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My experience being a fan of stuff

im like no worries & then feel so upset i get chest pains

tragic and heartbreaking, guy who wants to have conversations can't think of conversation topics

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you may notice i use the phrase "my beloved" frequently. this is because i am in love with the world and everything in it. hope this clears things up <3

I know I signed up for and approved this schedule, but how DARE I be expected to be perceived.

UNETHICAL and shocking: he was forced to attend the classes he signed up for

Cringe culture is dead. Enjoy what you enjoy friends

I do think the majority of us should strangle the shame that lives inside of us like wringing water from the rag until we are soft and dry and weightless

january is one of those months where you experience every feeling on the human spectrum and you just have to go about your day like that isn't happening

Being an adult woman is just like “oh my tummy hurts” “oh my head hurts” “oh the burden of being alive is so heavy today” and then carrying on with your day.

executive function

not a morning person not a night owl but a secret third thing

you should be nice to people who just annoy you because everyone is annoying to someone, and having people be mean to you sucks. why are there adults who don't understand this

being an adult is just saying to yourself “this is the weekend i’ll clean my [x]” and then proceeding to not do that because it’s the weekend and you deserve to relax, goddamnit

i love how delusional some articles of clothing are, like you read the tag and its like “hand wash only/tumble dry on low” son you are a cotton tshirt. youre going in the warsh and whatever happens in there is in gods hands

The sleepiest of sleepyheads

i am a big fan of being in bed.

SCIENTISTS CONFIRM LISTENING TO “I KNOW THE END” BY PHOEBE BRIDGERS WHILE WALKING REDUCES YOUR ETA BY 50 MINUTES!

We found SO MANY gluten free options on our trip to New Orleans! There were a ton of options (which seems so rare) and we were able to try so many new things, and I never got sick!

Tried arepas at a place called Maïs Arepas for the first time and they were AMAZING! Mine had beef, a plantain, and mozzarella in it, with plantain chips and rosado sauce to dip them in!

Found a place called The Daily Beet with absolutely amazing açaí bowls, and it was so yummy! I ended up buying a bag of their granola to take home with me! Their oats were certified gluten free :)

Another place, Bons New Orleans Street Food, had gluten free beignets (or calas) that were to die for. They were so good. I also got some Mexican street corn with pork and it was delicious!

The last place we stopped on the way home was a cute little cafe called Bearcat that had gluten free pancakes!

Enjoyed a few days in New Orleans after Christmas, and we managed to cram so many cool adventures in a pretty short trip! Shopped at the French Market, took a ghost tour through the French Quarter, visited the NOLA Botanical Garden, and took a tour of the Garden District. We ate at so many delicious places that it deserves its own post.

the bacteria in my gut is telling me to call my therapist

not self diagnosed not professionally diagnosed but a secret third thing (peer reviewed autism)

Seeing dodie on Dan's channel made me astral project back to age 15

My crops are watered,

My skin is clear,

For a moment, there is world peace

hi! how are you? ı hope you are having a nice day. do you have a favorite poet? can ı request a poem, if any?

:')

hiii

my favorite poet atm is Richard Siken. It changes a lot, but I adore poetry with strong specific imagery but that doesn't outwardly say anything, you know? I don't want them to tell me they love the person who left them. I want them to describe their overcoat's smell and the sheer hopelessness of life and a stranger's hands, or maybe something fantastical and absurd, and through that I want them to convey their message. Here's your poem, I hope you enjoy it :)

Eucharist

I am opening myself up

again, slowly,

prying my fingers into the dust-lined cracks

at the great cathedral doors of my

being, feeling splinters and soft

old wood meet my fingers like a warning:

you do things this way,

you might get hurt.

The warning never changes

but the outcome sometimes does and so

I dig my nails

in, feel ancient dirt gather

beneath them, and I pull. Wood creaking

like bones shifting, like mountains breathing,

and the light begins to spill in again,

and fear evaporates

the way mist does when the sun

brushes the hills in the morning,

and we are inside once more-

the stained glass still glitters,

the sound still

chatters off of every great stone palisade,

ringing,

a choir of one voice, just mine, crying out:

If I do it, it will be with love.

If I do it, it will be for love.

“But shouldn’t all of us on earth give the best we have to others and offer whatever is in our power?”

— Hans Christian Andersen

I am Normal until Dodie puts out new music and then suddenly I’m thirteen again sitting on the floor of my childhood bedroom crying my eyes out because she’s put everything I feel in my little tiny body into words.

Weighted blanket is not enough I need someone to do this to me

Day 5 Self Love Journal Prompts

5. What makes you happiest in life?

It depends, do you want the long list or the short list? Over all, my pets, my family, music, my friends, and my partner <3

My family has always had dogs, and we have four right now (dog tax below)! We also had hermit crabs while I was in elementary school, and I had a Goliath beetle in a terrarium, and a worm garden/compost bin that I saw as my pets, but my dad secretly used for fishing bait lol.

I'm the oldest sibling in my family, and I have two younger siblings (hi Jordan lol). I'm honestly pretty close to my family, and I'm thankful to get along with them pretty well!

I've always loved music, and I think my taste in music is pretty broad. A few of my current top picks are Lovejoy, dodie (seeing her in concert soon hopefully!), Laufey, BTS, Lemon Demon, Billy Joel, Mitski (just now getting into her music honestly), Dream, Hozier, Sleeping At Last, mxmtoon, Taylor Swift, Paramore, Lizzy McAlpine, and anything musical theatre honestly lol. I also listen to 80's music pretty often, but that's what my parents listened to when I was a kid so it's just kind of ingrained in my lol.

I'm really lucky to be in a place now where I have several close friends that I really trust and can rely on (hi Jordan (again)). I have my sister, my cousin, my college roommate, and my partner, and a lot of other friends I've made in the last few years. For a long time I've struggled with making, and mostly keeping, friendships. It's easy to be friendly and get along with people, but I have a hard time taking the next step after that, so I feel like I have a lot of "surface level" friends. I love them, and I appreciate their place in my life, but there's a lot of people I wish I was able to be closer to. Past that, I've always wrestled with feeling like even if I make friends, they won't stick around or will make "better" friends and not need me around anymore. Unfortunately I've had it happen enough times that it's a deep fear of mine, but I'm slowly working through it thanks to my current friends :)

My partner and I have been dating for 5 years, but we've known each other since we were little kids. He's been my best friend and rock, especially through the rough time periods where my friendships were really struggling. He's been there for me through thick and thin, encouraged my growth as a person, and is absolutely just the most loving, kind, adorable person. He's my person, and he makes my days better just by existing <3