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“Chronic illness warrior!”

Bro we were drafted

I'm coming here from Pinterest where I've been posting these for months, so I thought I should dump them here. That being said I refuse to post them one at a time, there are way too many. Seriously I have an ungodly amount of these. So here's part 1.

crane wives album covers i did for a class last year! hoping to get the other ones done before beyond beyond beyond comes out

Durin be like "Bombastic side-eye" "CRIMINAL OFFENSIVE SIDE-EYE" and honestly good for him Evil Barbie is not to be trusted

do you ever just think about how Elrond and Celebrian likely represent Tolkien's fear of being left alive, alone, without his wife, Edith... and then that very thing comes to pass... and then just start crying.... everyday i think of letter 340 and slowly feel my heart breaking more and more

Late 1st Age Noldor: We've made a king :)

Círdan: You've ruined a perfectly good child is what you did. Look at him. He has anxiety.

Low Opacity Elrond: the trifecta

guys I know the last episode was heartbreaking in so many terms but have you seen this dude

Gaslight, Gatekeep, Girlboss

DURIN IV & ANNATAR THE LORD OF THE RINGS: Rings of Power — 2.03

give elrond a break challenge failed

The tapestries made by the Aubusson manufacture based on the art of JRR Tolkien are currently exhibited at the Collège des Bernardins in Paris until May. @actual-bill-potts and I went there yesterday, they're so beautiful!!

These are all handmade tapestries, each is based on a Tolkien artwork (the Rivendell one has the facsimile on the right for scale).

Under the cut: group ID and bonus details

ID: 7 photos of the tapestries, which are each about 3m high, located in a 13th century monastery. The first is the map of middle earth, the others are illustrations Tolkien made of his books. The bonus photos below are details of the tapestries.

I'm thinking about chronic illness and wondering if others can relate. And I'm thinking this might sound strange to able bodied people, but it's something I wish I had more help with. My brain fog won't let me phrase it well, but I still want to write it down.

i had a long flare there, something mysterious, left me w brain fog and migraines and fatigue for a few weeks. I'm sitting up today clearheaded enough to do some work and I'm struck again by how it's scarier to be recovering than really ill sometimes. Being really ill is horrible but it's simple and straight forward. When you feel better you're hit fully with what you missed out on and how far behind you are and trying to prioritize which part of life to pick back up with the little strength you have. N it could just be a fluke - maybe I'll be back in bed tomorrow - so if I pick something to do that can't be finished and important TODAY, if I can't pick the one single thing that's worth doing this one good day that mightn't come again, I will feel like such a fool! I'm trying to be excited to feel better, and I am excited, but there's something so simple about the acute phase... "I just have to endure" is so simple. "What if I never get better" is a simple fear. When I'm properly sick I can't even torment myself with what I would do if I felt better, because I'm too tired. "oh, I could see my friends, I could work..." but I'm too tired to want that. "If I was well again"... I can't even picture it when I'm really sick, so my life doesn't look so bad because I can't compare it. When your strength comes back, your wants come back beyond the immediate and it's overwhelming. The fears are more complicated. I have the energy to compare again, and it really sinks in how much time I've lost to this. It's like the difference between being a child and being a grown up. I don't miss being a child, I don't want to go back to that ever, but my life felt simpler then and I could kid myself (pun intended) about so many things. It's not nice that recovery is such an anxious grieving time. Especially since I never know how long it will last, I feel like I don't have the time or energy to spare feeling frightened and sorry! I should be grateful to feel better, i should be excited and grab the opportunity. But it is a grieving time and I can't help it.

I think if providers laugh at us while we’re explaining our concerns we should be able to turn them into piñatas for precisely 40.3 seconds

me when my disabilities disable me:

Doctors are like: ughhhhh. You're confusing. Come back if you die

actually no, we're not "dating". we're bound together for infinity. like the stars. so, fuck you, actually.

"there is no platonic explanation for this" when characters hug, care for each other, support them, are worried when they are in danger, smile at each other etc

Some of yall just don't have any good friends and it really shows

hey guys do the allos know that they can have qprs too? like do they know that being alloromantic doesn't mean they can't choose to be in a qpr anyway? because qprs aren't "romance-lite" for aros, they're an entirely separate kind of relationship that anyone can have. you can do this with fictional characters too. you can put characters that aren't aroace or are even canonically dating in qprs with each other just because you think that would be a cool way to play with their dynamic. it's actually very cool and you totally should.

Liking a popular ship in a fandom but not in an specifically romantic way is so difficult because you will almost never find fan content that fits your interpretation of the relationship. No they don't kiss but they are deeply and are irrevocably tied to each other. They can't live without one another. The devotion they have to each other transcends space, time and any traditional relationship labels.

But *sighhhh* I'll read fics where they date I guess...

