I Had A Nightmare (i Mean I Think I Was Daydreaming Or Phasing Out Or Idk) So I Was On My Way To The

some people are so tall and beautiful and here I sit, 5′4 and resembling a shrunken mountain troll

might have gotten drunk and drawn my crush’s eye because tbh it’s one of his best features

and somehow my drunk ass managed to post it in my story and write that i have a crush on him and luckily i only used a song he likes to let him know it’s him i was talking about

now he’s either so dumb he didn’t realize (which he definitely isn’t) or he’s read all of it as usual and basically doesn’t give a fuck (which is actually good because it means it’s not a big deal, right??)

well at least he hasn’t blocked me (yet huh)

all my characters must be dead by now

but this kind of support feels good 🥺✨

I wish all writers who haven’t been able to write in a long time bc of depression a very I love u and I promise u will write again

he’s taking care of me like no one ever did and i have no idea where this is going but i sure hope he does appreciate it as much as i do

things are doing ok but my heart feels heavy and i’m holding back tears but i have no idea why

one of my classmates figured out what i did yesterday and she texted me this morning to know how i was doing and she spent the day giving me supportive looks, not pitiful ones and i'm truly grateful

spent the whole day thinking about him and how i'd text him and i thought i'd do it at like 2 or 3am since i usually get very emotional

but i don't wanna be too much

i don't think waking up to a 'i wish i could be with you rn' could be anything but stressful given the situation

i'm too much

my english teacher just came up to my desk during the break to read the text i had written down and it starts with 'when my time comes..' and he just looked at me like 'wtf are you ok??'

i'm sorry sir i didn't mean to make you worried

xjdindjsisj the cute guy from the party texted me again and said i was allowed to draw him aaaaaaah

my life’s literally falling apart

i’m giving up on everything and everyone, i’m isolating myself and barely answering the few dms i get, i spend my time avoiding my ‘friends’, my crush still ignores me in the hallways, my coping mechanisms stopped working and my autodestructive behaviors are back

the only kind thing i received in days is a text from my crush cheering me up

idk how to describe the life i’m ‘living’ but i definitely didn’t sign up for this