate artifact from Ancient Greece, fragile yet holding secrets of everything gracefully. 

She tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.

‘‘Everyone deserves to be adored Y/N, to be loved.’‘ his lips were getting dry. The air surrounding them was getting thick.

Suddenly Bobby started to bark so they had to pull themselves together.

‘‘I’ve once read an artical about Great Gatsby.’‘ she wanted to change the subject, and continued ‘‘It is said that Gatsby is actually Fitzgerald, and Daisy is Zelda, his wife. He even used the same sentence his wife said after giving birth.’‘ 

Tom didn’t knew this, he thought how confident she looked when she was explaining something she loves.

‘‘It is sad actually. Because you know Gatsby dies and Daisy doesn’t even visits his grave.’‘ said Tom, he looked a little sad but his sparkling blue eyes shone with an icy blue radiance, she couldn’t help but stare at him. 

‘‘Daisy is an idiot.’‘ she blurted out which made Tom laugh. ‘‘Why?’‘ he asked, their knees were touching slightly. ‘‘Because if I loved someone I would choose him, consequences wouldn’t matter.’‘

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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance. There will be smut in the future ;))  Slow burn!

Warnings: None. 

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Chapter 4

The Next Day

Y/N finally woke up from her sleep, suprisingly she slept like a baby, and she was energetic. She went out to get groceries because she had a man to impress with her cooking skills.

When she got back she cleaned the house and started to cook. It has been months since she cooked like this, she was busy with creamy chicken and gnocchi soup when she received a text.

Tom: Would you like me to bring wine, darling?

‘‘Why is he keep calling me darling?’‘ she never thought a simple text could make her smile but there she was grinning like a little girl.

Y/N: That would be great. :)

She panicked, it’s been a while since she served dinner so what if she makes a mess and blows it? 

‘‘Are you sure about this?’‘ the voices in her head appeared, ‘‘Does he even care bout your effort?’‘ she took a deep breath to calm herself, 

‘‘I am a big girl. I got this.’‘ When she was done with the soup she cooked lighter chicken parmesan, her mother thought her that recipe. The smell of the food brought back her childhood memories, she was looking outside of her kitchen window and watching the snow. Instead of going out and play she used to watch her mother cook. 

She took a warm shower, and picked a scarlet winter dress. It was showing a little bit of cleavage. She dressed up and texted Tom the directions and played a soft music from her old gramaphone. Her grandmother gave her the gramaphone before she passed away.

Y/N wandered inside her home to see if something was wrong, everything was perfect. She received another text.

Tom: I’ll be at your place in 10 min.

She quickly prepared the table in the living room, she heared a soft knock on herwhen she was done with the table. She looked at herself on the mirror before answering the door.

Tom was standing there like a mighty Greek god. He had a white sweater with black pants and his signature grey boots. He was holding a bottle of expensive wine and a boquet of red roses which matched her winter dress.

‘‘Welcome to my humble home Tom.’‘ he smiled at her sentence, it became their inside joke. She took the wine and the boquet ‘‘Thank you.’‘ she said shyly and put the roses in a vase in the living room.

‘‘Aren’t you giving me an apartment tour?’‘ he asked. All of a sudden she felt like she wasn’t enough, her home was too little and cheap compared to his. 

‘‘Y- yeah sure.’‘ she murmured and Tom understood that something was wrong, ‘‘Can I see your work room? I’m dying to see your paintings.’‘ it was true. He really wanted to see them but he also wanted to make her comfortable, even the mention of painting brought light to her Y/E/C eyes, and he was pleased to see it.

After walking the -not so long- hall she opened a door and hit the lights. ‘’This was the guest room but I have no guests to stay so I turned it into a work place.’’ she explained. Tom walked inside, the walls were covered with paintings, there was a stool in front of a canvas and there was a table which had paint tubes, brushes etc.

He slowly examined the paintings, his hands were in his pockets and he felt like he was at a museum of renaissance art. 

‘‘What do you think?’‘ she was curious to know the answer but also too afraid because her work was the only thing that kept her going no matter what.

He turned his ocean eyes to her, ‘’Stunning. Absolutely and unquestionably.’’ his eyes were fixed on her.