I really like this, I once explained QPRs as looking at the rules for established relationship types and saying "No, we don't like those," and then building your own relationship, taking pieces you like, leaving what you don't, and even adding your own stuff if you want, to make a new thing that works for you.

i keep seeing misinformation about this, so: queerplatonic relationships do not have a set definition. the name comes from the idea that it's "queering" the platonic relationship, tailoring it to the individual relationships' own desires. it isn't necessarily romance lite, but it also isn't necessarily whatever definition you want to impose on it. the point of queering the platonic relationship is to break away from strict allonormative views on friendship, romance, and sex, not to make a new categorical box to fit in.

the answer to "what is a qpr?" is "whatever you want it to be." sometimes that is romance lite. sometimes it's a deeply committed friendship. sometimes it's friends who have a sexual relationship. sometimes it's based on an entirely different mode of attraction. sometimes it's fluid and impossible to put into words. it's whatever you want it to be. it's queer.

hot take but “it’s perfectly fine to portray aspec characters as having sex/dating bc aspec people still do those things” and “fandom often overwhelmingly portrays aspec characters as having sex/dating with little to no regard for their aspec identity, leaving little room for aspecs who don’t do those things” are two statements that can and should coexist

Character Thoughts - Elwing

I don’t think that Elwing throwing herself into the ocean had anything to do with possessiveness about the Silmaril. For me, it recalls two other scenes in Tolkien’s work.

One is Frodo’s defiance at the Ford of Bruinen: “By Elbereth and Lúthien the Fair, you shall have neither the Ring nor me!” A desperate defiance against evil when you’re at the end of your rope and the end of your strength (and retreat to water, and unexpected rescue).

And the other, even more strongly, is the Fall of Fingolfin. She’s just lost a desperate battle; she sees everything she knows and loves and has built falling into ruin and fire; she can’t stop any of it. But she can fight the people who did this to her, and she can hurt them, even if it kills her. She can’t outright duel Maedhros (he’s been probably the greatest swordsman in Beleriand for ten times longer than she’s been alive; that would quite possibly be a more unequal fight than the Duel of Fingolfin and Morgoth), but she still has a way to hurt him. You don’t get the Silmaril, and you don’t get to kill me. You don’t get to win.

The central thought underlying it is not ‘mine’; it is ‘fuck you’.

It is not about her keeping the Silmaril; it is about the Fëanorians not getting it.

I don’t think she knows just how well she’s succeeding at hurting them - everything in her life tells her the Fëanorians are monsters as bad as or worse than anything from Angband, not beings capable of remorse - but she knows she’s denying them the one thing they want. And Maedhros and Maglor are left knowing that the worst thing they’ve ever done was, as far as their goals are concerned, completely pointless.

She’s not ‘abandoning her children’. She’s already lost her children. She has no way to save them. She has no reason to believe they would be spared, whatever she did. The twins are of no use to the Fëanorians. The Fëanorians have already shown themselves willing to murder children, her brothers, that actually did have value as hostages. If Elwing handed over the Silmaril there’s no reason for her to believe they wouldn’t just kill her and her children for spite.

It can’t be emphasized enough that the Fëanorians are the monsters of Elwing’s life. Angband is a distant name and a threat. The murderers of Elwing’s father, her mother, her brothers, the twice-destroyers of her home, are the Fëanorians. They are her Morgoth.

At least don’t tag her name on it!

You would think with certain revelations during these past few years, people would stop trying to vilify a native queen whose family (including twin brothers) and peoples were mass-murdered thrice over by invaders who steal her twin sons to keep as hostages against the surviving native population…

And yet, here we are. In 2021. Trying to browse Elwing’s tag and get a whole bunch of “shitty suicidal neglectful mom”-takes alongside “the genocidal mass-murdering kidnappers hostage takers that forced her to jump or be killed by them were their ~*REAL*~ parents uwu!”.

No. Elrond and Elros didn’t have any parents because the mass-murdering kidnappers killed their entire family! The closest thing they got were those few years before their real parents (and grandparents, and uncles, and great-grandparents and so on all the way back to Olwë’s people at the First Kinslaying, since Olwë was their great-great-granduncle) were killed by the mass-murderers you claim were better than their victims!

Maglor and Maedhros DID NOT create a found family FFS! Any rapport established between them and the twins were the twins trying desperately to survive being their hostages! It was not ~*uwu*~ sweet and lovely ~*uwu*~ it was likely fucking traumatic and Elrond and Elros were likely unable to deal with that trauma until their kidnappers disappeared and they felt safe again! Read up on Fawn in Fight, Flight, Freeze and Fawn reactions. Or any other related psychology!

Also, if Maglor and Maedhros actually took pity on orphaned elflings and not just valuable hostages, they would have adopted ALL the orphaned elflings; they had just burned a city and slaughtered lots of elves! Surely, unless they only slaughtered elflings, that means that there’s lots of orphans to go around! (This is why I say that the Silm is basically Noldorin propaganda; it’s not pity which moves Maglor, or there would have been a lot more adoptive brothers and sisters of the twins, but saying that it is pity makes Maglor and Maedhros look like better people than they actually are.)

maedhros is a shakespeare protagonist

finrod is a bible protagonist

and fingon is of course a shonen protagonist

no i will not elaborate

Tolkien: Elwe and Olwe had a brother called Elmo

Me: I am a serious adult taking things seriously

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