There’s Something Wrong With Me.

craving validation from exactly the wrong person. slay

bpd culture is having a violent/euphoric/“happy” episode only to immediately crash and have a really bad breakdown

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he has no idea that I’m literally on my knees praying and crying for him every day it’s actually ridiculous that he’s consuming my brain LIKE A PARASITE and he’s just completely clueless. I hope he has a dream where he sees how much he’s in my head and in my heart and in between my teeth and under my skin and he gets hit so hard with it he fucking dies. No one could love him like I would.

I want to pull out all my teeth randomly one night and then scare the shit out of people the next day. Or pull out every alternate tooth so none of them are touching and then put silver caps on the rest of them haha

TBPDFW you're in that weird state of mind where you laugh and laugh at the smallest things while inside you think the best thing would be to end your life as soon as possible. Meanwhile you can't concentrate on anything AND you can't tell what you're feeling because the non-stop laughing is confusing you. So people don't understand the danger you're about to put yourself in, and nobody is there to save you from yourself.

I hate how I want him to miss me.

(me, insane since the day i was born) sorry haha this has just been an off day for me

it’s hard to hate someone when you can remember what it was like to love them. I wish I could erase all memories of you from my mind.

everyday I wonder,

how much longer can I do this ??

and then the next day passes,

and the next, and the next, and the next,

and all of a sudden it’s been three years.

and I am still, just sitting here, wondering,

how much longer can I do this ??