‘‘Is he talking about the paintings or... me?’‘ she thought. Her cheeks heated at his compliment, ‘’T- thank you.’’ Tom smiled sincerely, ‘’I mean it.’’ he said. She was looking at the ground, ‘’Can we go back to my living room before I die of shyness?!’’ they laughed and went inside.

He smelled the air, ‘’Delicious! Shall we eat?’’

Tom was pouring the wine and Y/N was serving the food when she noticed a band-aid on his thumb. ‘’What happened to your thumb?’’ she had a strong guess. ‘’Nothing. I’m fine.’’ she gently held his thumb and traced it with her finger, ‘’It happened beacuse of me, right?’’ she felt the guilt again.

‘‘Y/N-’‘ Tom held her hands, her hands were lost in his. ‘‘It wasn’t your fault. After you left I picked up the pieces and cut my thumb. It was an accident.’‘ he smiled kindly.

‘‘Why does he have to be perfect?’‘

They continued to eat, and talked about their day.

When they were done they settled on the couch, ‘’I want to play a game.’’ she said grinning. ‘’Oh no! You are smiling like a she devil.’’ he giggled.

‘‘Two thruths and a lie Hiddleston. The one who can’t find the lie will have to drink. Are you in?’‘ Tom thought carefully for a second, ‘‘I’m in. Bring it on darling.’‘

‘‘Well... I can play piano. I speak 3 languages and I can’t swim.’‘ she said innocently.

Tom put his long index finger to his thin lips. ‘’The lie is that you cannot swim.’’ he said finally. She pored wine to his cup, ‘’Drink up.’’ He was confused, ‘’What?’’ 

‘‘I can’t play piano Tom.’‘ he sighed exaggeratedly and took a huge sip. ‘‘Wait, what languages you speak?’’

‘‘Other than English I can speak Sindarin, Klingon, and German.’‘ she daid proudly, Tom started to laugh, ‘‘Oh my god! You have to teach me Sindarin. I have been fascinated by elves.’‘

‘‘ Be iest lin, Melethron nin.’‘ she said jokingly but Tom was surprised.

‘‘What does that mean?’‘ he asked. ‘‘As you wish my beloved.’‘ he had the instant red blush on his  porcelain cheeks.

‘‘It sounds notably sensual.’‘ this time Y/N blushed deep  red. ‘‘Yes it does, doesn’t it? Anyways, your turn.’‘ she quickly changed the subject.

‘‘I can play guitar. I can speak in Greek and I don’t have a Netflix account.’‘ 

Y/N was trying to read his well sculpted face.  His chiseled jaw made him look husky and she loved it. ‘’Don’t lie to me Hiddleston you do have a Netflic account.’’

‘‘Wow! Am I that obvious? Or are you good at reading people?’‘ 

She smiled proudly and watched him finish his cup. ‘’I’m good at reading people. I’m impressed that you can speak in Greek. Most people don’t understand the joy of knowing more than one language.’’ Tom’s thoughts were the exact same. 

This game continued untill they finished Y/N’s wine as well. ‘’Oh it’s pretty late.’’ said Tom looking at the clock in the living room. They were a little  tipsy.

‘‘Tom you shouldn’t drive. It’s late and as you can see-’‘ she pointed at the two empty bottles, ‘‘We’ve drank all of them.’‘

‘‘What are you suggesting?’‘ he asked, his speech was slow, his eyes focused on her Y/E/C and his pupils were blown wide. Their knees were brushing lightly when they move and this gave excitement to both of them.

‘‘You can stay here if you want. I don’t want you to drive, it’s too risky and I really don’t want to lose my companion of literature and fine wine.’‘ they giggled.

Tom was deep in thought, he wanted to accept her offer but as being a gentleman he was unsure.

‘‘You are too kind Y/N.’‘ he said looking really sad, ‘‘I mean it Tom, please stay here. Tonight.’‘ she shocked herself, when did she became this bold?

He sighed heavily and got up -almost falling down- he was afraid. Afraid that he wouldn’t be able to keep his hands to himself if he stayed. It was obvious that she was a fragile state in her life and he didn’t want to hurt her. 

‘‘I can’t do this. I don’t want to break the trust which is still bonding between us. She probably considers me as a friend anyway.’‘ He thought sadly.

