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Back again with another Voltron drawing
Progression and more talking under the cut:
Made for @slvx0 's 100k dtiys on Instagram! Make sure to check it out there too under _.lulupe._
I know I changed the look of everything and everyone a lot, but I had fun with it and that's what matters most :D
The pose was a struggle tho, usually I don't need to thumbnail cuz I got a pretty clear idea of what I want, but it just wasn't coming together so halfway through I had to restart :/
Redraw!
Original:
I never notice if I improved until I put them side by side lmao
Prince Keith from the Voltron duality series by the amazing @squirenonny
Once more I need to thank you so hard for writing this story it's not even funny. You literally changed my brain chemistry forever, I will never be the same.
I still know his ears point up in the story, and I still don't want to talk about that. I'm a low ears keith truther.
Also, I have a shit ton of markers i virtually don't use, so I wanted to change that,, during exam season
I should probably study some more... Nah
Inspired by the second book in the voltron duality series by @squirenonny
This drawing is honestly one of the best ones I made in ages, I am so proud of it. It literally looks exactly how I pictured it in my head :D
Also did I put matt's knee brace on the wrong leg? Was it even there at that point in the story? Who knows! I'm already halfway into book 3 so I might've mixed some stuff up...
Does anyone else also struggle with finding the perfect pose reference but the model is the wrong body type to the point that you have to Frankenstein the right body type together? It happened 4 times in this drawing TvT
What should I draw next? I'm thinking some klance but we'll see how that goes
Inspired by the first book in the voltron duality series by @squirenonny
Thank you soooo much for writing such an amazing story, you truly inspired me to create something.
(A few somethings actually, I'm posting all fanarts up until now in order as to not accidentally spoil anyone)
This sketch is inspired by that one scene in chapter 18.
Also I know Keith is supposed to be regular Keith but purple, but creative liberties and whatnot ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Voltron art dump!!!
Most of these are pretty old (1/2 years, they're in order from most to least recent), but I still like them :D
Uhh I guess it's pretty clear who my favorite characters are...
Unpopular Opinions(Voltron: LD Edition)
Please respect others’ opinions. Thank you! 😊❤️
*Sorry if any of mine are popular. I don’t talk about my opinions with fandoms since they can be pretty toxic.*
Here are mine:
1. The Shiro clone idea was really bad.
I don't like this idea because the development "Shiro" went through between S3 & 6 did not affect the actual Shiro.
2. Voltron went downhill once Keith replaced Shiro as the leader.
I don't think it is Keith's fault for the show's quality depleting; this is a timeline of when quality decreased. But, I think Shiro was a way better leader than Keith since he has the experience and personality of one. Keith is more of a second-in-command, at least for me.
3. Allura and Lance should have never gotten together.
This ship was all over the place. First Lance had a huge unrequited crush on Allura, then he seemed to be moving on and she was in love with Lotor. The development was rushed near the end, and their chemistry was kind of awkward to me.
4. I wasn’t super upset about Allura’s death. Just the way it was written.
Allura never really connected with me. I really tried to like her as much as most of the main characters, but I couldn't feel it. Her death was sudden and lukewarm, especially the goodbye between her and the Voltron crew. There was this feeling of emptiness in this reunion. The circumstances of why she had to die was meh. It would've been better if the lions sacrificed themselves instead.
5. Klance is very overrated(still kind of ship it tho).
This ship was everywhere, and some Klance shippers I've seen were toxic which turned me off for a while. At first, I felt kind of pressured to like this ship since Klance shippers populated the fandom. Now, I genuinely enjoy the ship, though I wish other ships gained more attention.
6. Shiro’s second arm design was bad.
I loved his first arm and was super upset when the designers did a 180 on the second one. It was so clunky and distracting whenever it was in full view. The detached portion of it was really annoying too.
When it comes to robotic limbs, I want them to look natural with the body.
7. Having so many villains was not a great idea.
I've watched shows with a lot of villains and they mostly put me off since some of them were one-note and generic. I really didn't like when Lotor was the temporary villain; he could've been a great ally for the finale. Honerva was pretty rushed and boring; she would have been better if she was the main villain much longer than two seasons. Zarkon was probably the best one.
8. Compared to villains in general, Honerva wasn’t too bad.
Compared to a lot of villains (especially the minor ones), Honerva is okay. I don't think she was great though. She needed a lot more development and her redemption was so quick.
I didn’t have a lot to say since most of my strong opinions are about the last two seasons and I agree with most of the fans.
What do you guys think? 😊❤️
Dirty Sheets
Langst -> Klance :)
So empty. Quiet. The air was stiff.
Whenever Lance wasn’t working or training he sat in the vast silence that filled him and a nobody ruler from an unspoken of planet.
Nights were loveless touch starved and once and a while filled with lustless moans forgotten in the seemingly never-ending halls of the castle.
Lance finally decided to call someone, anyone.
“Coran, can I come over for a little bit, maybe a week or less?”
He heard conversing in the background grow quiet, “Why of course is something wrong?”
Lance turned around to see his husband still asleep before he quickly left the room.
“No- just... I need to get away for a bit.”
“Of course you can come over!”
Lance smiled looking overwhelmed with joy, something he should’ve found in his husband, recently married.
“I’ll be there as soon as possible.”
Just as quick as the conversation came it was over the silent static once again filled the void in Lance’s ears.
...
“Absolutely not!”
“I’m going whether or not you want me to!”
“Well then! I’ll just go with you!”
“Oh really? I’m shocked you’d give up time away from me-“
-power 100%-
Lance grabbed his bags and walked in the silent footsteps behind him followed as the door hissed shut.
Lance shook his head butting his lip.
“Why would I want to be away from you? Huh!”
“Oh like hell you don’t know!”
“Stop pretending like you aren’t obvious about what you do when I’m busy!”
“What exactly are you implying?”
-You’ve arrived at your destination-
Silent Lance walked out and up to Coran who tightly hugged Lance in his arms picking up on his radiating sadness.
“I missed this.”
Coran couldn’t help but let out a small chuckle, “What is it that you miss my boy?”
“A hug.”
The simple phrase was enough to strike a nerve in Coran’s heart as he let go to gaze at the husband.
“Hello, my names Coran.”
“Ethan, Prince Ethan, honor to meet you, Coran.”
“Come on in everyone’s here”
Lance smiled softly coming in and he tried to shine bright and let his usual ego take control but he had nothing left.
Pidge froze before leaping at Lance, “Lance! Oh my god, I’ve missed you so much! How come you never call?”
Lance glanced for his husband, “Oh! Sorry for not being active I’ve been very... busy!”
Pidge shrugged, “Understandable everyone always has a problem to deal with.”
Hunk walked over and just hugged Lance tightly as Pidge introduced herself to Ethan.
“You okay Lance?”
“Yeah, I’m good.”
“You sure? You don’t seem your usual chipper self.”
Forcing a shit-eating grin and a laugh, “Time will change even the most beautiful of roses.”
Pulling back Hunk softly smiled, “You’re right about that buddy, but it’s nice to see you, your features have really matured.”
Chuckling I turned to Shiro, “Hi! How have you been?”
“Good, how about you? Your charm finally paid off I see.”
I shifted my weight between my two feet uncomfortably, “Yeah... it really did, didn’t it?”
Finally, I turned to Keith, oh perfect Keith. How I’d give anything to change our course and our passings for one bright future. He hadn’t changed too much seeming relatively the same.
I grew taller my muscles for defined along with my eyes and from Allura Altean features started to change my DNA slowly.
“We just had dinner a couple before you arrived so if you like I can show you your room and then heat you something up.”
Ethan interjected, “We’ll be fine thank you very much.”
Lance sighed as Ethan grabbed Lance’s wrist whispering in his ear. Lance nodded seemingly irritated, Coran smiled guiding the way as Lance ripped his hand from Ethan's grapes putting space between the two.
Once shown their room Ethan smiled, “Thank you, we will join you in a bit we have matters to discuss at the moment with work.”
Lance looked at Coran, “Sorry he felt like he needed to lie to you, we will need to establish some things personal between the two of us and then we will be out with you all.”
“Okay, my boy...”
