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I think Hydj might be obsessed with me.
Yeah, this dude is a weirdo. This guy claims to hate trans people, but wants to date me? He tried sending messages but I turned them off so they can't message me anymore since I don't follow them. Now they're following me.
Callout to hydj.
Hydj is an artist in the Glass Scientists fandom. They made Jekyll x Hyde art. They support Trump, calling him a hero. They also believe that it would be better if trans people were dead, despite enjoying and making fan art of a trans person's work. This behavior is not acceptable and people should stop interacting and supporting this person.
imagine seriously telling your transfem sibling you don't think trans girls should be allowed to compete in sports, moments after saying "live and let live" to try to avoid criticism for liking el*n and tr*mp.
It's so funny to me that my parents will unironically be weirded out when I'm feminine or say stuff like, "Sometimes you feel more like my son." and yet are homophobic and transphobic. So you admit I'm naturally like this without complaint (mostly) but if I find a word to describe this feeling suddenly I need to be cured. Its like:
My parents: wow it's like your not a boy or a girl
Me: I'm agender
My parents: 🤬
I will never understand why there are so many transphobes and homophobes in the fandom when the game is so unashamedly queer. It promotes a message of acceptance, and you literally need to help form Gay (RG01 and RG02) and Lesbian (Undyne and Alphys) relationships to get the best ending, and that's not mentioning queer-coded characters like Mad Mew Mew.
Yes, the 4channers were awful and they persist in misgendering me, while simultaneously complaining I don't post anymore, with zero self awareness.
4chan harassment alone isn't why I left. This is.
It's the transphobia.
I have been in the fandom since 2015. I have been arguing with transphobes in the fandom since 2015. I have been making write ups about why it's important not to misgender the - yes, fictional - characters since 2015, because of the complete lack of caring it communicates to real nonbinary people.
Last year, I wrote a post that got 7000 notes and is currently pinned to the Deltarune subreddit. I poured my heart out about what the nonbinary characters meant to me and why they were important.
It was argued over, I was mocked for it, I included personal details about my family situation and my difficulty coming out, I was mocked for it.
I wrote it because I believed it mattered. Because for eight years, the constant comment when mentioning the pronouns of these characters has been: Who cares?
At any point since 2015, Toby could have saved the transgender people in the fandom the trouble of having to "prove" the characters were nonbinary by saying something.
Last year, Legends of Localization comes out - thoroughly reviewed by Toby - and calls Frisk, Monster Kid, and Napstablook "ambiguous", designed to have an unclear gender.
You can see in the collage of screenshots how the transphobes in the fandom took that. One delightful individual was so triumphant over the victory, they put the statement in their Reddit subtitle.
So each time this individual posts to the Undertale subreddit, people will see this quote, carried around like a trophy with all the pride of a dog with a rotting pelt in its mouth. That's how much it meant to the transphobes in the fandom. They're delighted by having this quote to throw back in the faces of transgender fans.
Because who cares? The majority of the fandom isn't transgender, or on tumblr. It's easy for them not to care about transgender people.
You can block block block as many people as you want (I had thousands blocked here) but you can't curate your way out of transphobia. It isn't possible.
Because the majority of the fandom is on Reddit, or YouTube, or Twitter, and they, quite vocally, do not care about transgender people.
Some people may recall that I stopped posting to the Deltarune subreddit after the mods decided to filter all posts containing the word "nonbinary" without telling anyone.
The mods stopped filtering the word after I posted this and apologized, but the point was made: people in the greater fandom think the word "nonbinary" is a dangerous, impolite word, one that only invokes argument and therefore should not be used.
So I stopped posting on the Deltarune and Undertale subreddits. I never made YouTube or Twitter content. I set my blog to only allow people with Tumblr accounts to view it. I turned off all asks, anonymous or otherwise. I blocked thousands of people. It did not work. Transgender people can't curate (read: quarantine) our way out of transphobia.
Years of this, of transgender fans of the series getting attacked for trying to claim and fight for nonbinary representation in the series, and "ambiguous" is the language Toby signed off on.
If the characters are meant to be nonbinary representation, the last eight years has proven that this needs to be stated outright, or the onus of "proving" it falls on the vastly outnumbered transgender fans in the fandom - something that we have never been able to do without being profusely harassed for it until we shut our mouths.
If the characters were only ever meant to be ambiguous for the sake of "freedom of interpretation", then this should have been communicated with seriousness and respect to the transgender fans of the series years ago, not as a throwaway line in a translation book. (and to be clear, this is not at all the author's fault - Toby corrected and reviewed the language used)
This is why I left and why I'm never coming back, no matter what happens next. I have had enough of the transphobia in the fandom, and I have no way of fighting back anymore.
Transphobes in the fandom want the work and the passion of nonbinary people but won't even use a pronoun to show the basest level of respect and humanity for us.
I'm watching our rights being taken away day by day, and people like this just want me to keep producing my worthless little game theory posts.
Trans people don't owe you our "content" or our passion, particularly not when we produce it for free in the face of eight years of a deeply transphobic audience that we are expected to either beg for the most basic respect or to turn our heads down and hide away from so they can continue either hating us or pretending we don't exist or that that part of us doesn't matter.
"Who cares?"
When people ask this in response to talking about being nonbinary or respecting pronouns, they know transgender people care.
What they're saying is, who cares about transgender people?
For this reason, I'm requesting people not archive anything I've written, though I know I can't enforce this. That includes the Character Analysis and the "(Characters) are nonbinary why it matters" post, which I wrote in such profoundly naive good faith. For every "who cares" I have received over eight years of being transgender in this fandom.
If my identity as a nonbinary person doesn't matter, if nonbinary people don't exist, then neither does the content I made which they feel so entitled to, even while misgendering me.
