I Am Never Going To Be Good Enough.
i am never going to be good enough.
you’re going to leave like everyone else.
whether it be because you got bored, or because i upset you, or because you realize i’m just not worth it,
you’re going to leave.
and i’m not ready for you to go just yet…
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no it definitely goes beyond a little. ur mines now dude, no takesies backsies
-🌀
what an odd thing to say. considering i don’t even know who you are, it feels like one of those shitty stalker romances daisuke lent me.
TW.
force me to tell you my fears.
i prefer to check up on people. it makes me feel good when everyone else feels good!
i’m scared that if i end it all, no one will notice. and everyone who does notice will simply move on.
i like when people remember the small things about me! it makes me feel special.
no one knows what my favorite color is.
i like to think that everybody is a friend!
i get so, so deeply fearful when i’m unliked.
filthy, gross, disgusting mutt. posting on tumblr as if they’ll see, praying they’ll tell you what to do? pathetic. and stupid, if you think about it.
you are not a good dog.
ive slowly been making less and less of an effort to hide things i think would give me away ^^' i have faith you will figure it out before i have the confidence to reveal myself hehehe -⛓
i have only the inkling of an idea.
i’m a sick, sick man, aren’t i.
sick for wanting the duality of life itself, sick for wanting you. sick for wanting you at your worst, the screaming and manipulation and threat. sick for wanting you at your best, even if your best is feral and violent and obsessive.
i will bow before your alter, for forever, if it means i get to be near you for forever.
i want him at the red crescent-moon-shaped indents that bubble up blood as i beg and plead and cry, and i want him at the soft, soothing, big brown eyes as we both gently whisper murmurings of forgiveness.
i am but a sick man.
I wish I wasnt like this,, my trauma is unfortunatly a part of me I dont think will ever leave me..
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you have to grow and live with the trauma. and not let it overcome you. you have to make it a part of you, and learn and develop.
everyone wishes they weren’t the way they are.
im sorry,, i didnt mean to make you uncomfortable... im still scared to reveal myself so i might wait before i message you. hype myself up or something.. if you think you know you can message me i think..
i now realise i was spiralling, and you shouldnt have to deal with that. im going to go ground myself or something, maybe nap.. hope your day goes well and you look after yourself.
-⛓
you look after yourself as well. you haven’t made me uncomfortable. you can take all the time you need.
I just want to be soft
Why am I so angry, so harsh, so violent, so destroying.
It’s unfair
how could i not think highly of you? to my knowledge you have never done anything with intentions to hurt me -⛓
maybe i haven’t, but you have to understand. i am not a good person. at least, i don’t think i am.
