I Wish I Wasnt Like This,, My Trauma Is Unfortunatly A Part Of Me I Dont Think Will Ever Leave Me..

how could i not think highly of you? to my knowledge you have never done anything with intentions to hurt me -⛓

maybe i haven’t, but you have to understand. i am not a good person. at least, i don’t think i am.

glad you think you're adjusted. was convinced for a second you were too fuckin' starstruck half the time to properly man the tulpar's crew.

pleased to be your co-pilot. "friend" sounds kinda technical at this point in time. surprised you think of us that way.

– ✘

what do you mean “think” i’m adjusted? i am adjusted.

and you are my friend, jimmy. we’ve been friends for so long..what else would we be? what do you consider us? simply colleagues? that would mean i am above you, wouldn’t it? i know you don’t want anyone thinking that..

i’m just not important to you , i guess . i’ll never mean anything to you .

its not that i wanted to stop talking to you, i was just didnt want to overstay my welcome if you have things to do./gen how far away is 9:30? its 8h away my time hehe -⛓

well, at time of writing this, it’s 9:07. i’ve decided to start redoing my tagging system, so that means i’m already on tumblr. i can always spare a few minutes to talk.

the swirl of reddish pink down the drain makes me reminisce on my better days.

it was so much easier when we all wore jumpsuits on the tulpar.

i’m going to burn in hell. and i’ll take nothing but the sweet memories of you with me.

i am genuinely so over myself and how i act and what i do. it makes me sick

nsfw.

i’m home all alone today. not a soul besides me in this house. alone, with my selection of toys.

damn shame you aren’t here.

this is a shitpost.

I mean what else would i think about? All i’ve been doing recently is stalking your page and sending asks. You’re fun to talk to, it’s fun to see how you interact with me and the other anons you talk to on here

-🌀

well, it’s flattering that i’m taking up so much of your time.

i’m glad you consider me fun. not many people would.

as for how i interact with everyone, i try to be interesting.

Everyone can, but does that mean everyone should? Do I really deserve to know what that feels like? I so desperately want to be loved and cared for, but Im a spineless burden. Spineless burdens dont get to be loved.. Especially not ones so damaged that they arent trusted to be able to keep them selves safe..

-⛓

now, don’t talk like that.

you are not a spineless burden. and you are worthy of love.

i’m sensing that you’ve gone through it. and that’s okay. you will heal. i promise.

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how fun !!