I can't even think about this series without becoming angry and miserable anymore. That is the lasting, final impression the art has had on me. I can't think about it or the characters without remembering how little transgender people matter to most of the world. I've had to completely cut it out my life. There's no rage as potent as the helpless one. "Who cares?" I can't make people care.
You can't have the creations and art and "content" made by transgender people and our destruction at the same time. And maybe you can't prevent our destruction either, but you sure as hell can use a damn pronoun.
ppl pulling the 'just let people enjoy Wizard Game' are often met with 'JKR funds anti-trans groups!' and that's. entirely true. but doesn't actually go far enough.
like if you're on team Let People Enjoy Wizard Game hey. did you know. that in my city RIGHT NOW JKR is sole funder and key board member of an unregulated private agab-policed rape crisis shelter set up specifically to Own The Transes
and which now sits on several gendered violence prevention boards alongside representatives from the (publicly funded and accountable) existing Rape Crisis Centre, against the staff of which her friends and followers have been involved in a years-long harassment campaign purely and explicitly because they run trans-inclusive support services and bc their CEO is a trans woman of colour.
(my friend works there and the pure volume of transphobic harassment has caused several long standing members of staff to quit. which I'm really fucking angry about bc I would not be here today if the Edinburgh Rape Crisis Centre hadn't been there to help me)
and that on those boards they're known for supporting increased police harassment and approaches that disproportionately criminalise trans people, unhoused people and sex workers and provably don't positively impact the issue of gendered violence.
what I'm saying is that yes JKR funds anti-trans groups but she is also pretty directly involved in materials worsening conditions for vulnerable people at a local and personal level too!!!! she's running an unregulated crisis shelter out of spite and using that to legitimise her political lobbying!!!!!! fuck you!
It's kinda funny how when some people see a person with it/it's pronouns they said that it's pronouns are "dehumanizing" but it's dehumanizing to THEM, It's that other person's pronouns not yours, if it's comfortable of using it/it's pronouns they let it be who it are! It may be dehumanizing to YOU but not to IT.
I am so sick of the way others talk about and treat trans men. All of the time, people talk about how much they hate men and then say things like “only cis men though” or “ but not YOU because, you know…” . They think they’re protecting our feelings, but really they’re erasing the identities of trans men. Don’t separate trans men further from cis men, i am so sick of the constant comparison. Don’t tell me you hate men, but love trans men. That just makes me think you don’t think trans men are men. I’m just so tired of how hard trans men have to fight to be considered men instead of this quirky way of liking men without being around cis men. Some people are just too ashamed to admit that they like men. It’s okay to like men and masculinity. Liking men is amazing and so many people do. There is nothing wrong with having men in your life, so stop using Trans men as scapegoats and stop erasing our identities, we deserve better! Trans men deserve better!
So I've seen this circling in both TERF circles and in trans circles...
"Stop saying this is a genocide against trans people, that's disrespectful to Jewish people!"
First, it is perfectly accurate to call something a genocide when politicians are openly saying at rallies "transgenderism must be eliminated". That is calling for genocide!!
Second, there is more than one way to commit genocide; it doesn't just mean "forcing them to wear symbols, rounding them up and murdering them in camps". Genocide includes inflicting great harm to a group of people with the intent of erasing them from existence. Many different groups of people have had genocide committed against them, including the indigenous people of the Americas.
Denying trans people the right to transition, making it illegal to talk about trans people in school, forcibly detransitioning trans people, forcing them to live in the closet, forcing them to be sterilized in order to transition, labeling "living with a trans person" as child abuse so you can take away their children, and making it illegal to openly identify as trans, are all acts of genocide. They are all designed to destroy trans people.
one of the harshest realities as a young trans adult is knowing that there’s a high chance that they’ll put the wrong name on your headstone. if i died tomorrow they wouldn’t say ben at my funeral.
i don’t want to be remembered for who i’m “supposed to be.”
hi there! as you might know, im a big fan of the ena series! now ive recently seen a post about why ena is not transphobic. i 100% agree BUT
should we really be having this conversation? are we really going to sit here and pick apart every piece of media for transphobia? if we have to search, then doesn't that make us looking for it, not trying to avoid it?
just some thoughts.
a black trans woman was brutally attacked at a cookout and she needs help
please donate if you can or boost this so some who can will see this
“Our side concocted the ‘bathroom safety’ male predator argument as a way to avoid an uncomfortable battle over LGBT ideology, and still fire up people’s emotions.”
COLOUR ME FUCKING SURPRISED
“Malgendering when trans men use it is just them trying to claim they move through the world like cis women and are therefore incapable of harm” what are you TALKING ABOUT
https://x.com/photomatt/status/1760647056597946851?s=46
CEO of Tumblr, Matt Mullenweg, has started openly harassing tumblr users on other platforms. This dude is actually incredibly scary and malicious and should not be involved with this website going forward. Theres just no excuse for this behavior.
Jegus, I'm afraid to hear what this guy has to say about demisexuality, in which you do not find people sexually attractive unless you have a deep bond with them
Took me a long time for me to conclude I'm panromantic and demisexual
Honestly, I have never been on this platform to spread hate or get into petty quarrels but I have been formally invited into one by a certain individual and it is time to get out receipts. I am not going to @ them but what I am going to do is tell you to avoid they're page and inform you of some of the things they are wrong about or are ignorant of. Let's begins with acephobia
Asexuality has actually had a long history and has existed for thousands of years. In ancient greek they had several virgin goddesses that could all be considered asexaul, more specifically Hestia and her roman counter part Vesta who both never fell in love and blatantly refused to have sex and had worshippers who joined in order to avoid sex and love. While the Vestal Virgins are a bad example since they were forced to join, that doesn't mean that asexuality doesn't exist.
Next up the general ignorance of things outside your personal bubble.
I honestly can't comprehend how you don't know about the hundreds of people who get murdered every year due to them being queer but congratulations(?). People die because it is illegal to be queer and that has nothing to do with the bible, religion doesn't start public executions, people do.
