If Love Is A Game,

I am the dust on your shelf.

I am the passing wind.

I am the raindrops on your window.

Waiting for you to let me in.

I am the eyes of longing.

I am a quiet protector.

I am the memory of forgotten.

A lost time collector.

i remember every night

i held your hand

so you could sleep

and i remember every night

you said to me

you didn’t want to be alive

so i’d never sleep

so that every night

you’d still be here with me

I’ve lost myself, nothing is as it seems,

You gave me a life, outside of my dreams.

watch the sun,

rise,

the sky is a much sweeter poet.

look away,

oh unwieldy femininity,

i am unworthy of your gaze.

may our eyes meet,

reflections in the same star,

the sun watches you,

fall.

candle of the night,

i succumb to your prowess,

extinguish my reality,

oh burning desire,

be gentle with the flame.

i can not forgive what hasn’t happened,

or forget what’s to come,

whether i drown in hazel,

or endure in song,

i’ll still just be watching movies,

leaving it up to the divine.

My misery and my desire,

Are similar in their attire.

I’m really the smartest fool,

Touching a raging fire.

You must take what is yours,

Because yours only stays awhile.

And it’s only never too late,

To love the things you hate.

But then ya’ll gonna mix my words,

Y’all don’t know how to spell,

And what if I get my groove on,

And tell that bitch how I felt,

nah, I can’t catch no feelings,

Cuz that ain’t good for my health,

And when I get to coughing,

I pray I’m up in the clouds.

Whiskey Apologies

Where do I begin?

It all started way back then.

A blonded stare,

A sugar bear,

A blue truck and the wind in your hair.

We gave up that night,

Too many fights,

I did what I thought was right.

What a little life.

And then I drank too much and I didn’t slow down.

I said move on but i didn’t know how.

I said you’re better off without me now.

Give me time you know that I’ll find it,

Give me time you know that I’ll find it,

Give me time you know that I’ll find the words.

So where do I begin?

It all started way back then.

And in the end, I lost a friend.

We are footprints in the sand,

Just footprints in the sand.

I’m all alone,

It’s been so long,

I think of you,

Is it wrong?

i don’t deserve,

A single thing,

So here it is,

My apology.

Call me crazy,

And you can hate me,

But I won’t blame you,

I lost my way.

Give me time you know that I’ll find it,

Give me time you know that I’ll find it,

Give me time you know that I’ll find it,

Give me time you know that I’ll find it.

i’m always running away,

am i even worth knowing?

it’s funny how things change,

and life keeps going.

my heart aches for you

i can’t take it anymore

leave my heart at the door

spilling blood on the floor

my mind is too fast

i can’t keep up

Voiceless voices

Amongst a scattered world