Feeling Unwanted Ruins My Whole Fucking Day

If you saw how much you might be a little more concerned than flattered, but i can’t complain.

And yay! I love it when my obsessions acknowledge me tehe

-🌀

who said i wouldn’t be even more flattered?

Well, on this blog you only seem to have eyes for fictives of one person, and Im not a version of him.. - ⛓

that doesn’t exactly matter to me, you see.

this blog is primarily centered around my source memories. just because i “only have eyes for one person”, doesn’t mean anything.

i will say, now you’ve got me curious.

I wish I wasnt like this,, my trauma is unfortunatly a part of me I dont think will ever leave me..

-⛓

you have to grow and live with the trauma. and not let it overcome you. you have to make it a part of you, and learn and develop.

everyone wishes they weren’t the way they are.

Hehheh, I think its ok. But if you arent careful this sick, broken woman might get the idea that she can relearn how to be loved../ch -⛓

anyone, and everyone, can learn to be loved.

it sucks so much to be so desperate to feel loved, yet so incapable of beliving i deserve it...

the feelings i have arent anything new,, ive just been in denial for a while.. not the trauma feelings, the other ones..

-⛓

i understand.

i hope all goes well, but i feel uncomfortable on your behalf to continue talking about this publicly. this is dangerously information to give to the public.

however. we can continue talking, if you’d like.

i wish i could have a life with you. but i am frail and dying. im slowly killing myself. youre the only reason i get out of bed anymore, if not for you, i would just curl up and die.

I hope you forgive me for ruining everything

Is it in my rights to be a little possessive over you even though you technically don’t know who i am? Or is that crazy of me? Be so super honest pretty please

-🌀

hm…depends.

do i not know who you are at all? do i not know who you are, but i know the system/the body/another headmate of yours? do i not know you, but know of you?

i’m sure it’s well within your rights. craziness aside.

filthy, gross, disgusting mutt. posting on tumblr as if they’ll see, praying they’ll tell you what to do? pathetic. and stupid, if you think about it.

you are not a good dog.

in all honesty my preference leans towards not getting hurt, but that doesnt mean much to me as long as i get to have you, be yours in whatever way you desire. as far as i am aware most people that interact with blogs like this are just parasocial and obsessive but i want so much more then that.. -⛓

want to be more that parasocial and obsessive? i’m afraid i can’t give that to you without knowing your identity, anon.

in “whatever way i desire”? you sound like you’re truly in the throughs of obsession, anon. it’s enough to make a guy hot around the collar.