He called a cab. ‘’Are you sure?’’ she asked, ‘’Yes. I don’t want to cause you any trouble.’’ he said without meeting her eyes.

They were at the doorstep, ‘’Thank you for the flowers and the wine.’’ she said smiling bright but he could see the shimmer of sadness. ‘’I should be the one to thank you darling, the dinner was fantastic.’’ Y/N was able to impress Tom by her cooking skills, she mentally high-fived herself.

The cab driver arrived, they looked at each other, both of them had milion things to say but for some reason they were holding everything inside. The coldness or the snow didn’t matter to them. Tom slowly leaned in, Y/N closed her eyes. He gently kissed her cheek, it all happened in five seconds but to Y/N it felt like eternity bliss. She felt his ginger blond beard brushing on her cheek and it tingled her sensetive skin. Tom definitely did that on purpose. His fingers traced the place where he kissed, ‘’Good night darling.’’ she had to swallow to speak clearly, ‘’Good night Tom.’’

She closed the door with a huge grin

After she did the dishes she went to the bathroom and smiled widely, it seemed that Tom forgot his watch while washing his hands. She texted him.

Y/N: Tom, you forgot your watch. *she sent a picture of her wearing the watch on her wrist and smiling*

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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance. There will be smut in the future ;))  Slow burn!

Warnings: None. 

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Chapter 3

The car ride was silent but it was comfortable. 

‘‘Welcome to my humble home.’‘ they entered, she could smell his cologne everywhere. His home, furnitures were masculine.

‘‘Would you like to drink something?’‘ he asked, ‘‘Yes please.’‘ 

‘‘Wine?’‘ he asked again while walking to kitchen ‘‘Perfect choice.’‘ she settled on the cozy couch while he was at kitchen. 

‘‘Why is he so... familiar?’‘ she thought to herself. He appeared with two glasses and a wine bottle. ‘‘You have a lovely home Tom.’‘ he was pouring the wine, ‘‘Thank you darling.’‘

‘‘Darling? Well, it sounds nice.’‘      ‘’Do you want to see my little library?’‘ her eyes lit up ‘‘God yes!’‘ he extended his hand ‘‘Take my hand and I shall lead you to my kingdom.’‘ she giggled and took his hand. They went upstairs and he opened a door.

The room was filled with wall to wall books, and a study table. ‘’Wow Hiddleston!’’ they were still holding each others’ hand, ‘’I hope I impressed you.’’ he smiled like a little boy ‘’Yes, I am impressed.’’ she walked to the books ‘’This is my office and also my library.’’ papers on his brown table caught her attention, ‘’Wait, is that a script of a play?’’ he got nervous, ‘’Yes but I haven’t decided yet.’’ and something in her brain clicked. ‘’Oh my God! I knew it. You are that Loki dude.’’ he chuckled, ‘’So you know my job?’’ she was having hard time looking at him, ‘’I had this feeling like I somehow knew who you were but now I figured it out.’’

‘‘I hope it doesn’t make you uncomfortable.’‘ he was genuienly concerned, ‘‘No, not at all.’‘ he smiled, ‘‘Well, this Loki dude will be giving you a book.’‘ she giggled. He got close to her and grabbed a book from her left side, they were so close she felt like she couldn’t breath.

‘‘Did he do that on purpose?’‘     ‘’Here. Have you read this before?’‘

‘‘Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald’’

‘‘Yes but it’s been years.’‘ she was holding the book on her chest, ‘‘Alright then, read it in a week and we will discuss it... together.’‘ they were still close and her back was pressed to the book shelf. If she moved close to him just for few inches their lips could touch and the idea of it sent shivers down her spine.

‘‘How can I inform you when I’m finished?’‘ he had this handsome grin on his face, ‘‘Miss Y/L/N, are you trying to get my number?’‘ she blushed deep red. ‘‘I can’t be smooth as you Hiddleston!’‘ Y/N playfully hit his shoulder. 

After exchanging numbers they went back to the living room. They kept drinking and talking, Y/N learned about Tom’s family but when it came to her family she gave minimum information and changed the sunject. Tom wasn’t stupid, he knew something was wrong but aslo didn’t want to push her. 

