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Katsuki Bakugo x F!Reader Fluff/Angst
Summary~ Everyone has a soulmate out there somewhere, you’d think since everyone has a soulmate that the universe would be kind enough to make it easy to find your soulmate as soon as possible. But, the only way to know who your soulmate is, is by making sure your quirks are the opposite of each other, oh, and the tattooed initials that appear on your wrist the day of your 18th birthdays…Sounds great right? Well, it would’ve been great if it wasn’t for the fact that your soulmate was none other than Katsuki Bakugo, your twin brother’s enemy.
I also have a kpop fic coming up as well on my other blog which you can find here. The details of that fic are listed below if you’re interested!!
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Choi San x F!Reader smut
Summary~ Reader is staying over at her boyfriend San’s dorm, San wakes her up in the middle of the night because of a dream he had that caused him a bit of a problem, the thing is his group mates are sleeping right next door and the walls are pretty thin.
ALRIGHTY
There's no context to this particular pic... owo
Anyways
I have officially made an Instagram acc for those who like my Hazbin content and RadioHusk, but aren't exactly a Tumblr person owo Or simply to follow me on other accounts uwu
Username: radioshowbiz
Current Status: Working on it, first post will probably be one of my RadioShow pieces
Contents: Mostly Hazbin Hotel art, though I will post consistent Alastor X Husk for those who ship it like me and a few of my good friends òwó
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I will also change this Tumblr username to RadioShowbiz as well if I am completely on board. That is all for updates, have a good day~!
Peacu!
Working on a little project òwó
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Post #29 - Big News, Big Changes
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Finally, I’m here with the so-called big post! I might’ve overhyped this a bit, but that comes with the territory of having long stretches of radio silence.
So what’s up?
I have decided to make changes to the direction of the story (again). Instead of the comic being the primary form of storytelling, it will be the fic instead. What does that mean for the comic? It will continue until chapter 10, and then we'll see where things take us. I rather start small so I can write a conclusive narrative within a reasonable time rather than attempt to manage something far too grand for my current abilities. Depending on how things turn out, I can always start another mini-series in this universe.
So, FAWN the comic will take place about a decade in the past from FAWN the fanfiction. Chapter 1 of the fic will be posted tomorrow, and once it is, I’ll update this post to provide the link. I have a little under 10 chapters written already, but if my brief obsession with Avatar this past month and a half has taught me anything, it's that I can pump out 50k words within five weeks if I really have my heart and soul in it.
To iterate, the fanfiction is not only going to be a rewrite of Lugubriosity, but it’ll continue the story. I know, I know, you might be wondering why would a cancel Lugubriosity in the first place then, and my answer to that? I simply wanted to write a more cohesive narrative, but I might’ve bit off more than I could chew when I initially pulled the plug. All I can do now is take it one step at a time.
The discord is in an unfinished state, but fuck it, I might as well post it so I can gather feedback regarding character backstories, world-building, and all. Below is the link to its beta state. I’m currently in the process of putting together a FAQ for the fic, and already gave a few questions their answers, but if you’d like to add your own, feel free to. I'll slowly piece it into a presentable state within the upcoming weeks.
New pages for the comic coming soon. Thank you to everyone who has been following this very slow journey so far! Honestly, if it weren’t for the pokes I get on Tumblr, I might’ve abandoned this project a while ago.
Discord Link
Fanfiction Link
This is a super spur of the moment post, but as I go through the rewrites, I felt compelled to sketch a few of the monster prostitutes that briefly appear in chapter two. Why? I think because I'm spiraling.
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Post #17 - Reference Sheet
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Okay, I need a bit of consistency in the comic, so I decided to just quickly sketch up a base idea of what each character (well the main three) should look like throughout. I'm still stuck on finding a good skin shade for Frisk. I know she's supposed to be dark skin, but I still want the hint of that yellow we see the original model have—gah! Maybe we should just forget about adding a hint of yellow and just keep her a very realistic human color? Is the color above realistic? I think it looks okay, but then I don't. I'm too indecisive. This will just have to be a future me problem.
