DEAN STIMMING?????

what i like about zettai bl is that the main character, seen by the eyes of other people who are Not Hatano and... sometimes... Not Toujou, he really fucking is a mob character. No face sometimes entirely, obscured or cut out of sight. His words just a help for others to develop, and seen as a flighty fucking bitch by Ayato because big bro is so much inside his own mind he does whatever he wants forgetting his arounds

He is fighting the world with no sword and shield but deflectiveness and acting autistic

Listen! Much as I do have a lot of strong negative feelings about the way Sam tends to behave under pressure, and the way he is behaving thus far in season eight, I think that the spn writers have done something incredibly real and true in the way Dean and Sam’s characters have been shaped as the older and younger children of an abusive parent.

Dean gets drunk, fucks up, gets mad, hurts people, but he doesn’t act out in the same way Sam does, because he’s never really had the safety of knowing he has someone to act out to.

Sam always has this baseline sense that he can be a massive dick if he wants. He can complain, he can say it’s just too hard and he doesn’t wanna, he can throw all his toys out of the pram and still basically know that someone who loves him will pick them back up again. That person, obviously, is Dean - most of the time in the story Dean functions as Sam’s father, not his older brother. Apart from the year that passes between seasons 7 and 8, he’s always been there to cushion Sam from life, to tell Sam he’s special, to get punched in the face (metaphorically and literally) so Sam isn’t hurt.

Dean, though, is always on the front lines and emotionally alone. There were good people in his life growing up - Bobby, Ellen - and I think he gets most of his very strong and mostly positive morality from them - but he’s missed out on the knowledge that there’s one constant presence for whom he comes first. And because he missed that, he will rip himself apart to take care of everyone he meets but he doesn’t believe for a second that he’s worthy of care himself. That’s why the moment in season 4 when Cas asks why he doesn’t think he’s worthy of being saved hits so hard, and why Dean is so fascinated by Cas from jump. He’s the one person who’s ever turned to Dean and said directly that he is important.

But of course Cas just saying it isn’t enough to flip a lifetime of learned behavior. Dean cannot even for a second allow himself to be the level of self-centred that Sam is on a regular basis. If Dean hit a dog he might not take it to the vet (because he baseline does not trust society) but he’d just quietly assume that he has a dog now, even if he doesn’t want one. Whereas Sam allows himself to yell and cry and say he doesn’t WANT a dog, actually!!

So maybe I don’t like Sam a huge amount, or condone the way he’s behaving, but at a deep level I think he works and makes sense as a human being. Yes, this is how he’d function if he was real!

Both Winchesters are facing intolerable shit all the time, but only one of them is emotionally able to articulate that, because only one of them has ever been told that he’s allowed to want more than intolerable shit every day for ever. Everyone should feel able to behave badly the way Sam does, and the central tragedy of the show is that Dean doesn’t ever feel safe enough to be a rotten little butthead once in a while.

Tips to Write Best Friends- Authoring advice 💕

There are many types of best friends. Some besties are complete opposites, others would have hated each other’s guts without their experiences together. Some are childhood buddies, and some met much later in life. But each one has similarities and are important.

For me, writing the relationship between two characters is the best part of writing, but for others… it may be difficult.So here are some tips!

Good Moments

Each friendship should have a few good moments in the book. This helps show why their friends and how their relationship works, also provides some clarity on their personalities.

The moments could be bantering between one another. Perhaps teasing, or helping the other cope. It could be anything that isn’t negative. They could be doing an activity together, even if it’s silent. They could be having a meaningful conversation; this is useful for explaining exposition to readers as well 😉. 

But be careful. You can’t just be sprouting meaningful conversations out of nowhere.It’s best to give hints at their relationship in the first or second chapter you meet them. Build the base of their bond.

The good moments should be consistent with their personalities or situation. Character A maybe should not be teasing their bestie a chapter after their dad died. 

Arguments

Disagreements between friends are inevitable. Its bound to happen, therefor conflicts are needed in your story. Your characters are people, and have their own opinions. And those opinions are not identical to their companion’s.

But, unless there’s a good reason and its believable, they should always make up. You chose how to do this, their your characters.

Reading Each Other's Mind

I do not mean literally. And it may not be constant, but best friends (especially if they knew each other for years) should be able to predict each other’s emotions, actions (some if not most of them), and reactions. These buddies should know when not to cross the line, (of course people always make mistakes so take that into account.).

Maybe the besties know each other so well they can synchronize. I am thinking of a team, fighting on the battlefield, fortelling eachothers moves and working together. This can also work for sports teams, charades, and attempting to not to die.

Relationship Development

This does not go for everyone. Some people and their relationships don’t change. But growth never hurts, and can in fact help your story to have some development. 

Example: say if character A realizes she does not appreciate character B, in some form. This changes their relationship because now character A listens to character B’s thoughts.

People and their bonds change. They grow and evolve, so it’s realistic to have growth to you story.