‘‘So why are you single? I’m pretty sure a young beautiful lady such as yourself has a lot of men at her doorstep, waiting to be the one.’‘ he finally asked, she blushed again. 

Y/N paused for a second, ‘’I had someone in my life but our relationship got... dark and I had to leave. I don’t want anything like that happen again. That’s why I deny the gentlemen at my doorstep.’’ 

‘‘I revealed too much. God why did I do that?!’‘

‘‘He hurt you, didn’t he?’‘ Tom’s expression was serious but his voice was so soft. ‘‘Yes, can we talk something else please?’‘

They talked about his job and Y/N’s job as well. He seemed amazed by her talent and complimented her many times. ‘’I would love to see your work.’’ he finally said, ‘’Maybe one day I will invite you to my place Tom.’’ she winked childishly and they laughed together. ‘’But now I have to go. I have projects to start.’’ Tom was having so much fun talking to her and he didn’t want her to leave bu he said nothing. She could see the disappointment in his beautiful eyes, ‘’Don’t worry love, I will be back if you allow me.’’ he smiled, ‘’You are always welcome.’’ she helped him with glasses but something happened.

She accidentlayy dropped one of the wine glasses, ‘’I’m so sorry Tom.’’ she sinked to her knees to pick the pieces and Tom came to help her but her memories were triggered again.

‘‘I’m so sorry please don’t hurt me.’‘ and with that they locked eyes. Tom was in shock, he knew that he had to be careful so he swallowed and spoke calmly; ‘‘Y/N, I would never hurt you.’‘ he tried to touch her shoulder but unfortunately she flinched, her hands were shaking.

‘‘Y/N, I don’t know what happened to you but I have some opinions. I can assure you that in my presence no one can hurt you.’‘ he slowly extended his palm and she touched it like bruised child learning to trust again. He held her hand gently and placed a warm kiss. ‘‘I have to go.’‘ Was all she could say and she quickly left his place.

When she got back to her home she cried for an hour. She knew that Tom would never hurt her but she didn’t know how to trust someone after what happened.

‘‘I better work.’‘

While painting, her mind was crazy, thinking about Tom and how she left. She had to apologies, Y/N picked up her phone and texted him.

Y/N: Hi Tom it’s Y/N. I just wanted to apologies I shouldn’t have run away like that. I’m so sorry for breaking the glass. Please don’t be mad at me.

After minutes of hesitation she finally hit the send button and she kept herself busy with painting.

Tom was reading the script when his phone vibrated. After Y/N left he cleaned the floor and cut his finger but other than that he was fine. He didn’t mind a little bit of blood, all he was interested in was to show her that it is okey to have flaws. He couldn’t stop thinking about her and when his phone vibrated he realized that he was reading the same page for an hour.

Tom: Hi Y/N. Please don’t be sorry about the glass, it was nothing. I break things all the time at my house. I am NOT mad at you, I can never be mad at a lovely, innocent woman.

She was painting a cat when she received the text, she couldn’t help but smile.

‘‘A lovely, innocent woman...’‘

Y/N: Thank you for everything Tom.

she soon received another text.

Tom: If you fell sorry maybe you can make it up to my by cooking dinner. *wink*

She blushed, there was no harm of showing her cooking skills off.

Y/N: Tomorrow at 8. Don’t be late. I will send you the address. *smile*

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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance. There will be smut in the future ;))

Warnings: Panick but sweet at the end ;)

TAG LIST IS OPEN! Guys thank you for the support :)) <33 

Chapter 2

Young girl shut sher door, she was out of breath because she was angry and decided to walk to her home. Y/N rested her forehead on the door, after few seconds and deep breaths she managed to calm herself.

She sat on her chair, she was tired. Well, even the slightest interaction drained her energy these days. She walked to her little kitchen and prepared a sandwich she needed to start a new project so she put the plate on the tray and walked to her office a.k.a guest room that she turned into an office. She sat on the stool and looked at the empty canvas. A client wanted her to paint a landscape full of flowers so she grabbed her brushes and started to paint.

