Blitherdooble - Vin

250125

9/100 days of productivity

attended a biomedical engineering conference today! i got lots of free stuff and learned a lot. i spoke with my country's leading researchers and one is accepting students in the summer so i will be applying! if i get the position i will abandon all my other offers with no second thoughts. afterwards i finished watching arcane with a friend and went out for dinner.

The moment of enchantment: a rainbow in the valley beneath us

light academia this dark academia that; there is one real academia and it’s made of rubber dusts, papercuts on fingers, oily hair that hasn’t been washed in a week, big yawns, used up highlighters, dark eyebags, missed deadlines and piled up books

250111

song of the day: futile devices- sufjan stevens

not the most productive day today.

academics: completed next week's notes and half of next week's readings. spent most of my time revising physics.

selfcare: took a nice hot shower. then the hot water cut out. it was not pleasant.

tomorrow's goal: do last week's practice problems and get started on this week's problem sets so i'm ready before class. also need to prepare for my lab on monday.

notes: i, in fact, did not figure out my program and am still debating transferring.

250127

11/100 days of productivity

song of the day: lune noire-isolde lasoen

pretty okay day today. starting to lose my motivation a little bit but i have midterms coming up. i have a chemistry one next week and i am very behind on content which is... unfortunate.

academic: finished my chemistry lab and my lab report. finished my calculus problem set. halfway finished my physics problem set. finished my chemistry quiz with a friend. attended an engineering symposium and got free pizza.

research: did some research into egg albumen adhesives. apparently our wet lab is using it as a control so i'll have to add the protocol to our paper. it was very interesting though.

selfcare: got myself a nice turkey apple brie sandwich today. i had no idea the sandwiches at my school's sandwich and soup bar were that good. it was so yummy i will be buying it again. sadly they close at 2 but i want to try other sandwiches.

tomorrow: i have to submit my appliation for a summer research position since it's due in 3 days. my school is having a club fair so i will be getting free stuff.

back to my cage

found some screenshots of the notes i made half a year ago. half a year ago i went through my worst heartbreak. somehow i can’t bring myself to regret anything. i have so much love to give and that is a strength. i can forgive and live freely.

241228

song of the day: sticky- tyler, the creator

about halfway through priming for my courses. i was a little disappointed with the poor quality of the notebooks at the store but at least i have something to write in now.

also planned out my new years which helped destress.

sadly didn't get 100% completion in the horror game i wanted to finish: it is about 2 hours long and i must replay it for the zero deaths run. maybe i'll finish it in a few months.

research: didn't get any writing done today but since the base structure is already there, i just need a little more information and edit. i hope to finish it tomorrow but it will probably take a few days, realistically.

tomorrow's goal: finish priming for my courses and get started on calculus review (didn't get the best mark last semester). bake cookies? go swimming.

it's really shocking and sad to think that i only have a week left with my family before i go across the country and back to being totally alone. but i'm enjoying the time i have now which is all that matters.

It’s a privilege to study, many women around the world are barred from this human right: to read, write and learn. Be grateful anytime your pen touches paper, or you are learning theorems developed by intelligent, hardworking men and women from ages ago.

It’s a pleasure and a privilege to learn. Not only is it a privilege to study, but you should be aiming and striving to take science, medicine, law, philosophy, art further than the marker we have reached. It’s a comforting thought to think, from your work generations of humanity down the line will benefit.

How many brilliant women were in the shadows of amazing feats of science and technology and life changing patents? Contribute while you can. If you pour into knowledge - it will pour back into you.