Waiting For Him - Blog Posts

" I'm home darling. Who was that driving off just as I pulled u...😳...OH " ....(😏💭 hmmm it's been a long time since I got home to a greeting like THIS)

" ... GOOD. Good timing IN FACT. Come here, I've got something for you 😁 ... No, you'll need to be kneeling to get it 😈 "

Love when my step daughter waits for me to come home when her mother is out of town!! So glad its the weekend, its gonna be a long night

“Why not?” Iykyk

I'm just a fucked up girl who’s looking for my own peace of mind. Don't assign me yours.

However many cold winters and hot summers go by, I'll wait for you patiently. However many tears I cry, I'm reminded my love for you will never wither or dry. However many nights I cry myself to sleep, someday you'll replace them with smiles and endless laughter until we fall asleep in each other's arms. However, for now, until forever.

Took you like a shot, thought that I could chase

You with a cold evening.

Let a couple years water down

how I'm feeling about you

You could break my heart in two

But when it heals it beats for you

I know it's forward but its true

I wanna hold you when I'm not supposed to

You're stuck in my head

and I can't get you out of it

If I could do it all again

I know I'd go back to you

You know my thoughts are

running loose

It's just a thing you make me do

And I could fight but what’s the use

Won't lie, I'd go back to you.

My moon.

I fall in love with the little things, like the sound of your laugh; it makes me feel so warm inside.

Every night just when i look up at the moon, i wonder if he’s looking at it too; and i don’t know what to do.

you deserve the love you dream of. the one that lingers in the night. vulnerable. pure. the one that rises to meet the daylight. the one that tilts your chin to meet it's gaze. the touch that makes you feel electric-grounded. you deserve the eyes that wander reverently over your form. the mouth that longs to taste the dangerous curves of your mind. you deserve a love that keeps you wild, but lets you fall asleep on it's chest. the tender words that heal the wounds abandoned by time. the arms that pull you from the wreck, lifting you from the shore. a mind that never stops studying what magic you hold. the steady voice that makes you forget why it never worked out before. love doesn't have to be a grey mess. settling for convenience. that delicious love you crave is alive. it's yours if you've got the courage to believe in it.

I pierce my tongue through the night

Muffling my tears with my palm firm on my lips

Desperate to be kissed

My racing heart beating out of my chest

It’s starting all over again

I try to be quiet

Excuse myself to the bathroom

Not yet alone the walls echo

I’m tired

Staring blankly at the tiled walls

I slumber to the floor in defeat

I’m inpatient

But I believe one day you’ll come to me

And I’ll come to you

But for now I’ll pray for you

My Muse

You were right in front of me all along

How could I miss such a pretty face?

I'm sorry it took so long to look your way

Maybe you just weren't meant for me

I'm sorry my heart belongs to the moon

I'm waiting patiently for him

I'll pray till my knees are bruised

Till my eyes can no longer cry

Till my eyes are dry

Till my love comes to me

Till my heart is no longer in pain

Till my prayers are filled with love and joy

Till my fleeting mind can stay still and feel at home

Till my body no longer rocks me to sleep

Till my heart no longer cries me to sleep

When will you come to me?

I love you so much already it hurts

Please make the pain go away

I need you to come get me out right now

I need you to come wrap me up in your love now

I want to leave the feelings of reckless and abandoned

Tragic yet magic

My heart is a muscle but it’s not getting stronger

I want to wake up one day without my heart sinking to my feet

Instead with you in my arms

With your laugh tickling my brain

With each breath you take I steal a kiss

With each exhale in my lungs

Till I'm filled with every fibre of your being

I want you to devour me

I want to devour you

Subtle yet achingly obvious

My love for you is endless

Cries in degradation you were my separation I don’t know were to go from here.

A new year begins yet nothing has ended.

A new year begins and I’m still in love with you.

It’s beginning to feel like deja vu.

I’m still here were you left me waiting for you to come get me.

Untouched ready for you to devour me.

Undoubtedly I’ll surrender to your touch.

Words just aren’t enough I need to melt in your embrace and never leave your place.

I cried again tonight. I thought I could get through the night but my tears kept on falling. I've lost count. I don't know why I'm like this. Why do you make me like this? Can't you just stay as a fond memory and let me live? Even so, I'll always be yours no matter how many times I try to block you out. I always come back here to write about you.

My la verità.

I can't stop crying. I cry, cry, cry and cry untill my eyes are sore but you're never a bore. So I'll cry till dawn and pray to god on my knees to answer my call. For you, my love. Please, be mine.

Call out to me

When you’re ready I'll be there

Waiting for you

Till we meet again, my love.