She realized it was morning when the light shades of orange entered her office, she worked all night and finally finished the painting. She will be paid generously because her client was a rich woman. As usual she noticed that she forget to eat, whenever Y/N was painting she became immune to the outside world. She took an apple from the fridge and walked to her living room. She remembered the notebook and decided to write, the problem was the notebook wasn’t in her bag, she panicked. ‘’Where is it?!’’ she looked everywhere but it was nowhere to be found, she remembered the Café. It was too early to go there so decided to wait, ‘’I will go there and ask the waitress, I’m pretty sure they took it to keep it safe.’’ she talked to herself. 

The deamons in her head started to talk; ‘’What if it was lost?’’

‘‘What if the man you argued took it?’‘

‘‘If it’s the man that means he read what was written, he will think that you are troubled, crazy girl.’‘

She remembered the man, especially his eyes. Eyes like blue stars burning...

She took a hot shower to calm her nerves. Throughout the day she did many things to not deal with the deamons in her head. When the time came she got dressed and went out.

The same feelings surrounded her when she entered the Café. Wamth, sincerity, she felt safe. The same seat was unoccupied so Y/N sat there.

‘‘Ready to order?’‘ the same lovely waitress smiled at her. ‘‘Hi, I... I lost my notebook. I think I left it here.. yesterday. Have you found something like that?’‘     ‘‘No, but I will ask my boss for you.’‘ Y/N ordered a nice tea and a cake.

After few minutes waitress came back, ‘’I’m so sorry Madam but no one found a notebook here.’’ her face fell, ‘’Thank you.’’ she started to panick again, ‘’No! No! This cannot be happening.’’ 

She did that breathing technique to calm down. Y/N took a huge sip from her tea, and watching the snow falling on the street brought smile to her face. She had a pencil so she started to draw something on a napkin, she busy with drawing that’s why she didn’t realize who entered the Café.

‘‘May I sit?’‘ the same British accent filled her ears, Y/N looked up to meet his blue eyes, it was him. ‘‘O- of course.’‘ 

‘‘It is nice to see you here because... I-’‘ he was having trouble speaking, like a child who did something bad and he couldn’t bring himself to look at her, ‘‘Do you have my notebook?’‘ she asked frankly.

‘‘Y- yes. But please don’t get me wrong. I noticed that you left it on the table so I took it to give you back. I, for some reason knew that you would be here... again.’‘ Y/N’S cheeks were heated out of embarrassment ‘‘Can I have it back?’‘

It was on his black coat’s pocket, ‘’Here.’’ she looked at it for a few seconds, scared to open. ‘’Did you read it?’’ and this time his cheeks turned into a light shade of pink, the same colour when she mix red and white paint together.

She smiled like she didn’t care, ‘’It’s okay. I didn’t even write more than three pages.’’  he exhaled the breath he was holding. ‘’Who is Mrs.Smith?’’ and a cold silence fell on the table.

‘‘She is my... psychologist, therapist call it whatever you want. She gave me this to write because I’m not very talkative person.’‘ 

‘‘Oh, I’m so sorry if I overstepped boundaries.’‘ she rolled her eyes, ‘‘Mister, you waltzed on my boundaries yesterday.’‘ he looked like hurt but also amused, ‘’But it’s okay. May I have your name strange man?’’ she could see the shining stars in his blue eyes. ‘’Where are my manners, my name is Tom. Tom Hiddleston.’’      he extended his big hand, ‘’May I have the name of the woman that I waltzed on her boundaries?’’ she couldn’t help but giggle, his name did sound familiar.

‘’My name is Y/N Y/L/N. Nice to meet you Tom.’’ they geld each other’s hands more than few seconds, the waitress came so they had to pull back.

‘’Y/N, Y/N, Y/N a lovely name for a lovely lady. Can I bold and ask you something?’’  she was playing with her cake, ‘’Yes?’’

‘‘As you know I’ve read your journal, so why did you think that I would hate you?’‘ Tom at first didn’t want to read the journal but than curiosity got the best of him and he found himself on his couch, sipping his tea and reading it. He felt really bad for reading it but the darkness which the words carried distracted him. His first question was; ‘‘Why does she hate herself so much?’‘ but he couldn’t ask that, it would be rude.

She kept playing with the cake, Y/N wasn’t a skinny girl but she realized that she was losing weight on a unhealthy way so she tried to finish her cake but failed.