Also! Drawing Sans sucks major balls. My brain wants to draw a skull, like a human skull, but you see, Sans does not have a human skull. He has a cartoon character skull—face actually because I swear to God, its just... I can't do what I did with Papyrus (God, I enjoy drawing Papyrus). We can't go all realistic for Sans otherwise he doesn't flipping look like Sans! He looks like some random skeleton unrelated to Undertale. He has this stupid peanut head that I just want to squeeze and watch it pop! Fuck Sans. Fuck Sans right to hell.
Wow, I feel so much better after getting that off my chest.
Anyway, I was going to include this whole explanation of how much I want the setting of the Underground to be super low income Americana, inner-city in some areas, rural trailer park in others, motel baby, RV vagabonds bumming gas from strangers, blah, blah, blah. Would this be moving far away from base Undertale? Sure, I guess. Yeah, maybe. Do people want to see me bring all my transgressive edgelord shit into a very unrelated franchise? I suppose that's a yes? I mean, I did a bit of that with Lugubriosity, but I'm talking about going all out with my art and this story. I've been holding back, trying to keep things to what people are used to? God, I don't know, but I really wanna explore more. I want to get dirty and grimy with my artwork, spread my fuzzy moth wings and tear into some old fabric in the nearest linen closet, you know, not so pretty.
Here are few inspirational pictures for what I mean:
I love it. I wanna draw it, write about it, just consume it in all my media. But is it appropriate for Undertale? Perhaps not. Perhaps so. I'm torn on what I want to do, and now I'm just ranting and rambling. Half of me wishes I just stuck to writing, but then another half really wants to see this story visualized.
I guess I should just get the rough draft done and see what happens next. I already butchered this beloved franchise so what's a little more? I'm curious if others care to see this in the story? Otherwise, I could just get super dark and dirty with an original idea whenever I get around to it.
Back from the Grave
Hello! It’s been 90 long neck-breaking years—or just one month, but I’m happy to be done with this round of edits for my novel.
I’m currently in a mood of absolute hatred towards that cursed book, and I just want nothing to do with it, but that could be due to all the dissection and reconstruction I had to suffer through. When I usually write fanfiction, I’ll get the rough draft done, and then do one edit (if I’m feeling pretty spicy I might do two) and then I post and instantly reap the reward of being done with a chapter for good.
With my original novel not only am I going back and do edit after edit, but I need to do it over the span of 300 pages, 70k words, and no long breaks in between. When I say I have never felt so overwhelmed by writing, well, I’ve never felt so overwhelmed by writing. And the editing is not fun on top of that, not at all, and this isn’t even the last round I need to do! And after I finish my part I still need to get a line/copywriter and then the beta readers, and then proofreader…it’s never-ending!
But, when I finally get to the end, there will be no greater feeling. I’ll feel so proud, so accomplished, because I would’ve done it. I would’ve published my own novel, and that alone reminds me that all this torturous work is well worth it.
There will be a new post for Fawn soon. Getting this project done will allow me to let out a major sigh of relief, because damnit, if I could just get a single chapter of a comic done that would be super ultra amazing. Once I finish with chapter 1, I’ve been debating changing course and trying to create a comic rendition of my Sonic fic—but God, if my Sonic Character drawing skills say hell no! Let’s not even…
Oh! And I almost forgot to include a song.
Post #12 - A Simple Silhouette Exercise
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I want to start by saying that this exercise (found here) was easy enough to complete during the few down hours I had today, so it makes for a decent warm-up. We were to sketch out a few cityscape silhouettes using basic shapes and then detail the best one. I made only three sketches and picked the silhouette that I found fit the Underground aesthetic the most.
This exercise was fun!
