5/30 Productivity Day

gentle reminder you can rise up from everything. you can recreate yourself. nothing is permanent. you are not stuck. you have choices. you can think new thoughts. you can learn something new. you can create new habits. all that matters is that you decide today and never look back.

A lot of us have gotten more radicalized with this, but it's honestly terrifying how this tragedy has made so many people turn to the far-right.

Yesterday I had a huge argument with a good friend of mine because of this He's always been a leftist, but he shared a screenshot of a far-right protest and, when I told him it was organized by the far-right, he told me he would support whoever was helping Valencia and that right now it was the right and not the left. Which, alright, fair, they all suck right now, but my brother in Christ let's not forget it was the right that cut funds directed towards first responders, firefighters and EMTs to put them towards killing bulls in the name of tradition. Let's not forget it was the right that tried to shut down the AEMET because it was "useless". It was the right that wouldn't allow help from outside, too scared of having to face the consequences and the thousands - sorry, """hundreds""" of people they've killed with their incompetence and greed. It's the far right that ignored nine, NINE warnings from the AEMET, because they didn't want to lose money, but sent their own workers home early so they could evacuate.

It's the far-right that is refusing help and resources to POC and immigrants, and it's the far right that is spinning the narrative so people shout "Sánchez dimisión" instead of "Mazón asesino".

It's terrifying to see how the far-right benefits from the desperation and pain they caused directly.

THERE WOULDN'T BE MORE THAN 2 THOUSAND DEATHS IF THE FAR RIGHT REGIONAL GOVERNMENT HAD DONE ITS JOB. THERE WOULDN'T BE THOUSANDS UPON THOUSANDS OF MISSING PEOPLE IF THE FAR RIGHT GOVERNMENT HAD ACCEPTED THE OUTSIDE HELP AND ASKED FOR IT.

The ""leftist"" central government can't do anything if the Generalitat doesn't ask for help, because the far right made sure that the leftist central government couldn't do it during the last national crisis - the pandemic.

"Don't make this about politics" but it was a far right politic who cut funds from public services that would've saved lives. "Don't make this about politics" but it was a far right politic who tried to shut down the AEMET. "Don't make this about politics" but it's a far right government that is refusing help, arresting people who are shoplifting basic necessities, and telling volunteers to leave because the fucking King wants to take a stroll through the disaster zones.

"Don't make this about politics" but the far right kills. The far right is the direct responsible of thousands of deaths.

enough of pretty aesthetic notes, i want messy, shitass handwriting, chaotic notes only you can understand

Last night was my company Holiday Party, and we're doing really well, so it was held at the Museum of Fine Arts (Boston)

I was so happy that also included the Styled by Sargent exhibit, of John Singer Sargent paintings and the actual articles of clothing alongside them.

Now, you have probably seen this painting of Lady Macbeth

But have you seen the costume she's wearing??

It's gorgeous, obviously.

But that texture! It's *crochet*

And some knitting

Really simple crochet too; just a chain and single crochet lattice with beads and metallic thread added for this chain mail effect.

Despite John Singer Sargent being an expert painter of fabric (no, really, just look at it), I never knew Lady Macbeth's costume had to be *hand crocheted* for that texture in the painting.

Anyway I'm gonna be making myself some faux-chainmail by crocheting it for the next Renn Faire

The University of Barcelona's Medicine Faculty has temporarily installed a giant heart made by the Catalan artist Jaume Plensa, with the building's columns acting as the ribcage.

The objective of this work of art is to raise awareness about cardiovascular illnesses, which are the leading cause of death worldwide.

The work is titled El cor secret (The Secret Heart). The heart measures 13 metres tall and 10 metres wide, and weighs 150 kg. It's made of synthetic materials and painted by hand. It had previously been shown in Germany in 2014 and was supposed to arrive to Plensa's home city sooner, but it was delayed because of covid. Instead, in 2020, Plensa donated one of his famous head sculptures to this same building, to thank medicine professionals and students for their work during the pandemic.

not to be rude but some of y'all need to look on the bright side sometimes. like, yeah sure the world is fucked and people suck and we all die whatever, sure, but like. go outside.

