I Hate How I Want Him To Miss Me.

i want to live out my anger, i want to be able to scream and smash, i want to defend myself like an adult. then why am i crying every time

My final note to you

I still love you. Just not enough to cry about it anymore. Just not enough to ruin my life. You are like… something that I like to look at. And listen to, talk with, joke with, be around. But something I will never have. That’s okay. I am just fine watching you from afar.

Without my mental illness I wouldn't know who I am but, because of my mental illness I have no sense of self. Like the logic is super crazy.

My heart aches.

born to be an idgafer forced to be a yearner

if I think about you long enough or hard enough will I cross your mind?

HE TEXTED ME AHAOWNDOANFHEJEHEHDNFJEOWKFHEOFNWOFHEISNEIFJEOFNSODNIEHR this has to be a a disease at some point right I mean this is not normal

The way I was so upset and tired and I started to dissociate and drift off and then I got a text message from you and my mood instantly changed. I couldn’t stop smiling and I was bouncing on my feet. And you have no idea. Text me back u rat I need saving again.

bpd culture is growing up too soon and staying the child forever

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there’s something wrong with me.

there’s something wrong with me.

there’s something wrong with me.

there’s something wrong with me.

there’s something wrong with me.