Is This Imposter Syndrome?
Is this Imposter Syndrome?
A question for writers (though basically if anyone can answer this, I'd welcome them):
Q: Have you ever put so much energy into completing a project, a project very near and dear to you, get that intoxicating sense of accomplishment when you finish it and then... in the editing process go through a series of conflicting thoughts and emotions?
Stuff like: I've already written 5 other very distinct versions of this story, I'm not happy with this so I might as well do it over again.
Or: Well, the point was to prove I could finish something, and they say the first book you write is always the worst, so why should I spend so much time and effort trying to fix this when I should move onto another completely unrelated project?
BUT: I've been trying to write this story since I was 15 and I started actively working on this version for 6 years and only now have it completed, so I owe it to myself and the story to at least try to fix it! Even though in trying to fix it I feel like I'm only making the story worse!!!
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Leaving Fundamentalism...
...was hard for me. From birth, I was raised in a radically conservative family of Christians. But even at a young age, I didn’t feel connected to the beliefs I was spoon fed in every aspect of my life.
I was made to feel guilty for not having blind faith. I was made to feel like I was a horrible person when doctrine was explained and it still didn’t make sense. I was made to feel shame for faking ‘my beliefs’. All for the sake of obeying my parents and being accepted by the only community I was allowed to be in.
But finally, after years of pressure and self doubt, I’m finally free.
There are still things I’m working on. I still am triggered and feel sick at the thought of entering a church or when I hear Christian music. I’m still trying to push aside the anti lgbtq+ thoughts I get automatically, even though I know the only reason I was against them was because I was told I was supposed to be - and without that harmful religion dictating my thoughts, there’s no reason why I should be against them.
And while I still have a ways to go towards a life where the trauma doesn’t affect me all the time, I can see the progress I’ve made already.
When I hear someone - like my family or random person - talk about Christianity, I now feel the same level of indifference towards it that I feel towards other religions with flawed beliefs/doctrine.
Yes, every now and then I still have that sense of dread that if I don’t believe in Christ that I’m going to suffer in hell for all eternity (such a wholesome thought that stems from a religion that says its based on universal love), but for the most part, now I can remember all those Bible stories and treat them the same as Greek myths. I can respect that someone’s Christian beliefs gives them comfort, but I don’t have to agree with them to be in a relationship with them.
Finally, I’m free to be on the outside and look in with indifference.
Basically a board of facts I’ve found about Autism as I work through my own neurodivergent experience
(Above image was me talking to someone about my Masking all the time... and their brilliant response lol)
10 songs I love (in no particular order)
Tagged by my bestie @a-lighthouse-a-man-a-city
1) Ai no Melody by KOKIA
2) Stay for Awhile by Amy Grant
3) No Culture by Mother Mother
4) Marian the Librarian from The Music Man
5) No Light, No Light by Florence + The Machine
6) I’ll Set You Free by The Bangles
7) Recuérdame by Natalia Lafourcade
8) (If You’re Not in it for Love) I’m Outta Here by Shania Twain
9) Memories by Within Temptation
10) Shoot Him Down! by Alice Francis
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I’m can’t believe this! Why would they want to drop such a good show? And just when we’re were getting such great cameos and mysteries!!!!
Of all the traits I share with my cat, the one I find the most hilarious, because it’s unnervingly close, is the fact that he and I don’t like drinking plain water.
We prefer our water to be flavored.
Yes, he prefers his to be flavored with salmon and other ocean fish while I go for a neon syrup that makes mine taste like a de-fizzed orange cream soda, but that’s merely a minor personal preference between sweet and savory.
I just had a brilliant thought:
Anyone who saw the Derry Girls on GBBO and thought it was awesome...
WE NEED A MARVEL CAST VERSION OF THAT.
Can you just imagine some of those people in the tent?!
Even if we can only get the Brits; I would pay good money to see Tom Holland, Tom Hiddleton, Benedict Cumberbatch, Martin Freeman, Karen Gillan, Letitia Wright, Hayley Atwell, and Paul Bettany trying to make victoria spounges.
One weekend, that’s all I’m asking for.
Back in the day…
…at the dawn of the internet, there were authors that got mad at people for writing fan fiction of their work. To the point where they would send lawyer backed cease and desist notices.
Which to me is such a strange response.
For many reasons, some (but not all) being: they (the author) thought they could control the masses, shouldn’t they be flattered that people like their work so much they want to be part of the stories in some small way, and it’s basically free publicity why would they shut down free publicity?
I have a feeling that it came down to money. Which is still illogical. Because:
Author: How dare you profit from my hard work!
Fanfic writers: But we’re not??? We’re posting it on the internet for FREE
Was tagged by @a-lighthouse-a-man-a-city to do the recreate yourself in this image maker: https://picrew.me/image_maker/197122
So here I am: dark hair and pasty skin = basically a fairy vampire xD
Link to FREE pack! https://www.neonmob.com/redeem/ANAZENART18671
To the late diagnosed ASD community:
How many of you were misdiagnosed the first time?
How many of you felt that your assessor wasn’t taking you seriously?
What sort of tests did they do? What sort of questions did they ask? And did they make sense in relating to ASD, especially in adult women?
What did you do after the assessment when you were told everything seems normal? And that you were just experiencing mild forms of anxiety and showed slight traces of OCD?
What do I do when I've done so much research, heard so many stories from people in the ASD community and related to them so well, used their knowledge and experience to help me get through my daily life a litter easier, only to be told by a professional that I'm not Actually Autistic?
Just random stuff that pops into my head or tends to circulate through my brain.
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