It definitely helped to better shape the skeleton of a city in a quick, yet appealing, manner. Despite that, I feel like I could've done more today, but I'm at least patting myself on the back for getting a blog post out there (the bare minimum, I know). I had such little time to do much today. I hadn't yet researched the map of the Underground or really taken a moment to find noteworthy references. Hopefully, with a bit more time on my hands, we can start strong tomorrow by finishing the Clipstudio tutorial.
Post #11 - A Step Towards Background Design
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After a much-needed break, I am happy to return and try to crack down on one important element of comic creation; backgrounds. Being a lazy artist, (everything must be created within a short time frame, or oops, there goes my attention span) sitting down to render a well-thought-out scene is the bane of my existence. At least with writing, it is easier to say what I envision. With visual art, there requires a bit more skill and time to bring an idea to life. So naturally, I am no expert at setting a compelling scene, but I plan to take the next 7 days to change that.
We're heading to art school at YouTube University. We'll have a lot to learn. Everything from the composition, to the perspective, to the layout of a background. I will try to pick up the basics, and hopefully improve as the comic gradually progresses. By the time the last page is drawn, and before the project comes to an end, I hope to have a product that is alluring to gaze upon.
I hope to have something that invokes a strong emotion within the viewer.
The images in this post are the three base categories of study; interior, exterior, and wider landscape/cityscape shots.
I wanted to track my progress, as well as see how much I currently know, (spoiler alert, not much) so the above was drawn without references. They are the barebone sketches that currently plague my portfolio. Something quick, something easy. I can't say for sure that this will change all that drastically, but my main goal is to find the happy medium between my lazy art and a compelling scene to stare at.
I will be releasing a post sometime next week that will detail the aesthetic direction I want to take the world. There's going to be a little more thought put into the details to create something that fits with the themes of the fanfic while still keeping true to the Undertale elements. There will be a mood board accompanying the post, (with a few images from my trip) so you'll get a bit more insight into exactly what I mean.
One last thing to touch on, I recently re-read a comment on The Salt Circle regarding the look of the Frisks/Charas, and though this story has nothing to do with that one, it did leave me thinking about the designs of the characters. The poll is still active, and currently, we have two options that are neck and neck; starting from scratch with a brand new AU, or going with Swapfell Gold. I think I will leave the poll up until my big post next week to see which one will win, but I am liking the idea of something new and of our own. Something made just for Fawn. Of course, as a project, I want to share and build along with readers. Therefore, the majority rules, but I suppose we'll have to see which answer wins before really cementing any ideas.
In the meantime; I will be starting the first day of background building tomorrow. We'll start things off easy by referencing the official map of the Underground as well as Clipstudio's guide on How to draw iconic cityscapes.
Post #10 - A Deer in the Snow
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Frisk was pretty clueless in Lugubriosity. Some of that naivety came from being a child, and some from memory loss. Without her knowledge of the past RESETs, Frisk was literally thrown into a world of the unknown. What are your opinions on Frisk being left in the dark? I debated allowing her to remember—at the very least she should remember Sans, but then again, she has Chara, so is it really necessary?
So let's quickly discuss the above. The last scene will happen slowly. We'll get environmental shots, background monsters interacting with Papyrus, so we'll get some establishing scenes. I want the community's perception of Papyrus to be very clear (regardless of whether it's admiration or fear). Perhaps we'll see a glimpse of Alphys? Perhaps Undyne? Perhaps not. It won't be long before he's in Snowdin's forest.
And then he sees her.
We have done it! We have reached the end of stage one. Despite this being small, I feel like it's a great victory. I definitely didn't think I would keep my attention on this project for as long as I did. Let's cross our fingers and hope I can keep it up! I'm also curious to know your thoughts on the plans for chapter 1.
I will be taking a bit of a break from daily posting. I want to get a few chapters written and up for my Sonic fanfic. Considering all of my free time has gone to working on Fawn, I think stepping back and taking a small breather before diving in head first into stage two might be best!