You can totally do it! Just remember to take breaks when your body ask for them, if not you are going to enter burn out, personal experience. Good luck this year!!

my academic journey (warning: i ranted) -

so ever since i started school till about the end of 8th grade i was always a 90%+/straight A student. the kind of child my classmates & cousins would be compared too. not trying to glamorize comparison btw, i personally think that's really toxic & pressurizing. so yeah, i was a "good" quiet kid. i listened attentively in class and submitted all my homework on time. the only complain teachers had about me was that i was "too quiet" but that wasn't a real issue. i was just shy but talkative with my few friends yano. i spent the entirety of 7th grade & most of 8th grade in online classes so my habits of studying went to shit. still somehow managed 91% in my 8th grade finals. and then 9th began and it all went downhill. teachers kept saying 'next year is ur board exams, u need to study a lot, etc, etc.' so if u're not from india we basically have these major 'board exams' at the end of 10th & 12th grade. but 10th boards don't really matter all that much, teachers just make a big fuss about it. 12th boards matter, but that's also the time we give college entrance exams and that sorta matters more according to most ppl. n yeah, idk what happened but i got overwhelmed. i could no longer just do well in class and study before exams and get good marks. i felt dumb. my grades didn't see a single improvement. i honestly gave up in the middle of it all and got sick of school. and at one point, it became less burn out & more clinging to the familiarity of not doing anything. i became lazy. and i became a hypocrite. i'd always tell myself, this time i'm gonna study, this time i'm gonna score well. well that 'this time' never came. 10th grade got even worse and i scored 73% in my board exams because i barely studied at all. at the same time, my relationship with my parents has constantly been unraveling. and i saw just how much of their 'pride' was dependent on me being the kid they could show off and smile widely when others replied 'wow she's going places'. my father can't hold a single conversation with me now that doesn't go back to me being a disappointment. and now i'm the kid who has to listen to her parents compare her to others. 'be like her, your friend', they say. halfway though 11th rn and i guess what?? still no fucking improvement. but the thing is i know this is the last straw. i can feel it. i got around 64% in my first tests (pa-1) of 11th. haven't gotten mid term results yet but i'm estimating just above 50%. and the thing is it's not that i can't score well. i know my potential all too well. i know i can score such high marks. but the problem is i don't study. if i just studied a couple hours every day, i can easily manage above 80%. with constant improvement i can manage above 90% again. but i don't. and that's ending right this instant. i'm not gonna turn into an academic weapon overnight or smth ik that. but i'm gonna start slowly but surely working hard. i have big dreams, i know i can achieve them if i just put in the effort. plans have been made, all i need to do is execute them. execute my laziness. i'm gonna get better. i'm gonna prove everyone who thinks i'm never gonna do it wrong, and i'm gonna prove myself right. this comeback will be for me, my inner child. the little kid in me deserves to not wind up a washed-out failure.

academic goals! -

pa-2 - 75-80%

11th finals - 80-85%

12th pa-1 - above 90%

uni - iiser (college for pure science research, bs + ms integrated)

I remember this one because it was in the syllabus for the EVAU, which is the exam that you have to take in Spain to enter college, and was one of the last chapters we had to study

as an art historian i usually assume people know more about art history than they usually do so i'm actually very curious

as always u can rb for bigger sample size but this is just curiosity for me :)

So, I'm finishing studying for my final test, in which I need to know the different laws in history that protects the art of each country. Is interesting but intense, since I also need to know the different types of concepts and the history between those movements and why they did it.

hard lesson to learn but it has been important for college: ask professors for extensions BEFORE you desperately need it, rest BEFORE you're exhausted, skip class BEFORE you're too exhausted to go to class, cancel obligations as soon as the vibes are off, etc

there's been five times so far where I was like "Should I ask for this extension/go home early/skip this class?" and each time I've been incredibly thankful I did it and I felt better afterwards.