Doesn't Matter How Much Effort I Put In, Right? It's Hard To Love Me.

infatuation runs through my veins, seeps from my pores, coats my skin and nails. and even if you aren’t the least bit as infatuated with me, as i am with you, well…isn’t that part of the fun?

The anons you get are really strange and questionable I Think

They're all strangely parasocial and kinda laying on you until you fix their problems with a couple responses

Hope you're feeling okay

-💫

hello! perhaps, just a little. i’m a people pleaser to my core, so i didn’t notice if anyone was laying on me.

i do feel alright! thank you.

i wonder where the “x” anon is…

a scalding hot shower, the warmth pelting my raw skin, sounds appropriate for not being able to handle an entire hour.

Its ok to make me cry.. Im just not used to feeling special like this... but the more i talk to you the worse my feeling get.. -⛓

would you rather stop talking?

i’m still so intrigued to know exactly who you are.

but you are special. everyone is, in their own way. every single person is special and worthy of love.

I hope you forgive me for ruining everything

glad you think you're adjusted. was convinced for a second you were too fuckin' starstruck half the time to properly man the tulpar's crew.

pleased to be your co-pilot. "friend" sounds kinda technical at this point in time. surprised you think of us that way.

– ✘

what do you mean “think” i’m adjusted? i am adjusted.

and you are my friend, jimmy. we’ve been friends for so long..what else would we be? what do you consider us? simply colleagues? that would mean i am above you, wouldn’t it? i know you don’t want anyone thinking that..

You're too sweet! We usually keep up our "who gives a damn" attitude, but — we are surrounded by some people who think it's odd. You'll never find us talking about how there can't be other fictives, but they're simply not.. us! My own gripes, though, I'm sure you understand!

I hope you have a fantastic day, Captain.

— 🩹

right on the money, sweetheart.

a fictive can be connected to their sources, but two fictives, from two different systems, with the same source connection are NOT the same.

i wish for you to have a wonderful day too, anon! remember that my inbox and my dms are always free :)

you act like i don't know these things about you, grant. as for my mood shift, maybe i lighten up seeing you try to defend yourself.

what's got you in a mood?

– ✘

i’m in no such mood.

and i apologize for assuming. that was quite silly of me, considering how long we’ve been friends!

pick your poison (version of me):

— fuzzy-brained, whorish puppy

— self-hating, disgusting mutt

— your loyal, possessive dog.