Now lastly the blatant panphobia and enbyphobia
Pansexuals have been here for a long time and while the label isn't as well known as bisexual they are very different. Also as long as the sexuality isn't being used to harm anyone in the community, or make fun of the community, why should it matter? Also nonbinary has also had a long history and even has it's own mythological background with the goddess Ishtar and biologically there has never been only on gender with the existance of intersex people which you promptly ignore. Now I could go on to tell you more about gender but I belive Hank Green does it best.
Now I hope everyone has a wonderful evening and that you stop your ignorance. You are valid.
A cute guy likes me on a dating app. After chatting with them for weeks, we decide to go on a date. They are very flirtatious and forward over the app, but not when we meet in person. He admits he thought I was transmasc like him, we laugh about it because his mistake is funny and means I'm not passing but in a silly backwards way. I think his sudden awkwardness in person may be nervousness and flirt with him in ways less forward and aggressive than he'd been flirting with me earlier, and they become cold and distant for the rest of the date. By the time I get home they've blocked me on the app we met on. This case of being mistaken as a transmasc on a dating app will happen 3 more times, and in 2/3 times it results in a similar sudden lack of interest where once they were coming on to me. None of these people will be cis.
I am in a self defense class for queer people, learning hand to hand combat as a community. I have been here months. I notice I'm the only transfem in the classes but there are other trans people there so I don't think much of it. Today I have some stubble as I did not have time to shave before the early morning class. When discussing unrealistic action movie and anime fight scenes I describe on of my favorites, quoting the lines as I pantomime the goofy moves. They smile and laugh along until the word bitch leaves my lips in one quote, then the bisexual woman who only ever they/thems me glares at me like I've committed a grevious crime, and the rest of the class looks at me like a freak in awkward silence for a moment before moving on. I learn bitch is not a word a clocky bitch can "reclaim". I am quiet in classes now, and when I go I focus primarily on the training, when I see other trans women try it out they often give me a sad look and do not return for a second class. I get a sinking feeling that if I ever use this training to save my life one day I'd be branded a violent man instead of a strong woman.
I am texting with a good friend of years who was one of the people who helped me realize I was trans like them and even the one who helped pick out my name loves talking about our shared interests and sharing their favorite smut with me. We bond over favorite stories, artists, characters, and kinks as well as our trans experience. Yet they constantly tell me they could never date someone who's AMAB because of the trauma of being "female socialized" and their genital preferences for vulvas. Every compliment they have ever given me on my appearance or outfit is followed up by "but in a non-sexual way, I could never date you". Today I finally have the courage tell them they don't need to say that every time. They ignore this response. We keep talking for awhile, but they start taking months to respond to my messages and respond with a short sentence at most. They no longer share details about their life and shut me out when I ask or share details about mine, even the most mundane and chaste details. I stop talking to them. A birthday gift I bought them months before this falling out happened looms at me in my closet. I cannot use it as it doesn't fit me but can't bring myself to throw it away, just in case we reconcile one day. I feel pathetic for craving friendship with someone who sees me as "abuser-bodied", that so much of my early stages would've been impossible without their help. I feel a little more lost without them.
I am at a queer/trans/enby kink dance party with some friends. I am scantily clad and wearing a skirt and high heeled boots. I do not pass well so this space is one of the few places I feel safe and free dressing like this. It is packed with queer and trans people just like me engaged in delightful debauchery and wearing very little. The music hurts my ears but I'm happy to be here, I feel overstimulated but alive and authentic. I am approached by a beautiful stranger from across the dance floor, she is graceful and stylish, like some modern Galadriel clad in leather, white lace, and industrial piercings with impeccable voice training. She compliments my outfit, I compliment hers. She tells me I need to shave my armpits if I want to look like a real woman. My two friends stand up for me and yell at her. They assure me she was just being an asshole, that women were supposed to be hairy, but I can't help but notice how both of them have hairy armpits and yet the "advice" targeted me. The wide range of bodies that people here tonight find desirable on cis women don't seem to apply to the women like me. I am the only one of us that doesn't go home with a hookup at the end of the night. I realize now she likely spoke from experience. I am still hurt by her words, but realizing the kinds of experiences she must have had herself to feel her words were kind advice hurts far worse.
A local queer photographer who's work I follow is looking for women & non-binary models for a photoshoot. I have become comfortable with getting photos taken of me for the first time in my life since my egg cracked, and had a few small time modeling gigs under my belt. With something like this I could actually have the beginnings of a portfolio. I reach and am told that they are not looking for trans women models, "only women and AFABs". Getting the same line I get from agencies from an independent queer photographer repackaged in "woke" terminology stings. I see many queer and nonbinary models I looked up to take part in the shoot. I have to wonder if they knew that the photographer's definition of woman didn't include trans women, or if like me in my martial arts class they noticed no transfems were there but didn't think much of it because there were other trans people there.
It is years ago and I am still an egg. I am with my partner of 4 years. I am exhausted after a long day. She asks me for sex in the voice that I know means saying no will hurt her. I learned from her long ago men have high and insatiable sex drives, therefore saying no meant I wanted to have sex, just not with her. So I say yes. The sex is painful and unsatisfying, and I simply do my best to thrust through the discomfort until she cums. I feel numb and hurt. She enjoys herself but seems sad I did not cum. I assure her I love her. When we hold eachother after my obligation has been met and I finally feel comfortable and safe. We begin talking. She talks about the trashy women she saw on the street today, describing their cringe outfits and ugly styles and bad hair. All the styles and clothes and hair I yearn to try myself in my deepest and most repressed desires. I change the subject and ask her about work and family. She asks if I'd still love her if she were a man and I say yes. She says she would still love me if I were a woman. Something in that statement feels like a lie. It is months later when we break up and I move out. Now that I am a woman I look back and know from our years together that if I were a woman then she'd hate the kind of woman I'd become. That if I were a woman she'd still have the same expectations of me as a man, that her refusal of sex equated an impersonal not being in the mood but my refusal of sex equated a cruel refusal of love.