‘‘Well... sometimes I can be hard to deal with.’‘ she tried to avoid his gaze but his aura was too strong. 

For a split second he thought he saw the broken girl in her Y/E/C eyes but she knew how to act happy and fine so she smiled, ‘’Tom, your face tells me that you have more than one question so ask away.’’ her tea got cold but she didn’t mind.

He was surprised, ‘’You don’t have to answer my questions if you don’t want to. I would feel terrible if I hurt you.’’ 

Hurt. Many people hurt her throughout the years but she didn’t say a word, she wasn’t a fighter. The only, reasonable thing she did was to move away and never see them again.

‘‘You can consider this as our first date Tom. Go on, ask.’‘

‘’Date? What the fuck am I talking about?!’’ she sometimes had this habit of not filtering her words. 

‘‘Ehehehe.’‘ the sound of his laughter made her smile sincerely. He noticed the drawing of a snowflake, ‘‘Wow! Did you draw this?’‘ his childish excitement made her chuckle, ‘‘Yes, I’m a painter. It’s my profession.’‘

Tom looked like he was impressed, he fixed his curly hair. He had a straight jaw  line that could cut someone’s finger if touched. 

‘’He is gorgeous.’’     

‘‘I must apologies for my behaviour yesterday. I didn’t want to scare you away, in fact I quite enjoyed our conversation about Stefan Zweig.’‘ his voice was soothing, ‘‘You really don’t have to apologies, I shouldn’t have ran away like that. I also did enjoyed our talk. It isn’t every day that I can talk about books with a man.’‘ he smiled, she could see the little wrinkles around his eyes, it was cute.

‘‘Pardon me but I have to ask, you said it is our ‘’first date’‘ so that means you are... single?’‘ 

‘‘Yes. Do I look like a girl whou would cheat on her man?’‘ she said jokingly. ‘‘No, the opposite, you look loyal... maybe too loyal.’‘ and with that her memories were triggerd. Her eyes were focused on his blue eyes but it was like she wasn’t there. Tom was gone and replaced by her ex abusive fiance, shouting at her and blaming her. ‘‘Y/N? Y/N?’‘ she came to her senses.

‘‘She is hiding her true feelings, but why?’‘ thought Tom. 

The hours went by without even realizing, they shared funny stories, talked about everything and for once in a long time Y/N felt comfortable.

Tom came up with an idea, ‘’We obviously love reading, let’s share our favorite books to each other. After reading them we can share our thoughts. How does that sound?’’  Y/N hesitated for a second, ‘’Mr.Hiddleston, are you trying to invite me to your house?’’ Tom became shy, ‘’Am I that obvious?’’ she laughed. ‘’No, I’m just smart.’’ she thought about his kind and creative offer, ‘’You know what, let’s go!’’

Tom first couldn’t believe it, ‘’R- really?’’ his ocean eyes lit up. ‘’Yes, shall we leave before I lose my interest?’’ 

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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance

Warnings: Mental problems. A bit dark. Reader has a temper girll calm down :D

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Chapter 1 

‘‘And how does that make you feel?’‘ Mrs. Smith, Y/N’s psychologist asked her a question but at the moment she was interested in the plants Mrs. Smith had in her office. ‘‘You should water your plants more often Mrs. Smith.’‘ the woman sighed, ‘‘Y/N, we have been having these sessions for weeks now. If you cannot open yourself up to me than I can’t help you.’‘ Y/N was playing with her fingers, they were cold because London was cold. It was December after all, ‘‘Nothing.’‘ she murmured.

‘‘Sorry?’‘ she finally looked at Mrs. Smith, ‘‘As you can tell I can’t feel anything anymore.’‘ and the alarm was heared. 

‘‘Once again we have come to an end, before you leave take these.’‘ Mrs.Smith put a notebook and a pencil on her table, ‘‘Why?’‘ Y/N was confused. ‘‘Since you can’t open up I thought you should write your feelings or anything you do daily. And your first task is to go to a public place and socialize.’‘ she took the iteams, ‘’I trust you Y/N. Have a good day.’’

