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Making decisions has always scared me because i want somethinf that is the best. Sometimes, there’s bo such thing as best but I was not educated well as child. If you had to decide what shirt to wear, my mind would go blank. If I have to decide what to eat it’s blank again. Maybe because I personally never felt good about making choices of my own, perhaps I suck at choosing arbitrary subjective traits, that makes me insanecel.
I am starving, carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs…. I hope as long as I daily train muscles I can starve well. Yesterday I felt my muscles soaring, I shouldn’t have binged another tranime AcKA manga, that was bad move. I am like a robot programmed to consoooooooooom
Consooooom
If my inner voice stayed longer with me, I am sure I would have lost all kinds of bad habits in life, why is it so hard to make decisions that normies dont worry about? I feel sometimes rationalization isnt that bad, why do I wear skeleton on surfing board shirt? Hm……
Decisions.
BECAUSE ITS FUCKING COOL GET IT? SKELETONS ARE SPOOKY AND SURFING BOARD IS ALPHA SPORT.
I know I am broken tape recorder but I am like the guy from Kiznavier.
I feel so exhausted for today. Hungry and thirsty, not very good. I was trying to lose fat but its difficult to do that healthily without muscle and everything else. After finishing or reading higurashi I dont know I must make a rule not to deal with the tranime genre much more. It just makes me brainwashed so I think I pass out on umineko or any other bullshit if that is how theyre gonna end them.
It begins strong as horror but devolves to home alone happy comedy 1.5 hour skit sweet shittily didactically scripted. Indeed if author writes stories like these, I don’t think I can handle much shit including Satoko becoming evil, its like a fucking cartoon. I mean it is no longer mature whatsoever, it kind of fucking annoys me how japanese anime become such mix of mature elements written by a complete toddler.
Idk what to say except I am too old now.