A lesbian group begins organizing a queer woman's strip night event. A safe place for amateur performers to shine and women to perform and enjoy sexuality away from the male gaze. I see no transfems in the promotional material or leadership team, and I've learned not to think nothing of it just because there are other trans people there. I do not go.
I am talking with my therapist. They are trans too and an amazing therapist, often providing insights and advice only someone else with the lived experience of being trans can. I express distress and suicidal ideation at the fact I feel like I need to pass before I can dress the way I want. That until I get expensive hair removal procedures and FFS I can never feel safe and welcome presenting authentically. I lament how these things are expensive and may never be accessible to me. They tell me I need to deal with my "internalized transphobia", as if these feelings aren't a result of constant rejection and othering by external forces even within queer spaces. As if the scrap of womanhood others sometimes acknowledge in me does not rely on their perceptions of me.
There is a publication accepting works from trans people of all stripes to document trans experiences. It gets flamed for not having a single transfem as a contributor. The people behind it apologize profusely, they say didn't notice no transfems had sent work in and would do a sequel publication that was transfem-centric. I wonder if anyone had noticed there were no transfems but didn't think much of it because there were other trans people there. I think about the kinds of spaces I've seen like that, and the implications it has about how they treat transfems, and I am unsurprised no transfems submitted.
One of my closest friends for years is very supportive of me when I first begin crossdressing and experimenting with they/them pronouns. She gives me suggestions on cute clothes to wear and takes me shopping as well as asks for pictures. We had helped eachother discover we were both queer as young teens, come to terms with it, and navigate it in a hostile environment, so I have complete trust. We are close enough we are frequently asking eachother advice on serious life choices & relationships, sending nudes for critique + tips before sending them to our partners, and sharing our most secret and vulnerable moments. She often asks me for tips on getting her straight boyfriends into pegging and crossdressing that make me slightly uncomfortable but I don't mind, she is a loyal friend I would endure a great many discomforts for. I host a lunch for us one day, and come out to her as a trans woman. I tell her my new name, say I no longer use he/him pronouns, and thank her for her support on my journey thus far. She launches into a monologue about how by changing my name I am throwing away all our memories together and spitting in the face of my family. Taken aback by her sudden heel turn after being so supportive of me being nonbinary and GNC, I excuse myself to go to the bathroom to get a break and give her some time to process. When I am in the bathroom trying not to cry, she is on the phone. I overhear her misgendering me as she is talking about me being bisexual in a frightened voice. She sounds truly afraid that I intend to be sexually violent towards her. When I leave the bathroom and sit back down I pretend not to have heard. She gets off the phone, saying she was just chatting with her boyfriend. We talk a bit longer, she explains how "the surgery" is dangerous and experimental and she hopes I won't get it. I assure her I won't and do my best to change the subject and hope she comes around after some time to process things, hurt and shocked that what I saw as a natural shift in the path I was already on marked me as frightening in her eyes after knowing eachother for over a decade. That a fellow bisexual suddenly saw my bisexuality as dangerous now that I was asserting myself as a trans woman. I say goodbye to her, and she says goodbye to me using my deadname, I do not risk an argument to correct her. It is months after the meeting we have not seen eachother since and she has not responded to any messages I sent. After reflecting on her reaction further I decide that I don't really want to spend time with someone who thinks these things about me for my own safety and mental health, regardless of our history. A friend of 14 years who supported my queerness and transness gone the instant I crossed an intangible woman-shaped line that marked me as a predator and invader in her eyes.
I log online and day after day see trans women getting banned and harassed. Seeing baseless callout posts calling them groomers and abusers getting taken seriously by other queer and trans people. Seeing proof that deep down so many people I consider kindred spirits see me and people like me as worthy of intense scrutiny and policing to keep "the queer community" safe and united. The blocklist grows but everything stays the same. I treasure the people in my life who don't take part in this and would do anything for them, but it seems they get fewer each time.
I'm not making this post to seek sympathy, I am used to this kind of shit and far worse has happened to myself and others. I just make this to illustrate transmisogyny is not some "online-only" issue like people claim. Even if online issues weren't "real" (as healed is fond of saying, "online is real") this has tangible effects in the way trans women are treated offline as well. By communities, friends, partners, colleagues, systems, etc. That's why we talk about it.
So much of the discussions people have paint transmisogyny as some online oppression olympics maliciously trying to divide the community, smear transmascs, and "reinvent bioessentialism". That is not what it is about. Discussions about transmisogyny is about how we are treated for being what we are, and while related to transphobia and misogyny it is seperate because it often represents doors other trans people and women can walk through that transfems cannot. It has affected me in my most intimate moments when I was with other trans and queer people I felt safe around, and taught me that I need to carefully manage my persona and presentation at all times lest my authenticity be branded "male socialization". I am even terrified to express attraction to people who express attraction towards me because I'm so used to being treated like a predator upon reciprocating or being used and abandoned by people I trusted. I am terrified to be too excited about shared interests with friends lest I be too loud or talkative about it and branded with aggressive male socialization. So I make myself quiet and small, and shrink from the community and people I care about, and become more and more isolated.
Anyways, stop platforming anons who spread lies about trans women, stop hopping on TERF harassment campaigns because the trans gal they're smearing "gave you bad vibes", and maybe consider carefully if in your own life where you draw the line for a transfem's behavior is any different from where you'd draw the line for anyone who's not one.
TRANSPHOBE DOWN FOLKS!
