a delusion does not mean a person should ever be dismissed, brushed off or disregarded.
delusions are beliefs that are extremely hard to shake regardless of how self aware we are.
a delusional person is not quirky, not rambling nothingness for the sake of attention, they are serious.
from believing youre dead or dying (cotard's) to believing your halucinations were real, these things are terifying for us. theyre real for us.
just because you know its not true doesnt mean we're making it up. we deserve to be heard, listened to and helped just like you and your issues.
delusional is not and should never be nor should it ever have been an insult. its a serious issue. take it seriously.
I always type long messages for you and then leave them there. I’m worried I might accidentally hit send one day.
Feeling evil (just wanna be loved by someone that only has eyes for me)
Get out of my head! Get out!
I still love you. Just not enough to cry about it anymore. Just not enough to ruin my life. You are like… something that I like to look at. And listen to, talk with, joke with, be around. But something I will never have. That’s okay. I am just fine watching you from afar.
Nobody talks about how hard it is to face people again after you've had an episode in front of them
Once they've seen you do full-force into self-destruct, they always look at you with a sense of wariness and like you're not the person they thought you were
The shame makes me want to rip my skin off
every time I decide I’m done with you, for some godforsaken reason, I dream about you the same night
life with bpd is always trying to fill a huge hole in your chest. you spend your life looking for a cure that doesn't really exist
I don’t know how to explain it but just being alive causes me pain
The world is too loud, existing is overwhelming, people expect so much more than I can give
I fail at being alive every single day
I feel so ashamed to be so broken
But I don’t know how to be any other way
To avoid the sick feeling I get from talking to people about my feelings I am vomiting them out here, enjoy.
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