How Do I Explain?

i wore frozen tears

but it hurts

you’re burnt in my skin

like a curse

my flesh will never forgive you

my flesh will never forget

my flesh will never forgive you

my flesh will never forget

I’ve lost myself, nothing is as it seems,

You gave me a life, outside of my dreams.

Whiskey Apologies

Where do I begin?

It all started way back then.

A blonded stare,

A sugar bear,

A blue truck and the wind in your hair.

We gave up that night,

Too many fights,

I did what I thought was right.

What a little life.

And then I drank too much and I didn’t slow down.

I said move on but i didn’t know how.

I said you’re better off without me now.

Give me time you know that I’ll find it,

Give me time you know that I’ll find it,

Give me time you know that I’ll find the words.

So where do I begin?

It all started way back then.

And in the end, I lost a friend.

We are footprints in the sand,

Just footprints in the sand.

I’m all alone,

It’s been so long,

I think of you,

Is it wrong?

i don’t deserve,

A single thing,

So here it is,

My apology.

Call me crazy,

And you can hate me,

But I won’t blame you,

I lost my way.

Give me time you know that I’ll find it,

Give me time you know that I’ll find it,

Give me time you know that I’ll find it,

Give me time you know that I’ll find it.

i can truly see the beauty in everything. even the ugly. even the impossible.

Your heart beats into mine,

Violently,

And unapologetic.

My turbulent mind now still,

Because the look in your eyes could kill,

But only was it your lips,

That could heal me from all of this.

i see your face

memories i can’t erase

life is all about those secret moments,

that nobody would know,

but you

And in the end it's you against you, fighting for yourself.

my heart aches for you

i can’t take it anymore

leave my heart at the door

spilling blood on the floor

just do something you idiot

i'll give it to you later,

I promised i'd do better,

we act like we are strangers, when we aren't together.

should I call now or later?

I'm struggling on paper,

the only thing that changes her mind, is

the weather

so I'll create lightning,

and destroy the things I'm fighting,

I am no longer hiding,

this storm deep inside me.

-b