Shizzy and I were having a conversation, but it was more one-sided. Shizzy decided to ignore every single one of my talking points and promptly ignored me, while whining about someone who had blocked them, wouldn't unblock them because it was uncomfortable. Also! THEY MISGENDERED @ilikemicrowaves , SEVERAL TIMES, EVEN THOUGH THEY WERE TOLD IT'S PRONOUNS (AGAIN) SEVERAL FUCKING TIMES.
Anyways hope y'all have a nice night, sleep well
Honk shoo honk shoo
What this person has said is quite disgusting and bigoted. As another transgender minor, I am VERY disappointed in shizzy's actions. It's heartbreaking to see another wonderful artist turn out to be a shitty ass person. I really hope that shizzy eventually becomes more aware and educates themselves about this topic because spewing the same thing over and over in defense is very, very stupid.
As the person between me and Micro who found shizzy in the first place because of their Poppy Playtime art, I am really sad to see them end up like this. But, the fandoms they are in, need to know that they are an ignorant and arrogant person. They need to be educated, very badly but refuse to do so themselves. I highly suggest that you don't go interacting with their posts because they'll just spout the same bullshit that they have said for the past couple days.
Call out post on @ / shizzyrizzylol
Tw transphobia , tw pedophilia mention
Do not Harass shizzy , they are just arrogant to educate themselves and are calling a majority of the captain underpants Fandom pedos . Me and @friedbrainzz put together this post to warn the Captain Underpants Fandom , Dogman Fandom , and Poppy Playtime Fandom about this person and to just stay away from them , because many people , including me , have tried to educate them and we were just called pedos . ( Keep in mind that the majority of us are minors , and shizzy is a 21 year old adult calling minors pedos . They age is not in their bio , but I have a post that confirms their age right here . )
I found their blog through poppy playtime , and then they joined Dogman and Captain underpants , so sorry for anyone in the Fandom tags just wanting to look for art or non call out posts .
I can not fit all the screenshot of the posts and the comments , so I'll be reblogging them onto this post , so make sure to check the reblogs after reading this . I am doing this just in case shizzy deletes the post , just like the first one . Luckily , I reblogegd the post so I can link back to it for you all to read .
This is the post that started it all , you can still read all the reblogs and comments . Though , I do have the screenshots for it just in case it somehow gets taken off my blog .
This is the second post we're they implied specifically in the comments I and Trans people are pedos , and anyone associated with lgbtqi + is also a pedo for headcanoning characters who are minors with lgbtqi + head canons .
Me, years ago: If I want to be a Proper Trans Boy and be Respected By People then I must always be masculine and not wear dresses, or skirts, or makeup, or paint my nails—
The Internet:
So may I introduce to you,
The life-changing concepts of,
Toxic Masculinity
and
Femboys
Me, crying in joy, painting my nails, curling my eyelashes, wearing a dress because it is Too Damn Hot for shorts, self-esteem skyrocketing: Yeah go ahead
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Not sure why people wanna start shit but ok
First off, it should be said that these viewpoints are my own, and I keep these viewpoints on my own personal accounts. This user is looking at posts I’ve liked, and assuming the absolute worst of me. It bothers me that instead of just asking me (obviously I’m not hiding my opinions) they formed their own narrative and now they’re posting about it publicly, slandering my name, and defaming my character to a ton of people when they haven’t once asked me what’s up.
And since we're on the unfortunate topic of politics, I'll tell you right now that I don't lean on either side, I am an independent.
First off, yes, I do follow these accounts, and I can break down WHY.
Gays Against Groomers: Literally an organization comprised of both gays/queers AND trans people who are against the idea of children being groomed, especially in regards to gender ideologies. For myself, I did personally realize something was "off" with me when I was younger, I knew I was trans for a long time, but at the same time I would not be able to consent to getting gender transitioning care because I was a CHILD, who still pretended I was other things such as animals or Pokemon. To MAKE IRREVERSIBLE changes to YOUR child's body when they aren't even at the legal age to drink or get tattoos is crazy. There's also science involved in which putting your child on hormone blockers actually makes their bones more brittle, along with their brains not developing properly. With the medical world changing so quickly on people, I'm not saying kids can't be trans/experience dysphoria, but its wisest to wait until your old enough so that way your body can handle the medication and change, and so their brains are mature enough to consent to life changing decisions. I’ve worked with kids of all ages (kindergarten through high school) so I KNOW that some kids know what they’re about, but then there are just as many kids who will listen to whatever they’re told most frequently without actually using their brain and thinking about it for themselves/coming to their own conclusions.
I was also someone who was sexually groomed at the age of 16 by a 20 year old woman online, so I am 100% against ANY type of grooming.
Blaire White: I genuinely don't care if people lean left or right politically, and just because Blaire herself is conservative doesn't mean I agree with all of her views. She is also partnered with Gays Against Groomers so I just ended up following her and agreeing with some of her posts.
Stonetoss: Some of his comics are in poor taste and edgy admittedly, but once in a while there's a comic he makes me laugh. I don't see anything on how he's a Nazi however, that seems like a stretch. However, if anyone can provide actual proof of these claims, you can let me know. And again, I don't agree with all of Stonetoss's posts or comics. Just because you follow someone doesn't mean you 100% with EVERY SINGLE THING they say or do, that's crazy.
Transmedscum: This is a person who is trying to bring back to term "transsexual" as "transgender" has become an umbrella term for almost everything to the point where people are now making up things like "age-gender" and other creepy terms to try and fall under the LGBT+ group in order to groom minors. This is an on going problem within online communities and it's only gotten worse over the years. And yes, although I don't agree with xeno/neo pronouns or genders, I'm not going to harass or target anyone who uses them. I don't care nor have the time and energy to care what strangers identify with online.
If you want to identify with being trans/queer/whatever, that's fine, I'm not here to police you. These are just my own personal views. We can all have different opinions and still get along, "agree to disagree" if you will.