And lastly, I want to give a big thank you to everyone following along and even adding their feedback! It's exciting to know people have opinions on the story and want to help shape it.
Post #9 - Baby Animals or Little Girls?
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As I am preparing to sketch out the last scene for chapter one, I have been reading through highlight chapters in Lugubriosity. This chapter had particularly caught my eye since we get a bit more insight on Papyrus’ crimes. Only Papyrus didn't abusing several children alone, he had help.
Which brings me to one question; how involved was Undyne really?
I’d like to imagine someone who doesn't already have pedophilic tendencies wouldn't dare to help in such horrendous crimes regardless if they wanted to impress their emotionally abusive mother. In other words, Undyne was likely a pedophile as well, perhaps one who didn't have a strict child attraction. Should this be explored more in Fawn? It isn't typical for females to develop such a paraphilia, and even less likely for them to act on them, but then again, working with Papyrus had provided her with plenty of opportunities to offend.
Perhaps Undyne isn't a pedophile but just a heartless sociopath with no care for the well being of children—only she's depicted as showing guilt in this chapter.
Ah, musings, musings.
Anyway, I thought I’d show some of the more animal victims of the two. We have Hunny and two unnamed girls. Should they also be present in Fawn, or should Papyrus have only one victim and that being Frisk? Maybe Frisk isn’t his first, but rather the one that he fell in love with? Maybe Papyrus and Undyne developed their friendship through their lust of little girls? Maybe, just maybe.
Post #8 - Pink Elephants
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This post is about two days late, but I have a good excuse for that; work, work, work. Now that I'm on a bit of a holiday break I can see about returning to daily posts, or at least getting the next scene out in a timely manner.
Beyond work holding me up, I binged the latest season of The Handmaid’s Tale yesterday. I wanted to say that it could serve as a great resource for this story, but I don't want this fanfic to be anywhere near as hopeless as that show. I love it, but its total misery porn, and a person can only handle so much misery before it starts to effect their mental health. So Fawn will take some inspiration from the mentioned while following a more heartening tone.
We have the concept for scene four above. Papyrus will come downstairs with his shirt buttoned, lace up his boots, and remind Sans not to be late for his million side jobs (or complain about something equivalent depending on the AU). He’ll leave, and Sans will continue with his slacking off. The television will be on, we get a shot of a ballerina taking a bow, as Sans snorts, smokes, or injects Dust in somewhere or another.
All of the finer details of this scene will really depend on the AU we choose. I didn't think it would be such a hindrance, but its turning out to be one. What I do know is that Sans drug addiction is fundamental to the story just like Papyrus’ pedophilia, so it honestly doesn't matter what we ultimately settle with. Sans will still be a junky.
I checked on my stats today to find I now have over 20 followers! It was just last week that I was celebrating 10. I want to thank everyone for sticking through with this so far. I hope to keep it up until the very end of the project.
Post #6 - Storm’s Brewing
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His father marched out of that dance studio with thunderclouds above his skull. “Ungrateful bitch!” He spat under his breath. “If she thinks she can worm out of this just willy-nilly, then she’s dumber than she looks.” The mumbling went on for half a mile.
Neither Sans nor Papyrus dared to interrupt their father’s tantrum. They followed like a silent shadow, both knowing they’ll probably get it once they got home. What would “it” consist of exactly? It was hard to tell when their father was sober. If the boy were lucky, they’ll only get a smack across the face.
Scene two will be the shortest, and mainly consist of Gaster fuming because of an off-screen conversation that went south. We won’t get a glimpse of what the boys are thinking, but my goal is to tell a story through the visuals (which is what a comic is, but this is definitely my first crack at it). It would be neat to slip in some world building background shots too.
