please, don’t bother reading. it’s just another tw’d vent post. what’s the point.
god, i’m useless.
what kind of captain thinks like this? what kind of captain puts himself first? i’m pathetic.
i just want to be good for someone. i just want to be someone’s first choice, their favorite.
i don’t want to be a leftover. i don’t want to be left behind.
i don’t want to be alone again.
i can’t be alone again.
my thighs hurt so much. my head and fingers and toes are throbbing, probably from blood loss. i can’t keep doing this to myself.
i can’t keep running from my problems.
the sleeves of my hoodie are tear-stained. i’m shaking like a leaf. i’m a grown man, dammit. it has been 2 minutes. and yet…
Hi again captain! how’s your day been? I thought about saying something sooner but i figured you’d want a little time between me and your other anons. I’ve been thinking about you just about all night and this morning, can’t seem to get you outta my head :3
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hello, anon.
it’s been quite busy. i’m working on redoing this account, fixing up my spotify, etc etc. lots of digital organization.
i don’t mind the inbox spam, i almost prefer it! it’s nice to talk to people.
all night and this morning? that’s impressive, anon. i must be taking up a lot of space in your mind, hm?
breakfast? what’s that?
( this is a joke, i had two cookies and a dr pepper for breakfast. )
this is turning into a vent blog, and i hate it. i’m supposed to stay happy, and blissful, and the one people can depend on.
i’m a sorry excuse for a captain.
Hi :3
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hello!
I'm always fucking up everything, no matter who I talk to and no matter what I do. I'm sick of this.. Can someone please just bash my head already?
i can handle being treated like shit over and over again, but i can not handle you leaving me
i’m so deeply curious about this anon…
small world, huh, captain? 'm sure you could connect the dots. use that pretty head of yers.
...looks like you've picked up after yourself these days. wonder if you're still as easy as you used to be.
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easy? what ever do you mean? “picked up after myself”? connect the dots?
oh, now i’m more curious then ever.