Take One Step At A Time,

fuck off. if you have money to waste on blaze you have money to donate. if you have money to waste and to blaze you have money to donate twice.

Honestly you’re completely right. I really don’t have the money to waste for things like this. I would rather donate to something useful. In my mind I thought that spreading knowledge or awareness would be more beneficial, because if I can change just a few people’s minds, then that itself is going to promote just as much change as would a donation. I would say somewhat even more valuable. Sure if I donate somewhere I can help feed someone or house someone, which I definitely want to do. But if I can shape the minds of the future, then maybe we have a fighting chance at survival in general. And you don’t know me, and I don’t know you. You don’t know what I do everyday to help my community. I’m no president, no spokesman, I’m just a normal human being just as much as you, that wants good things to happen to the people in their life. And if you don’t want that, I’m sorry. Thank you for expressing yourself, I’ll take your words into consideration. Good luck to you.

Home body,

But nobodies home.

How could I exist?

I’m only blood and bone.

I’m way too deep in consciousness,

i get lost in supermarkets.

Who are you to judge,

what’s inside my pockets?

If I gave you the world

You’d question how I’d got it.

If heaven was here,

You’d stomp right on top it.

I try to refrain from writing my bad thoughts, but goddamn sometimes I hate myself. Sometimes I hurt and I don’t know why. Like my heart is collapsing and my blood is desperately trying to run. Like my stomach is squeezing and the air doesn’t want to leave my lungs. It would be so much easier to die. To lay down and never get up again. I feel so weak and heavy but I’m so uncomfortable sitting still. Everything is spinning and god knows I’m sober. I try to scream but I’ve never wanted help. I’m a man and I have to be strong. I’m not allowed to be any other way. I really am alone. Nobody cares enough. Or maybe I care too much.

I wish I was never abandoned.

I wish that the people that said they loved me stuck around.

I wish I had a father growing up.

I wish I was strong enough to fight back when I was a kid.

I wish my friends were actually my friends.

I wish I could cry.

I wish I could talk to the only person that ever showed me love, but she’s gone.

I wish a lot of things, I even wish I could just disappear.

All these wishes yet all I can do is move forward. Fuck wishes, fuck a shooting star, fuck a birthday candle, fuck prayers, fuck a fortune cookie, I don’t believe in any of that shit. I’m no longer wishing.

Now stfu and put on that smile and act strong until you are. I will succeed. I will win. I will survive. I’m so angry that I’m going to beat all the odds just to spite the world. A big fuck you for making me go through this shit. This big bag of shit. And I’m only here to set it on fire. WHATEVER IT TAKES.

stuck in my head i won’t go

to that dark place i know

try to explain my thoughts

lost in translation i’m lost

Remember to treat everyone as a human being. It’s easy to forget that most people can understand you, they just have a difficult time communicating their own thoughts.

Monopoly Jailhouse Blues

I’m not innocent

Well I hope just a lil bit

You can’t get a hold of me

Baby it was heaven sent

Yea I could smell it then

perfume on my laundry

Hey Mrs officer

I’m sorry for all of my crimes

I don’t live that life no more

Maybe once or twice

On the run

It’s been so long

Got an x on my chest

Might wear a vest

Eyes on me all the time

Tell ma I’ll pay the fine

Maybe it’s fine

Give myself a break

Smoking and meditate

Phone, silent mode

Don’t hit my line

If life was just a game

Would you Try a little harder

Would you Try a little harder

Why are you so afraid?

Just Try a little harder

Just Try a little harder

I feel it in my bones

I’m getting old

And i still don’t got a home

I lost myself a long time ago

The open road

Has my soul

And I just can’t stay for long

I paid that price a long time ago

A long time ago,

A long time ago,

I was stripping her bikinis,

In Motel rooms,

Had movie screenings,

Shoulda hear her screaming,

didn’t know I was the villain,

How was I supposed to know

All we wanted was the feeling

And the taste of gold

But that’s not for us to know

It’s not for us to know

how do i explain?

what do i say?

you’re in my thoughts

got a headache

i’m still awake

i cant escape

leave me alone

but don’t stay away

Would you do it all again?

Would you tell me that you love me?

If time was running backwards,

Would you do it all again?

Would you tell me that you love me?

If time was running backwards,

Would you do it all again?

i hate doing drugs

i hate doing drugs

but i love em

but i love em

maybe just one

maybe just one

this feels like summer

this feels like summer

Everything I do

Has me written all over it

I stain the very air

The very moment