Pidge had other plans. Getting Hunk and Keith to go with her to snoop she rushed to their room where voices could be heard. It was almost screaming.
“What exactly do you know Lance?”
“Oh my god... Why are you ignoring the fact that I know you’ve been unfaithful!”
“You know I’ve had my rough spots but I’m not cheating on you!”
“Oh? So everyone on our planet is lying, they haven’t seen you out with a girl, by the name of Ruthan?”
“Lance, that’s enough!”
“You know what? I’m done with your bullshit! Day and night I’m slaving away doing work for a civilization you couldn’t give a tinnier shit about! I come back just for you to need sex, a loveless marriage you make me regret every day!”
“I give you money! I give you fame! Everything you possibly would want! You selfish whore!”
A loud smack was heard and everything went silent.
“How. Dare. You! You fucking asshole!”
“Lance I’m so sorry!”
Shattering was heard.
“Your ring!”
“I hate you....”
“Baby...You don’t mean that-“
“I fucking hate you!”
“I love you, Lance! I love you and I may make mistakes but I have never not loved you.”
“What? You love me ridding you’re dick cause your too lazy to be a man? What you’re telling me that when I try and take a shower you come in and slam me to the wall and make me scream until nothing else matters?”
“Well guess what? I wish I never loved you.”
“Wait... is that why you're here? Are you not over him?”
“As if any of this was influenced by that! You even know you're trying to fuck with my head again!” There was a long pause, “You’re trying to manipulate me! Sabotage me, make me wanna crawl right back into square one where this cycle will never end.”
“I swear Ruthan was a once time thing Lance. I love you. I really do.”
“God just shut up already and get over here.”
Laughing was heard as jumping was heard.
“Get off you fucking idiot!”
Well, they had heard everything they needed to.
It took two hours for them to be found. It was silent there was a sense of compassionate intimacy between the two. Yet it was built on lies. Lance didn’t budge as Ethan whispered toxic nothings into his ear. With each one, the sweet cooling burn of alcohol brought Lance peace.
“You can head to bed I’ll be there eventually.”
“Okay, Lance I’ll be knocked out in two seconds.”
“Mhmm.”
It was silent as Lance let his head hit the table his body trembles as sobs erupted from his throat knowing at this point he was officially lost.
The growing sounds of footsteps neared as Lance felt a hand on his leg, “Lance?”
Immediately wiping his tears he did his best to smile and make perfect eye contact, “Yes...”
Keith. Shit.
“Come here.”
Lance threw himself onto Keith knocking him to the ground, Keith fully flushed he hugged Lance back. Lance pulled back wiping at his beautiful skin to remove the tears.
Keith cupped Lance’s face, “Wanna stay in my room tonight?”
Lance hesitated, “Ethan will get mad at me.”
“Then let him. Judging by the fact your ring is now gone that’s enough for you to be your own person again.”
Keith held Lance’s hand tightly, not in a rough controlling manner but rather guiding and secure.
The door slid open to reveal a neat room other than a desk overflowing his papers.
Lance sat on the desk, “Nice room, Mullet.”
Keith smirked, “This is longer and more grown out than any mullet I’ve ever seen.”
“It’s a nickname dummy.”
The playful banter was back without even the tiniest bit of effort. Yet it grew quiet.
“I overheard you earlier, the fighting. Why do you stay?”
“I have nowhere else to go and... what about the people they’d be under a foolish ruler?”
Keith looked at Lance with the most serious expression, “It’s not your job to be his sex slave and be a ruler for him. Your his husband, not his accountant.”
“So?”
“So leave him.”
“Runaway how could I possibly do that?”
“You still train right?”
“Yes? Why?”
“Come with me to the BOM, be my right hand again. I missed having stability.”
Lance slowly took Keith's hand, it was a comfortable silence.
“I’d like that.”
The tone, the small smile, the taunt in his eyes, the fall of his perfect curls, it sent Keith into overdrive.
Keith took Lance’s hands intertwining their fingers and pushing him back further on the desk knocking papers off Lance not in the slightest bit phased just started breathlessly at Keith.
“Tell me no.”
“Yes.”
Lance leaned into Keith's lips melting together like butter. Perfection. And yet they only wanted more. Lance pulled Keith down onto him. It was hot, very hot. Sincereness was something Lance had long forgotten yet now it’s driving him wild. Keith pushed himself onto Lance who opens his mouth letting out a groan. Slipping his tongue inside Keith's mouth Lance wanted to draw out that noise, that beautiful noise he’s always dreamed of bitting and leaving a beautiful mark on Keith's collar bone was enough to retrieve that sound.
“Lance-“
Keith slid his hand to Lance’s throat kissing him so rough Lance felt like he was flying, the pressure on his neck stimulated him and all he could do was moan into Keith's mouth.
Keith let himself teasingly play eoth Lance’s tongue before pulling away and kissing him softly on the lips. Leaving a trail of kisses to the crook of his jawline Keith declared this was his promise to Lance. Every kiss will be from love, from burning desire to cherish each and every inch of the beautiful blue boy. Lance smirked cupping Keith's face kissing him compassionately and quickly running his fingers between the strands of Keith's beautiful long locks before tugging at them and as Keith let out a moan Lance roughly made sure that Keith wasn’t letting out that moan. All while grinding on one another both visibly hard. Keith softly kissed Lance all over the face and mainly on the cheek he could tell Ethan had slapped.
Keith smiled, “Am I the one Ethan was scared about?”
“He has nothing to be scared about. He already knew he lost.”
Keith kisses Lance one last time respecting his boundaries leading him to bed. Lance begins to take off his jewelry and clothes which he had a lot to make sure he maintained his physique.
“You wearing Earth clothing tomorrow by the way.”
Lance smiled softly, “May I lock the door by the way?”
“Way ahead of you I locked it when we came in.”
Lance laughed, it felt good after so long.
It was quiet Lance looked up to Keith, “Don’t let me go back.”
Keith softly kissed Lance even their lips were a perfect match together, “The only place your going back to is my base where you’ll work far away from that asshole.”
Lance smiled comfy under the sheets as Keith curled up onto him, an arm wrapped around Keith the other under his head. Slowly he fell asleep. Oh boy, what a night.
Secret Love Song
Klance
The Paladins were at a coalition celebration. Yet when they entered the King was experiencing a dilemma. His singer was sick.
“I can sing if you’d like that?”
The king spun on his heels a bright smile on his face, while the Voltron team seemed embarrassed and ready for the worst.
“Really? Oh thank you, follow me we need to get you in singing attire.”
Lance’s face froze, “Attire?!?”
Hunk snorted, “Good luck buddy!”
Everyone had been wondering around conversing and waiting for Lance’s appearance.
The lights dimmed, there was a blue setting in the background. Lance rose in a beautiful blue tux, of course with and Altean touch to it, makeup smeared on his face, hair messily styled. And a cape resembling the long part of a wedding dress.
“We keep behind closed doors. Every time I see you, I die a little more. Stolen moments that we steal as the curtain falls. It'll never be enough.”
The crowd grows silent, utterly taken aback by the blue Paladins beautiful singing.
“As you drive me to my house. I can't stop these silent tears from rolling down. You and I both have to hide. On the outside where I can't be yours and you. Can't be mine”
Emotion was already apparent in his singing, his expression seemed to ease into the music the song itself beautiful, and the wide vocal range Lance had made it better.
“But I know this. We got a love that is homeless”
Lance seemed to concentrate his hands giving away his work.
“Why can't I hold you in the street?”
The pitch shocked everyone as Lance seemed almost triggered by the lyrics.
“Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?”
His body swayed as he had the crowd in a trance.
“I wish that it could be like that. Why can't it be like that? 'Cause I'm yours”
The second Lance’s eyes opened they locked onto Keith’s. The poor boys mouth was agape, his eyes wide, and he was bright red. Lance smiled softly looking out to the crowd.
“Why can't I say that I'm in love? I wanna shout it from the rooftops”
Lance smiled as he sang warmth spreading over him, the memories of butterflies and sincere loving overwhelmed him.
“I wish that it could be like that. Why can't it be like that? 'Cause I'm yours”
Lance’s eyes found Keith’s once more and decided to not look away. Oh shit, there are the butterflies.