This is all I got! Thank you for reading, and have a FANTASTIC DAY! I’m posting soon!

just saw someone say that after toa the other gods surely lost all respect for apollo and that he'll be seen as a joke

I,, strongly disagree

I don't think you guys grasp how truly impressive apollo showed himself to be in those trials

he was meant to be fully mortal, fully. It was a blatant assassination attempt

like, zeus put his all in making apollo as mortal as he could possibly be and the result was a blatant not at all

I don't understand how you can mock apollo for being weak in toa, he was meant to have no power at all, the fact he even does is a testament to his sheer inherent divinity

he had his power and memory stolen and was thrown in a situation meant to counter Specifically Him. at full power

it was unironically an Impossible task

and the fucker did it

IN SIX MONTHS!!?!

I don't think anyone had realized he was willingly crippling himself socially until he effortlessly gained the loyalty and love of everyone he met the moment he stopped holding himself back, because he was plenty liked before, he was actively trying to make himself distasteful and he was still more popular than any of them. What. A. Doozy.

Apollo was put in a situation where he had to show how much control zeus had over him when things got real and he answered that with willing himself back to divinity and sheepishly saying "none at all, really"

That cursed cat Alastor thing going around is too good, it has me posting messy meme pseudoWIPs like I’m not a chronic perfectionist

Anyway, I’m desperate to know if cursed cat Alastor still owns Husk’s soul and if so, how he holds his cane? A close second was gonna be the microphone dangling from around his neck like a cowbell, but readable silhouettes won out

Sup any angsty Apollo hc you have? I’m hungry and desperate for yummy angst to gobble up and cry myself to sleep :]

Okay, this took a little while because life, college, and July fourth happened lmao

So. I like to think about just when the purposeful emotional/psychological abuse started and when the physical abuse started between Zeus and Apollo so...TW for abuse talk.

Because, well, when Apollo was young there isn't really a need for Zeus to crack open the bolt - however, we also know from canon that Apollo was subjected to the bolt in his younger years.

Now. To the headcanons!!!!!

During the first thousand or so years of Apollo's life, Zeus was an actual good dad to him (especially compared to Ares). He spoiled both twins excessively because sweet! A couple of kids who aren't failures! Look at them!!! They're already so good with a bow!!! They're so talented!!!

In the Discord, it was mentioned that in Ancient Greece fathers usually took charge of their sons while the mother taught the daughters, so if we apply that to Apollo's life, I think we can assume that maybe, perhaps, there was some psychological abuse going on, but nothing hardcore - probably along the lines of "make me proud or earn my eternal disappointment" *points at Ares*.

The first time Zeus has to actively punish Apollo was because Gaea ordered it - Apollo killed her son Python, and Zeus (being the guy he is) would cave to her wishes. I actually have a fic in store for this convo so here's what I'm thinking:

Zeus would, of course, instantly point the blame at Gaea and deny he had any choice in the matter (even though he has gone against her wishes before...eyes the Titans in Tartarus).

Apollo, who's only paternal figure so far in his life is Zeus, wouldn't question this and only think about how unfair Gaea is (and to be fair, Python had it coming...).

When Apollo returns and he and Artemis are goofing off on Delos, the events of And By The Sun's Light happens and this, I believe, is when it starts slowly trickling into physical abuse zone.

Think about it. You are Zeus, powerful king of the gods, a new, proud father to a couple of twins that you already favor so highly.

Then one day, they both - by happenstance - gain a new domain at the same time.

Oh shit. You think. That's strange. But you shrug and hand them off to Helios and Selene, two of the most powerful Titans on Olympus.

Of course, you still keep an eye on them. You're not stupid, and get biweekly reports from their mentors on their progress - and the unease starts to trickle in.

It increases, in particular, when Apollo starts to amass other domains alongside his music, poetry, prophecy, healing, youth and light.

Truth, knowledge, harmony, ect. are all absorbed into his power arsenal and you, the king of the gods, are now sweating.

This was not suppose to happen, so now, I believe, is when Zeus started to use the "light" zaps (as stated in-series) from his bolt to keep Apollo in line. He doesn't want him to get any ideas after all.

Unfortunately for Zeus, that isn't enough to deter Apollo.

(Sidenote: I also think Zeus didn't want Helios to take "his" place - after all, abusers don't want a positive version of themselves in their victim's lives)

Enter stage left: The Olympian Rebellion.

Ohohoh...

"shit I need to ramp it up" thinks Zeus as he stares at the faces of his wife, brother, and his favorite children.

And ramp it up he does. Of course, Apollo's first stint as a mortal happens here, and man. is it bad. Troy's king is the perfect tool and metaphor for Zeus's own rule to give Apollo (and Poseidon) a taste of what else may happen if he (they) continued to defy him.

It sucks, of course. Apollo's very adamant about it not being a picnic. And for a while, after it's all over, it seems like all's well.

Of course, Zeus doesn't lay off the zaps every now and then, but it's nothing compared to later in Apollo's life.

