Infatuation Runs Through My Veins, Seeps From My Pores, Coats My Skin And Nails. And Even If You Aren’t

i love making you feel special, its how you make me feel! you have a tag on my blog now not that you are aware of interacting with me off anon hehehe -⛓

i’m still so unsure on who exactly you are.

i have my own tag? how interesting.

in what universe are we "equal?" are you striving to be oblivious? i'm not terrified of shit.

yeah, right as always . you're warmer than i remember.

– ✘

in every universe, of course! i’m as equal with you as i am with everyone else!

oblivious? what ever do you mean?

i’m just not important to you , i guess . i’ll never mean anything to you .

You are definitely odd, but in a good way. I like you. but yeah i’m definitely not gonna go and think about that answer for the next few weeks /lh

-🌀

think about it how?

do tell, anon, i’m curious.

are you, as you said, “a little” possessive over me? does it go beyond that?

now you’ve got me curious.

good god, how terrible of a person must i be?

how twisted, how sick, how depraved and pathetic must i be to be chasing, begging, dare i say even lusting after someone who’s entire line of communication, who’s entire relationship, stems from something specifically platonic.

he’s right. as unfortunate as it may be, he’s right. i’m nothing, nothing if not a loyal mutt. i bite any other hand that dares feed me, save for my master. the kind of mutt who you pick off the street, so loyal that you could push it down the stairs and it would simply trot back up and sit in front of you, protective and possessive.

it’s almost amusing, this illusion of choice i had. you’ve always been a part of my life. we’ve been friends forever. it would be impossible, or near impossible, to have not taken you up on your offer.

where is the line drawn, between my source memories/relations and yours.

what i wouldn’t give for you to feel the same deep-rooted infatuation, the same fuzzy, cloudy feelings, the same soft, gentle warmth.

i am never going to be good enough.

you’re going to leave like everyone else.

whether it be because you got bored, or because i upset you, or because you realize i’m just not worth it,

you’re going to leave.

and i’m not ready for you to go just yet…

glad you think you're adjusted. was convinced for a second you were too fuckin' starstruck half the time to properly man the tulpar's crew.

pleased to be your co-pilot. "friend" sounds kinda technical at this point in time. surprised you think of us that way.

– ✘

what do you mean “think” i’m adjusted? i am adjusted.

and you are my friend, jimmy. we’ve been friends for so long..what else would we be? what do you consider us? simply colleagues? that would mean i am above you, wouldn’t it? i know you don’t want anyone thinking that..

「★」 TO THE MOON, AND NEVER BACK . . .

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I'm always fucking up everything, no matter who I talk to and no matter what I do. I'm sick of this.. Can someone please just bash my head already?

maybe that idea is right, only one way to find out/lh -⛓

using my own words against me, now, are we?

for someone who was so scared, your confidence sure did build up fast.