There are many pros and cons to transitioning, but don't JUST look at the pros, please acknowledge the cons before you make a life changing decision. A lot of people believed that transitioning was the answer to all their life problems, only to then become another member of the Detrans community (a group of people who transitioned, realized they fucked up on their decision, and try to revert back to their original gender as much as a can, which is hard to do after you go through hormones and surgeries. It's something that people NEED to look into. Again, these are LIFE CHANGING decisions. Make sure you actually NEED it unless you want to live with hard regrets.) I've seen more and more new members joining this subreddit, which means more and more people are regretting their choices.
I find it genuinely disturbing that people are calling me, a transmale, transphobic over finding edgy dumb trans memes funny. I'll try breaking down some of these posts:
Games nowadays are highly customizable, if you're a transwoman, just choose the female option, it's not that hard. I'm a transguy and I always pick the male option. The joke here is that it's pointless to add a transwoman option because...just pick the woman??? If transwomen are women, just pick the woman option! And obviously sometimes these memes push it with the whole "yOU'Re kiLLinG uS" thing but obviously it's just a caricature of a sensitive transperson. I myself, again, a transmale, is not offended by this meme, BECAUSE I KNOW IT'S A JOKE.
Also, did you even READ the screenshots you posted? One of the posts I had was how children shouldn't be at Pride parades because it has fetish gear people in public.
See the little girl with the rainbow skirt? She saw this at the parade:
I find it funny how adult VN communities constantly push for minors to stay out of our spaces, yet you are ok with this? Interesting.
And again, ANOTHER video has someone shaking their tits while children were looking on from the crowd. If you're ok with children looking at this shit, then honestly stay away from me.
And the Stonetoss comic, I thought you guys HATED rich companies banking on LGBT+ groups. This is literally what companies do EVERY JUNE, how have you not picked up on that? Most of these big companies don't even care about queers, they just want your money, so they hope by appealing to younger audiences, they'll get your money by saying "trans rights". It literally feels like you didn't even read the posts I liked and just see Stonetoss's name and said "omg tom is poopy head now :((("
Also like, how is this one bad? Someone was led to believe that anyone wearing a confederate flag was gonna spit on them, but all he did was change their tire and show them respect. People are so paranoid about white people being racist nowadays that they think EVERY Southern guy wants to kill them. Although I don't support the Confederate flag, the context of this is this guy who LOOKS racist ended up not acting racist at all. We need to learn that not every person you come across is going to be some bigot, that's extreme paranoia happening right there. I'm Asian and I've not once had any white person call me any racist name, even when I traveled to the Southern USA. That's not to say racism doesn't exist, but it's been extremely exaggerated over the years to where again, people are paranoid about others. It's been extremely exaggerated within media such as TV shows, especially for plot purposes.
And for the record, @pastelbreakgore it's not fair of you to go through my likes and assume the absolute worse of me without ONCE trying to talk to me like I'm a person. I could of done the same to you. You're clearly upset that I liked a post that was AGAINST pedophilia? If you ACTUALLY read the post, it says how adults are making up new sexualities and genders TO GET CLOSER TO MINORS. If I were to treat you like how you are treating ME, then I would assume the worse and call you a pedophile because you used this as evidence as to why I'm a bad person. So you support this? "I'm a proud neosexual. I think teens are hot."
You have a tag up there saying "anti Latinx", and I’m assuming it’s referring to this post.
Where's the "anti-Latinx" tag? I don’t support Alejandra Caraballo because she supports children transitioning and, as I already explained, I have my reservations about it. Why are you bringing her race into it, when I’ve never done that? If I were to treat you like you’re treating me and assume the worst of you, I could claim YOU’RE racist by bringing race into an argument that has nothing to do with that. I don’t honestly think you’re racist, but am I making my point yet? It doesn’t make sense to just jump to the worst conclusion based on the barest information available.
Please read things thoroughly and ASK QUESTIONS of the person before forming your own opinion and then running with it as fact. Especially if you’re telling OTHER PEOPLE it’s fact. As someone with a platform, it’s your responsibility to be mindful of what you put out there because you undoubtedly have impressionable, younger people who support you and trust you. You make a mistake here by not reading through the posts, and you’ve in fact accidentally painted yourself as someone who supports basically pedophilia. I know that wasn’t your true intention and that you’re just trying to look out for your followers/community - but see how you made a mistake, and your community just agreed with you without reading the posts or reaching out to me either? Your community followed your lead. It of course disappoints me to wake up to baseless slander against me, but even if you don’t care about my feelings or me as a person, at least take your followers into account. They trust you, you don’t want to abuse that trust by doing them the disservice of now doing your own, thorough research.
I hope this clears everything, and I'm always open to questions. Next time, perhaps don't make your assumptions about me public before getting to know me first.
I don't even know what to say.
Carnivorekitty Warning Post
It has come to my attention that artist, writer, and indie gamedev Carnivorekitty/Niwinoodle has a twitter page full of likes that show some extremely toxic and dangerous viewpoints.
Likes include Gays Against Groomers (LGBTQIA+ hate group), Blaire White (Conservative transmedicalist, anti-feminist, racist), Stonetoss (A literal nazi), Transmedscum (toxic transmedicalist), Tim Pool (Far right conspiracy theorist), and general racist posts.
Considering the current climate and the recent declaration of LGBTQIA+ state of emergency in the USA, this is especially hurtful.
EDIT: Admission of transmed added at the bottom, names censored for safety and wish for anonymity.
Links and images under the cut
https://twitter.com/niwinoodle/likes
Now, to cut off any excuses of "I was hacked!" as i often see, here's a transphobic like from months ago.
*pinned post*
I'm Katherine. She/her. White, cis queer woman.
This is gonna be SO long. I'm so sorry.
TL;DR : uhhh...i'm Christian but hopefully not one of THOSE Christians? (trying, learning and working not to be)
Let's start with side blogs, then a cut.
