4. Your favorite personality trait
Similar to my last prompt, this one's a little difficult. I feel like half of my personality is just how I treat other people and not intrinsic qualities about myself. I'm kind, but is that a personality trait or is it just basic human decency? I guess one that isn't as dependent on others is that I'm hardworking. I struggle with executive function and motivation sometimes, but I do my best to do what's expected of me and do it well and in a timely manner. That isn't to say it's always easy, or that I manage to do it all the time, but I do my best and that's what matters!
also look at this cute coffee I got today! It's called a honey bomb, it had honey (obviously), bee pollen (was a little nervous about that ngl), vanilla syrup, and oat milk (had to double check that it was gluten free lol)! It was so good, and the drawing the barista added was adorable
3. When do you feel most confident?
Confidence is s difficult concept for me. For years I've struggled with confidence in social settings and I struggled with making and keeping friendships. But in this time period, I rarely struggled with any body insecurities. I was comfortable in how I looked for the most part, and where I wasn't I was at least neutral. In recent years my social confidence has grown a little bit, especially since moving away to college. I've been forced out of my shell a little and had to make an all new set of friends. with that though, my confidence in my appearance has dipped a bit. My weight has increased since COVID in 2020 and at first it didn't bother me, but last Summer and Fall were rough. I'm at a point now though where I've kind of found my own personal style, and that's made having to buy new clothes that fit a little easier on me. I'm at least neutral about my insecurities most days now, if not comfortable.
Because of the fluctuation of my self confidence, I've indulged a bit in some of the things that help me feel more confident. One way I've done this is by experimenting with my style! (pictures below lol) While I'm definitely not that edgy, I've been having a lot fun wearing jewelry, makeup, and clothing that in the past would have been out of my comfort zone. I'm still finding my style, but taking the time to stretch my personal taste and experiment has really helped me :)
Mary Oliver, Worm Moon
2. Your best accomplishment-
I think my biggest accomplishment in my own eyes right now is the effort I’m putting into bettering myself. My goal for the last year has been to do things that scare me instead of avoiding them. I’ve started dressing in a way that express the way I feel now, I’m more creative with my makeup, I feel more confident in myself than I ever have right now. I started counselling last week, and I’m (slowly) starting to utilize my college’s gym to keep myself healthy. I want to do better for myself, and I’m proud of all the effort I’ve put in so far.
1. Who inspires you most?- If I had to pick one person, I would probably say my dad. He is one of the most calm, gentle people I know. I’ve seen him truly, genuinely mad maybe 2 or 3 times in my 20 years you know, being alive, and even in those moments he has self restraint and gentleness. He isn’t afraid to have emotional conversations with us and express emotions, and he does so in a healthy way. Through all his kindness though, he’s absolutely hilarious. He never fails to make me laugh. I want to be that kind of parent. One whose kids can come to for comfort and support without fear or embarrassment. I know I got super lucky to end up with such great parents <3
Gonna be doing a little journal/blog on here every day in March! I have literally no followers so honestly I’m just doing this for myself. Still not really sure how to use tumblr, so we’ll see how this goes lol
me running very fast on my way to tell u ur doing great and im proud of u