Am I A Recurring Thought To Anyone

he may be this..this manipulative, god-status-having figure. but i am nothing if not a willing devotee, offering up my heart, body, mind and soul.

Everyone can, but does that mean everyone should? Do I really deserve to know what that feels like? I so desperately want to be loved and cared for, but Im a spineless burden. Spineless burdens dont get to be loved.. Especially not ones so damaged that they arent trusted to be able to keep them selves safe..

-⛓

now, don’t talk like that.

you are not a spineless burden. and you are worthy of love.

i’m sensing that you’ve gone through it. and that’s okay. you will heal. i promise.

Of course i can be patient, I haven’t told you who I am yet have I? I hope your movie is good :3

-🌀

it was a good movie, i enjoyed it!

now, as for patience. thank for being such.

how has your day been, anon?

infatuation runs through my veins, seeps from my pores, coats my skin and nails. and even if you aren’t the least bit as infatuated with me, as i am with you, well…isn’t that part of the fun?

nsfw.

make me wear one of those pretty, girly underwear pairs, and the plug. make me walk around the house, doing my chores, every movement jostling me from the inside, soaking through the pretty lace…

If I could be anything I wanted to, I’d be dead.

not as sweet as you. ^^

did you know someone once told me if they werent the one to hurt me you would do it. im ashamed of the fact i blushed, i just hope i hid it from that person well enough. -⛓

oh, that’s quite interesting.

are you saying you want me to hurt you, anon?

and here i thought you were more of the innocent, quiet type.

i’m just not important to you , i guess . i’ll never mean anything to you .

i’m needy. i’m disgusting. i’m useless.

i cry when you leave me alone for too long.

i cry when you praise me, because i don’t deserve it.

i cry when you degrade me, because i feel useless.

i’m such a stupid fucking mutt.

i can handle being treated like shit over and over again, but i can not handle you leaving me