@tootiredfortiktok personal blog. Ranting, shitposting, whatever I want.
@fandomofisolation tv shows, books, movies, etc. Currently there's a lot of Our Flag Means Death, 9-1-1 and Supernatural (i know, yikes, haha)
@tellmethestoryofyourtattoos art, photography, travel, stories, cute animals
@clearancelevelneedtoknow human rights, social justice, education, science, resources
@justspngifsrbs reblogging Supernatural gifs (made at the peak of my relapse into an obsession with that stupid, brilliant, awful, wonderful, hilarious, tragic mess)
I have one other secret side blog. If I liked a bunch of your posts that don't fit the theme of this blog or any of my other side blogs, you'll know what my secret side blog is about and why it's secret.
If you're here because you saw that I followed you or liked a bunch of your posts, here's what you should know:
Sometimes, the discrepancy between the vibes of this blog and the blogs I follow or the posts I like may give you pause. I get it. Don't worry, I PROMISE I am not trying to evangelize you. I use tumblr for a lot of different things. This was my first tumblr blog and is therefore still my main blog. Over the years, I've made others for different areas of my interests. I mostly reblog from the side blogs listed above.
Now. If you found me through one of the posts that I made on this blog itself, there are some things you should know about me which will allow you to contextualize the stuff I say here.
I AM a Christian. I don't really know how to define that except to say that I believe in a higher power, who has consciousness and will. And I believe that all of reality originated from and is still maintained by that higher power. My concept of that higher power aligns most closely with the Christian concept of God.
I am currently deconstructing and reconstructing my faith.
I grew up in a family that attended a church that's part of the Pentecostal Assemblies of Newfoundland and Labrador, which is in turn part of the World Assemblies of God Fellowship.
Some stuff about NL pentecostal culture:
- no drinking, smoking or drugs. Most are teetotalers (if someone in the community does drink or smoke, it's a little rebellious/scandalous/taboo). For communion, we use grape juice.
- no sex before marriage
- teeeeeeeechnically, no divorce either
- gambling is also taboo. Older people in small, rural towns even avoid playing cards altogether, just because of the association with gambling.
- my mom's generation is weird about dancing. She almost didn't let me go to prom because it was a dance. It's basically like the movie Footloose - "dances are events where teenagers might engage in risky behavior like drinking, drugs and sexual promiscuity. Therefore, dancing must be banned." That's on its way out, I think.
- similar to the dancing one, my grandparents' generation was weird about movie theatres. That has passed.
- women CAN be pastors (clergy). Divorced people cannot.
- divorced people and unwed mothers are allowed to volunteer at church stuff (as layfolk) but gay people are not.
- my church is trying to be diverse. That means they're trying to create a community that welcomes, includes, celebrates and values people of all ethnicities and cultures. They're not perfect but I can say that they're trying.
- they're pretty chill about mental health stuff, as far as i can tell.
- at my church, the lead pastor is a white man (the lead pastors at most NL pentecostal churches are white men, and the leaders of the paonl are white men). Two other pastors are white men. One is a white woman. One is a woman who is either white or mixed race. I do not know for sure. I've never asked her. Three other people on staff at the church in layfolk paid positions are two white women and a woman of colour. There are also nine women on staff as part of the "Community Connections and Conversation Cafe (ESL)" team. Four are white, five are women of colour.
- so basically, I can say that they are not intentionally, maliciously, overtly misogynistic, racist or ableist. Obviously they are still part of a religious institution that exists in this province and country because of settler colonialism. Obviously the same systematic inequalities that are inherent in schools, healthcare, government and all colonial institutions are also inherent in this one. I can say that, within the obvious limitations of that context, they are trying to be feminist, accessible and anti-racist.
- they're struggling with fully embracing non-cishet folx. I know that within the NL pentecostal community, there are individuals who support me and are fully affirming of my relationship with my wife as a normal, healthy, God-honouring relationship. But they are the minority. And like officially, my wife and I are not allowed to volunteer at any NL pentecostal churches or with any NL pentecostal events. We are welcomed and accepted and included as attendees when we go to church. It's just that, for us, volunteering with kids and youth programs has always been an integral part of faith and participating in church so it kinda sucks that we can't do it anymore.
Some stuff NL pentecostal churches believe:
- God is sort of like a person, more or less. An intangible, invisible, immortal, pure-spirit, omnipresent, omniscient, omnipotent person-like entity. With will, consciousness and feelings. He loves, He hurts, He gets angry, He gets sad, He grieves.
- God made the whole universe from nothing, by speaking.
- God is the only God. He's the only entity like Himself that exists, and everything else in existence came from Him. I am pretty sure that PAONLers believe that if there is some kind of spiritual entity that is neither God nor human, it's either an angel or a demon. Christians in general don't believe in djinn or in other deities/minor deities.
- humans were made in the image of God. So i guess it's less that God is a person-like entity, and more that humans are God-like little dudes.
- humans have souls, which are...from what I understand, one of the three essential things that make up a human (body, mind and soul), and are sort of like intangible, immutable, immortal imprints of one's identity and one's choices on earth. I think many people think that a version of your consciousness is stored in your soul, which will have awareness after your earthly body dies.
- the bible is the "inspired, infallible, authoritative" word of God
- the trinity: God the father, God the son and God the Holy Spirit, three in one
- Jesus is the Son of God. He was fully God and fully man. Virgin birth. He died and came back to life then ascended to Heaven where He is now chillin and will eventually come back to earth "in power and glory to rule a thousand years"
- the Holy Spirit allows people to speak in "toungues", which is a supernatural prayer language unique to each person. It is the Holy Spirit speaking directly to God the Father through a believer's mouth, without involving the believer's brain. It cannot be understood by any human, including the one speaking it (unless the Holy Spirit gives someone else the supernatural gift of interpretation).
