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I've really been struggling to study because I haven't been doing well mentally. I barely sleep so I can't concentrate and I don't have any motivation to do anything.

I really don't want to fail my exams, so tomorrow I'm going to the library in the morning. I also need structure and routine in my life. I graduated from high school 4 years ago (during the pandemic) and I feel like I haven't had a proper routine since.

I know this is going to be hard because I literally haven't studied at all. I do uni online, they give us study materials and that's it. No lectures. You study on your own, you take an exam and that's it.

So I have to study the whole semester in 2 weeks. I might not pass, but at least I'll feel better knowing I tried.

I'm going to try and study a little before bed, I'm also going to prepare some topics I would like to write about on my blog :)

seeing all the lovely people on my feed, all these hardworking, motivated individuals who are trying to do better, to do their best, really make my heart happy.

just know that I'm really grateful and hope you get wherever you want <3

i love the crochet girlies that make free patterns esp video tutorials i cant wait to make mini moo dengs for my friends

Isn't it odd how much fatter a book gets when you've read it several times? As if something were left between the pages every time you read it. Feelings, thoughts, sounds, smells... and then, when you look at the book again many years later, you find yourself there too.. a slightly younger self, slightly different, as if the book had preserved you like a pressed flower... both strange and familiar.

- Cornelia Funke, The Inkheart

I love my career choices, I really do, but having more than 5 ten page essays in Arial 12 is going to end my mental health, the good thing is that like three are in groups, still with all the work load and everything is quite slow, and more with all the information I need to make a good presentation.

STUDYING. DOESN'T. SUCK. AS. MUCH. AS. FAILING.

Okay, so this week has been intense, in the worst sense, and it's only Tuesday. First of all on Sunday I had to stop working because I fucked up my wrist, I'm a butcher, and cutting/hitting the piece of meat wrong can lead to a sprained or broken wrist, lucky it is just sprained, and today I had to go to class because of some important assignments I had to show my teacher and I got a major panic attack, which ended in me in my towns hospital and some medication that made me drowsy, so I didn't go to class but I got some sleep I actually needed.

Probably the rest of the week is going to be better, but right now it has been like a loony toons episode.

A lot of us have gotten more radicalized with this, but it's honestly terrifying how this tragedy has made so many people turn to the far-right.

Yesterday I had a huge argument with a good friend of mine because of this He's always been a leftist, but he shared a screenshot of a far-right protest and, when I told him it was organized by the far-right, he told me he would support whoever was helping Valencia and that right now it was the right and not the left. Which, alright, fair, they all suck right now, but my brother in Christ let's not forget it was the right that cut funds directed towards first responders, firefighters and EMTs to put them towards killing bulls in the name of tradition. Let's not forget it was the right that tried to shut down the AEMET because it was "useless". It was the right that wouldn't allow help from outside, too scared of having to face the consequences and the thousands - sorry, """hundreds""" of people they've killed with their incompetence and greed. It's the far right that ignored nine, NINE warnings from the AEMET, because they didn't want to lose money, but sent their own workers home early so they could evacuate.

It's the far-right that is refusing help and resources to POC and immigrants, and it's the far right that is spinning the narrative so people shout "Sánchez dimisión" instead of "Mazón asesino".

It's terrifying to see how the far-right benefits from the desperation and pain they caused directly.

THERE WOULDN'T BE MORE THAN 2 THOUSAND DEATHS IF THE FAR RIGHT REGIONAL GOVERNMENT HAD DONE ITS JOB. THERE WOULDN'T BE THOUSANDS UPON THOUSANDS OF MISSING PEOPLE IF THE FAR RIGHT GOVERNMENT HAD ACCEPTED THE OUTSIDE HELP AND ASKED FOR IT.

The ""leftist"" central government can't do anything if the Generalitat doesn't ask for help, because the far right made sure that the leftist central government couldn't do it during the last national crisis - the pandemic.

"Don't make this about politics" but it was a far right politic who cut funds from public services that would've saved lives. "Don't make this about politics" but it was a far right politic who tried to shut down the AEMET. "Don't make this about politics" but it's a far right government that is refusing help, arresting people who are shoplifting basic necessities, and telling volunteers to leave because the fucking King wants to take a stroll through the disaster zones.

"Don't make this about politics" but the far right kills. The far right is the direct responsible of thousands of deaths.

So I need to do a final assignment in any topic I want for my art history class, I decided to do it about the military propaganda in movies (needs to be related to art) like top gun and others, (disclaimer, I haven't watched any one of this films, yet, 'cause I don't enjoy cine about war but military propaganda is super funny, end of disclaimer), and holy shit, this is super wild, like the Americans have a lot of propaganda films? My country, Spain, comes from a military dictatorship but we couldn't talk about the hardships of war and things like that, it was a very taboo topic, now a day's not so much, except with elderly people, but like I had to go to films from Franco's time to find a film that didn't mock them, this doesn't mean we don't have, lately we've been having more, but I don't know, I just find it interesting.

Proof of my work, is in Spanish and not the final title.