“It's obvious you're meant for me. Every piece of you, it just fits perfectly. Every second, every thought, I'm in so deep. But I'll never show it on my face”
Lance smiled as tears whelmed up letting them fall forcing himself to look away the pain struck.
“But we know this, we got a love that is homeless”
Lance bit his lip wipping his face quickly. The crowd now emotional as well.
“Why can't you hold me in the street?”
He gripped his chest holding back as many tears as possible. Keith looked broken wanting to hold the crumbling boy on stage.
“Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?”
Holding the mic he controlled his breaking to give forth power.
“I wish that it could be like that. Why can't we be like that? 'Cause I'm yours”
Lance took his face back the vocals echoing through the castle everyone hollered.
“Why can't I say that I'm in love? I wanna shout it from the rooftops”
Flinging out an arm he furrowed his brows as he already knew tomorrow he’s struggle to speak.
“I wish that it could be like that. Why can't we be like that? 'Cause I'm yours”
Lance’s emotions almost seemed to send out a bolt of energy to the people as they received it they all smiled, this eyes watering as they know this is true emotion.
“I don't wanna live love this way”
“I don't wanna hide us away”
“I wonder if it ever will change”
“I'm living for that day. Someday”
Lance covered his mouth for a second. His mom wouldn’t accept him. Yet is she really family if she doesn’t love him for such a tiny thing? A tear fell down and he took a deep breath.
“When you hold me in the street. And you kiss me on the dance floor”
Lance’s smile appeared as he grew excited. The bubbly side to him reappearing.
“I wish that we could be like that. Why can't we be like that”
Lance grew angry, why didn’t Keith just love him. Why’d he have to just— Ugh!
“'Cause I'm yours, I'm yours”
Lance gazed at Keith extending out a hand pointing to Keith as he bounced a bright smile on his face. Keith turned as red as a tomato and looked down.
“Oh, why can't you hold me in the street? Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?”
Lance leaned over only to see Keith approaching the stage.
“I wish that it could be like that. Why can't it be like that? 'Cause I'm yours”
Pidge handed Keith something. Lance smiled brightly tears falling.
“Why can't I say that I'm in love? I wanna shout it from the rooftops”
Lance’s head snapped as he stared as the crowd parting Keith holding a mic, his voice was beautiful. He was beautiful.
“I wish that it could be like that. Why can't we be like that?”
Lance then and there almost bursted info to tears so he let out a half relieved laugh.
“'Cause I'm yours”
Lance held his own mic as Keith stepped onto the stage.
“Why can't we be like that”
Lance watched Keith set his microphone down as he continued to sing holding his own to his mouth.
“Wish we could be like that”
Keith took Lance’s microphone deeply kissing him in a dip.
Just like that the crowd went wild. Keith picked up Lance swiftly carrying him off the stage. Laughing like little kids Lance took off the cape as Keith took his hand running down the halls onto the balcony.
Lance started dancing to the upbeat music being played. Keith happily started bouncing and twisting, holding Lance’s hands.
Keith smirked no longer moving observing Lance.
Lance immiedietly noticing awkwardly looked away, “What?”
“You’re beautiful.”
“Stop, don’t say that your the pretty boy here.”
Keith smiled softly kissing Lance. Their lips interlocked as if they were made for one another.
“I can really get used to this.”
Keith took his hand, “Yes you will, let’s head back to the party though.”
Lance smild holding Keith’s hand as they made their way down the steps.
Bullshit
(minor Langst)
“It’s doesn’t matter.”
Lance maintained composure his face dimming with every word someone spoke to him. Darkness in his eyes eventually forced people to stop talking.
“Who gives a shit, God!”
Throwing his hands up Lance almost immediately shoved past his group into the wide crowd of aliens.
“God damn it Allura! You really pushed him over the edge,” Shiro said as a matter of factly.
“Oh, cause I’m the only one to blame idiot! You should start acting like the leader of Voltron and not a baby!”
Pidge glances to oncoming BOM and Keith, “Okay so Lance is nowhere to be found because of you imbeciles and Keith’s coming!”
Hunk sighed, “I’ll go and look for him...”
Lance was now running, he had no idea when he started but he was and he felt like screaming into the vast void in front of him. His head, light, and brain foggy he didn’t know how to feel. How to be Lance.
Rushing out into a giant open field of flowers, resembling blue daisy’s, his mother's favorite flower he felt the world spinning as if everything around him was not functioning. The wind started picking up, developing into a bunch of flower petals soaring through the entire kingdom.
Allura feeling bad decided she was to apologize and lead the entire team to follow Hunk. Yet upon reaching the door Hunk still stood there seemingly frozen at the scene unfolding before him.
Rushing out they all looked for Lance, soon Keith took the lead seemingly urgent and annoyed.
“What the hell is going on guys?”
Pidge crossed her arms, “Would you like me to explain for you, Princess?”
Allura turning with a strained smile, “If you must.”
Pidge smiled sarcastically speaking, “Oh it would be a pleasure,” immediately dropping the attitude she turned to Keith, “so team leader here and Allura have been on his ass all the time and it’s no help that I and Hunk haven’t come to his aid, so he finally snapped and walked away.”
Keith sighed, “I’m getting Lance.”
Lance was in the middle of the field and froze screaming, “Is there something wrong with me!”
Crashing to the soft grass underneath him everything fell, blue flower petals in his hair as he sat there all his freckles glowed.
He spotted Keith looking around frantically shouting out for him, “Lance?”
Lance up a single tear fell down, “Keith?”
Keith’s headshot in the direction of Lance, his gaze heavy like the lives of tons of heroes rested a hand on his shoulder. Lance smiled standing up, “Keith!”
The two sprinted to one another, the months of the two being apart, their friendship had only grown stronger into an unspoken of love. Lance took a running starting run to Keith throwing himself onto him. Slamming Keith to the ground he looked at him, tears streaming down his face as he smiled.
“I missed you, you fucking idiot!”
Keith cupped Lance’s cheek looking down at him a tear of his own starting to form before he leaned down and softly spoke the question already lingering between the lips of the two.
“Tell me to stop.”
Yet all Lance did was wrap his hands around Keith’s neck, a smile decorated on his perfect face, with perfect tears, and a perfect everything.
A tender kiss, one not too long but not too short, Keith pulling Lance up and into a hug they didn’t move.
“I’m sorry I wasn’t here for you-”
“Shut up you’re here now and that’s all that matters to me.”
Pidge and Hunk stood there and after a bit, they joined the hug that Lance and Keith rearranged for. Lance then turned to Allura and Shiro and dragged them into the hug.
“That’s better, exactly the way it should be.”
Keith smirked kissing Lance’s forehead, “Hah, that’s bullshit!”
My face fell, “Damn straight, we had a mission so let’s actually do our job.”
Putting on my helmet I generated my bayard, “Okay let’s see what weapon I’m given today.”
Not my surprise it waited for me to choose, I shrugged deciding to go with a smaller gun. The smaller the gun, the easier it is to attack and aim.
Typing up a message to Lotor as Pidge tried to track down the location of the Galra I smiled brightly under the shaded screen of my helmet.
Keith and I kissed -Lance
Oh, really? I’m so happy for you -Lotor
Thank you now all you have to do is confess to Allura -Lance
Pidge’s voice snapped me out of my activities and made me realize everyone was looking at me.
“What?” I slightly snapped at them. Not used to having them sincerely be interested in what I was doing.
They all looked away to Pidge as she spoke, “I found an underground base Galra are camping at. Probably holding valuable information.”
Nodding I made my way as the map was shared with everyone.
Clipping in my ear chip I decided to call Lotor.
“Hey, I thought you were on a mission.”
“I am just bored, what are you doing?”
“Ah, nothing crazy just organizing my papers and information. The chips crazy jam-packed.”
I hummed in response as he became venting about his skincare and conditioner. I walked around taking down enemies. Ducking beneath a stand I shot at two sentries.
“Okay, so it’s not just me who’s having horrible skin! Besides conditioner makes my hair oily.”
Taking down the last enemy before the castle entrance I smiled, “Sorry Lotor I’m about to meet with the king I’ll call you later.”
“Bye Lance better stay safe for me!”