He even considers Apollo's request to free Prometheus and grants it, because isn't he just such a considerate father?

Really, the first time he had to go gunho on Apollo with the bolt was when he and Heracles got into a fistfight - but really, what kind of king would he be if he hadn't prevented Apollo his sons from tearing Heracles each other apart?

After all, he can't show favoritism now can he?

*insert huge THIS IS SARCASM sign here*

But then...Asclepius happens. This upstart thinks he can meddle with what belongs to the gods? Well, Zeus will teach him a lesson on death - and how permanent it can be!

...he didn't take into account how Apollo would react to his son's death.

Nor the rebelliousness of the action itself.

*Alder rubs her hands together*

alrightly gang. THIS. This is it.

Apollo is turned mortal for a second time, but to Zeus's displeasure, it's actually a pretty good time for him. Admetus is friendly, and the two hit it off rather well - too well, if Apollo's very blatant, embarrassing affection is anything to go by.

Well. This just won't do!

Hmm...Thinks Zeus. What's another punishment that will let the lesson sink in?

He looks down into the Underworld.

Perfect.

So Apollo becomes a god again. He's still pretty sad, but he's feeling better - even moreso when Zeus says he's decided to make Asclepius immortal! He'll be the god of doctors!

Ecstatic, Apollo immediately agrees...and then is forced to watch as Asclepius is locked up and he's forbidden from seeing him.

Not only that, but now...Zeus brings out the eagle eye and the big guns. He alternates between nitpicking Apollo, and praising him.

And he also cranks up the voltage on the bolt, so the lesson lingers.

The Trojan War happens. Zeus simultaneously indulges and denies Apollo's wishes.

And then. *Alder gleefully rubs hands* AND THEN.

ROME HAPPENS.

BUCKLE UP THIS IS WHEN IT GOES DOWN.

Helios fades, and Apollo inherits his power. Think about that. Apollo, an already powerful god inherits the power of a Titan. And not just any Titan, but Helios.

That's a hella lotta power.

...and that's a hella lotta threat in Zeu-oops, sorry, Jupiter's eyes.

(Now Jupiter I think has differences from Zeus, but I haven't really devoted any time to drawing that line between them so stuff may change here. However, Jupiter/Jove had a emphasis on family, so my little spin on that...is right here >:))

Jupiter, like Juno, has the domain of family in Rome. He's seen as the Ultimate Dad TM. And you bet he uses that to manipulate the hell out of Apollo.

"A good son wouldn't do [insert perceived slight here]"

"What kind of example are you setting for your brothers?"

And most of all...

"What would your mother think of your attitude?"

Ow. Talk about a punch to the gut.

So yeah. Rome is when things got BAD. The bolts became a lot more constant. The emotional/psychological abuse was unbearable.

Apollo barely had anybody to go to. His options were limited.

...but the one place he did feel comfortable in was with Commodus.

(hahah, yes, I managed to reel Copollo into this too lmao)

In a classic Apollo move, our favorite god goes from one toxic influence (his father) to another (his boyfriend), really showing how ingrained the normalization of abuse/toxicity in Apollo's life is.

He has no red flag sight. He has no alarm bells.

He could walk right into a situation where the word "abuse" is labeled in CAPS and Red and he'd just go "oh shit, what did I do now?"

And his father is all to happy to "let him know" what he did "wrong".

Thanks for coming to my TEDtalk hoped this was a good ride! :D

some people think in ho didn’t notice gi hun until he won. i agree that maybe he wasn’t Interested in gi hun in a big way until he won (cause everyone dies and he himself said he didn’t think gi hun would win) but im sure he noticed him and watched him for a lot of it cause he became friends with oh il nam and of course in ho had to watch oh il nam very closely for the duration of the games to ensure his safety. i’m sure he noticed and realized it was odd that in this game where everyone is mainly only looking out for themselves, that gi hun befriended this old dying man and cared about him to such an extent even though it put his life at major risk. and that he extended that same care to everyone else when there were barely any players left. i’m sure he was intrigued by how much he cared about others and then of course that feeling must’ve amplified ten fold when he won because not only did he care so much about everyone but he was able to win despite that? in a game designed to bring out the worst in everyone? and if that wasn’t enough, then he wants to come back so he can save everyone from the horrible fate of the games?? after he won all the prize money???? of course in ho is obsessed with him there was no way around it. it was bound to happen, there was absolutely nothing anyone could do to stop it. it was written in the stars.

Why is this so cute???

More random doodles

The last one is very messy, don't mind it, the consistency died like Adam

Hwang Inho x reader HCs

he leaves you for Gihun

Ladybug and Chat Noir hosting a podcast where they're going to interview Adrien Agreste and so Adrien has to enlist Félix to pretend to be him and Félix gets to just. Make fun of Adrien to his face and to a national audience. Chat Noir keeps arguing with Félix’s Adrien about his own opinions so the next day all the news is about how much everyone thinks Chat Noir hates Adrien Agreste