Every Time I Decide I’m Done With You, For Some Godforsaken Reason, I Dream About You The Same Night

it’s hard to hate someone when you can remember what it was like to love them. I wish I could erase all memories of you from my mind.

I will be like "I'm fine" and then another fucking event will occur

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I always type long messages for you and then leave them there. I’m worried I might accidentally hit send one day.

The cold seasons are for the poets

Who set their hearts on fire

To stay warm

I hope you die, *****. Or I hope you move away forever and I never see you again. But it’d be satisfying if you just died. I wish I could forget you existed and erase all my memories of you. But it’d be more realistic if you just died.

Without my mental illness I wouldn't know who I am but, because of my mental illness I have no sense of self. Like the logic is super crazy.

I cannot accept that one person can act so differently. I cannot love and hate a person at the same time and still see them as one person. You are two people. And I only love the one of you that has died. 

life with bpd is always trying to fill a huge hole in your chest. you spend your life looking for a cure that doesn't really exist