Hanging up I slammed open the doors scoffing at the weakness the Galra presented before noticing something was off.
The fighting wasn’t over.
Feeling a weight in my hand, I subconsciously knew it was my Altean broad sword.
Brightly I smiled as my eyes lit up, Keith rushes in after me but all I did in response was shrug my shoulders, smirk, and scoff all in unison.
I’m a bold voice I called out. Slashing my sword out.
“This is bullshit.”
Sex Worker
A little Langst
!Caution! contains Sexual Refernces
Voltron was at a planet for some coalition meeting, resorting into the joke of a mission.
In other words the planet needed the sacrifice of a Virgin.
Everyone motioned to Lance amused.
“I’m sure he’d work.”
Lance not paying attention picked at his nails absentmindedly, “I’d never pass up an opportunity to die, but it wouldn’t even work.”
Everyone paused turning to face Lance in an instant, “What?”
Lance shivered rencountering the multiple times he had slept around for extra cash to keep his struggling family on their feet.
Lance shivered at some of the older men from the flashbacks, “What.”
Shiro broke the silence surrounding the Paladins, “Wait you aren’t a Virgin?!?”
Hunk laughed nudging Lance not taking it seriously, “Oh yeah I’m sure your charms really worked.”
“Nah you don’t need charms to get by anymore.”
Pidge holding back a scream of shock pressed, “Were you even dating the person?”
“No? I’ve dated maybe two people but that was back in middle school.”
Keith joined on the questioning, “You knew this person right?”
“Kinda, we talked a bit the night before- you know what, that’s enough questions right now. It’s techno private information. God nosey much.”
Allura spoke assuming she’s realized that it’s normal Earthing customs, “Oh! Is this an Earth tradition?”
Keith shook his head immediately shutting down Allura’s hypothesis, “No.”
When you’re sick
Langst
Lance is sick, he’s caught something, not even the castle could detect
Within a day he could barely speak and get around on his own
When he went to bed he took out his contacts, put on his glasses, and knew that putting on a face mask would only be a hard wake up
The next day arrives and Lance doesn’t come for breakfast
Pidge remembered during training Lance needed to sit down
Hunk recalled Lance refusing to eat
Keith noticed the lack of speech from Lance
Shiro noticed Lance struggling to stand let alone stay still
Allura noticed his irritability, as he’s never one to get upset or act stuck up and not laugh
Coran noticed Lance never stayed around, yes Lance showed all those other features but the fact Lance avoided everyone shocked him
They were all concerned but rather than checking they wanted to let the whole team have a day off
Lance woke up his body practically stuck to the bed, swallowed hard as he struggled to breath
His hair curly again
His glasses in place
Slowly he sat up immediately coughing horribly
Throwing himself to his feet he fell only to stand by sticking to the wall
It felt like hours it took for him to reach the control room to ask for help
The door slid open to see Lance looking like a ghost
“Help.”
Just like that he hit the ground
Unknown power
Lance was always different he was always more on the peaceful side rather than immediately resorting to violence and he always was good at language and pretty much could easily learn anyone he felt like he wanted to learn. He held himself well and proudly feeling, strong confident and more powerful then what an average human felt about one's self. Born strong... scratch that extremely strong. Well in accordance with how he never really worked out and was more muscular when compared to those around him. Blessed with the knowledge of reading others' body language and how those around him work. A quick thinker in stressful and intense moments.
He may have not been good at school due to his short attention span or anything but he still didn’t do horrible.
Yet since he joined Voltron it just became out of wack. He didn’t feel as confident or as smart or as if he was worth anything. He still had those traits he just no longer found himself different from everyone else. He felt like he was worth so much less and just not of use when it came to it.
Deciding to take a rest they noticed as an unidentifiable ship landed they all looked horrified when Sendak walked out and had around 30 Alteans behind him, a sight no one could’ve ever imagined seeing.
Lance felt something in his chest change it was an uncontrollable rage he never knew he could possess. It felt like acid reflux but throughout his entire being. Without warning, he was right before Sendak with his Bayard summoned and aimed at his throat. Sendak had a wide smirk.
“A worthy opponent. Let's fight.”
Lance flew back to dodge Sendak's arm and summoned his gun and Blasted Sendak's arm causing it to spark, shocking Lance who grunted used to the feeling by now taking a hard run at Sendak. Sendak flashed out his other arm ad it slammed into Lance’s helmet breaking it. Lance had to blink a bit to refocus on what was happening and felt blood drip down his nose and he smirked wiping it off with his hand.
“Alright, fucker no more nice guy.”
Sendak was taken back for a second wondering what the fuck that meant and Lance took Sendak being off guard as a blessing pulling out his sword and Sendak had one of his own and he was pressing against Lance’s smirking.
“You think you can defeat me? You are nothing more than a weak, useless Paladin.”
Lance growled and felt his anger volt through his body, feeling himself growing stronger, a powerful energy coarse through his body.
“Oh, Sendak.”
Sendak smirked pressing forward, towards Lance, “Yes?”
“I’m not a Paladin, I’m so much more...”
Sendak was taken aback for a second and roared charging at the Blue Paladin.
Lance’s eyes turned bright blue as his aura shined bright purple from red and blue since he was both their Paladins.
Lance took a deep and sharp break growing more and more angry with every breath he took.
Lance screamed as he felt himself transform he slammed his foot into Sendak's only hand knocking the sword lightyears away. He then slammed his foot into Sendak’s chest causing him to fly back and Lance screamed as he bolted at Sendak the team just watching this all godown. Sendak’s arm flew back as he shot it at Lance who caught his arm and slammed it along with Sendak to the ground like Allura did with Lotor.
He suddenly saw an orb of blue appear in his hand and Lance smiled, “This won’t hurt one bit.”
Lance drew back his arm and slammed it into Sendak creating a huge explosion causing everyone to fly back. Lance screaming in anger morphing it into something unidentifiable.
The team screamed as they ran to the scene the smoke hasn’t cleared out yet and they all got a giant flash of Lance’s past, after being consumed by a wave of light.
Lance was laying in his bed looking up at the glow stars, “What does she mean I’m different?”
They snapped out of it and found Lance on his hands and knees and they froze when they saw his appearance. His hair was bright white he had nice pointed ears and blue marking covering his body.
His freckles no longer brown rather replaced with white, almost glowing dots.
Hunk pointed to Lance’s altered appearance, “Lance your hair!”
Keith nodded grabbing Lance’s hand pulling back the armor showing Lance his freckles were white.
Lance stood up looking at him then turning to the team in shock as he felt the scales beneath his eyes once pulling up a mirror, “I’m-“
Allura breathes our shallowly her expressions soft and tears filled her eyes to the brim, “Altean.”
Quiet? Langst.
The team was resting and made camp. At one point they all stopped and looked at Lance who was standing looking out at the horizon and looked down at his hands. He felt broken.
He no longer knew who he was, he knew they were going back to Earth, but would he even be the Lance his family knew and loved?
It was like the water was calling to me, past the cliff I was standing upon into the vast seas, seemingly clear but endless.
Where is this going?
Don’t leave me alone.
How do I do this all alone?
Activating my jet pack I took a step back swinging my arms as I flung myself off the cliff to soften the fall.
I need to know.
I need to go.
Into the great wide somewhere.
Allura got up screaming as she jumped after him.
Pidge after Allura.
Keith after Pidge.
Followed by Hunk.
When they reached the water and the bubbles cleared out there was a beautiful village filled with merpeople.
Hunk took a moment and looked on the map and froze, “This is the planet me and Lance were on when we were shot out of the wormhole.”
Allura’s tone worried instantly observing her surroundings, “Is this place bad?”
Hunk smiled slightly excited, ”No this was definitely my favorite place I’ve been at in space so far.”
The mermaids swam up smiling happily at Hunk hugging him and thanking him for his heroic acts the last time he was there
Hunk then asked where Lance was and the one mermaid bit her lip, “He’s with the queen and Plaxum.”
Hunk paused as her expression seemed to imply something was wrong, “Do you know why?”
The girl frowned shaking her he’d but nevertheless seemed worried,” No but Lance’s expression was beyond scary as we never thought a person as happy as him could feel so low.”
Keith stepped in needed to see him okay, “Take us to them.”
