So Insane That The Only Two Things That Michael Would Ever Truly Loose Himself Over Are God And Adam.

if i may,

the other archangels (or angels in general) see Michael in absolute distress and utterly wrecked and think "oh Michael's old vessel keeps bothering him, geeze that other half-Winchester must really be a terrible disgusting human and their time together must have been horri-" and then Michael smashes them into a wall. His eyes are not glowing in the powerful all-powerful way, their glowing in the way of someone who's lost their other half. He has tear stains because the one person who made him feel something, the one who taught him to love himself again, the only ONE that understood him and didn't judge him and treated him normally instead of a terrifying creature of God.

He doesn't beat the shit out of any angels for talking shit about his human though, because that's not what Adam would've wanted for him.

But one wrong word and he's ready to burn the whole empty down and tear it apart just to find Adam again, and hopefully explain everything to him. hoping to be held in Adam's soul embrace once more for all eternity.

sorry the mental image of adam sending a tentative prayer to michael asking him where he is and if he's doing okay and to come back soon after waking up post-15x19 and michael hearing it in the empty and growing so increasingly agitated that even the other archangels start to stay clear of him is taking up my entire brain. as if it's my fault

I agree there should’ve been a scene like this, then once he covers his mouth he puts his head down so you can’t see his face in the shot, and then he just looks ups with teary eyes and just screams and goes full on Archangel ballistic! Against God, Lucifer, the Winchesters, whoever, you decide. It would be epic.

i think i deserved to see michael cry. at least once. just see tears fill his eyes and spill over his impassive face just for one moment before breaking into the ugliest cry ever, full on sobbing, completely alone for the first time in his entire existence. as a treat.

idk if anyone has done it yet but i had this really weird thought a few days ago about adam milligan’s story as a character. he’s nobody to the main plot, has two in some way evil half-brothers who have main character syndrome, his mother died when he was young, and he ends up with a prince at the end of the story. you know who else was nobody to the main plot, had two evil half-sisters, etc? cinderella. my dude adam milligan is a disney princess. argue with the wall

That image of him sitting sadly still runs through my brain monthly bro, like-

I guarantee Michael was so uncomfortable being inside of Adam's body because that’s he's exactly what should have happened. When he possessed Adam, Adam should have died, Michael should have taken his body until a better vessel was available and Michael should have left him a vegetable after that. And that's what makes him uncomfortable. Adam changed him so much that he became better because of Adam and he learnt to love something he once hated (Humanity). I mean, Michael accepted everything Adam had to give him. He was willing to live out the rest of their existence together exploring earth and just being and talking and loving each other unconditionally. Adam challenged everything Michael had ever known and he was fine with that. The only time he wasn’t 100% okay with Adam’s input was with the realisation that God never cared for him. And even through that, they were together. I don’t like calling that scene a fight because it wasn’t, it was a conversation about a incredibly fragile topic that they both had different view points about and yet, go back and watch it and they’re not actually fighting. Maybe that one time when Michael yells but it’s quick and doesn’t put a dent on their relationship together.

So here’s the thing, after being with someone who changed you for the better while still unconditionally loving you as yourself for so long, how does one cope?

Michael’s answer?

He doesn’t.

Or at least he doesn’t know how to.

Adam was his stability, Adam was apart of him and had attached himself to Michael’s very being. If they had gotten more time on earth together they would have watched all the shows and movies they’d missed out on, Adam would have shown him all the human experiences like food and music, and in return Michael would have taken Adam across the globe to anywhere he wanted. Michael would have given him anything and everything and it still wouldn’t be enough to repay Adam for all the kindness he’s shown the archangel. They would’ve had late nights strolling the streets or cuddling up under the blankets or enjoying the early morning sun or simply doing something mundane to give a sense of normalcy back into their lives.

But they didn’t get to do that. They’ll never get to do any of that. Because Adam was gone - Taken from Michael by the one being who out-powered him - and he couldn’t do anything about it except, eventually hand himself into that one all-mighty being in hopes that he might see reason and bring his love back.

How foolish seeking reason from God.

So here’s Michael. One of the most powerful beings in existence. Just- sitting there in silence, staring into nothing wishing for a voice that wasn’t to be found. He’s desperately searching every bit of Adam's body and entire form just to see if any bit of his soul was left, if any bit of Adam was left behind instead of just his meatsuit.

how can anyone hate michael. did you not see him in 15x19? did you not see how small and sad he was. jake abel did not put his whole jabussy into making him a poor little meow meow in his widower arc for some of you to be like yeah michael is a cold-hearted irredeemable bastard :/

I know we talk a lot about how smitten Michael is, how much Adam has an archangel wrapped around his finger, the way Michael is head over heels in love and all that, which don’t get me wrong is true that boy is devoted, but I just don’t think we talk enough about how much Adam loves him.

Sure, Michael chose to leave heaven and his family behind for Adam and that’s great, but Adam was alone. Can we discuss how honoured and loved he must have felt that he just had someone who was willing to listen to him and just talk about life with. His mother is gone, John is John, his brothers betrayed and abandoned him, although he is well-adjusted considering he witnessed his mothers death and, well, going to hell with an archangel inside of him, he probably thought at one point that when they got bac to earth that he would just have to keep moving. Go back to collage, get a job, try to be a normal person again.

How can you try to find the meaning in life when your life has been so drastically altered?

But Michael stays with him. Michael sits at a Diner with him. Michael listens to him make stupid jokes and understands the feeling of loosing faith in your family. They bond and have formed a strong connection for thousands of years (or however long they were in the cage for????) Michael protects him and takes the time to still let him live in his own body, how astonishing would it be to have the prince of Heaven allow you to still do the things you want to do, see, and accomplish in life all the while he gets to teach said angel about the world itself.

I just don’t think we talk enough about Adam being smitten, can we talk more about it please????

Just had the experience of realizing everyone is not on tumblr.

Was in class and we had our laptops out but nobody was typing because the teacher was talking, but i was at the back so i decided to start scrolling through tumblr and decide to make a post. Then this girl next to me looks over after 2 minutes of me typing and asks what I'm writing and I respond "A head canon" like second nature and she dead-ass said "I don't know what that is. What is that?" 💀

Who was gonna tell me that Quark quite literally propositioned himself to Odo during their first ever meeting. I’m watching S2E8: Necessary Evil and by god that Ferengi is dickmitized

“Listen, I feel you and I…we’ve gotten off to a bad start here. Let me make it up to you. You need anything? A little Ginger tea? No, you don’t drink. Um…chocolate? Maybe, uh, companionship?”

Word for word I swear I’ve heard Quark make that same offer a million times to other women in his bar, king of using his body to get out of bad situations

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

Weird thought but has anyone ever thought that Herbert West might relate a lot to Mrs Lovett from Sweeney Todd?

I mean I'm just re-listening to the musical soundtrack and specifically the 'Final Scene' song and just the whole beginning of her part of the song is her trying to gaslight Sweeney and manipulate him like Herbert does to Dan and then it just devolves into jealousy over the dead wife/girlfriend when Sweeney continues morning over the woman he first loved (Basically exactly what happened with Dan) And I mean Mrs Lovett's lines are literally:

Yes, I lied 'cos I loved you!

I'd be twice the wife she was!

I love you!

Could that thing have cared for you like me?

and if that's not Herbert's energy by Bride of Re-animator then idk what is.