- angels, demons, demon possession and miracles (including raising people from the dead, healing the body, and "signs and wonders") are all real, actual things that exist and have happened and do still happen today
- believers are supposed to get baptized in water as a public declaration of their faith
- believers are supposed to participate in communion (which, for pentecostals, is the metaphorical, not literal, consumption of Jesus' flesh and blood) as a reminder of Jesus' death and resurrection until He comes back
- on the topic of Jesus coming back, NL pentecostals believe in "the Rapture" which is supposedly when Jesus comes back, all believers living and dead will be raised up into the air, like being beamed up onto a spaceship. Or they'll just vanish into thin air, leaving behind clothing, shoes, glasses, etc., if you believe the "Left Behind" book series.
- there is an eternal afterlife, and the only two options are Heaven or Hell
- preeeeeeeetty sure PAONLers officially don't believe in ghosts. I'm pretty sure they think the door to another plane of existence is one-way only. Like I said, only two options, and PAONLers believe that both those options are eternal and irrevocable.
- anyone who is "saved" goes to Heaven
- anyone who is not "saved" goes to Hell
- God doesn't want anyone to go to hell so He sent Jesus to take our sins upon Himself
- When Jesus was dying on the cross, He assumed all the guilt for all humans who ever were and ever would be
- the only way to be "saved" is to believe in Jesus as the Son of God who died and came back to life, accept Him as your Lord and Savior, and profess said belief and acceptance
If you're into theology, and these words have meaning for you, here are some terms that apply to NL pentecostals:
- Protestant
- Evangelical
- Charismatic
- Biblical inerrancy
- Finished Work Pentecostalism (progressive sanctification)
- Trinitarian
- Premillenial dispensationalism
- Pretribulation Rapture
- Arminianism
- Security of the believer (conditional upon continual faith and repentance)
- Continuationism
So that's where I come from. That's how I grew up. That's what influenced the beginning of my faith.
Now. Where am I going? Well, I don't know. But like I said, I'm still a Christian. That label still feels right. I'm currently in the process of deconstructing and reconstructing. I don't want to just take away from everything I was taught by the Pentecostal Assemblies of Newfoundland and Labrador. I only want to add to it. Not in the sense that I want to believe everything. That's admittedly rather difficult, because a lot of different Christian beliefs are opposites of each other. I want to add to what I've been taught in the sense that I want to know, and understand, what other sects believe and why. I probably won't know, within this lifetime, which view is "right". Maybe it doesn't matter.
My wife, who is very wise, said, "I just don't have the energy to try to figure it all out. I know I love God, and we have to love other people. I guess we'll find out the rest eventually. I am hanging on to my faith with my last little bit of strength. So I just want to use that bit of strength to focus on loving God, being loved by Him, and loving everyone else the way He loves them."
Some highlights of my current belief:
- "God" is an entity. God has consciousness and will. God is the only *anything* that is real and has always been. All of reality as we know it flows from, is part of, and is maintained by God.
- i think that God's form is pure energy. And I think that energy is love. I think God = love = energy. I don't just think that all love is from God; I think all love is God. Same goes for energy. Energy can neither be created nor destroyed. God always was, always is, and always will be. All of matter is made of molecules, which are made of atoms, which are made of protons, neutrons and electrons, which are made of quarks, which are energy. God is over all and through all and in all. So I think that all of reality is energy which is love which is God (like the force in Star Wars). And love, as a force, is the most powerful force in reality. Stronger than gravity (like in the movie "Interstellar"). Faster than light. More powerful than life and death.
- science is legit. Science is just an attempt to understand reality. If all reality is God, then science is one way to understand God. Science, math, art, music, language, belief, thought, relationships between humans are all ways to understand, and engage with, the divine. So whatever the scientists can prove with evidence and solid methodology and peer reviewal, i'm on board. Evolution? Yep. I'm good. Climate change? Yeah. Same page. Age of the earth? Yes. Dinosaurs? Yes. Hominids other than homo sapiens (e.g. H. neanderthalis)? Yes. All of it. Whatever science is offering, I'm taking.
- Trinitarian vs Oneness (i.e. is God three in one, God the father, God the son, or God the Holy Spirit, separate entities but all God? Or are the father the son and the holy spirit all different forms of the same dude - just God?) My belief: yes? Both? Who cares?
- was Jesus fully God AND fully man? Was Jesus the Son of God? Or just a normal human fully filled with the Holy Spirit? My belief: Yes? Both? Who cares?
- did Jesus actually die and come back to life? My belief: mmm.....yeah, I'm still feelin' that it's a yes on that one. That's important to me. Haven't let go of that one yet.
- is the Bible infallible and inerrant? My belief: ummmm.......I don't think so. I am no longer really vibing with that particular theology.
- did God make the world in a literal seven days in the exact order described in Genesis chapter 1? My belief: nahhh.
- When Jesus comes back, are believers, living and dead, going to float up into the air like they're being beamed up onto a spaceship? My belief: I mean, I feel like this could go either way. On the one hand, I see no reason to take that literally. On the other hand, why not? I'd believe weirder.
- are angels and demons real? My belief: well, i think so. But i doubt that they are anything like what we think. I believe in a spiritual realm and i believe that there may be entities that exist on that "plane".
- do people get possessed by demons and can those demons be cast out of the hosts? My belief: i'm thinking yes and yes.
- does each individual human have a specially-assigned guardian angel? My belief: i mean, I feel like that's unlikely,but what do I know?
- are people who speak in tongues really filled with the Holy Spirit? Is that a legit supernatural event? My belief: yeah, I think so. Why not? I'd believe weirder.
- do miracles still happen? Like raising people from the dead? Healing the sick and injured? Signs and wonders? My belief: yeah, I think so. Why not? I'd believe weirder.
(To be continued. I am working on this post in fits and starts. I will talk more about my de/reconstruction journey eventually)