We Have A Baby Peacock On The Farm!! Aaahh

“Is there no way out of the mind?”

~Sylvia Plath

I’m the type of person to put on a rlly sweet scent/lotion, hop upto you, have you smell my hands only to see you smile and hop away to cloud nine, this. This is my turn to be happy.

just found out that “wish you were here” in persian is ‘jāy-e shomā khālīst’ which means “your place is empty” and it felt like being stabbed in the heart 37 times

Being left alone with your thoughts doesnt necessarily have to mean that youre going to eat yourself alive or push yourself to the brink of insanity, you dont always have to be standing or seeking shelter on two extreme ends of the world. It means you pull apart the strings of that cobweb and thread it so much so it intertwines with your being so its not strangling you anymore,Because its Moments like those when you should stop trying to fight yourself from giving into beliefs, almost like you stopped trying to take shelter and finally stood in the rain. Instead of running away, admire the way it feels because its meant to feel that way, contrary to the popular belief it wont catch you off guard, much like reality does :)

For all that your heart has seeped in through , for all that you have continued to give, for all that your being has continued to hold, for all that your skin has embraced, for every promise that you’ve thread onto for yourself, to see you on the other side, you made it :) I see you now and you still remain, every bit of you still remains, you made it to 2023. Happy new year <3

love yourself despite it all. love yourself even when you said the wrong thing. when you messed up in class. when you got a grade you didn’t like. when you haven’t been outside in a week. accept yourself in spite of it all. accept yourself even if you didn’t get into the university you wanted. when you broke up with someone you thought you would stay with forever. when the guilt is eating you alive. when you feel like you can’t take it anymore. you are already whole, you are enough.

Believe that you have the liberty to reach, direct and make the space that allows you to breath, to build walls that provide you shelter, warmth and support rather than one’s that are closing in on you. You have what it takes to create an environment that is comfortable for you to live in, and you have what it takes to learn to love yourself all over again. There are times when the places you live in, trigger responses out of you, and have you behave in a way that don’t necessarily define you at all. So you don’t have to wait around for a chance, or live under the false pretence of an image that isn’t you, because there will come a day when you will make a home that is full of you and have the freedom to define all its boundaries :)

“Crawling down,From high hopes to the ground,Trouble sings along,In my heart and soul,A giant in the room,I left him long ago, following you.Wind heavy on the ground,A cloak before the moon,I guess I've never known,Someone like you.”

Agnes Obel - run cried the crawling