They were lead through the castle and all walked up to a room the entrance consisting of giant doors. The mermaid tapped on them and the doors opened up to find Plaxum hugging Lance tightly and protectively as he hugged her back and the queen was hovering around speaking to him with a face of sorrow.
“I could tell you were near and not feeling yourself so I drove you to me.”
She gasped looking over, “Welcome back Hunk we’ve missed you! And hello other paladins of Voltron.”
Allura walked up and extended out a hand, “I am princess Allura of Altea, the honors all mine.”
Luxia looked Allura up and down nodding, “Nice to meet you too I am Queen Luxia Of Otorica.”
Allura nodded quickly letting her hand fall to her side slightly embarrassed as Plaxum and Lance went to the back corner of the room where she held his face and smiled sadly at it and the others expected him to kiss her but she knew better than to kiss him and she loved him so much just it became for family like especially after being denied.
A guard stormed in, “The Baku is back-“
Lance snapped his head over his eyes puffy and red but his face gone frozen, “What do you mean?”
The guard huffed, “There is a small creature that is exactly like the one you and Hunk defeated long ago.”
Lance turned to Plaxum, “Shall we?”
Luxia extended a hand out holding an object. Lance looked at her and held his own hand out as she placed the object in his hand. It was his jelly fish hat and he put it on and Plaxum did the same with hers and the two flew out. The entire room had windows around so the Paladins could see it.
Lance blasted off to find a not as big but still very large Baku as it came right at him. People came over and started to attack. Plaxum grabbed Lance close to her and he held her, protecting her as she handed him bombs and he chucked them at people dodging all attacks inflicted torwards him and the Baku constantly was a pain in the ass.
Lance bit his lip begging for Blue, “Common Blue... I need you for this. Please girl.”
The Baku slammed into Lance who used his jet pack to recover and blasted off to The Baku and gasped for air when exposed as when the Baku rammed into him his helmet flew off. The blue lion roared and Plaxum was in the lions mouth like last time he grabbed the Baku and slammed it into a rock wall. Blue used it’s claws to climb up the wall as the Baku swam after him. His lion pressed off the wall doing an impressive flip and blasted the worm causing its blue guts to fly everywhere and all the sudden it sparked and electrocuted Blue. Lance let out a bone chilling scream.
Floating lifelessly Lance gasped for hair as blue grumbled, the calling of Plaxum waking him up. Groaning as his eyes slowly adapted to the light. He heard his team approaching.
Rushing to Lance who immiedietly gained composure grabbing onto the seat turning on gravity listened to thumping.
Chucking knowing they all fell they still ran in swarming his asking if was okay touching him and their gaze hovering over him.
Lance didn’t respond swatting at them and he couldn’t bring himself to feel any emotion.
Upon everyone leaving along with Lance, Allura pointed to Lance and turned to Plaxum begging for answers, “What is wrong with Lance?”
Plaxum crosses her arms, “You are your ‘team’ broke him, you stripped him clean of himself because none of you liked the real him and when he tried to change you then just ignored him is what I’m talking about.”
Allura and the team who had over heard looked to Lance making his way back to the castle with horrified expressions gasped.
In a small voice Keith was slapping his forehead feeling like an idiot, “Oh god, what have we done!”
I don’t care
Klance (minor Klangst in beginning)
Keith came back to Voltron as this was important for his BOM mission. Lance didn’t bother to arrive as Keith leaving hurt him a lot. Hiding off in training room slashing and screaming, as usual, just to let out all the pain Keith inflicted on him intentionally or not.
“I wish we never had the bonding moment! I wish I never met you at the Garrison! I wish I never followed Pidge onto the roof! I wish you never left! I wish I never loved you-“
Lance heard Coran walk in with a worried face and turned off the simulation, “My boy are you okay?”
Lance shook his head dismissing Coran, “Yes, I’m fine.”
Coran frowned knowing Lance enough to tell easily it was a lie, “No I can sense you are distressed. Maybe along with the fact you didn’t attend Keith’s return.”
Lance bit his lip his gaze immediately falling to some random spot on the wall, “It doesn’t matter-“
Coran hugged him his embrace soft and careful yet solid, “I heard it all Lance you don’t need to lie... I understand you loved him and he left which hurt you deeply — it’s okay you can tell me that my boy.”
Lance wrapping his hands around Coran reciprocating the embrace before he proceeded to continue training allowing Coran to sit and watch. The two held a nice conversation and Lance felt... somewhat better.
Coran sighed alerting Lance before he forgot, “You have a mission in one of your earth hours.”
Lance sighed sitting down wondering why Coran felt the need to tell him right then, “Okay...?”
Coran looked at Lance a flash of concern and remorse, “And it’s with Keith.”
~with Keith~
He was sitting in the kitchen with Hunk obviously distressed about Lance not showing up to his return.
Hunk spoke plainly telling Keith this as if it were as plain as day, “I hope you know he’s pretty pissed at you and hurt.”
Keith slammed his hands on the table frustrated not seeming to understand, “Why I didn’t even do anything!”
Pidge scoffed looking up from her laptop for the first time since entering, “Man what a dickish thing to say. Keith common you just left like that. No formal goodbye and dropped us all! May I say, mainly Lance like trash and it doesn’t help that Shiro’s been a dick to him too.”
Keith sighed resting his head on the table guilt starting to build up, “How do I make this up?”
Hunk chuckled waving Keith off as it wasn’t his job of course as it wasn’t, “Lance can hold a grudge like a god, good luck.”
Pidge fixed her glasses her gaze once again immediately trained into whatever codes she was typing into her laptop, “Well, I guess you could start with the mission you two have in a couple minutes.”
Keith sighed resting his head on the table. I mean hey, Pidge is right it’s worth a shot.
~The mission~
Coran and Lance walked out of the training room and Lance dismissed his Bayard before Keith could see it. Coran patted his back before Lance approached Keith.
“Let’s go.”
He only spoke those two words and they made their way into the red lion and silence overtook the empty lion. Lance didn’t budge but he did feel the burning in his chest of hurt as Keith was close. He sighed attempting to swallow the lump in his throat.
Lance pulled up the mission and looked at his goal speaking to himself, “Okay save a local planet... Allura, I wish you were more descriptive. Yet this mission not even close in difficulty as some missions I’ve done.”
Lance shut off the hologram and threw on locking his helmet expecting this was going to be easy and even if it wasn’t he manages fairly well.
Keith spoke messing with his hands, “Lance?”
Lance didn’t even budge something about Keith having a lack of composure was foreign and made Lance twitch, “Yes?”
Keith bit his lip before speaking words he would normally refuse to say, “I’m sorry?”
Lance scoffed immediately licking eyes with Keith amused, “Was that a question idiot?”
Keith frowned hurt snapping back, “Wow... okay sorry!”
Lance landed and took off his helmet snapping his head to Keith and spat out, “You're sure as hell not forgiven.”
Keith was shocked and watched as Lance walked out as bullets and weapons were flying everywhere.
Lance summoned his Bayard and knew the guys in purple were enemies and with that, his Bayard sprung to life.
Keith stuck in his tracks paused upon seeing the sword Lance wheedled. Lance started taking down any enemy on sight with no hesitation.
Lance muttered curses under his breath exactly like the ones he said in the training room and stopped slicing them in half and decided to punch them.
“This is for being a bitch!”
“This for just being here!”
Lance glared and Drew back his arm, “And this for making me love you!”
Lance slammed his fist into the alien's face killing them from hard impact.
Keith smiled at Lance taken aback by the growth he’s seen in him, “Lance that was amazing.”
Lance rolled his eyes not caring for how hard it seemed Keith was trying, “Yeah we’re in a fucking war so get your head out of your ass it’s not a hat.”
Keith was shocked and enraged with how rude Lance was being and had enough of it, “Oh fuck off!”
Lance shoved Keith away slapping a Keith with reality, “Says the one who keeps talking to me when I don’t want you to!”
Keith growled flailing his arms, “Well I’m sorry I’m trying to reconnect with a friend!”
Lance laughed hard,” Friend. Friend? If you were a friend you wouldn’t have dropped me without a second thought! But guess what... That’s exactly what you did!”
