alloyin180p

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sometimes the only way to chase away the pain is cracking open an ice cold coke and turning up the 2012 pop music

there's nothing quite like a girl's relationship with control, power, and autonomy

i have a love-hate relationship with pathetic men. because on one hand, it's very entertaining to watch them and our relationship is not unlike a queen watching her jester suffer for her own enjoyment. on the other hand, I don't like men.

sometimes love is about letting go. but this isn't love, this is a disease that I can't get out my head.

You know the worst thing about having divorced parents? I can’t put them in a group chat. Like, I send them the SAME THING but oh not in the same chat nooo that’s too weird

my mom for some reason thinks i need to be on some sort of suicide watch rn and it's the most annoying thing ever

tfw you're not sure if you're excited for Christmas anymore

grwm to email all of the admissions people at my colleges and ask them for money because my parents are divorced now!

holy shit and when i thought my year couldn't get any worse

the opps can never know how much I fundamentally fuck with any kind of flavored milk

nothing like being sick during one of the most crucial weeks of your year :P

Thinking about vampiric lesbianism

i think i was 7 when i decided my emotions weren't real

wow I love October so much I love Halloween and spooky month so much I love it I love it so much that things are getting bad again!! Everything is getting worse!! I might be falling apart!!

childhood friends are like open wounds

a big cheers to everyone who has been showing up for themselves even though obstacles in life were trying to hold you down, showing up in moments where you were contemplating if anything was even worth it anymore, showing up on the verge of a mental breakdown without anyone knowing just how close you are to loosing your marbles, showing up tired, showing up sad, showing up feeling not that well physically…i am so proud of you. discipline can be very hard but you made it anyway, and even if you are not there yet but you are trying i believe in you and i hope you do too.

sitting here. unkissed. when will it end

it actually took me BLOOD SWEAT AND TEARS to get to this friday 🥰

not straight but i would go to bed with that Angel Dust demon guy anytime he wants

I'm so done with people thinking I'm stupid enough to not notice what's going on "behind my back" because I see it. I promise. So either fucking tell me what your problem with me is or get out of my life until you've resolved it on your own

i can't believe she can touch me and feel nothing at all

Have you ever been shitting and bleeding and throwing up at the same time? Because I have

omg the weather is getting colder would be such a shame if a girl wanted to hold hands to keep them warm haha imagine that

last night i dreamed of you and we weren't even kissing or talking or anything, i was just caressing your waist as i held you. you were cold but i was warm. your skin was so soft and you were like you always are, distant but pleased. i've never been that peaceful before, and i never will be.

i'm so fucking done with him. don't get all possessive and shit, i'm allowed to have other friends and i will actually start excluding you if you have to point it out every single time