Binxelf - Bink

To be embraced is to accept and to submit to your form that craves to be held and kept warm, submit to that version of you that requires your company to be whole, pull your arms around your chest and hold your hands to caress the fabric of your being rather than pulling it apart thread by thread

here again to tell you that some days are just not going to be that easy, some days you’re going to want to stop everything you’re doing and take a blow to the leg so you stop walking and carrying all the weight you are because of that fraction of population that you met. Those days don’t come as easy as they go, those days are going to have the tightest grip on you till the fact that you’re going to be gasping for air, and they’re going to make you BELIEVE that there’s no way you’re going to be making it out if you haven’t pressed past a ten fold sheet. I’m going to tell you to take a step back and give yourself the time to let all of that unfold, let it lay itself out so you can finally decide the path you’ve been wanting to walk on this entire time, and I promise you with my whole heart, mind and soul that you WILL get that chance, you will and I’m going to be waving at you from the other side of it all :) you strong strong human being

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“whyre you here”

“You know .. we could’ve avoided this”

“Look me in the eye and tell me you still feel the same way, do it.”

“Why now ?”

“I’m not your test dummy”

“You emotionally drained me out”

“How was I supposed to know ? ”

“Does it hurt ? Tell me does it hurt like it did then ?”

“IM SORRY OK ? IM SORRY”

“Oh please you don’t have the slightest regret”

“Get back to me when this mask of yours falls off”

“It reminded me of them”

“Some people only remain in your life as a chapter”

“They were my favourite chapter”

“Was I the best you had ?”

“It pains doesn’t it”

“Your smile’s different”

“There’s a lot more to you than what meets the eye”

“Who thought someone as sweet as you could be so bitter”

“Step away from me”

“Don’t do it.”

“Please I’m trying”

“But it turned out that way did it not ?”

“You were sorry , ‘were’ ..”

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Some of you will romanticize doing face masks together or you’ll romanticize coffee in the morning after a night of love making but no one talks about how quickly that stops being important. No one romanticizes true care and compassion.

Does your partner give you the space to discuss your feelings without making you feel like your emotions are irrational?

Do they interrupt you in front of others? Do they talk over you?

Do they give you the space to work through things on your own if need be? Do they offer you solitude without guilting you for ‘abandoning’ them?

Does your partner share responsibilities with you? Do they notice the tasks that are too much and offer to take over?

Do they ask you what you need when you’re overwhelmed? Did they take the time to learn what overwhelms you?

Do they know where you keep your medicine? Did they check to see if you’re keeping up with your hygiene? Does your health matter to them?

Raise the bar.

You’re all so much more deserving.

Taking accountability for your mistake is different from holding yourself responsible for somebody else’s wrong doing, you can sympathise and see what you’d do in their situation to help them out, but you can’t dig yourself a grave for something that doesn’t involve you at all. One shouldn't play the blame game, but know who needs to rightfully own up to face the repercussions, to realise and be honest :)

You’re going to reach a point where you look at a person and you can tell what all has changed ever since the last time the two of you spoke, you’re going to realise that they have new hobbies and gifts and interests, maybe even people, encompassing them, and you’re not a part of it. This is your strike to pick up on the fact that you’ve walked through the times you knew you couldn’t have passed considering the emotional barrier tugging at your wrists like restraints, you’re going to look at those hands and realise that pressing onto the palms of your memories doesn’t sting as much anymore, the shade of your skin has risen again, dancing in your embrace like velvet sheets that lay beneath :)

maybe this isn’t the time for you to hold a hand, maybe this is the time for you to reach down your pocket and find the Candy you were supposed to have a week ago and laugh to yourself. You have a life, and you’re living it. The departure of a person does not stop that, and it was never about the pace was it? you’re living proof of that. To remember and to savour the very last thought of a person is human nature, not a weakness.

❤ !!

how am I supposed to kiss kiss fall in love in these conditions

When my friend said “I want to hold you, I want to know you, and I want to know where you’ve been” and Vashti Bunyan said “I want to walk around your mind someday, I’d like to walk all over the things you say to me, I’d like to run and jump on your solitude, I’d like to rearrange your attitude to me, you say you just want peace and you’d never hurt anyone, you see the end before the beginning has ever begun”

We don’t know and we’re not at an authority to know what tomorrow’s consequences would bear, and it’s completely 110% ok to accept that there’s someone out there willing to sit by our side and help us through the net, to weave a heart and perhaps even a warm sweater out of it, not something that traps us in the disguise of our solitude. It’s alright to admit you’d want to reach out to a hand that helps you see through the holes of a woven mess because claiming that one wants peace and doesn’t want to act violently against another gives away more than you’d intend for it to, especially when it goes further than just wanting to restore a sense of security and support externally, it speaks about the nature you’ve been sown to, and how you can very much grow out of it, creating peace outside can only come after one has created peace within themselves :) to come to a mutual consensus with your mind and heart, collectively working together to patch through and heal each other

They’re not stepping in on your privacy but simply stopping by your doorstep to find a spot for the two of you to sit together, leaving behind a trail of palm leaves so you can feel and see the glimpses of your growth and vulnerability, not as a weakness but as a medium to communicate with yourself <3