It has been a week and Y/N was too tired to go out. She was a painter so she spent nights to finish her projects. She used to paint for the passion of art but now she was painting to pay her rent and bills. She was living a modest life, her house was little but it was enough for her and landlady was kind to Y/N. She moved there two years ago, after escaping from her abusive fiance. 

It was cold outside, and snowy so she had long, black boots and black pants. Her dark green sweater was comfy, she put on her white scarf and white beanie. She packed her things and left her house reluctantly.

Y/N travelled for a little bit but the snow was unbearable so she tahnkfully found a nice Café.

She was welcomed by the warmth and the smell of coffee, even though she didn’t drink coffee too much she always enjoyed the smell. She found a seat next to the big window which was facing outside.

‘‘What can I get for you?’‘ a lovely waitress smiled, ‘‘Can I have chamomile tea and chocolate chip cookie, thak you.’‘ waitress left and she settled down, started to take notes; 

‘’Mrs.Smith, a week ago you gave me a task and I’m trying to complete it. I’m at a nice Café. I’m watching people laugh, smile and hold their loved ones close. The truth is no one needs me here, aren’t we all just insignificant beings who think that the world is built for them? This makes me disgusted.’’

She was enjoying her tea when that lovely waitress approached to her table, she had that apologetic smile on her bright face. ‘’So sorry to interrupt you Madam but as you can see we are packed and our regular customer is here. If it is okey for you can he sit here with you, but of course if you want to be left alone-’’

Y/N was a waitress once and she knew how stressful it can be, ‘’It’s okey.’’ Y/N cut her off, ‘’He can sit with me.’’ and she took few notes; 

‘‘Well Mrs.Smith, someone has to sit with me. Poor lad. He doesn’t know what he is doing, he is going to hate me.’‘

A tall man with black glasses and a serious expression came to her table, ‘’May I sit?’’ his husky voice was filled with the famous British accent. ‘’Of course, please.’’ she made a hand gesture for him to sit. She kept writing when the waitress took his order.

‘‘Is that a journal?’‘ the man smiled and she could see his white theet. ‘‘Yes.’‘ Y/N didn’t want to talk so she cut it short and turned her gaze outside, she really wasn’t in the mood of engaging a conversation but she also didn’t want to be rude. She put her Y/H/C strand of hair behind her ear, thanks to the curiousty in humans’ nature she was looking at him every five seconds. He was reading ‘‘Brief einer Unbekannten by Stefan Zweig.’‘  Y/N read that book before, when she stopped looking at the book’s cover they locked eyes. His blue eyes were captivating, ‘’I assume you read it before?’’ she dropped her pencil on the table, ‘’Yes, I’ve read it before.’’ even though she was giving him cold and short answers he was smiling politely. ‘’You liked it?’’ she got nervous it’s been a while since she talked to men so she started to play with the pencil. ‘’Yes but the idea of a woman falling deeply in love with a man who she didn’t even spend enough time with is bizarre. Of course it’s fiction so anything is possible.’’ 

Probably because of the Café’s warm environment she had this strange feeling, like she could open up to this man before her and talk for hours.

‘‘So you don’t support the idea of someone falling deeply in love?’‘ 

‘‘It’s nonlogical to me. I don’t know if you read Zweig’s other books but he always deals with profound human emotians and it is too much for me.’‘ 

The man infront of her ruffled with his curly, blonde-ish ginger hair and beard, ‘’Miss, people can fall in love deeply and they can love someone with profound feelings. How is this nonlogical? Love is something that you can’t find in logic.’’ he cleared his throat kindly,  ‘’ My bounty is as boundless as the sea, my love as deep; the more I give to thee, the more I have, for both are infinite.’’ she rolled her eyes, ‘’Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet.’’ his blue eyes shined with excitement. 

Y/N crossed her arms and leaned back on her chair, the man also did the same, he was watching her every move with his icy blue eyes. He had those famous european faces that would distract any woman. She could feel the tension between them.

‘‘I don’t have to explain myself to you Sir!’‘ she immediately grabbed her things and thrown them into her bag, in the meanwhile the blue eyed man was apologising and trying to explain her that he made a mistake but Y/N wasn’t listening. She left the Café without looking back, if she looked back she could’ve realized that she left the notebook that Mrs.Smith gave her a week ago.