Keith froze with no counter to that, “I had no idea you felt that way...”
Lance was already walking away waving Keith off, “Well then I guess you aren’t as smart as I thought Kogane.”
Keith narrowed his eyes only letting anger do the talking, “Listen to yourself you’re in a war! We don’t have time for relationships!”
Lance gasped his walking stopped and a giant wave of guilt smacked Keith, “So a war means you leave Voltron which could have gotten us all killed for a rebel group that’s been running and surviving for maybe I don’t know 10 fucking thousand years?!?”
Keith paused as he couldn’t fight with that statement as it was true, “Uhm...”
Lance pushed Keith back pissed, “Yeah you were only thinking of yourself fucking jerk!”
Keith grabbed Lance’s hands, “Lance calm down.”
Lance ripped his hands from Keith’s grasp, “I won’t calm down till you leave me again cause I wouldn’t expect anything else.”
Keith not knowing what else so grabbed Lance’s face and hardly kissed him. Lance tried to fight back but Keith wrapped his arms around Lance and didn’t budge. Lance tried his hardest and broke down kissing back tears falling all the anger was gone now only hurt.
Keith realized what he did to Voltron was what his mom did to him.
Keith pulled back from the kiss pulling Lance into a tight hug, “I left you once I’m never leaving you again.”
Lance sobbed pulling Keith close, “You’re such an asshole!”
Keith nodded, “I know I am — and I don’t expect everything to be normal right away... but I’m really never leaving again.”
Lance looked up at him a serious expression displayed on his face, “Promise?”
Keith nodded hand still cupping Lance’s face he rubbed his thumb on a nice soft cheek, “ I Promise.”
Lance this time initiated the kiss and when he felt Keith deeply kiss back he knew that Keith was going to do his best to keep that Promise.
Till the day he dies.
The truth is out
Oneshot
The connection with Voltron was horrible the team pointed it out and never picked up on Lance’s lack of response.
Lance saw an oncoming storm and there was something about it. Lance disconnected from Voltron. The team was screaming at him but he ignored them.
Lance felt the world spin and all his feelings would cause the storm to crack and boom. It was worse than something you’d find on earth. The team landed and ran after Lance.
Lance took of his helmet tear falling as he spun and stood in an open field and spun grabbing his head screaming and the team was running after him and the whole storm went inside him and everything was perfect for a tic but when that tic was over Lance sobbed falling onto his hands and knees and the storm was tearing him apart from the inside out learning everything about him and what he held deep inside. The storm went out of him and took the side the team always saw and smiled at Lance who was crying and looked numb.
The figure grabbed Lance’s face, “Now you can’t hide what you bottle up.”
Lance laughed uncontrollably and the figure grew worried, “Stop it this instant.”
Lance sob laughed his head tilted up his jaw wide desperately crying and screaming.
The team ran to Lance and tried to touch him but Lance shuddered and slapped them away.
“Go away!”
Lance got up and the storm tried to get back into Lance and was confused when it couldn’t.
“Sorry storm you took my facade but now that that’s gone I’m occupied.”
Lance bit his lip the storm swirling just as Lance’s mind was racing and the storm reminded Lance of a heartbreaking memory that never fails to make him upset. The way Allura looked at Keith the way she always kinda leaned close to him.
Lance’s eyes grew dark and the figure smiled speaking to Lance, “Common Lance let it go and let loose they’ve wronged you give them their precious reward.”
Lance smiled tears falling and stood tall, “You know what?”
The figure smiled, “Yes?”
Lance chuckled, “You’re just a voice I already hear it’s more annoying than anything I’ve ever ignored. The voices now are just a nice loud slap in the face. Maybe you are right after all these years of fighting it I should just give in and do it.”
The figure smiled and Lance summoned out his Bayard and aimed it at himself. Hunk tackled Lance and Lance screamed the storm struck Hunk violently and Pidge fought back. Lance pulled out a bottle and chugged the contents and threw them at the ground and started running. The team followed him screaming at him. The storm went away as Lance slowly died.
Lance knew any moment he would drop dead and kept running then it happened he ran and felt his breathing slow and the corners of his vision grow black and his legs gave out and just like that he blacked out after that.
The group refused to accept Lance was gone and kept him in the pod. Lance fell out and didn’t budge and laid there.
Pidge tapped Lance and then soon checked for a pulse and got nothing.
Keith being cheesy thought about true loves kiss and deeply kissed Lance. He felt Lance’s lips were cold and he never knew he was crying but felt a tiny shaky breath escape from Lance.
Keith gasped as he pulled away looking at Lance.
Lance quickly gasped as he shot up coughing like crazy. Keith looked shook as fuck and touched his lips.
It worked?
Lance looked horrified and looked at his hands and rubbed his face. He looked slightly shocked he was there and looked at the face right by his. Keith’s.
Lance’s eyes narrowed and he got up and started walking out. Shiro raised a brow looking at Keith as if the look said what the fuck.
Keith ran after Lance. Lance ignored every comment Keith stated and Lance snapped.
“Oh I’m sorry the person I like is in love with someone else!”
Keith frowned, “Allura doesn’t even like me!”
Lance scoffed, “That’s not the person I’m worried about.”
Keith froze and Lance turned around and sped off Keith grabbed Lance’s arm, “Wait you like me?”
Lance had tears falling, “Jesus chri- Yes Keith I like you!”
Keith grabbed Lance’s collar tilting Lance’s head up and kissed him roughly obviously inexperienced other than when he kissed Lance who was dead at the time. Lance shocked slowly kissed back wrapping his arms around Keith now had warm lips a soft expression decorated on his face.
Keith pulled back from Lance who was breathless, “I love you Lance, but next time remember I don’t even like girls.”
Lance smiled and sighed with relief still scoffing at Keith’s remark, “I love you too Keith.”
Keith dipped Lance and kissed him again.
Sure Lance’s depression, and suicidal tendencies wouldn’t go unspoken. Yet now he had some stability, maybe he’ll learn love isn’t dead. Maybe he’ll learn life is worth living.
Man Lance was in deep.
Random Klance Oneshot
But I love you
Keith and Lance were talking after Keith glared when Lance kissed her hand. She laughed along with Lance. Keith wasn’t sure if to think they were in love or just having a friendly conversation and Keith wanted answers.
Lance looked concerned, “Keith? Something up?”
Keith shook his head, “No I was just wondering if you and Allura were together?”
Lance waved his hands shaking his head, “No! Wow no! She rejected me to remember... wait do you love her?”
Keith paused for a moment, “Yeah, I do.”
Lance looked at Keith hiding the hurt, “Oh, well If you love her then why haven’t you confessed?”
Keith looked away from his gaze more directed to the ground, “I thought... she may reject me?”
Lance gave a sad smile and resting a hand on Keith’s shoulder, “Well when she rejected me... said she loved you so! You’re all hers!”
Keith nodded, “Thanks for telling me... but I’m sorry.”
Lance paused in front of the door and was about to walk out, “Sorry?”
Keith nodded even though he knew Lance can’t see him. Lance never faced Keith as he didn’t want to see the tears so he stayed there ready to leave.
Keith sighed, “I lied. I don’t like Allura.”
Lance took a moment to swallow the lump in his throat, “Oh you like Pidge?”
Keith grumbled, “I don’t... like girls.”
Lance stood in the doorway still not facing Keith, “Oh so you like Matt or Shiro! That’s good Uhm yeah I’m going to go!”
Keith was going to call for Lance but he bolted away tears flying behind him, he couldn’t stand to hear the person Keith liked, Allura was already too much but a person in the group.
Keith was already after Lance who was sprinting to his room which was the farthest from Keith’s. Soon enough Keith was catching up to Lance.
“Lance slow down!”
Lance didn’t respond but stopped running.
Keith caught up and reached out a hand, “You never let me finish.”
Lance turned around, “Don’t worry Keith, I get it and I support you but trust me Allura may be upset with you and that person.”
Keith’s face softened, “Lance.”
Lance started to ramble about random things and Keith sighed, “Lance!”
Lance sighed defeated looking at Keith ashamed of himself. Keith chuckled at that and cupped Lance’s face. His eyes grew wide Keith chuckled and kissed Lance deeply. Lance felt his eyes close and pull Keith closer desperate that if it was only at that moment, he got Keith’s affection.
