Trans Egg - Blog Posts

I remember listening to I/Me/myself and enjoying it but not really resonating with the lyrics, I assumed it was because I was a cis girl and not being able to relate to having to figure out your gender identity.

Turns out it was the wanting to be a girl part I couldn’t relate to

yes, it is a perfectly normal cisgender desire to get jealous when looking at cute lesbian couples and yearn so hard it physically hurts to be a girl.

I've made a little sketch of myself, added "biblically accurate angel" vibe for fun. It's quite bold and so unapologetic, so funny to look at my art from my egg days totally being like "this is totally a character, not me" and now... NOW BEHOLD AN ANGEL BOIII

Here's the art i'm mentioning:

Tbh i love them both, both express me in different ways (and i love both styles).

Just now i'm so happy to truly be myself and getting more loud and more proud about it.

I need to buy/ make an angel halo...

struggling with your identity?

try dissociation!!

dissociating from my identity worked great for the last 20 years.

i mean i am 6 people now but im sure thats completely unrelated.

Presenting, my life for the past 6 years

ive come to realize something about the way we think about ourselves. gender isnt a social construct. heres why:

it implies that if there was no society, there wouldnt be any gender but people who are isolated from society can still have a gender

if all it took to be a woman was to simply identify as a woman, a transmasc egg would be considered a woman

it kinda feeds into the gender = gender expression myth

people from ye olden days and from other cultures who have different words for being trans like hijra instead of enby wouldnt be that gender because its a different label

tying back to that first point, if you need society to have a gender, wouldnt that make it a choice?

i propose this: gender is a psychological connection to femmininity/masculinity/androgyny/etc. like zodiacs, youre stuck with it for life, but how it applies to you is different then how it applies to someone else with the same zodiac/gender. how you interpret it can be different. you can call a color teal or cyan or turquoise but that doesnt change what color it is. and even if youre really short, that doesnt stop you from wearing heels, like how being a man doesnt stop you from wearing a dress. to be a woman, you have a psychological connection to femininity. you can present masculine, but inside its still femme. same thing for feminine presenting men and feminine/masculine presenting enbies.

thanks for reading, have a great day :)

you know when youre like “im not [agab] im enby!” and youre really proud of yourself for not questioning anymore but then youre like “wait what if im really just a [binary gender opposite to agab]” and youre questioning all over again

Accepting being a trans woman now is realizing the danger of being harassed, physically assaulted, or ostracized from my family and society never pushed me as far into the closet as the people who pushed me to be a "uwu cute trans girl" did.

I was a feminine man for a LONG time, and forced down a ton of my trans feelings since high school, but I showed many signs of being an egg- until my mid 20s, when I finally cracked.

A lot of the queer and trans friends I did have used to say things as blatant as: "so when are you starting E?" "have you picked a name out yet kitten?" Or my favorite: "you'd look great as a girl… are you sure you're not trans?"

The only reason I was able to finally accept being trans was by figuring things out MYSELF and by having a partner who was both supportive and respectful of my autonomy. They never pushed me to consider myself as a girl instead of just a feminine man, and that gave me the room I needed to breathe.

Don't push that awkward egg to crack. And it's shitty to assume someone must be trans just because YOU think they might be. Don't tell them, "oh you act like this, so stop denying yourself!" Just ask them, "how do you feel about yourself?" It's not your life journey. Let them walk it themself.