Yes it is, I´m not going to wake up at 4:30 a.m to be at work at 5:45 am(my house and my work are quite far away) be there like ten/twelve hours, have to be there so early because I need to discharge trucks full of gasoline and clean the gasoline tanks, clean public bathrooms, the staff bathroom, do the money counting, attend clients, and not have anybreaks because i´m the only one at the gas station, for 400 hundred euros a month, like I work only twelve hours a week, but it´s a lot of responsability going from being a butcher, well not specifically, it was the charcutery section, but only doing half of that for six hours a day, and divided in sunday, saturday and when it was a week day with festivities i would work but if i did more hours i would either get the extra hours paid or in vacation days. Like no thanks.
This is the first and last time I'm going to talk about this, so listen, I'm not going to talk about anything concerning political reasons, except the Dana in Valencia because I needed to help spread the information for all the Spanish people I could, is it selfish, probably, do I give a fuck, no, it's my blog and I'm going to talk about whatever makes me confortable, the point of this is for people stop sending me gaza and other catastrophe related asks, I'm not going to answer them, they make me uncomfortable because I can't donate to go fund me, I help in other ways, like in campaigns of food/clothes... Where I actually donate the things they ask for. It's good that we help each other, but I'm centering in my country and my mental health, because that is also important.
And remember, it's your blog, talk about whatever you are comfortable without having to take any side, your ideals and your online persona doesn't have to be on display 24/7.
And for the people that might tell me that in with Israel or Rusia no I'm not, I'm with Palestine and Ukraine, I just hate talking about wars and the climax of insecurities is causing, I already talk a lot about it in my real life that I don't want my online persona to also be dominated by it.
Being in college is always either,
Oh boy I love learning! This class is so interesting!
Or
I can't wait for class to be over (it hasn't started yet)
2/30 days of productivity.
Today I'm back in class, and I had to speed run in order to keep up with my class, but the teacher has been totally chill about my absence and even told me that I'm having a very good progress, so I'm happy about it. This class is also introducción a la forma, or drawing.
I've really been struggling to study because I haven't been doing well mentally. I barely sleep so I can't concentrate and I don't have any motivation to do anything.
I really don't want to fail my exams, so tomorrow I'm going to the library in the morning. I also need structure and routine in my life. I graduated from high school 4 years ago (during the pandemic) and I feel like I haven't had a proper routine since.
I know this is going to be hard because I literally haven't studied at all. I do uni online, they give us study materials and that's it. No lectures. You study on your own, you take an exam and that's it.
So I have to study the whole semester in 2 weeks. I might not pass, but at least I'll feel better knowing I tried.
I'm going to try and study a little before bed, I'm also going to prepare some topics I would like to write about on my blog :)
So I need to do a final assignment in any topic I want for my art history class, I decided to do it about the military propaganda in movies (needs to be related to art) like top gun and others, (disclaimer, I haven't watched any one of this films, yet, 'cause I don't enjoy cine about war but military propaganda is super funny, end of disclaimer), and holy shit, this is super wild, like the Americans have a lot of propaganda films? My country, Spain, comes from a military dictatorship but we couldn't talk about the hardships of war and things like that, it was a very taboo topic, now a day's not so much, except with elderly people, but like I had to go to films from Franco's time to find a film that didn't mock them, this doesn't mean we don't have, lately we've been having more, but I don't know, I just find it interesting.
Proof of my work, is in Spanish and not the final title.
reminder: people who run study blogs, channels, accounts are not productive all the time. they are not motivated 7/24. they also have their ups and downs. they fall behind their programs too. don't let the constant productive posts fool you. we are all human. it's alright to fall down as long as you get back up and keep going.
The best thing about coming soon to class (i live quite far away and prefer to come 30 minutos earlier than later) is that I get to crochet and eat before the class starts.
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I must sleep. Sleep is the mind-healer. Sleep is the big-life that brings total ability to fucking do anything. I will face my bed. I will permit the blankie to pass over me and snores to pass through me. And when sleep has gone past I will turn the outer eye to greet the new morning. When the sleep has gone there will be everything. Energy and will to live will remain.
Kind of not doing notes, I'm working on some crochet, but I've finally learned how to take chemistry notes,so I'm quite happy!!
Lu / 20/ second year of conservation and restoration of cultural goods / Spanish 🏳️🌈
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