About a minute later they broke the kiss looking at each other breathless.
Keith spoke, “I like you.”
Lance smiled at that, “I really like you.”
Keith pulled Lance for another kiss and Lance kissed him quickly and looked at him, “I don’t want to deal with the wrath of Allura let’s go to my room.”
Keith nodded scooping Lance and held his upper thighs to support Lance and he wrapped his arms around the back of Keith’s neck, he went into Lance’s room and the door shut and Keith dropped Lance onto the bed and went right to kissing him again. As if this was the last night of their lives, they focused on the other's lips and taste and their hair and they never went further but did take off their shirts obsessing over the skin and Keith left slow soft kisses on Lance’s back scar from the crystal explodes. Lance messed with Keith’s shoulder scar from the BOM and Keith slightly squirmed and they found each other's spots and found pleasure in their moans. Lips. Skin. Body.
They fell onto their backs cuddling not worrying about what tomorrow will have in store.
Lance’s mind was racing over everything letting it all wash over him in waves
his doubts, Keith, Allura, the teams, Voltron’s next move, his family, everything, you name it.
Keith noticed and kissed his forehead and before Lance fell to sleep Keith whispered softly, “Don’t worry everything will be okay.”
Langst - a locked door
Just some langst one shot
Lance had been going without his antidepressants as he left them on earth.
Each day was worse than the last but of course
He’d never admit to such a thing
His mind was his enemy, no one did but if you looked close enough you’d see his eyes dull the smallest but every single day. His smiles became fake but they slowly faded along with his jokes and trying to flirt with people. They never picked up on his laughs as they were only there cause if he didn’t they would be loud unbearable sobs.
I mean hey the one time he cried it was a joke.
Yeah, a joke.
Lance would always say that to himself that he was a joke and people better than him were the easiest thing to find. He wasn’t important... he was irrelevant... invalid... unnecessary.
They had a team bonding exercises and it was no longer Pidge who had troubles opening up rather Lance.
The group shouted at him as he blurred it out he was very good at that. Just as Pidge did slammed it on the ground but ran off for the rest of the day.
No one followed
no one cared to ask
Nothing
Lance was fine with that he wasn’t surprised that no one cared maybe he should make it easy and kill himself. Take his Bayard and shot and/or stab himself or let a bot kill him.
Lance frowned thinking no in my room I don’t want to have the change someone finds me and puts me in a healing pod... they’d think it would be a waste of time...
Little did Lance know he was the support of the group to hold them up for support.
Also the defense, he protected them as much as he could from the outside world.
He agreed with the gods that yes this was a hell that managed to pick him. Him to be the one who suffers from anxiety, depression, and some things he can even begin to explain. He shuddered at the idea of having his medicine, he yearned for them. For him to feel it coarse through his body and make his feel numb. He’d rather be numb than sad he decided. Being numb made it easier to fake the happiness than the darkness from depression making a smile almost unbearable let alone a laugh.
The others were discussing with Kolivan and Keith when Keith finally asked, “Where’s Lance?”
Pidge fixed her glasses, “He stormed out during training today and haven’t seen him since.”
Kolivan must have felt Keith worries, “And you didn’t speak to him, you need him here if you want to go through with this plan.”
Allura fixed her crown, “That isn’t necessary.”
Hunk looked over wanting to interject but his own doubt has been consuming him as Lance hasn’t been around long enough for Hunk to be comforted.
Pidge and Shiro’s stress has been taking a toll on them as Lance hasn’t been around to reassure them and make sure they know everything will be alright.
Matt’s loneliness even though he had Katie took over as he felt slightly at a loss for no apparent reason and hasn’t been able to hear from Lance about how it’s okay not to have a reason and the feeling is normal and it’ll all be okay.
Allura’s homesickness was no longer an issue as she had Lotor to cling too and the team slightly found her statement rude but none had the strength to do so.
Coran was worried for the boy but as he was for the longest bit Allura’s guardian he never went against her word.
Keith was terrified of Lance, he’s seen Lances vulnerable side but that wasn’t even a bit of it, Lance inside was a number 5 hurricane maybe even 6.
But in the end, it didn’t matter Lance wasn’t checked on.
Kolivan sighed, “Very well.”
Keith wanted to flick Allura off or go for herself when he looked at Hunk who was looking at Keith.
Lance was in his room putting through his plan and didn’t know so he shrugged and pulled out his Bayard.
He thought everything will be fine Allura has blue Keith could take red Shiro would have black Hunk would have yellow and Pidge would have green.
Nothing was wrong.
Nothing was ever wrong.
-SELF HARM & SUICIDE MENTIONS BELOW-
Lance sharply inhaled as he threw it at the wall and then went to the bathroom.
Lance violently threw things around as he started the water turning the cold on high and plugged it. Lance threw stuff around shoving all of his beauty routine supplies in the trash and destroyed everything letting his eyes land on a box. He swallowed at the lump in his through the familiar shiny sharp pieces of metal, some with blood crusted on the edges. He never told anyone as he slyly paid for them and hid them in his pocket. Lance rather set those aside and felt into his pocket and smiled as an inviting sting jolted up his arm when his thumb pressed onto the blade the outer layer of skin completely cut through.
He pressed forward slightly screaming as it hit the bone.
He huffed as it was pained and heard drips of blood fall from his jacket pocket.
Lance ripped out the blade hitting his teeth scared they may break.
The others thought they heard a scream but dismissed it as if they were just paranoid.
Lance was thankful but little did he know the others were discussing whether they should check on him or not.
Lance looked at the bath for a good couple of minutes, “This is it... it’ll soon be over.”
The mice had a bad feeling and hurried off to Hunk or Pidge or Matt people that could try and listen.
Lance without taking off any clothing slowly sank into the tub not taking notice it was seconds from overflowing but nothing was plugged in and no cords were near the ground so no shocking would take place.
Lance didn’t cry he looked happy as he took the blade with a shaky hand. He couldn’t feel his face as he was numb but he picked up on drips of water that fell and knew wasn’t from the water being brought into the tub and pressed a hand to his face and couldn’t pick up any feeling.
He pulled up his sleeves and slowly pressed down and closed his eyes and slammed it down into his wrists causing them to bleed like crazy Lance let out a scream that was dismissed again but the mice moved quicker with that.
Kolivan and Keith we’re heading to the castle for further discussion on the grand meeting.
They arrived when the mice reached the team and went to Pidge and she dismissed them until they got to Hunk and Matt.
Hunk always felt Lance was hiding something and nodded Matt along with Hunk bolted for Lance room passing Keith and Kolivan in their way. Keith and Kolivan exchanged a look that was extremely unsettling by the speed of the two that passed.
Lance stuck his other arm and screamed and ripped it out continuing until he felt the corners of his vision grow blurry and black and faded. He felt his body sink into the ice-cold water and the air rush out of his lungs but never really needed to go back in.
Light red water covered the floor running out of the bathroom now through Lance’s room under the crack of his door into the hallway.
Hunk screamed, “Lance open the door right now!”
Matt banged on the door as more water flowed out, “Lance! Come on this isn’t funny!”
The two sounded desperate Pidge scurried over to the door hacking it open as she had her laptop. The bottom of Lance’s floor was covered in 2 inches of water with a pink tint to it. It reeked and little did they know what laid in the bathroom would be the cause of it.
Pidge screamed in horror when she spotted Lance.
Hunk pulled Lance’s head from under the water and didn’t catch a pulse and started to perform CPR.
Matt ran down the halls Pidge screaming to get a pod ready and Matt screaming for the help of the others.
Hunk got Lance’s pulse but Lance never coughed as he never took in water his nose had been poking out of the water but was severely bleeding out. The sight of Lance’s arms and wrists made Hunk wince and gag.
The other feet were thumping through the halls and Hunk was running a pretty much dead Lance in his arms. A tiny strip of blood dripping from Lance’s arms constantly leaving a pretty much-filled line of blood. Keith now ahead of Hunk he willed his body to move faster. And it stopped when he saw Hunk turn the corner and ran right in front of Keith heading to the pods and the line of blood that followed Hunk made the others freeze but Matt kept running as his body went into overdrive.