I’m torn on whether or not Gaster looks like Gaster. I asked my sister, and she didn’t know who he was, (ha!) but after I showed her some examples of the character she was on the fence. As a layperson with zero experience of the fandom, she could at least recognize him as being Gaster with a slight variation. What about for fans with knowledge of the character? Would it be obvious, or a bit of a stretch?
I suppose we'll just have to wait and see.
Post #5 - Ballet Practice
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As she flapped her tiny wings to mimic her graceful instructor, Papyrus was made aware of the fluttering in his soul. Sans gawked at the woman’s long slender legs, and Papyrus gawked at cute chubby ones. Sans drooled over perky breast, and Papyrus couldn’t see beyond the baby fat hugging the tiny ballerina in the woman’s shadow.
Back then it was okay to stare even if she was only 5. Back then he could get away with it, but as he aged, his attraction stayed, and now he'd never have the tiny ballerina.
My vacation should be work free, but I find myself plagued with thoughts of this comic that whenever I can find some free time between swimming and relaxing, I'm drawing or writing. Good news is, I know the five scenes that will be displayed in the first chapter. The one above is the first.
We’ll open with Sans and Papyrus waiting in a dance studio as their father argues with a mysterious someone in her office. As they wait, the two boys perv on the practicing ballerinas, and Papyrus is made aware of his blooming paraphilia. This scene will be a flashback, and the above is just a quick rendition of what it would consist of. Of course, there will be several panels, I'm thinking perhaps three pages for this particular scene, and we'll get more inside Papyrus’ head through silent visuals.
I may take a break from posting tomorrow. The last thing I want is for this project to feel like a chore since, knowing me, I’ll get overwhelmed and shut down. That said, I do want to thank you (yes, you) for reading these posts and/or liking, reposting, and following. I’m still surprised even one other person is interested in this.
Post #3 - Fish Sticks
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I have landed! Its only been a long, stressful, and expensive as fuck journey, but I’m finally in the tropics. I have to say that I've never seen water so clear and blue in my life. Its definitely making me want to throw a swimsuit on, and take a dip in the ocean, as if I don't have a fear of getting swept out to sea.
Speaking of water, I was inspired to draw Undyne today. I know we are all aware of her appearance in game, and you might be thinking she's too dainty to be Undyne. You're right. I wanted her design to lean more into her siren side—a beautiful temptress luring sailors to their deaths. Only she's a lesbian, only she's obsessed with Papyrus for some reason.
We shall blame her overbearing mother for that.
In Fawn, Undyne won't be a temptress beyond her appearance. I intend to keep her personality the same except when she's alone with Papy. Just like in Lugubriosity, I want to make it clear that this relationship is abusive. Let's hope that this go around she'll put her foot down and regrow that backbone, but then again, any person who's willing to help a predator abuse children doesn't deserve mercy.
Post #2 - So Many Skeletons
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I know I just posted last night, but instead of finishing up packing for my flight, I decided to make a few quick sketches of Sans. Not just one Sans, as you can see, but two! This leaves me with the question of whether or not I should stick with Underfell or just the OG Underground as a starting point.
Decisions, decisions.
I shall now discuss some of my headcanons for this character (yay)! I personally imagine Red as more animalistic compared to his counterpart. He’s bigger, cruder, and an addict—at least in this story. He’s exactly what would happen if things went extra sour Underground and Sans was nothing but a violent, depressed, pervert.
In Fawn he will remain as his degenerate, unlikable, self. I intend to make his motives a bit more consistent, though. Of course, I’m super open to suggestions and ideas, especially this early into the project.
I wanted to design the Sans’ anatomy in a similar fashion while still adding Red’s more unique characteristics. Comic is like bland bread when standing in the shadow of Red. I’m also leaning more on realism with the artwork, so we get pretty human looking skulls―well, sort of. That also reminds me that, seeing as the opening comic will only be the first chapter of the fanfic, I can’t say for sure if we’ll ever get visuals of Red with his pants down, so no comparing that between the two.
I guess no skeleton dicks...
..for now.