Hunk was wheezing as he ran his orange headband flying behind him as he ran. The others never have seen him move faster. Pidge was waiting, “It’s ready! Get him in here now!”
They never had the time to change him he was in soaked clothing everything slightly pink now and his sleeves completely stained red.
It kept dripping and when Hunk shoved Lance in Lance’s body floated motionlessly.
Hunk sank to the ground in loud sobs and the others stood there motionless as well.
Thoughts raced through their heads;
Why didn’t Lance tell us?
We’re the worst team ever.
Why would Lance do that?
It’s all my fault.
How could we not have noticed?
Why did I yell at him?
Why didn’t I ask him if he was okay?
Why didn’t I care?
The thoughts swirled through their heads relentlessly.
Yet that’s funny as they’ll know how Lance’s mind was, but so much worse it was basically all the natural disasters in the world put together. Letting Lance take a spiraling path that no one cared to intercept.
A beautifully horrifying mess that destroyed Lance as if he were a domino forced to crash along with everything else collapsing leading to him.
Lance’s bleeding continued as his blood was dripping through his clothes slowing down sad thing is, is it wasn’t because he was healing his body couldn’t put forth the energy. His pulse is slow but slowly speeding up again.
A week passed and no one has left except Kolivan, Keith stayed and left the BOM. Lance was his teammate and so much more and Keith became Lance’s stability and Lance was him but Keith left probably ruining the bond they created. Yet he will try his best.
They had no idea how’d Lance would feel when he got out... but they all knew Lance would never be the same.
His cuts so deep they healed but the skin never reattach and he was thin. Way too thin. His eyes had dark bags underneath them and he was still floating.
The pod opened everyone’s hearts in their throat. Lance opened his eyes and they were full no source of happiness in his features whatsoever and blinked slowly inhumanly and breathed shallowly. He stood up tugging away from anyone who touched him pissed he was alive, pissed his suicide attempt failed maybe he should have stabbed himself in the chest that would have been easier. Lance tugged away from Hunk snapping knowing Hunk was probably the one who saved him.
His words shook them all.
“I didn’t want your help! I don’t want to be here! I want to be dead! This is insanity... this is fucking great! I support you I was there for all of you! Whenever you were moody or sad or upset I comfort you guys... I made sure you were okay!”
Lance coughed and then continued, “Now... I want you all to know... This is who I am. This is your annoying too loud too flirty lover-boy goofball Lance!” Lance spoke with so much hatred for himself.
“I don’t want to hear it all your lies, cause god knows none of you cared! And some of you shock me to this very moment. I tried and tried and tried and I tried some more, but when all your stuck up asses are to busy thinking of what you want I cared I listened!”
Lance sobbed sinking to the ground and they all know now Lance is never coming back. This is the broken mess they created. Oh god. They caused that.
Slowly they all felt tears fall, they all held Lance, no one spoke, he didn’t fight back, no one spoke. The void was filled with warm hugs and shaky breaths, silent sobs, and a screaming voice inside.
What now?
Still looking!
Helloo! I’m Keith and I’m currently looking for a new rp partner! I have been Roleplaying for years and have done a wide arrange of plots and genre. I will make clear now that I specialize in horror, I like the grotesque and morbid. Mind break is something I main, and I apologize if that’s not something you’re into. This does not mean I’m unwilling to do anything else, just know that I prefer at least a little bit of angst!
I’m open to anyone and anything, but here are some of my rules:
- MUST be 18 or older
- At least 2 sentences a reply (normal sentences, not 3 word sentences)
- In third person
- Relay triggers BEFORE the rp has started
I play with all different kinds of characters. As long as you give me enough to work with, I can create epic and intricate plots. I also adore headcanons, so if you have any go ahead and throw them in!
For the fandoms I’m in, I’ll write the characters that I would like to main next to it along with my main ships for them (and any warning notes). This doesn’t mean I won’t play any other characters or ships, I most certainly will be! These are just the characters I connect with most and love, and the ships I personally adore.
HermitCraft/Life Series- Grian: Scarian or Mumscarian- I have a lot of headcannons for this one so we’ll have to discuss a bit before hand. This one can get intense, too, but it won’t if you’re not into that.
Voltron: Legendary Defenders- Keith: Klance or Shklance
My Hero Academia- Deku: Bakudeku or Todobakudeku- Can get really angsty
DreamSMP- Tubbo or Dream: Any ship you like- I have headcannons for this one also. It also gets intense, grotesque even, but won’t if you’re not into that.
QuackitySMP- Tubbo or Slimecicle: any ship you want
Bungo Stray Dogs-Akutagawa or Dazai: Dazaku, Dazakuatsu or Soukoku- Will most likely be dark and grotesque, hard not to with the series itself so apologies
Any of these fandoms can be any AU, we’ll discuss specifics before we start. I would prefer to use Discord, but can use almost any app I have so whatever works best for you. My DM’s are open!
Rant Ahead
What really annoys me is that I love Voltron but the fucking fandom is so fucking toxic. Like, people who ship one ship would start shit with people who ship another. I seriously don't understand why people are acting like this, some of these people are in their teens and are acting like fucking five year-old. And that's an insult to five year-olds cause I work with them and they are nothing like that. I literally don't mind what ships other people ship, it's not going to harm me when they say who they bloody ship together, they can express who they ship and don't ship.
If you don't like that ship then you can kindly tell them instead of making a massive thing over it like it's the end of the fucking world. Just because the character you ship with is in the same ship as theirs. I saw a post on Instagram where someone received a DM from this person shipping Sheith. Telling them that Klance will never happen and that it's not canon king, and never will be. I don't know if I misheard but didn't Shiro say Keith was like a brother to him in the recent season?
I understand that people will ship those two together still and I encourage it but why the need to going into a Klance shipper's DM and harrass them over their ship? I'm actually asking why some shipper's need to act in such a manner just because some people ship two characters together that they don't ship.
Sorry for my rant but thanks for reading.
Keith Kogane’s fingerless gloves.
I was wondering why he wears them so much. Is it just a fashion? Or something else.
I have an old injury in my right hand and it cause me to get arthritic like pain in the fingers and wrist. So I wear fingerless gloves or hand warmers to help with the pain. Maybe Keith has something similar. That he wears his gloves because of arthritis and the gloves support his hands and keeps them warm.
I know they’re not really designed for it but I just love the idea of him having old injuries that can affect him but he is able to over come them. Also Shiro being the only one who knows about it. So he brings Keith different types of gloves for him the change between.
Also sword fighting! I personally find it harder to do small things such as gripping a pen or pencil compared to gripping a handle as there’s different muscles involved. So the idea of Keith being able to grip a sword with his whole hand but struggling with a gun because of the trigger is so good. Him struggling with writing and typing but still able to slice enemies to death with his swords!!
Just think about it for a minute please.
Been thinking about Voltron lately
Keith was my favorite, the little edgy boys have always been my favorites lol
If I had a nickel for every time I obsessed over an animated Korean twink who happened to be non-human and is also in a fan favorite ship that never became canon due to bad writing only for the love interest to get in a terrible rushed relationship with someone else I'd have two nickels, which isn't a lot but it's weird that it happened twice
me trying to starve the ctommy worm by feeding the klance worm is like trying to quit cigarettes by becoming an alcoholic
They say if you look at your favorite characters from past fandoms you'll be able to tell what your type is and I can say for certain mine is
sad/crazy black haired boy
Just got a drawing tablet! I’m still learning so its a bit rocky, but I just thought I’d share.
Lance- I’m the annoying one
Keith- I’m the mean one
If you’d like to re-blog/re-post, please give me credit! Thank you!
“Accursed Ones”
Lance here is based on @hardlynotnever’s cursed Lance design. I liked it so much I had to draw him and paint a Keef to accompany him. Lance was given feline features with an Egyptian flair in the original design, and @vulpes–vulpes suggested Keith be given heron-like features (another sacred animal in ancient Egypt).
Happy Halloween!
JUST FOR THE RECORD…
..I do NOT support the Leakira reboot AU…I just really really really like the Design.
Something I’ve been working on for a while now…
I made this for a AU I planned…probably gonna post more later idk lmao